Friday, April 29, 2005

Hiss

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As the title states...
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Current Events

Well, aren't you the philosophical one Mr. Nick...
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Interresting thing happened last night.

First, there are two cats in my neighborhood that aren't mine. They have this thing with fighting in my yard between 1 and 5 am. They make these really loud rumbling noises, it's really hard to explain.
But anyway, I couldn't sleep last night (long story). When I finally got to sleep, their fighting woke me up at 3:47. At this point, Ari was thoroughly pissed off.
So, I went downstairs and outside. They were in the front yard. I screamed at them, like any mad person would do, but they went back to their siren-like noises. Outside it's even louder than inside, if that's even possible.
Something must've happened to me, growing up with cats around all the time... I hissed at them, at an insanely loud volume that I haven't since been able to douplicate today. It was actually really creapy, because it sounded just like a cat, except with more volume.
And so, I went back inside, and couldn't fall asleep, but was quite happy with myself.
Weird, huh?
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Meh going to try to fix computer this weekend. If I sucessfully fix it, I will be online. If I don't, well, you get the idea. I shall try my hardest!
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Still sick today... feel very bad. I would like to go to sleep, but that seems impossible at the moment. Bleh, life sucks to be female.
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Hmm... I have really long posts... oh well, if you don't wanna read, get outta here XP
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Teh second trumpet in band class got something cought in his throat today. It was really funny, just because I kept on telling him to go to the Nurse but he was trying to act "tough". Guys are so funny. Although, the best part was this.
Ari: Fine, but if you die, I'm not to be held responsible.
KK(we'll call him this for now): Yeah, your Mom is. *starts laughing, but the thing in his throat hurts so he practically falls over*
*stiffled laughter heard whole first trumpet section*
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I did it again.
I keep on getting my floundering when something happens and I'd like to talk but am not able to because my tongue won't work!
Jackie did badly on her math test and it was most likely my fault for distracting her in class one day, but I couldn't say anything. I still feel really bad.
It happened last night with my Mom too, and she laughed at me because I got so tongue-tied.
Gah.
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Journal time!

Entry 7: Angst
Am I angsty? I don't normally notice it in myself, but I guess it could happen.
Well... now that I think about it... I am kind of anxious, paranoid, and depressed...
Maybe I am getting weird, I just haven't seen it before...
No, that can't be, because Ari is Ari and no one else! I'm not schizophrenic... yet anyway...
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Entry 8: Luffability
Not loveable, luffable. I just love to be luffed (funny), because luff means hugs, and hugs make the world go 'round!
People here don't really like hugs, it's so saddening.
Maybe that's why I'm so depressed, hug depravation.
I should look at scientific repots about depression and see if I can find any sort of connection between the two.
But then again... I'm just a hug-loving crazy person.
Oh well.
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Entry 9: Random Questions
Okay, as the title states, this one's gonna be a bit random...
Why do people always use subtle hints around me? I don't understand them and I end up looking like a moron when I think someone's hinting at something when they're not! I'm really slow on the uptake people!
Why haven't we had Jazz band practice in two weeks?!
Why do i have an inferiority disorder?
Does anyone enjoy being my friend?
If not, will anyone enjoy being my friend?
If glass would really break if you were ugly, would it crack when I look at it?
If everyone is unique, is an individual really unique or is this just a funny irony made to make some feel worse about themselves?
Why do people think age accounts for wisdom and intelligence?
Why are you automatically stupid if you're a teacher?
Why do people talk degradingly about other people? Does it make them feel better. If you make fun of someone else, it still doesn't mean you're better than them.
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Entry 10: Aspirations
Everyone aspires to be someone... usually someone important, famous, respectful, etc.
I wish I could become Santa Clause someday... that'd be the greatest thing ever! You get to give people presents and MAKE THEM HAPPY! HAAAAAAPPPYYYY!!!!
In case you didn't notice, I like happy people.
I don't think anyone knows this, but I'm willing to share. I also wish that there was some way I could make my friends happy, and take all of their sadness and burden and everything onto myself. I feel they deserve it more than me.
Incredibly sappy, yes, but very true.
I don't know how I still like people after everything that's happened, I just do.
...I really hate it when people say that I'm the most selfish, spoiled person on the planet. I'm sure as hell they're getting coal for Christmas...
but don't tell anyone!
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Feel free to tell me your dreams and stuff folks, I always have an open ear!

Take care

- - Piggy Ari

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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