Thursday, November 8, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleepless, curve killer, history/worries,english/dog, wp, today, & amv

Thank you all for the abundance of comments! *hugs* You're all so wonderful...even if you don't comment that often. ^^; Don't worry about it; I've been lazy or, well, too busy or something to comment a lot lately either! Emmah, I think it should be, "if I had a dollar for every day you didn't comment, I'd be rich." XD But that's ok! *hugs* Dicer, nice to hear from you! I think that's your first comment here. ^_^ Welcome! Lory, thanks for all the luff. Midnight-chan, Yug, xaos (I loved that amv! It's a great match. *nods* Loveless + "The Warrior" = goodness), Imasyon, thanks for your comments! It's rare to have you guys visit...well, even rarer for some. XD I've missed you! Anyhoo, thanks to everyone for the encouraging words about how I was feeling...and about my mom. Yes, she NEEDS to eat. -__-; It's just hard to change her habits since she's been like this for most of her life. *sigh* Um, and about me being "a failure at life", sorry for saying that. :( I just get like that sometimes...thanks again for the encouragement. *hugs* Oh jeeeeez...I'm so incredibly tired. I wonder when these sleeping problems will just give up on me??? -___- Go away and bother someone else with your insomnia-powers!! So, yeah, I didn't sleep well last night, and I had to wake up early this morning for my 2nd to last FYE class (thank goodness). I just don't know why...well, I couldn't breathe like usual, but I guess my mind was just overactive, which it LOVES to be. *sigh* I don't get it because I'm always so tired when I go to bed, yet I can't fall asleep!! Argh, so I took a sleeping pill...but I was so sound asleep this morning when my mom came to wake me up at 7:30. T^T I was in the middle of a One Piece dream, too!! Luffy was just about to kick butt...argh, anyhoo, I'm tired, and I need to remind myself NOT to look in the mirror. -__- Hideous. I shouldn't have been let out of the house... Umm...I suppose I'll just talk about yesterday! *is listening to Death Note songs, currently "Despair the Billy" [I always found that title ridiculous and incomprehensible]* I had math, and my friend has dubbed me the silent curve killer. I just LOVE killing the curves on tests...if there even is a curve done to the test. I do it without my knowing! *sigh* So you know I did that with the history quiz, right? Well, it was even worse for the math test. ^^;; Get this: I got a 171/150 on it!! There was one extra credit problem, which I got right, and then I got the rest of the problems correct, too...for some reason, I don't feel happy about that! I feel bad because, again, the majority of my class did terribly...28/150, anyone? Yes, several, in fact. I wish I could donate some of my points to them. ^^; I only let one person know my grade on it because I was most definitely afraid that I'd be the whole class's enemy...*hides* In history, we watched this video about the Crusades, and it was directed/narrated/created by the guy that made the Monty Python movies. XD So it was rather humorous, though informational! Other than that, a very good thing happened regarding my group history project! It's been pushed back to be due on the 26th! That's an extra week. :3 It's because she was planning to have a test on the 19th (our original date), and she didn't want to have them both on the same day. She asked, "How comfortable are you with this project? Would you be able to go the 14th instead?" HAhahahah...noooo. We shook our heads vehemently. XD So now we have another week...but that doesn't help us MUCH because my group members are lazy, unorganized, and because during that extra week is Thanksgiving break! ^^; Argh. *sigh* Yes, I know, I worry waaaay too much...I have a big worrying/overthinking/analytical problem. .___. And I don't like it! That's what makes me not sleep! Something interesting might've happened in French, but I don't remember. Then English...we got in our *new* peer groups, and we discussed some things on any topic to make it a thesis as if we were to write an argument paper [did that sentences make sense??]