Monday, September 26, 2005

Sometimes reality seems like a cage, the physical world just a cell that I can never get out of.

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I'ma go a li'l bit outta order today, 'cuz I feel like it! Not like anyone reads this stuff anyway XP I should probably stop being lazy and start commenting on yer guys' sites...

Stupid kid who sits behind me in English never has a pencil, always asks me for one and I'm just too nice to say no. >< I should get meaner so I won't have to keep loaning out my pencils; it's not like anyone ever returns them.

Nick's gotta go to a thingie for college and stuffums this evenin'. I'ma gonna miss that loveable oaf. I love him very, very much, it's really unimaginable if you haven't ever felt like this; I'd do anything for him. I guess right now I'll just have to catch up on my napping and dream about 'im while he's gone. I hope he has a good time, hehe, I wish I could go with him. I'm a get bored fast 'cuz I have like, nofin' to do... naptime, shower, homework. o__o <-- has a boring, uneventful life without Banana.

Heh... you can say lotsa things you wouldn't normally say if you know someone can't read it while you're typing it. That may seem kinda silly, but you never know how someone's gonna react. I guess the blocks and silly shapes make you feel less vulnerable, but you can still get out what you wanna say.
I remembers, Banana and I played Truth or Dare last night too, 'cept without the dare part. Hahahaha, advanced snuggling, it's too sexy for the intermediate and beginner courses, foolish fools. You cannot handle the advancedness of the advanced snuggling!

Argh, I've had really bad cramps and bloating for the past few days. I feel fat and I hurt. It really sucks; constantly feels like someone's punching me in the stomach, especially when it hits full force and I get the wind knocked out of me @___@ Atleast the bloating seems to be going down, don't feel as squishey anymore.

I hate my life with a deep passion sometimes. I love the most amazing guy ever but I can't be with him. It's like smelling the greatest cookie ever created but you're not able to eat it. RAAWR!

I smell like smoke again, hence my new name, Smokey. I can't help it if I gotta use the litterbox at 10:30 every day! I cannot hold it in! and that's the only bathroom!!

Hahaha, we were talking about fiber in Biology. I should slip some in Nick's drink when I get the chance. EXPLOSIVE DIARHEA!!! *evil cackle*

I gotta get good grates TT___TT Dont' wanna become a hobo. I'll see how I'm doing when interums come out on Friday >< I better not get below a B on anything! That would be a red flag, crisis thing, since I am soooo above average in intelligence. Nick even said so! A C would just be unacceptable!

I technically have a 95% in Biology, but with the way everything is weighted I have a 91%. At this rate I'm going to be doing better in Advanced Algebra, a course for sophmores and juniors, than Biology, a course for freshman and sophmores.

I gotta graduate high school in honors! That is my goal! *pose* That means I gotta get atleast an A- in everything, unless it's AP and crap, then it's a li'l different. I SHALL DO IT! If everything goes how I want, I'll have all AP classes in my senior year, so I can get into a rawkin' good college with a scholarship and then when I'm done with that I'll get a kewl job! Then I'll buy a kickass house in teh country with lotsa cows and li'l kitties and it'll be the most awesome ever!! Yeah... I know I may be aiming a bit too high, but this way I'll atleast get what I want. If you aim for the minimun, that's the maximum you're gonna get, right?! I'd rather not have a normal boring life where I live in an apartment for a few years out of college, get married, have kids, get a divorce, deal with custody issues, reture and live the rest of my life in an old folks home where my kids and grandkids visit me a few times a decade and then I'll die a lonely husk of a person. o___o
And my parents say I don't think about these things...

We didn't go outside to march today 'cuz it was wet and I had to sit infront of the bass drums in the band room. Bass drums are weeeird. Each different pitch made a different part of my body vibrate and when they hit 'em all at the same time my heart skipped a beat... hehehehe, the only other time that happens is when Nick says "I love you" to me ^ ^

It was really rainy today, and as I was walking to my bus at the end of the school day I saw a little froggie sitting against the side of the building. Actually, it wasn't very little at all, about the size of a tennis ball. He looked sick, when I poked 'im his eye just twitched. I picked teh little guy up and brought him to teh forest at the edge of the school. It looked like it was hard for 'im to breathe and he wasn't resisting capture or transport. Someone probably stepped on him, poor little feller. Hopefully he'll be able to eat some bugs and be back to his happy self! I luv frogs, hopefully there'll be frogs at the house I get someday. They go ribbit and hop around!! The kitties better not eat 'em though >.o I hope I never have to disect one... I think I'd barf... they're just so cute, and they don't deserve that kinda stuff!!

My band got an offer for us to go to an Indian's ralley, if they make the playoffs, on Oct. 3rd. I'd get out of school for teh whole day!! It'd be broadcast on national TV too O___O sweeet... I'll tell you if I's gets to go or not!

You know your band is good when... You get offers to play at professional hockey, football, and baseball games (over college bands mind you!)
Your band gets fanmail
You can make a whole audience simultaniously gasp.

That's all I got for today, take care everyone!

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“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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