Wednesday, November 3, 2004

   read this one if you red nothing else
OK....this one is for everybody because I have had some things told to me....this is for my FRIENDS:
Chris: hey hun! I'm sorry things have been so crewy right now! know that I always love you and that I miss you!
Brittany: sooooo many awesome times...like in lake gaston! lol I love you so much!
Travis: hey babes, sorry about Chrissy....also sorry we haven't been so close lately
James: ahh...good times at band parties !lol HEY DON'T PUNCH ME! lol
Danny: you are SO COOL I'm glad you moved here....you rock!
Shane: PLEASE DON'T LEAVE AND GO BACK TO DC! WE LOVE YOU HERE! YOU ARE SO FRIGGIN AWESOME!
Erin: OMG I MISS YOU!come back from Centreville....we need to have some more good times w/ Gregg's "parties" lol
Emily: I'm glad you and Will made it so long that's awesome! you also need to come back from Centreville! I MISS YOU TOO!
Meredith: wow....where to start w/ you...lol
Kristen: SPAIN IS GUNNA ROCK! HECK YES!lol

ok...I am going to stop there and put other things that need to be in the entry.....

GET TO KNOW ME FIRST!
I kow I have been a member for a little bit now....but you guys don't know me...so here it goes:
my name is Amanda and I am 15 years old...I jutst had my birthday on the 29, I am a sophmore this year and I am in band, key club, FCCLA, FCA and special friends and I love doing community service. I am going to do either hurdles or 500 meter dash this year w/ track and I am going to do cheerlieading again this year, not sure if I want to do competetion or varsity
my favorite color is pink and I LOVE MUSIC! I would die if I didn't hear music everyday, I love fashion and to buy things that really stick out and show my personality, I love people and love being around them and I can be the "life of the party" but I know when to be quiet and let others take the spot light. I love to write and I am actaully being published it a book....you should look for it, it is called Expressions, it's a poetry book, and I love to dance and draw abstract art and I love to model and travel. I love my friends A LOT and my closest friends would have to be...CHRIS and Brittany. I am a very carin gperson actaully...and everytime that I complain about how Chris is mad at me or how he is making me "mad" or whatever else.....I am really sitting there crying because I am really SAD at Chris more than anything....he means SO MUCH to me....I have a lot more that I should write but I really don't have that much time...and just so you know why this entry is in here...I seem to have some people that are reading this and telling Chris how they don't think that we are close and that I don't really care....they need to know how much I really care about my friends and esp Chris, I wish that they would GET TO KNOW ME AND WHAT I AM ABOUT before they talked about me...if you are saying good things, I don't care, if you are saying bad things, wait until you know me
thank you
THE ONE THE ONLY
Amanda
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   AHHHHHHH!
OMG Chris is making me FEEL LIKE SHIT!!! he is all like "I don't know if I am mad at you" I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TO MAKE HIM BE MAD AT ME! he is being SO SELFISH! I have a boyfriend and he needs to get over it! it makes me really think that everything he ever said to me was a lie, if he actaully "loved" me he WOULDN'T BE DOING THIS! he is making me regret having a b/f and wanna break up with him JUST so he would talk to me again! THAT'S NOT RIGHT! how come he is affecting my life so much?! last nite he was all like "yeah I'm not going to come out to see you anymore and we won't talk for a while and blah blah blah" so I don't think I want to talk to him since he is being SUCH AN ASSHOLE! I am also wondering, does anybody even read this thing???? I wonder sometimes why I am even still living, maybe I should try suicide again....then everybody could be happier. then Chris would know what it was like....see how he likes it when I am dead and he knows he had a lot to do with it......he's lucky I haven't started to cut my wrist again...I haven't done that stuff for him and now that he's not there what's my point???? I also found out today that I have tendonitis.....fun stuff......everything just keeps getting freaking BETTER AND BETTER! I have everything that I just want to unleash here but I still can't say the big thing that is making this all more hard.....all I am saying is SS and CPS...a lawyer and the police......think whatever you want from there....the sad part is...my whole freaking familiy is innocent....
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Tuesday, November 2, 2004

   *sigh*
ok...so I started going out with Ian today and I told Chris and he got like all mad at me....I mean, he was like "bye for a while" and that he doesn't care about me or whatever and he is being a total ass! I mean, I still talked to him even tho he was dating a total BITCH named Nicole that was using him....(yeah...not much love for the girl) and now he won't talk to me! it's like he's jealous or something, I mean I care about him...I really do but it's hard...he lives on the other side of the US for crying out loud! I don't know what to do! if anybody has any advice please tell me, it would be greatly appriciated....and btw....sorry for not posting in a while!
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Thursday, October 28, 2004

   hey
sorry I haven't posted since Monday....our phone lines and stuff were all screwed up...yeah I still use dial up service...lol

ne ways...I am all sad like because Chris joined the reserves!!*tear* that's so sad! I've been talking to him a lot lately because of my new CELL PHONE which was an early bday present....speaking of which...TOMORROW IS MY BDAY! LOL so I BETTER be getting some comments from people wishing me a happy bday! lol j/k but it would be nice...