. Our topic we came up with was legalizing same-sex marriages. ^^ It was loads of fun to discuss!! I love my new group...especially since Alli is so awesome, and we have very similar views on things. :3 Anyhoo, not much else happened!! I have the final draft of my synthesis paper due this monday (12th), MY BIRTHDAY, along with other things. Oh joy. So after that, I went home...was really hungry...oh!! MY DOG HATES ME. It doesn't matter how much I love him or take care of him, Totoro hates me for no reason. He bit/growled at me viciously twice yesterday. When I got home and later in the evening...T___T *sigh* We started watching a new anime, Potemayo, and it's amazing!! Soooo cute and funny. :3 I love it!! I recommend it! I also made a new wallpaper, and I'm super proud of it. The thumbnail doesn't do it justice either, so please LOOK at it! Download/comment, and thanks a ton to those that did already. :3 Sweetdevil, it means so much to me when you leave a positive comment about my wallpapers!! It encourages me a lot. *nods* So, yeah, I need a few more downloads and it'll be featured...but what's odd is that barely anyone submitted or downloaded any wallpapers yesterday! SO FEW! :( So yeah, help a girl out! Thanks! Oh, it's Ritsuka from Loveless, enjoy! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Today I have fashion marketing, and I don't really want to go...we're getting our partners for our final project, and it's going to be random! *sigh* -__-; I dislike SO many of the girls in my class...there's no way we'd get along with our ideas for our "new store concept." ARGH. There are definitely 4 girls that I hope not to be paired with...they're biatches and don't like me either! >> *sigh* Um, it's very cold today...it's like winter! Went from summer to winter; where did fall go??? Yup, well, I'll stop rambling now and find an amv...here's a really cool one, very well made. ^_^ It has several anime, and I'm not sure what the song is, but enjoy! Was this longer? I'm not sure...I just divided up my paragraphs more. ^^; I also didn't rant about being depressed so be happy about that! Thanks for visiting me, and I'll do my best to comment you guys when I can. *hugs* Thanks again, and have a great day!

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Tuesday, November 6, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, good school, bad yesterday, wp, & amv

Boy, it's seemed like forever since I last posted...though it hasn't really...^^; But I guess it's like that because I've gotten comments from people on my last post over the course of 3 days! Today, yesterday, and the day I posted. XD Anyhoo, thanks for all the comments. Vickie-chan, Lestat, Ordinary Girl, 9breaker, and ninja lover (and new friends like teddy82 and Aki Kozu) thank you for commenting again!! It's been quite some time!! And of course thanks to everyone else that commented, too! *hugs* Well, it seems that the whole world does the daylight savings time thing now? Really?? I never even knew. ^^;; Sorry for being stupid! So most other countries have adopted it...stupid US. ^^; Anyhoo, thanks for everything; I don't have time to reply to the other details, so yeah. I'm tired, and this sucks. Tuesdays are my days to sleep later since I only have fashion marketing and it starts at 11:35, but that never happens. -__-; I woke up around 6-7 this morning and couldn't fall back to sleep. I just laid there until 10 and now I'm posting. I couldn't breathe (yes, allergies), and I just don't know why!! *sigh* Sleeeeep. I had school-related dreams and one with Sanji (One Piece) in it. ^^;; I don't remember what the Sanji one was about, but I do remember he was in it!! I also couldn't sleep well because of my covers. I get easily pissed off at my covers when they're not aligned perfectly! >< Total OCD moment. I couldn't pull them up when I was cold, and they were lopsided, and the sheet was pulled up more than the comforter, etc. ^^; I just wasn't comfortable...oh well, you guys don't care about that stuff...*moving on* I don't have much time to post since I did lay in bed longer...so I'll just have to type fast. I should've been in a happy/good mood yesterday from the things that happened during school. I was basically praised by all of my teachers in every class for one reason or another. I had a math test, and hopefully I did well on it (though I might've gotten one problem wrong)...then in history, the first group presentation went. Mine is in 2 weeks (the 19th), and I'm still freaking out about it. *sigh* Anyhoo, at the end of class a girl asked about what she got on our last quiz (my teacher forgot to hand them back), and she said, "17/25. Don't worry; you were there with the majority of the class." O__o So I asked what I got..."25/25. Good job; you ruined the curve!!" XD I love ruining exam curves...haha. Also during history I found out that my friend's roommate (the one that likes anime) would like to meet me sometime, and I also found out that the annoying guy (argh...gross) is friends with her and also likes anime...