Sunday, January 15, 2006

I love him...

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And he loves me...

So all is right with the world?

Not quite...

I still feel like I'm hanging off of a cliff... he can either help me... or leave me for her...

I wonder... who's more important to him...

I wish Nick wouldn't worry about our age difference so much... Kabu's papa was 22 when his mom was born o___O Maybe he was just raised that way... and Nick was raised so it matters more how old the people are who fall in love... it's only 3 years... only 3 years....

"Who's the hussie?" XD

I hope he lets her find her own... fruit... and I can keep my Banana... all to myself... because no one else can have the greatest man alive.

And I hope after he gets into college, he'll calm down a bit... he will have one more thing lifted off of his shoulders. He'll be able to breathe easier... he'll have a little less doubt and a little more hope....

I want to sing him to sleep...

My brother says college is easier than high school anyway... and then after that... he'll be done... and I'm sure... ^ ^ he'll live happily ever after... hopefully I can join him... but... I'm just so grateful for the time I have with him now, and every moment I'll cherish like a wealthy lady treats a precious jewel.

Hehe, when I'm an old person, I'll look into the mirror and scream in horror XD And if Nick's still with me then, I'll wonder how he can love a person so old, hehehe.

Kitty's body hurts... probably from the lack of food it's been getting... but iz my tummy's fault... my tummy must be connected to my heart... because it says nothing about being hungry, when my mind says it should be. It's just too nervous, too uneasy...

But when I sing to him... I think it'll feel better, if it makes him feel better that is...

I think my Mom left me money to buy a pizza tonight... hehe, I'll probably finish a slice at the most... I wish da Banana could be around so I could give him the rest and not waste its pizzalike goodness.

I will become a lurvely Kitty when I'm all grown up! I will finally be able to love myself, and then Nick will be able to love me too... if he still wants to....

It seems like... you have it confused... who has you tied up... it's not me... I guess you don't have the power after all... you have the power over me, but not over yourself, she has the power over you if she can make you leave me when your heart says stay.... And still you tie me up with the chain that you have tied to her... but I just have to be patient.. until you realize it's not love for her that you're feeling... I'm not saying this because I'm jealous, I'm saying it because it's what my heart told me to say, it has been through it before... the same damned thing, that disguises itself as love... that destroys so many people... that hurt Momo so badly... I don't want to be one of the countless victims... and I pray to God... I don't want you to be one of the victims....

I love you, and I always will, Nick *kiss* You will always be the one just for me, the one who will love me for who I am. ^ ^ Hehe, Chobits is so sappy... but it's true.

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... how should I know?



“Never pretend to love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.” - - Alan Watts

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