Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning/sleep, yesterday, totoro, wallpaper, boring post, & amv

*gets a late start* Thanks for the comments! Wow, I didn't think more people would end up commenting yesterday or today even!! If I did post yesterday, my last post would've only had 6 comments I think. XD Yeah, less and less every time, but that's fine. *hugs* Cause I got comments from such wonderful friends!!! Scarlet dimise, Grifter, Shishou, and sweetdevil...so nice hearing from you again!! Especially Scarlet, it's been months! *hugs* Aww, Shishou, thanks for that...you're so sweet. ^^ Find my special happiness spot...yes. XD Many thanks to those that checked out my wallpaper! I'm glad you liked it in all of its grungy and dark goodness. :3 Hehe, Desi, you definitely loved it the most! I'm glad! To those that took offense to my "corny" comment about that movie, I'm sorry! I thought it was ok to state one's opinion, but I guess NOT. -__- I was just going by what my parents said, so don't shoot me! Anyhoo, thank you all very much for the comments! Gyabo...[I seem to be picking up Nodame's sound effects...] it's another day, another morning (almost noon) in the life of me...and I'm still in this body. I swear, after all of my weird dreams, when I wake up I feel like i should be somewhere else...like THIS is just a dream. -___-; Bahh!!! Anyhoo, so I had a lot of strange dreams, some more realistic than others...and I actually slept pretty well! I only woke up once during the night/early morning surprisingly! But now I'm awake for the day, and I'm not feeling too great...to my stomach, at least. Bleh...but the post must go on. This post must continue...and it won't be very exciting, of course. I'm trying to recall yesterday, but again, it was just a boring day. Woke up, made breakfast, watched stuff, played games, etc. Started watching Tengen Gurren Lagaan, and it's pretty good. It's by studio GAINAX so it has a major FLCL feel to it (same art style etc.). It's funny and has some action, but so far, I wouldn't give it an A. Umm...no, we haven't gotten any snow yet [other than the snow we got when I was still in school]...and I'm hoping to have some by Christmas!! It's been really windy lately, which I hate...and it's terrible at night. The other night, I swear it sounded like the windows were gonna crash in! T__T Sooo scary... Totoro is still getting used to his haircut...he's not used to his new body yet. XD He keeps running around, rolling in covers, licking himself...yeah. It's really annoying. ^^; I've shown you guys pics of him before, but I could always show you more...so I will soon. I just need to remember to put them on the computer. Wow, these paragraphs are getting shorter!! Sorry about that! Now how did I ever post during the summer, where everyday was a boring mess of monotony?? It hasn't even been a week yet since my winter break started! ^^; So yeah, that's why I'm not going to post everyday...I don't think I will tomorrow...mom and I might be going out to meet Derek for lunch. As for today, no plans yet. I'm hoping to get out of the house though...it's tough on the mind being in the house all day everyday and being stuck with my brother, Corey. He still hasn't gotten a job yet. *sigh* He's been applying online to several, but he doesn't pursue them any more than that; he just waits and doesn't hear back so he gives up. He's a lazy bum and always will be. And he'll always be an annoyance to me. As far as how i was feeling yesterday...I think I was in a pretty good mood for most of the day, but then as the day went on...I just sorta went bleh. *rolls eyes* I can only have moments of happiness! Short, fleeting moments these days. But anyhoo, I did make a new wallpaper, and it's featured now. I really love how it turned out...it's really clear and pretty...and I think it's one of my best! It's another winter-themed one; I'm being hopeful for snow. XD So please comment/download!! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Why is it that people sorta make fun of those with blogs? ^^; I'm just wondering cause the other day someone said to me, after finding out that I update a blog, "You BLOG? What about? Your 'life in the fast lane'[being sarcastic]?" Umm...yeah..."life in the fast lane." -__- No, I blog about my day and whatever the heck I want! Is there a problem with that? Obviously, all of us here won't say anything since we are on MO, a place to update our "online journals." XD But yeah, it just annoyed me a bit. Heck, I wrote a paper on the positives of blogging, and I got a 99% on it! I know what I'm talking about! Sorry, that was random, but I have nothing else to talk about! I'm such a boring person!! Sorry to have wasted your time on this...I won't waste your time tomorrow, so yeah. Here's an amv; it's a Claymore one (and it's really good!!). The song is "Whispers in the Dark" by Skillet. You should watch this...sure, it kinda has spoilers I suppose, but eh...it's a really good amv! Enjoy! Thank you, thank you for visiting me. *hugs* I haven't gotten to visit EVERYONE lately, but I get to some. Sorry to those I haven't visited. :( I'll try my best today...when I can. Sorry for this ultra-boring and pointless post...other than the wallpaper. ^^; Thanks again, and have a good couple of days!

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Sunday, December 16, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning/sleep, yesterday, mika, wallpaper, today, & amv