-___-' *sigh* Anyhoo, then I had French. We were having 2 quizzes: a written one and an oral one about given times in French. Well, Madame handed out the grading sheets for the oral one, and she ran out! She didn't have one for me. ^^; So I asked about it, and she said, "Just look off of Allison's for now." Will you have one for me when it's my turn to go? "Yeah..." Ok. *laugh* So when it's my turn, I read out the times, asked about the grading sheet, and she says, "Perfect! See? I knew I wouldn't need a grading sheet for you; I knew you'd get them all right." XD What a compliment!! And then in English, we got back our summary, and I got a 97 (with a perfect score on mechanics/grammar, which she said is sooo rare and never happens!), and we also got back our synthesis rough drafts, and she complimented me a lot on that, too! ^_^ So, yeah, it was a good day as far as school things go...but not everything else. You'd think I'd be in a great mood after hearing all of that, but I wasn't. My mom had to go to an endodontist (spelled wrong) to get a root canal on another one of her teeth...it was hurting so much the other day that she was crying and couldn't stand it. So she had that root canal yesterday, and it took 2 hours! I worried about her all day at school, and when I got home and saw her, she was in so much pain...and she couldn't eat anything, which is HORRIBLE. My mom NEEDS to eat...*sigh* She weighs so little...she's practically anorexic. The only meal she eats is dinner, nothing else. So, yeah, this tooth crap is making it even harder one her because she can barely eat anything (only soft foods or soups). -__-; Ugh...but...yeah...I just felt really depressed yesterday, and I guess it was mainly because of my mom. Her being helpless like this reminded me of that horrible year last year when she couldn't go downstairs at all at our old house (old friends know what I'm talking about, new friends...you have no clue...). *sigh* But yeah, getting great grades is awesome and all, but what does it really do for me?? It doesn't mean I can succeed in life and really do anything about anything. I'm a failure AT LIFE. Argh!! Sorry...umm...I know my mom will recover soon (I hope), but I just can't help but worry and be reminded of when I was super depressed before when she was so ill. .__. Um, anyhoo, I did homework yesterday and that was it...other things happened, but I don't have enough time to write about them. Here's the wallpaper I made on sunday; some of you saw it because I added it much later to my post from the other day. Please comment/download. I know it isn't that great, but thanks anyway. Hosted By theOtaku.com. So I have fashion today, and I believe we'll be starting to talk about that final project we have to do...oh joy. Later today, at 4, we're taking Totoro to the vet so hopefully they can do something about his limping...anyhoo, I gotta go so I'll just put an amv here. "The Warrior" by Patty Smyth, and it's to Loveless. Enjoy. (shonen-ai alert) Thanks for visiting me! *hugs* Sorry for not visiting most of you yesterday...I only got to a few, but I didn't have time, and I had a horrible heading. I felt just terrible yesterday for many reasons...I wonder if today will be any better?? -__- No post tomorrow. Thanks again, and have a good couple of days!

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Sunday, November 4, 2007

Warning: thanks/replies, standard time??/morning, playlist, yesterday, same wp, hw, random stuff & amv + new wp edit

Thanks for all the comments!! Soooo many wonderful ones!! ^__^ *hugs* Thanks a ton. And...*looks* unless someone else comments while I'm posting, I got all girls' comments! XD I do have more girl friends on here than guys, but still! Hah! Anyhoo, I really appreciate all of your input on everything! It was interesting, yet sad, to see that so many of you DON'T talk to your parents or anyone about your feelings. :( You really should...and if you're not comfortable with doing so, then by all means, POST YOUR FEELINGS here! Some of you said that you don't even do that. We're harmless; we're your friends. *hugs* Anyhoo, thanks for the comments about Totey (hehe, now you've all picked up that nickname!); I hope he can be fixed! OMG, so many friends that haven't been here in forever!! *hugs* Shizuka (of course I forgive you! though I was worried), sweet-mizuki, Effie, Lory, midnight-chan, ASH Hikari, Joselyn, and more probably. :3 You're all such sweet friends!! Thanks so much for commenting again; I hope you to see you all again soon. ^_^ Well, before this paragraph gets HUGE, I'll stop there. Thanks again! Well, I'm posting a bit later than usual since I slept more...BUT I'm actually posting earlier by an hour! Daylight savings time is over so it's time to put the clocks back. ^^;; I had NO idea! I could've slept longer then. -__-; But mom forgot to tell me...I'm pretty sure, but those of you in countries other than the US, you guys don't do this daylight savings time thing, do you? The