Wednesday, June 1, 2005

Conflict lies within you.

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Now that I've been a bit too creaped out from Eternal Darkness, I've reverted back to Soul Caliber. Kinda hooked on it now. Talim has always been my favorite character, she's so nice, and pretty, unlike me, I'm mean -___- or so they say.



Yeah, and I'm memorizing everything she says, so I'll post one each day... although they'll have application to what I say in my post, or atleast, what's been going on in my life.
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My weird nightmare from yesterday came back tonight... and I think subconsciously I told myself to pay more attention to it, and I noticed a lot of details that I missed the first time... I was still a bit jittery though... *shiver*

I can't say anything about it right now though.
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Field day!

Umm, I did the Obstical course... it was fun, I didn't do the worst, because my friend got 2nd to last XD so I was happy with myself. I just messed up in the part where I had to get over a large rolled-up gym mat... I was trying to do it the way my friend did, but ended up hurting myself in the process...hehehe.

Did nothing most of the day, just kinda sat in the sun and baked like a potato... I did get a few shades tanner! I think I'll need about 24 hours of sun-exposure to get the shade I used to be a few years ago... ahaha, not continuous, of coarse.

There was also this kid who ordered pizza, and the place had a deal for schools "buy one get two free" so he had three pizzas.... and was selling them $1 for a slice XD I got one. It was really good....

Our class placed 2nd overall!!! That's pretty good, because in my teacher's 22 or something years of teaching she's never gotten above 10th until now. We got 5th in the banner, because of my amazing painting skills... most people can't paint inside of the lines, damned hippies....
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Yay for Xelototh!... or however you spell her name... she's the "god" I guess you could call it... of sanity! which I am void of right now!! Although, don't think this is the meaning for my post header... those are always meant for other people.
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I've been a bit down lately... although, if you thought I'd tell you why, you must be insane... so I'll just leave it at that, for now anyway, maybe I'll feel like revealing it some other time.
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Hmm, I've been thinking... and there is something I must do! I was listening to the radio when I was waking up, and the most overplayed song in the history of overplayed songs came on... but I only recently discovered what it meant, or atleast, was able to apply it to my life perfectly.

And well... this song, is dedicated to those people who are "Bob"'s... although it's a recently coined phrase, work with me here.

... I guess a Bob would be the highest position a person could be in my life, or most influential, respected, etc. so, if you hold the position, which can also be positions... I guess you could compair it to other things, but it seems to be in its own unique catagory for me. This would probably be a song about all previous, present, and future Bob's that there will(might) be in my life... I just hope I make better judgement so they all don't turn out in the same way....

How can you see into my eyes like open doors?
Leading you down into my core
Where I've become so numb

Without a soul
My spirits sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home

-CHORUS-
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I cant wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I cant wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become

Now that I know what I'm without
You cant just leave me
Breathe into me and {make me real}
Bring me
To life

-CHORUS-
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I cant wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I cant wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become

{Bring me to life}
[Ive been living a lie..Theres nothing inside]
{Bring me to life}

Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead

[All of this I, I cant believe I couldnt see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me]

Ive been sleeping a thousand years it seems
Got to open my eyes to everything

[Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul]
{Dont let me die here}(There must be something more)
Bring me to life

-CHORUS-
[wake me up] Wake me up inside
[I cant wake up] Wake me up inside
[Save me] Call my name and save me from the dark
[Wake me up] Bid my blood to run
[I cant wake up] Before I come undone
[Save me] Save me from the nothing I've become

Bring me to life
[I've been living a lie.. Theres nothing inside]
Bring me to life
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And if you can't read the funky print...

'The Darkness Comes...' in other words... the story of my life... 'The Darkness is coming, it is not safe to save the game.' WTF? I never knew I could save the game... I would've done that maaaaaaany times already if I did know...

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... how should I know?



“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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