*hugs* Thanks for the comments! I know that I said I wasn't going to post today...but I apparently lied. ^^;; I didn't want to leave you guys with such a crappy post...so yeah. Anyhoo, midnight-chan and fmarox, it's so nice to hear from you again! It's been quite some time!! *hugs* And to the few others that commented (for some reason, saturdays are lonely MO days!), I really appreciated it. Aya and Zera, thank you for your suggestions again about how to make me sleep better and not be so depressed. B-12 and exercise...I'll see about that, but really, thanks again. And to everyone else that has had sleeping problems, yeah, they suck, so let's get more rest soon!! ^^; Thank you for the wonderful comments...few checked out my wallpaper, but that's ok. Thanks again. Yeah, again, I said I wasn't going to post today, but oh well! I AM. I slept much better, and I really could've laid in bed all day. It's soo dark out again...we haven't had many sunny days lately. I just wish that either rain or snow would come along with the clouds (we were SUPPOSED to get snow and ice...but we only got some rain! The weather people lied.) because I don't like it when it's just COLD and cloudy. -__- I don't see any "wintry mix" of snow/sleet/freezing rain...liars! Oh well...it doesn't really matter. We were going to go to church this morning until we heard the weather report so we didn't go...and that was a waste cause nothing's happening. Umm...I had some dreams last night...and they mostly involved old friends and acquaintances from high school. Eh, they weren't great dreams, but at least they weren't bad. And the night before I didn't sleep enough to dream! Yesterday wasn't exciting, of course. It was just like any other day. Mom, dad, and Derek went to see that "I Am Legend" movie. Corey and I didn't want to see it cause it looked corny...according to mom and dad, it was, but Derek liked it. D likes the oddest movies...he always thinks movies are great that we think suck. ^^; So they did that after we had the groomer over to completely overhaul Totoro. XD So now he's finally trimmed like a dog. He's a poodle, but we just have her do a puppy cut, not poodle cut...so don't worry, he doesn't look like he got his feet stuck in cotton balls. His coloring isn't like a poodle either; he's a "parti-color", which means he's black with white/creamy patches. Anyhoo, he looks really cute now...though it's more like a potato with stick legs walking around...err, hobbling around [he still limps; that leg/knee won't get better unless we get this $3000 surgery done...]. Something that put me in a better mood was that I heard from Mika! She's the friend I said I've been communicating wish for about 6 years. We met online and have been friends since...she lives in Canada. Anyhoo, a couple weeks ago I mentioned her and how worried I was about her since I haven't heard from her since October...and her last message was about being really depressed over a friend's death. :( I checked my ICQ messages yesterday, and she finally sent me one!! I was SO GLAD...soo relieved that she's ok...my mind was in "worst-case scenario" mode...so yay. She didn't say what was up, but I'm just glad she's fine. Now I can get her address from her again. I was feeling helpless since I lost her home address; I couldn't even send her a card/letter to contact her or anything...but now it should be ok. *nods* I've had a package to send to her for a year! *is so lazy* I made a new wallpaper yesterday. I doubt it will be featured, but oh well. It's a Loveless one...I made it all texture-ful and grungy...I think this dark wallpaper really helped me release some of that depression...I'm hoping. :3 So please please download/comment! So few actually do that these days, which disappoints me...but I can't force you. Check out my other wallpapers that you might not have seen, too. Thanks. Hosted By theOtaku.com. I'm sure today will be another boring day...I can't wait to actually do something different. Since I don't drive yet...I can't really just go out and do whatever I want; it's all up to my family. So I'm hoping to do something different soon! We might go to a basketball game sometime, and my dad said he'd take us ice skating! I've never been ice skating before. ^^; I haven't done a lot of things actually...I'm so deprived. Hopefully we can do those things before Christmas. Get rid of this monotony. Umm...so, yeah, I don't think I'll post tomorrow, ok? I'll restrain myself and not make a wallpaper today...I should take a break. I'm sorry! And I'm sorry for my uber lack of commenting lately...I haven't been in the mood, as you could tell. Today should be better; I HOPE. Here's an amv...a Loveless one since I made that wallpaper. XD It's another one with a Within Temptation song, this time it's "See Who I Am." Enjoy! [shonen-ai alert] Thanks sooo much for visiting me. *hugs* Though I've been hearing from fewer people, that's ok...I suppose. I sure miss a lot though. ^^;; People are just busy, like I have been. *hugs* So thanks for taking the time to read my huge arse posts. Have a wonderful couple of days!