US is ridiculous in sooo many respects. But correct me if I'm wrong. Anyhoo, I slept ok, but not that great...I woke up around 6am, and I couldn't breathe. *sigh* My nose was all stuffed up like usual. I took another Benadryl right away, and then I used my nose spray...ugh, I couldn't fall back to sleep until 2 hours later! T__T So that's why I could've slept longer today...oh well. Thanks for the info about my playlist! I'm pretty sure it's an error on IMMEM's part. Some of you said that it was on shuffle (played randomly), but most said that, like me, it's just playing from the first song, in order...how odd. -__-; So, yeah, if you guys want to listen to other songs, you gotta manually choose them! I emailed IMEEM about it, but they'll probably take forever to reply...usually by the time they do, the problem is fixed or I just don't care anymore. It's just so weird since it SHOULD BE on shuffle...oh well...^^; I guess I'll talk about yesterday, though it will be quite boring!! After I posted, I went about my breakfast business of making scrambled eggs and toast. :3 So yummy. After eating, Corey and I watched more Loveless (yes, my brother and I watch all anime together, even that! He doesn't mind shonen-ai/yaoi [well, some at least], just like I don't mind shojo-ai [as long as neither are hardcore]); it's such a good show!! It does seem awfully short though...I think I'm on episode 10 or something. Anyhoo, it was just a nothing day! Played video games and watched anime. I got pissed off at Persona 3 (for ps2) because after going through the levels for a while and getting all sorts of levels up and things, I DIED. -__-; Stupid enemies killed me after all my hard work. Argh. Errr...yeah, nothing else really happened. We didn't go to that wrestling thing (my dad probably forgot about it, thank goodness), and we obviously didn't go out and see a movie. I didn't make a new wallpaper either...I worked on one, but it just didn't come out very well; therefore, I didn't submit it! Maybe I'll work on it today, but I doubt it. It's a Kaname one (from Full metal Panic)...and photoshop was also giving me trouble. It keeps on freaking out on me sometimes! Like it opens up the help site, and whenever I try to close it, it keeps popping back up, not allowing me to continue on with my photoshopping...-__-; Then I have to shut it down, and there goes any work that I didn't save. Bleh. *sigh* Oh well, but thanks soooo much for the comments on yesterday's wallpaper!! ^__^ I'm so glad you all liked it so much; I did, too. I think it's one of my best. :3 Check it out if you didn't already; here it is AGAIN. Hosted By theOtaku.com. So, yeah, really nothing else happened! Today will be filled with homework probably. While attempting to sleep, I remembered all sorts of things that will be due soon...or even sooner, tomorrow. -__- Math test, french homework, take more notes for history project (only the girl that's writing the paper replied to my email...), new store idea thing for fashion marketing, and then there are things due later this week or next week: english paper, FYE essay (5 pages! I can't make 5 pages about that stupid useless class!!), and my birthday. ^^;; I'm looking forward to it (the 12th), but at the same time I'm not because I have so many things for school due around that time! T__T Sorry, I'm totally rambling. I guess my point is that I'll be busy and probably not have much time to visit. :( Sorry! Ok, I'm just THAT boring today. One of my friends mentioned that I haven't written a poem in a while, and that's true! I haven't found the time to, nor the inspiration I guess...so I'm sorry if those of you that have read my poetry, and was used to seeing it from me, miss it. :( Maybe someday soon I'll get that urge to write it down. Just like I haven't drawn in ages...I don't think I'm good enough so I just stop if I start to draw. I want to or I have good ideas for drawings, but I suck too much to get them onto paper and looking good. *sigh* Anyhoo, random, here's an amv. It's the one I showed before that sweetdevil really liked. "Destiny" by Move, and it's with Kaleido Star! It's really well-made! Enjoy! Thank you all for visiting me! Forgive me for being so dull and repetitive. If you don't have much to comment on (despite this being long), feel free to just talk about your day! ^^;; Sorry if I can't get to all of your sites (a lot updated), but thanks again for getting to me...oh, and no post tomorrow. Take care! [Much later EDIT: to those that are commenting late...you get to see the wallpaper I made today. ^^;; It's a Loveless one since I finished watching it. :3 I hope you like it; please comment/download if you want! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Thanks!]