also there is this cool new kid who is going to our school now, him name is Danny he sits next to me in English class. yeah....he is a sophmore/junior...moving so much messed up his classes so yeah he is taking the other part of his junior year over the summer and the rest of his sophmore classes this year....tho some of them are freshman classes...I just realized that lol.oh well, the whole thing is CONFUSING but oh well, he's cute and sweet and funny...I think I am kinda starting to like him, but Dellana likes him and so do like...LOTS of other girls, lol and we all think that he likes Hannah...that would be SO CUTE if they hooked up! AWW! anyways.....Homecoming is Saturday, the dance atleast, and Homecoming week ends tomorrow, all the halls looked so cool, our hall was the 70's, freshman were 20's seniors were 80's(there's was the BEST EVER!) and juniors were the future! it was SO AWESOME walking through it all, there are like strobe lights and stuff....freshman hall is the wrost tho, but I think that is because you don't know what you are doing as a feshman with the hall decorating...ne ways....the reason I put the sadness face was because I am really actaully upset today...I can't post why, that is why it really really sucks, I liked...cried it all out to Gavin tho....poor Gavin, he's just one of those people that I know but we aren't like SUPERCLOSE lol and I went over there and was like OMG I NEED TO TALK TO YOU...he swore not to tell....and if this wasn't internet I would put it...also if I wasn't worried about the wrong person reading it, oh well..ne ways I gtg ya'll...I hope my bad situation gets better and that my bday is happy and stuff! hope ya'll have a good day too!
love always
THE ONE THE ONLY
Amanda
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Monday, October 25, 2004

   grr
ok...so Chris is all like....mad at me or something I think....and no I DON'T have a b/f nor will I be getting one anytime soon, so if Chris would have just talked to me he would have known that but w/e I don't even care anymore....everything is screwy and today was a BAD day...the sad thing is, but all not so sad I guess....is that an 8 year old little boy made me in a good mood tho....oh well
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Sunday, October 24, 2004

   yeah buddy!
lol sorry I am like SOOOOOOO hyper right now, even tho it is like 9 and I have been up since like WAAAAAAAY early and was gone all day, in the car for 3hours to the mountains....my grandpa never went (see previous entry for other info) so that really sucks, but I climed to the top of a wa terfall today, it was SO fun and I was up so high I could look down and see the clouds! Then I was in the car another 3hours on the way back home, not fun either but me and my cuz were sitting there singing Cood Charlotte w/ out the CD because our Gma doesn't like them...we were like "BOO ON YOU!" lol but it was prety fun overall, I had more fun than I thought I would, so it was great. I am anticipating tomorrow very much, I am hping that I Will start going out with Travis again tomorrow...I still really really like him and that would be awesome.....what the irnic thing would be is if we DO start going out tomorrow, then we would have started dating on the 25 like we did the first time we dated a few years back, granted this one is in Oct and then was August...NOT THE POINT! lol but oh well, it would still be the 25 and the same week as my bday! : D very happy! I AM GOING TO BE 15!!! yay! umm...let's see....what else to say...my little cuz (the one i was with today) want soto go to my Homecoming w/ me...that's all well and good BUT I like have a da te and stuff....so it's like grr! lol....but I dunno what all is going on or if she can even go, I kinda want her to but kinda don't too....yeah. well I gtg sorry ya'll! lol

THE ONE THE ONLY
AMANDA
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   *sigh*
yeah all, that last post was Bri, I am just writing this now because I am boooooooored and because I just really feel like writing because I haven't devoted any time to do so lately. Well, I talked to my friend Josh last nite in WA....that was really cool, I am so jealous! He got to go to a flogging molly concert! lucky person! gosh! lol umm....I also talked to Chris some last nite but not much...and to Trav a little bit, I was over Bri's until like 11, then came home because I had earlier told my cuz I wasn't s taying the nite with her so I didn't wanna stay with Bri and feel bad about it. Yeah, my cuz and my Grandma made me really agnry yesterday, explain more about that later and actually for now Ireally have to go because my mom brother and I are about to head over to my Grandma's to get her and my cuz, maybe my Grandpa to go to the mountains today......well I have to go! peace
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Saturday, October 23, 2004

   Some Fat little Kid
amanda's little bro had his fat little friend over and they were being total brats and OMG I think that we should just go feed them to a horse *deep angry sigh* gosh....he looks like a friggin pig! DAMN! it's cool...w/e....that wasn't what I was talking about! NO DON'T WRITE THAT! (sorry folks, arndom bit of me being a psycho, back to Bri...take it away Bri!) *laughs* gosh, I don't remmebr what I was going to put......right, yeah....peace
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Friday, October 22, 2004

   kiss

You have an intense kiss! You and your partner
connect when you kiss and you forget about the
rest of the world. Hey, call me!!! ^_~


What anime kiss are you?
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Thursday, October 21, 2004

   .....
hey all! I feel really bad, Chrissy and Trav broke up...I thought that was what I wanted to happen (no I didn't cause it) but now Ireally want them to be back together and I actually feel bad for them not being together, but I am still kinda happy about it. Anyways, sorry I haven't posted in a while, I have uch a busy busy life! lol band today got cancelled AGAIN because of rain but that is ok....now Chris is scaring me, I am so worried about him! OH! also today I fond out that Diego (Jamie) and Whitney really aren't dating, she just hangs all over him! gosh! lol and Ihad a nice long talk w/ Joe, he really doesn't wanna date in HS and that is fine w/ me because I really can't ever see us as a couple! so yeah......I really need to go, try to post again later1

peace
THE ONE THE ONLY
Amanda
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