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Saturday, December 15, 2007

Warning: thanks, no sleep, today, wallpaper, other stuff, & amv

Thank you, thank you for all the wonderful comments...though I didn't exactly read them all yet. ^^; Sorry. I don't feel up to it right now...but I will welcome back those that haven't been here in a while!! 9breaker, asialonewolfe, xaos [the line was, "I didn't kill my wife" then "I don't care." XD But yeah, close enough! Hehe!], Imasyon, Kaisa, and Nana. :3 I've missed you guys!! *hugs* I've also missed a lot of other friends on here...I sure hope that they come back. Again, thanks for everything that was said...I didn't read your comments fully yet so I can't really reply to them well enough. But yeah, thank you! I feel like crap right now...I barely slept at all last night; it was just terrible. -__- I don't know HOW or WHY...but my body just didn't want to sleep...my mind didn't want to shut up. That seemed like the longest night ever. See, I'm not like a lot of people that are insomniacs--I don't get up and start doing things if I'm not asleep. I just lay there and lay there...and lay there...and freaking lay there some more until I'm even more fed up. I'm just hoping, "ok, I'm TIRED...I'm going to sleep now..." But no, it doesn't quite happen. For Heaven's sake, I even took a sleeping pill at 2am...I waited for almost 2 hours before taking it (to give myself a chance), but then I took a half...and nothing. T___T It still didn't help me sleep. My mind was going, and whenever I closed my eyes, it was like I was seeing something...I don't know; it was like I was hallucinating. *sigh* I was even still awake at 4am...I wanted to go ask my mom for more sleeping pills or something, but I didn't want to disturb her, and I didn't want to overdose or something. *sigh* I think I was afraid of sleeping...like I was going to die. BAH. Sorry, that was awfully long...just about my lack of sleep...but I have a feeling that's what's going to dictate my mood for the rest of the day. Depression causes lack of sleep, and lack of sleep causes depression; it's a wonderfully vicious cycle. -__- So yeah, today's not going to be pretty...I could've stayed in bed and tried to sleep the day away, but I was f-ing tired of laying in bed. *sigh* But anyhoo, today Totoro is finally going to be groomed. We're having the groomer over, so yay. He won't look like a strange, hairy bear-like creature anymore... Yesterday wasn't anything special...just like the other days, boring and usual. I made a new wallpaper, and it's somehow featured right now. Thanks, sweetdevil, for your comments on my wallpapers. I really appreciate them, though you didn't need to be so nice about this one. ^^; I know this isn't that great...it's too darn bright and yellow...there was a lot I could've done to it to make it better. She's holding her stuffed animal dinosaur, if you can't tell. I really loved how it turned out when I was still working on it...but then when I saw it on my other computer, I was like, "TOO YELLOW!" -__- Oh well. Please comment/download. I hope someone likes it! Hosted By theOtaku.com. At least making wallpapers gets my mind off of things...it keeps be busy, and it's one of the times when I feel "alive" or something. Hah, my brother was looking for jobs yesterday...and he came across a lot in the area that are looking for graphic design artists! "4 years experience with Photoshop." That could be me! XD If I wanted a job, I could go and get one...have one before my brother...the lazy bum. Umm, but yeah. Err...my eyes don't want to stay open right now...so I think I"ll end this post soon. Sorry I barely visited anyone yesterday; I just couldn't bring myself to do it...and I don't know about today...it's hard feeling like this and then reading nothing but equally/more depressing posts. ^^; Sorry. I'll do my best though. And I don't think I'll post tomorrow...probably won't have anything interesting to say, but I'll post if I happen to or have a new wallpaper. Yeah, this post is shorter than usual...sorry; I just don't feel up to writing more...as if there were anything interesting to write. T__T And even when I'm feeling down, it's not like it's for good reason...I don't know why. I hate it. To those of you that have been feeling depressed, do try to cheer up...it doesn't make me feel any better. ^^; Well, I'll leave you guys with an amv. I love this one. It's a Honey & Clover one; the song is "Believe" by K's Choice (I think). Enjoy! Thank you all very much for visiting me!! *hugs* You're the best, and I'm sorry if you don't really like reading my posts or anything...so don't feel like you're being forced to. ^^; Thanks again, and have a good weekend!

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Friday, December 14, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning, useless friend rant, movies, wp, posting, & amv

Hello! Thank you all for the wonderful comments! *hugs* I really appreciate them a ton...of course. Yuppers, I felt so famous when I saw the version vibrant preview thing. XD Pretty cool! I look forward to the custom emotes!! Soooo cute!!! Lots of people are worried that the new version will be too complex...I doubt it will. They wouldn't change it SO much that people wouldn't be able to do what they used to, right? :( Um...let's see...thanks for the kind words about the other day, what with my immature brother and all. To those that didn't know, I only have OLDER brothers, no younger. ^^;; He just acts younger. Major thanks to those that haven't been here in a while (you know who you are)! :3 I've missed you guys. Hmm...well, I'm just gonna end that there, but thank you all again! For some reason my bg wallpaper isn't loading...hmmm...at least not for me. ^^; Oh well, it's probably just imageshack's fault. [edit: I re-uploaded it so now it works] Anyhoo, it's yet another morning (almost noon)...of winter break. To those that asked, yes, I'm in college, and I have about a month or something left of break. That's a lot! ^^; So far it hasn't been that great...and I find myself thinking, "Great, another morning. And I'm the same person..." Seriously, I've still been having those depersonalized feelings where I don't feel real. -___- And I hate it! *sigh* Anyhoo...I slept ok...though it took a while to FALL alseep. I had some somewhat creepy dreams along with ok ones. More Samurai Warriors-related dreams...that's all I've been playing lately! ^^; So it invades my dreams! XD Ahhh....umm...I have a feeling this will be a boring post so get ready. First though, I'm going to do a little rant on friends...friends in general. Not exactly you guys, but my friends in "real life." As many of you know, once you go off to college...it's a totally different experience. Friends that you grew up with all through high school go their separate ways, etc. I'm at that point where, "Huh, I probably won't ever see them again. It's not like they care about me or miss me." Some of them still go on myspace, but the new thing is facebook. "Do you have a facebook?? I'll add you there!" Bah, no, I don't, and I don't want one. Most of my friends have been saying that they've been sooo busy with "school, work, and FRIENDS," yes, the new friends. The college-attained friends. I am nothing now...I barely even made new friends at college so far...at least not ones that would want to do things with me...argh, I'm just going to shut up now because I don't know where I'm going with this. I'm just going to hide in my little anti-social hole and stay here forever. -__- So I'll talk about yesterday...if there's anything to talk about. It was just a boring stay at home day. Barely watched any anime, just one episode of Zombie Loan. I've been watching movies lately, ones that my brother recommended cause he saw them waaaaaaay back when and loved them (for different reasons). So in the past few days, I've watched 12 Monkeys (with Bruce Willis; made in 1995; a real thinker movie...a bit weird at parts, but really good and full of action), Evil Dead II (hahahaha...most corny "horror" movie EVER. Made in 1987), and The Fugitive (with Harrison Ford and Tommy Lee Jones; made in '93; a GREAT action movie...purely amazing all the way through. It's plot must be what MONSTER, the anime/manga, was based on sort of). Other than watching movies, I've just been playing Samurai Warriors 2. ^^;; I have no life. Yesterday I was still down in the dumps...I just can't shake this depressed feeling...I'm like stuck in this whirlpool...just going down and down... Oh, I did make a new wallpaper...it's featured now, but I doubt it will be for long. I'm amazed it's even featured...cause it isn't from something "popular." I like how I made the title the best...yup, that's my favorite part of this wallpaper. XD Please download/comment! Hosted By theOtaku.com. I really wasted your time with the friend rant thing...I don't even know what I was talking about and why it's there. Sorry. I doubt anything exciting will happen today...it's just another day. I was actually going to ask you guys some questions now...which I never do, but now I forgot what I was going to ask, so nevermind. ^^; Oh! Well, I was going to say that since I'm going to be off for another month...that I should devise a schedule of posting. I'm sure you guys don't want to hear from me every single day, especially since a lot of you are still really busy and can't be bothered to visit me...so I'll figure out when I want and don't want to post...it'll just be whenever I guess so don't freak out if I don't post on some days. Thanks for understanding. Here's an amv...I know that I showed this one before, but I really like it. ^^; Gi-chan, if you comment, you'll remember it. It's Masterplan's "Sail On" with One Piece. Enjoy! Well, thanks so very much for visiting me...those that are left! So many people are disappearing...abandoning MO for other places (like the dreaded myspace) or just abandoning me in general. *hugs* So yeah, thanks again. Have a wonderful weekend!!