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Saturday, November 3, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, totoro, yesterday/feelings, wp, today, & amv

Thank you all for the sweet comments. You're all so very helpful!! *hugs* Steph, thanks for hitting me with that pillow. XD It always makes me laugh and realize my thoughts. A lot of you knew what I was talking about, especially with the math thing...but I felt even worse because I've been saying how "easy" this class is and how I took it years ago etc., but then I get all sorts of things wrong. -__-; Oh well. Um, thanks for the sympathy and helpful words about my feeling depressed. I know that my life isn't horrible, but whatever...everyone gets like this sometimes. I'm glad I have such wonderful friends on here to tell my problems to! Rachel (mewmewlover), Kaisa, Grif, Reki, xxHD, thanks for visiting again!! ^__^ OMG, it's been so long (especially for Rachel). Some of you said you'd be happy to make me an avi or bg or something so thank you. You don't have to though...only if you happen to. ^^; Thanks again! The weekend...finally. I slept and slept! Ooh, it was so nice. I could've slept even longer. XD These days, it seems that I enjoy sleeping the most! When I CAN sleep, that is. Last night's dreams were disturbing like my other ones. Very stressful...ones with crying, yelling, being friendless...all sorts of crap. At least I didn't hurt myself during the night from it. Remember the other night? I said that I scraped my face with my nails while sleeping because of one of my dreams. Well, that scrape really left a mark! ^^; And hurt for the rest of the day. I have dangerous long nails. ^^; At least that didn't happen last night...I don't specifically remember my dreams though, so yeah. I will say that it's a nice and cloudy morning though! Perfect morning to sleep. Totoro, my dog, is by my feet on my bed right now. ^^; He's soo cute...and in case you were wondering, he's STILL LIMPING. He really hurt his leg/hip/back/whatever bad! It's been 2 weeks now. :( So we got him an appointment with the vet on tuesday...hopefully it's nothing too serious. Poor thing. He can't go up the steps so he just sits by them and waits for one of us to pick him up and carry him. XD I call it the "Totey Express." One of his nicknames is Totey (Toe-dee), and well, Express like a train. *laugh* It's cute, but I want him to be better. Hmm...yesterday...*thinks* Other than feeling depressed and miserable, I don't think much happened. When you guys feel down (if you do), do you talk about your feelings with a parent/sibling? I used to be able to tell my mom anything, and I still almost do, but for some reason, I just can't seem to tell her when I'm feeling depressed. Sometimes she notices, but then I tell her that I'm just "tired." .___. I don't know why, but for some reason I think that she wouldn't help much. She'd ask, "Why would you be feeling that way?? There's no reason for it." Or something like that...like she wouldn't understand and be able to help...she'd hug me and comfort me maybe, but she doesn't seem to take those feelings seriously. *sigh* So I keep it inside and usually just write about them here...I even trust telling my teachers more about these feelings... Anyhoo, nothing happened yesterday other than the usual. I did make a new wallpaper though, and I'm really proud with it!! I love how it turned out, and lots of people agree. :3 It's featured right now, and thanks a ton to those that already commented! It means so much to me. ^^ I always seem to make my best wallpapers (in my opinion) when I'm feeling down. I concentrate all of my bad feelings into it...it's a way of release for me. Anyhoo, please download/comment! (I feel even happier with my wallpaper when my brother actually compliments it, too, which he did this one!) Hosted By theOtaku.com. Today is probably going to be a usual Saturday with nothing special going on. MAYBE we'll see some movie, but that usually doesn't happen. Chances are it'll just be a stay at home lazy day. My dad said something about a "pro wrestling" exhibition going on in the area...