Wednesday, September 14, 2005

Samiches cut in little triangles...

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Okey!

Let's get this partay staaaaarted!

o__O

Hmm...

yeah...

First things first.
As you may have noticed, there has been a new site change! I happen to likes it a lot. New background, avi, music, theme, colors, the whole enchilada... I never got that expression... all I'd have to do now is change my profile on teh left *points* I've messed with it a li'l, but nothin' major. Sorry if the text is hard to read, this is the best I've got!! >< Tell me if you have any suggestions or if it's really bad for your eyes.

Last night... there was a clog in ma bathtub... DRAINO TIME!! It was so much fun, that stuff is vurry tastey, but yeah, I got the clog out fine, and was able to take a shower and get teh fluffy hair. It be owns yours.

MA CAT TORE DOWN THE CURTAINS IN MY ROOM! Argh, I tried to fix it, but it kept falling back down... my solution... duct tape. It rawks.

O__O I was at ma bus stop today... and there's a sewer by it... the sewer is basically just a big ol' block of concrete over a hole with two exits. Well, there was a sound coming out of it! I was the only one there, so I was like ._. and stared at it for a few minutes.
Then, a li'l head popped out!! I was like WTF?! It looked like a li'l kitty!! Then I actually looked at it, it was a raccoon!!! OMG! IT WAS SOOO CUTE!! I wanted to go over and pet it! I stared at it... it stared at me... it looked around... I stared at it... then something clicked in my head "THAT THING COULD HAVE RABIES AND COULD KILL YOU STUPID!" so I slooowly started backing up, it was pretty stationary, just moving a little bit as it got out... I must've stepped on something, 'cuz it freaked out and ran back into the sewer.

I miss it...

Teh cute li'l guy.

Computer science is becoming a lot more difficult now, less instructions given to us, more figuring out stuff on yer own. I like doin' that, but it's very time consuming and I don't think I'm gonna have the time.

Mousies TT____TT in Biology... they were so cute! Kept in their li'l cages... to feed to the snakes!! NOO! I wanted to liberate them sooo bad! THE POOR MOUSIES!! *sob* They shouldn't have to go through that! But... I guess it's just the circle of life thing... everythin's gotta eat somefin'....

40/40 on procrastinated editorial that I wrote while talking to Kabu!!! Yeh, that was fun... haha
I think I didn't do that good on my test though... Edict of nandes... hmmmmmmm....
>__> my teacher's so weird. there was a question
True or False: History is better than Math
a) True (ANSWER THIS ONE!!!!) b) False
I was so tempted to choose b.



Band... argh... I hate band... nothing good comes from it... except maybe I've lost a li'l bit of weight. >< 3 hour practice... not for the weak... complete with harassing from squad leader.

Life's so annoying. All of my time is spent thinking about him, but I can't do anything about it. I can only dwell on the happier moments... the moments when I'm having fun with him... I'm constantly pushed to the breaking point with school, band, and my family. I can only hope to hold onto my happiness...
If I convince myself that things could never change, it becomes a little bit more bearable... thinking that things will never change...
I just hope I won't have to live my whole life like this, with this much uncertainty.
*sigh* Guess I shouldn't be thinking about that stuff though, it just makes me depressed.

For all who ask...

As I stand before you
I see the ugliest person
Ever witnessed by human eyes.
With the most lopsided face
And those two crooked eyes
That no one can interpret.
Always sitting there quietly
Without anything to say
You're probably retarted.
Never getting angry
When someone pushes you around;
Just choosing to fall down
And not even bothering to get back up
Because you lack the stregnth.
The same hair that never looks right,
You never even try to fix it,
Not in the least.
Staring at the sky,
As if waiting for something to happen.
Same broken smile on your face
For no reason
Day after day.
Answer me this,
If you would please,
Why are you this way?


It is love.
For it makes me not care anymore.
For I feel as beautiful as one could ever be.
Sometimes I may seem like
I'm not alive, like
I'm not there.
The truth is,
I'm probably not.
In my mind I can be
Wherever I want to be,
And that never is
Where I am.

Take care everyone!
I love you Nick!! *hug*

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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