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Thursday, December 13, 2007

Warning: thanks, version vibrant, morning, chiropractor, guilt trip, & amv

Thanks for all the comments, my dears! *hugs* You're all so awesome. :3 I'm amazed people still care about me!! ^^;; Cause so many people have been leaving MO...and I haven't been visiting as much as I should. But yeah, thank you!! Shizuka, Aya, Amila, Rachewww, midnight-chan, Aiten-chan, and Yug...wow, a lot. XD It's been a while! *huggles* I've missed you!!! Aya, sorry, I don't think I replied to your comment specifically before! :( Sesshlu-chan, we DO have the same L shirt!! And yes, Air only has 12 episodes. *nods* And a movie. And to those that asked what a chiropractor does, well, they work with the body's bone structures, I guess you could say. They adjust backs, necks, spines...stuff like that through different methods. ^^; I don't know how to explain it...so just look it up. XD So yeah, thanks a ton again to everyone!!! *hugs* OMG!!! Did you see the teaser trailer preview thing for theO's Version Vibrant?? O__o If not, you should! It's sooo cool...I can't wait!! XD And you know what?? When they showed the part about "new sorting" or something or other about art/wallpapers, it showed one of my wallpapers!!! *feels famous* It was for a split second, but it was there!! It was this one. Anyhoo... Ah, this morning is such a wonderfully dark and rainy morning!! I love it. It was raining during the night and early morning hours because it warmed up, but now it's getting cold again (opposite than usual) so it's really neat. XD The droplets of rain water that landed on the trees are all frozen...frozen in the dripping position! We might get snow later today, too. ^^ So yeah, I slept much better last night. Thanks for all your concerns before. Those problems are probably mainly caused by my heart murmur, so yeah. -__- But, um, last night I had lots of video game-related dreams...and they all seemed to connect, too. I'd wake up a lot but then fall back to sleep, continuing the dream. They weren't bad or scary...just interesting. My nose is stuffed up like usual, but that's because of my darn allergies...bah! Umm...I guess I'll talk about yesterday now...since I already had that random outburst about the Version Vibrant thing. XD So after I posted, I had to quickly eat and get dressed so we could go to the chiropractor. Yeah, our family has back and neck problems, I guess you could say. ^^; My dad never wants to go though...he doesn't trust our chiropractor. XD He also thinks that he LIKES my mom. *laugh* We've been going to this same guy for all the years we've lived here (about 16+)...he's like my second dad! Hah, not really, but anyhoo, he adjusted me...cracked my back and neck a lot. Whenever he does that, I really "crack up", as in laugh. It hurts, but for some reason I always end up laughing. ^^;; And this time he did some weird thing where he had on some electrical pulse things on my lower back...it felt really weird! They were on there for 10 minutes or something. Anyhoo, though I hurt a bit more than usual after the visit, when we got home, I felt really relaxed...so yeah, I think he helped. After the chiropractor, we went to the mall. Um, that's when crap happened...that made me feel bad and just more depressed all over again. -__- *sigh* So we went to Borders, and I was looking at the manga. My mom said to pick out whatever I wanted and it would be saved for Christmas...well, I went straight for the Loveless volumes since I only have 1. My brother tried to get me to try something new instead, but I didn't want to...and well, that's where the problem stemmed from. It turned out that my brother's Christmas present to me was Loveless vol. 2. So...I ruined the surprise. -__- He got all flustered because now it wouldn't be as special...and I felt really bad because, yeah, I ruined it. I always feel bad when I ruin someone's kindness...if someone's doing something nice for me and it backfires in some way, I feel SO BAD. *sigh* Because I know that I wouldn't have liked that to happen to me...he never buys me manga, and I never would've thought that he'd get me that, so yeah...that was really sweet, and I just had to go and ruin it. Plus, my brother being who he is...ended up being a total crab for the rest of the time at the mall...he put me on the guilt trip, too. I even said "sorry" to him, and he said it didn't matter, but that didn't stop him from being a jerk. T__T I felt bad enough as it was!! I'll still love his gift! It's just not a surprise anymore. Bah...*sigh* So that made me feel extra down yesterday...all over a book. It was my fault since I didn't take his subtle hints to "try something new," but oh well. When we got home, he lightened up...and it was just the usual day. No new wallpaper; I just tried to visit everyone that updated for once. I got to most. So if you didn't see my newest wallpaper, please look at it in my last post. Muhyaa...well, I guess this post has gone on long enough, eh? Today is my second day of winter break, and I think we're just staying home. I'm hoping for a non-depressed day for once...*crosses fingers* But that seems impossible these days. Here's an amv. I'm not sure what the song is, but it's a techno one, and it's to Claymore. Enjoy! Thanks sooooooo much for visiting me. *hugs* See, I never want your kindness of commenting to go to waste; that's why I always thank you guys. ^^;; Have a wonderful day!

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Wednesday, December 12, 2007

Warning: thanks, quick post...yesterday, free, wallpaper, & yeah

*hugs hugs hugs hugs* Thanks so much for the comments everyone. I love you guys. :( You're all so sweet...and you really try to cheer me up and all. Thanks so much. Perios, yours truly, Lys, Roleni-chan, Jungy...it's been quite some time since I last heard from you! *hugs* And to everyone else that commented, thanks a ton. Zerachan, thanks for the suggestion of B-12. I'll have to try that! ^^; I don't have much time to post right now...so I have to cut this short. ^^;; But the appreciation is still the same!! Yes, yes...argh! I have to type this up really quickly. Mom, Corey, and I are going to the chiropractor. I'm in need of an adjustment...but darn it, why'd mom set the appointment up to be noon?? I get up at 11! -___- And I've been wasting my time trying to find the source of the wallpaper that someone submitted...it's the Air one that's featured. They didn't make it. I've seen it ssoooooo many times before. Bah. Anyhoo, this is my first day of winter break!!! Woohoo!! I have about a month off from school now...it's so wonderful. I didn't sleep that great though...unfortunately...but oh well. Maybe tonight will be better. It's all my stupid nose's fault, always been stuffed up. T___T And then I thought my heart stopped beating. ^^;;; I couldn't feel it so it freaked me out even more...causing less sleep. *sigh* So yeah, yesterday I finished up my finals. In the morning I had my fashion marketing presentation, and that went pretty well. No major comments on it...the other groups had really cute ideas for stores, and I liked their posters. After everyone went, our teacher had us vote for our favorite store idea. The winner gets 5 extra credit points. -___-; I know our group won't win. *sigh* Oh well...at least that's over with. So then after that ended at about 10:30, I went to the library. I went on the computer for like 10 minutes...and then I studied. STUDIED. I never studied so f-ing much before...and it was all for my history final. I was so worried about it. ^^;; Hence the nervousness and everything the day before...with the throwing up and all. :( But anyhoo, I studied for the almost 3 hours between the finals!!!!!! Again, I've never studied so much before. Then, well, I went and took the exam. It wasn't that bad...I was so worked up over nothing...I hope I did well. So after the exam, I was free!! FREE!!! Went home, had food...and it was just a usual day from then on. I wasn't really happy about being off. I was still in my depressed mood...my brother even asked, "Wait, you're off now?? for a month?? Why aren't you dancing around and celebrating??" Well, yeah, I don't know. Just wasn't that happy...I haven't been for several days, as you guys know. I'm sorry for my emoness. :( Maybe I'll be better now...without the stress of school. *sigh* Let's hope so. Anyhoo, I made a new wallpaper. It's featured now. I really think it turned out pretty. Thanks to those that already commented on it!! It's a wintry one...that's just really pretty. ^^; Yeah, so please comment and download!! Thanks! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Argh, I have to go get ready now...going to go to the chiropractor and then do some shopping. -___- Um, sorry for this short and crappy post; if only I had more time...but hey, I usually don't post on wednesdays anyway so this is still different!! No amv either...just go to my previous posts if you're desperate for some entertainment. ^^; Thanks so much for visiting me, sorry for my lack of comments...I've been a bad friend overall. :( Have a wonderful day!

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Monday, December 10, 2007

Warning: Thanks, crappy night, morning, yesterday...finals are the death of me.

Muhyaaa~~~ -___-; I'm posting today? WTF?? Yes, I am, but I'm not going to make it long...I just have a ton of time before my next final. Anyhoo, thanks a bunch for the few comments. I guess people are REALLY BUSY these days...either that, or I'm a terrible friend. I've been forgotten about!! T__T Nah, it's alright. Thank you so much for visiting! *hugs* Doas, Perios, and Reth-chan!! It's been soooooo long!! Especially for Reth-chan (it's been months!). Zera, don't worry, I love it when people visit everyday. XD You're not a stalker, just a really good friend!! Thanks to everyone else that commented, too...trying to cheer me up and all. Very much appreciated. I'm in the library right now...so why does it smell like bacon???? O__o; Someone must've brought their breakfast in here or something. Either that or my sinuses are more screwed up than usual. So yeah, I'll start out by saying how crappy I've been feeling...yet again. It was hard to sleep last night because I was so screwed up. My history teacher emailed me the grade on our presentation...we got an 89. Ok, most would be like WOW!!! AMAZING! But no, I'm a perfectionist...*sigh* And the points were taken off because of my group members' lack of participation...or, well, because of their suckiness when it came to everything. Like the paper and presentation. That grade is TOO HIGH for the slackers in my group that did nothing, and it's too low for me...that did so much work and worrying. Bah. Anyhoo, I've been feeling depressed and stressed lately...and I ended up crying last night...while trying to sleep Hah, that's never good. I couldn't breathe...and even though I took a sleeping pill, it didn't work too well. My mind was just going and going...and, again, my nose was stuffed up. I hate it. I just had my math final, which was basically another test. It was just the chapter 3 test...not cummulative like most finals. I think I did ok; I got stuck on one problem, but hopefully I got it right. After that I went to the writing center to pick up my English portfolio. XD I was so early since I finished my final quickly so that my teacher didn't even have our portfolios set up. She was like, "Wow, you're bright and early!!" Then I explained that I already finished my first final. Anyhoo, she gave me my final paper back and grade. :3 I got a 99 on it!!!! Hahah!! XDDD At least I can write well! I would've gotten a 100 if it weren't for a point off for some grammatical mistake! And my final grade overall for English is a 98. :3 Yay. Well, um, that's the only thing I didn't have to worry about...so it's not making me THAT happy. ^^; Yesterday was no different from any other day. I tried to study for my finals, but Derek came over and my dad was there, too...and they were annoying the heck out of me. I already felt like crap and depressed, and just bah!! *rolls eyes* I barely visited anyone...and I didn't make a wallpaper. Thanks to those that saw my newest one. It was featured for so long, and I got over 100 downloads!!! So yeah, if you didn't see it yet, please check it out...here it is again: Hosted By theOtaku.com. Oh, right...I forgot to say that I was feeling SO BAD this morning before school...that I threw up. T____T I'm so screwed up right now. I can't wait for tomorrow to be over with. That's the day I'm most worried about...fashion marketing presentation [and I haven't heard from my group member with the power point...*sigh* I'm so sick and tired of group projects...] and then history final...ugh. That history final is gonna kill. I'll have to study so much tonight. It's basically, "Read the entire book from chapter 1 to chapter 15", which is roughly 430 pages. *sigh* Cause it's cummulative and all...and she said it's going to be different from our previous tests...like the questions and types. -___- So yeah, forgive me. Why am I even posting?? I wont' be able to visit much at all again. SORRY. SORRY!! Ok, I better end this...I have my French final after this...so I should study some and just try to relax. Sorry if this was long...I wasn't going to make it long. *sigh* This was just a waste of time, for me and you...I needed something to do. Sorry! :( No amv. Just watch yesterday's if you want. Thanks for putting up with my complaining and whatnot. Have a wonderful couple of days!

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Sunday, December 9, 2007

Warning: thanks, bah, yesterday, wp, dog/finals, & amv

Thank you all for the comments!! Few but that's ok. I understand saturdays are usually very busy for people! Or rather, just lazy. XD Thanks for the wonderful comments on my L wallpaper. And I'm glad you thought my French class sounded fun, too! Zerachan, you're welcome! More people should've visited you though...oh well. Thanks for your long comment. :3 Your parents don't celebrate birthdays? Wow, that's the first I've heard of that! Huh. Insane, thanks always for calling me "awesome" and "cutie" and whatnot. *laugh* Oh, and more compliments on my new theme. Again, I'm glad you like it! Krusty, welcome back! Nice to hear from you again! And same with Thoa-kun! Okies, once more, thank you all again! Muhyaaaaaa...I feel like crap. -___- 'nuff said on that. I had a tough time sleeping last night, and my dreams were yet again not good enough to be labeled as "dreams." I cried in them...and I think my dog was biting me more in it...other than that, yeah, they weren't happy! I thought being asleep is the time for recharging and escaping reality to relax! But NOOOoo, not for me. For me, sleeping is just another harsh reality that I have to go through every night...struggle to sleep, and then when I am asleep, just have crappy dreams. Bah. Well, other than that...it's really nice and cloudy out. I think we got some rain (it's a tad warmer than before so no snow). I could've slept all day on a day like this...but what would be the point? XD At the moment, my dog is being nice and sleeping at my feet; I won't dare touch him though because he might just bite me again. ^^; Yesterday was one of those days...you know? Or maybe not. Well, for me...it was one of those days where I didn't want to socialize at all, and I just felt BLEH. I was "down in the dumps," if you will. -___- Like all day. I'm surprised my mom didn't notice and ask...she usually does, but then again, when she does ask, I usually just say, "I'm just tired." *sigh* So I wonder how today will be? It's another day, but it's another day connected to yesterday...so I might as well just be depressed again! *slumps* And I never know WHY either... Anyhoo, so nothing much happened. Played some Persona 3 (I put that on hold while I was playing other games...which I'm still playing...I have so many started), more Samurai Warriors 2 [which is pissing me and my brother off; he bought it used, and the copy he got must've had some sort of defect in it or whatever...it freezes up all the time!! It's SO annoying because we're in the middle of a battle, and it's almost over...and then, BAM, it freezes. *has to turn off 360 and restart*], watched another Darker than Black...and started Zombie Loan. So far those shows aren't that great. I think it's just because I was being spoiled with watching several amazing shows in a row: Death Note, Loveless, Marimite OVA, Nodame Cantabile, Potemayo, One Piece, and Claymore. Now that those are done (well, OP isn't obviously), I feel like every other show isn't as good. XD No offense though! I'm still going to watch them. They probably get better. ^_^ So...anyhoo, yesterday was a nothing day. I did make a new wallpaper though...I wasn't going to at first, but then I looked around for an image to use...and that took a long time. I was just going to give up and not make one, but then I did. I wanted to make a Jeane wallpaper (from Claymore), but it's impossible to find pics from that show. -__- So yeah, I just went with a misc anime girl. I was amazed to see my wallpaper being FEATURED starting last night!! And it was at the "1st" spot, if you will, before I even went to bed...crazy. Thanks to those that already commented and downloaded it. Sweetdevil, again, you're comments mean a lot to me. :3 So please download/comment! Thanks! Hosted By theOtaku.com. I found most of your comments about my L wallpaper funny. XD "It looks like he's stalking his prey" or "If I put that on my background, people would be scared off with L staring at them like that!" XD Hahaha. I love that. I loved that wallpaper. Anyhoo, errr...I guess nothing else happened yesterday! No, wait, my dad came back from his little trip. And he brought me back a gift! A "dog that doesn't bite," aka a toy dog. It's battery-operated, and it walks around and barks. Hehe! It's name is "Chi chi the Chihuahua." XD It's really cute, but it's not as good as a real dog. ^^; So yeah, today I shall be studying for my finals. Tomorrow's shouldn't be so bad, but I'm more worried about Tuesday. I don't know if I'll post on those days or not...I'll have lots of time in between the 2 finals so I probably could post on both days, but we shall just see. Sorry for my lack of comments, especially yesterday. I just felt so bad that I didn't even want to read any posts...I got to maybe 3 or 4, that's it. Sorry. :( Ok, I guess I'm out of things to say! I think this post might've been shorter...I'm just too crappy to talk about anything else. Sorry again! Here's an amv. The song is "Rocket in the Sky" by Benassi Bros. (it's a dance song) and it's to FF7 AC. :3 Enjoy! Thank you all for visiting me! *hugs* I love you guys! Hopefully I can cheer up soon...or at least get my mind into a better, err, mindset for finals! T__T Need to study...*sigh* So yeah, thanks, sorry, and have a good day!

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Saturday, December 8, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning/dream, french, finals, wp, yesterday/today, & amv

*hugs* Thanks to all that commented!! Lots of people that haven't been here in a while, too! ^__^ Like Madarame, Sesshy, anime snow girl, Rachel, and and...lots of others! So thank you all. I've missed you guys. :3 And welcome to my new friend, Zerachan! She's new to here and a friend of another friend of mine so please visit her. ^^ Thank you! Now then, thanks to those that went back and read my poem and whatnot and complimented it. I like both types of poetry...and I guess it's hard to write either kind. ^^;; I'm glad you like my new theme! Yes, Misuzu shall stay forever in my layouts. XD I only had a few times before (last year) when I didn't have a theme with her! But then people were like, "Where's the Air bg? I miss it!" Cause people have just started to connect Misuzu with me. :3 Anyhoo, thanks for the kind words about my Totoro bite, too. ^^; Thanks for everything! It's finally the weekend!!! OMG, it's seemed like forever...this past week was sooo busy and just so slow, too. I could finally sleep well and late this morning. T___T Though I did get up at 8 and couldn't breathe...so it took me a while to get back to sleep...and later there was a phone call and the mail person (I think it was a lady this time) rang the doorbell, causing Totoro to bark. Bleh. But at least I got more sleep than usual. :3 I had nothing but stressful dreams though. Ugh. So many people were mad at me in my dreams...or I was just doing things wrong. I don't know, but I didn't like my dreams! ^^; I SO wish we could choose our dreams...that'd be awesome. Um, if you're wondering about my "wound" from the other day (from my dog biting me), it doesn't hurt so much, but it still looks gross...you can see the bruising and the red bite marks. Yay... *is still stuffed up* Stupid nose. Argh! Anyhoo, I'll just talk about yesterday now...no use in wasting time. XD After I posted, I had my mini-lunch (in the library) and read some of the book I had to put on hold since I was being forced to read that crappy book for history. So yay, finally reading for relaxation! After that, I went to French. In French, it was like any other class...still fun. Madame celebrated several people's birthdays: the one girl's b-day was yesterday (same with her twin!), and then others' are in the future, but we won't be in class to celebrate them [we'll be on winter break] so she gave them their cadeau [gift in French] and we sang. Patrick, the always loud and entertaining guy came in late...and very LOUDLY. He shouted when he slammed the door open, "Do you know what today is?? OMG! Madame!!!!!" It scared the heck out of all of us. O__o And if anyone else had a class during that time...they were probably like WTF?? Well, yeah, it was April's birthday...and he brought her twin in as a "gift," saying, "Look! I made this perfect replica of April!!!!" XD So yeah, after all of that fun, then it was really class time, and we reviewed for the final. So I have my math and French finals on monday, and then I have my fashion marketing (really the presentation) and history ones on tuesday. Math will just be like another test; French will be pretty easy like always; fashion will be interesting since it's presentations...hopefully I do well, and HOPEFULLY my partners do their part; and history will be my hardest...it always is. I can't stand it!! So yeah. At least after that...I'm done. Woot. Anyhoo, after class, I went home...to a crabby brother, but then again, he's usually crabby. And he takes it out on me. *sigh* He needs to get a job already. -__- Ummm, oh, we got more snow yesterday!! It was really pretty!! And then it turned into tiny bits of sleet. :3 So after the usual doing nothing [continued to watch Darker than Black, quit watching El Cazador], I made a new wallpaper! Finally! And yeah, it's an L one. ^^;; I just couldn't resist. Thank you, Olivia, for commenting on it already. Yes, I forgot to mention the light red tint/overlay in my description of it. Thanks for noticing. :3 I liked your description of his pose, too, "like he's stalking his prey..." He totally is. XD So yeah, this wallpaper is like many of my other L wallpapers, using the similar techniques to make a fun experiment in textures and grungyness. Please download/comment!! [it's featured now, too! Thanks!!] Hosted By theOtaku.com. I wonder how today will go? For most of yesterday, I was just staring into space and thinking...just being down, like usual. -___-; The wallpaper was a nice break in my routine to focus my concentration elsewhere, other than social crap, fears, and other things on my mind. Umm...I don't know what's up for today...probably nothing, and if we do anything, it'll just be some errands. My dad's coming back tonight from this short trip he took down to FL to visit his mom and go fishing with his brother. It didn't seem like that trip was very long...but it'll be nice to have him back, I guess. My oldest brother Derek hasn't come over for dinner in a while, and I'm sorta glad about that. He hasn't been very nice lately....and I'd rather not see him. Bah, well, here's an amv!! It's a Nodame one, which combines the anime and the drama version. The song is "Clear" by Watashi Wa [I find it interesting that the band's name is japanese, but they're obviously NOT]. Enjoy! Thank you for visiting me!! *hugs* You're all so sweet to trudge through these longs posts of mine. ^^;; I'll visit those that I can...when I get the time. Have a wonderful weekend!

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Friday, December 7, 2007

Warning: thanks, new theme, morning, yesterday/fashion, dog, & amv

*huggles* Thanks a ton for the comments! You're all so nice. I'm glad you liked yesterday's poem! Indeed, it was short and cute, just about the snow. XD It seems harder to write poems that rhyme, but for some reason, poems that rhyme sound better...usually...but not always. Poems don't have to rhyme. :3 Anyhoo, thanks for all the comments about my hurting back! XD Insane, yes, I do bend backwards as well! I sometimes get some cracks out of it, but eh...yeah. Angel, Shishou (sorry! I hope I didn't hurt your feelings with that comment), Hippie, and Shi-chan, thank you for commenting again!! It's been a long time, especially for Shishou. :3 I've missed you guys! Oh, and thanks to those that complimented my jewelry store ad; I'm glad you liked it, too! Thanks again everyone! Ok, now to point out the obvious. XD I changed my theme! I gave into "peer pressure" and made my theme a winter one. It isn't "Christmas", just snowy winter Air. :3 With Misuzu of course! I somehow manage to keep having bg's with Misuzu; hehe! Well, I've had this wallpaper for a while, and it was really HUGE! It's still larger than most, but I shrank it some...and I added some more brushes, glows, etc. to it to make it look err...prettier? ^^; But I didn't make this wallpaper. Also, obviously, the post boxes are purple!! I was going to keep them black, but then they...I don't know, stood out too much. They're fine, right? No one's having seizures? XD And I also made a matching avi. I think it turned out pretty, so yeah, I hope you like it, too! ^_^ Well, I just had math class, and it was boring...as ever, but!! But!! That's my last math class of the semester. Today is the last day of classes of the semester before our winter break!! :3 Next week is finals week, and then yay, off for a month! I get my finals over with the first 2 days, which is awesome. Anyhoo, I'm somewhat tired, but at least I slept better last night...I think. My back isn't hurting as much as yesterday, but instead I have other aches. -__- One can never feel all well, can they? Maybe it's cause of the cold? It's freeeeezing out...and there's still snow on the ground, so it obviously hasn't melted yet! Umm...so yeah, now I'm in the library...it's quiet minus my typing, and I have my Death Note L shirt on. Oh, how I love it. *laugh* I'm also wearing a wonderfully black and white striped scarf....anyhoo...enough of that! You don't care what I'm wearing. XD I'll talk about yesterday now!! So I had fashion marketing, and when I got there, barely anyone was there. I got a text message from Kathleen, one of the girls in my group, saying that she wouldn't be there since she had a doctor's appointment. Ok. No problem. It was the other girl, Dana, that was going to do a lot of the work...since she said she'd bring her laptop. So I waited around, class started, and no one in my group was there. T___T I was so worried!!! I couldn't do anything!! BUT!! Luckily Dana did come...just late, but she came. *sigh of relief* So we worked on the power point for our presentation [we have to create our own store; I showed you guys yesterday the promotional ad for our jewelry store], and we were the only ones that came prepared to work. XD Everyone else was going to do posters, and they didn't have any materials so they left!! Hah! They got points taken off, that's for sure. Anyhoo, so Dana liked my ad a lot, and that made me feel happy. :3 We got the basic info in there, and now it's up to her to finish the power point off and send it to us [reminds me of the history project...] in time, before tuesday. After class, I went home. Everything was fine until we had to clean and trim Totoro...now, most of you should know already that he's unpredictable!! *rolls eyes* He's the most vicious miniature poodle around. The trimming was going fine...ok...a little growl here...ok, he's starting to snap at me...and then, bam! >> He bit me on the arm. Oww, mother f-ing ow. It HURT. It bled, and it was one of those gross things where it's like a pinch...with the blood and bruising visible under the skin. *sigh* My dog hates me, I swear. It's still red and you can see the bite marks...at least it doesn't hurt as much now. Ugh. I never want to wash/trim that dog again...and in the end, he looks like a retarded and abused dog that had a run-in with the shaver. It's terrible. -__-; The rest of the day was ok...I guess. That part sorta ruined everything for me though. Nothing else interesting happened...I don't think; I somewhat remember something I was going to say, but now I don't remember!! Bah!! Oh well. I did my math packet, and...well, that's when I worked on my new theme. I was going to make a new wallpaper, but I haven't had the time as yet. I probably will today though. I haven't seen many exceptional wallpapers in the section as of late! The featured are always the same: Bleach, Naruto, or a copy and pasted image. -__- So yeah, I have no goodies for you today. :( No poem or visual! I will put in an amv though. Sorry, like usual, for not visiting all of you. I do the best that I can. *hugs* Here's an amv. It's a Loveless one (so shonen-ai warning), and the song is Memories by Within Temptation. Enjoy! Thank you for putting up with me!!! I'm sorry for being a pretty bad friend lately. ^^;; And sorry that this post is really long...then again, my posts always are. Yay, it's finally the weekend, so get some rest! I know I need it. Have a good day!

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