*laugh* And that we should go. WELL, I don't know about that...he wanted to, and my brother said ok...but we'll see about that. ^^; As for how I'm feeling right now, I can't tell. I only just woke up so I can't pinpoint a depressed emotion at the moment. -__-; Thanks again though. For lack of anything else, here's an amv. XD But I'm warning you: YAOI ALERT. If you don't like yaoi (guy x guy), don't watch it. I love this vid though! The song matches so well (I think...). It's "Precious" by Depeche Mode (great 80's band that's been doing electronic music lately), and the anime are Loveless and Papa to Kiss in the Dark. Again, yaoi warning. :3 Enjoy if you want/like. Well, I think that's it for me today...sorry if this was boring. ^^;; Thanks for visiting me and always helping me out; I hope to do the same for you when I can. Have a good day! P.S. QUESTION: Is my playlist playing on shuffle? It should be...but it keeps starting from the beginning for me...^^;

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Friday, November 2, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning frustrations, filler theme, yesterday, amv & shorter post

Thanks for the comments everyone. You were all (mostly) very encouraging and whatnot! Thanks to those that downloaded my wallpaper (not many commented though)...and sorry to those that didn't care for it. -__-; Umm...oh, about the math teacher...I don't know; she just makes a lot of mistakes! It's not like I'm smarter than her or anything, it's just that I'm always finding her writing the wrong thing, and no one else mentions it. It'd be bad if she were teaching everyone wrong, right? *sigh* Anyhoo, thanks again...let's see, Shishou, Alex, AuroraBorealis, Ulter ego--it's been a while, hasn't it? Some longer than others. ^^ It's so nice to hear from you again. *hugs* Thanks a lot to everyone for everything (yeah, shorter thanking paragraph, sorry!). I'm just feeling...ugh...right now. Just, I just want to cry! -___- I almost did...seriously; I can't talk to someone about things that are bothering me in real life or else I'll just start crying. Ok...so I just had math, and this is a stupid thing to get upset over, but I'm such a perfectionist. We had that math review packet due today, and we were going over the answers (after turning it in). I HATE going over the answers right after handing something in...then I feel bad for the rest of the day if I get stuff wrong. :( So that's what happened. I got a couple wrong, and mainly because of stupid mistakes or I was just stupid in general. If my teacher is constantly making mistakes on the board, can't I do the same without being penalized??? NO. *sigh* But I don't know, I've just been depressed lately...so something little like that really bothered me. I'm in the library right now, and George and Gage are here (the handicapped man & nice guide dog), and I was talking to him (and petting Gage, who jumped up and licked me again). He asked how I was, and I told him about this morning...I was on the verge of tears, but I held them in. ^^; I'm so stupid... *sigh* Anyhoo, as you can see, my theme is changed up...but I would just call this a "filler theme" until I get a real one, one that matches and whatnot. So if anyone would like to make me a new bg and avi to match (Air, Misuzu like usual)...go ahead. I'd love it. I still have that beautiful layout that sweet-mizuki made for me, but again, I'm too afraid that I'll screw something up if I try to use it...-__-' Err...so I guess I'll talk about yesterday, if I remember it. After I posted, I ate and worked on my math packet until I had fashion marketing to go to. In fashion, we just took more notes (of course), and we learned about this project that we'll have due. *sigh* Sounds like a total pain and a lot of work, but at least most of it will be done in class with our partner. We're supposed to come up with a store idea to put in our local mall, one that isn't already represented. It's a shame that my partner (or anyone around here) likes anime...because we don't have an anime merchandise store in my mall, and that would be a great idea! T__T Oh well. Umm...after class, mom picked me up and we went to Target; we just shopped around and got random things. I got an Eeyore plush...baby plush...it's so cute. I'm such a baby. ^^; *thinks* Then we went home, and nothing much happened. More Loveless and One Piece, and jeez, I realize that whoever said it (one of my friends on here) is pretty right...about me and my thoughts about life and whatnot being similar to Ritsuka's. Like all day yesterday and whatnot, I was thinking, "Am I even here?? What is life?" You know, the usual crap. I went through the day just doing things, but I didn't feel like I was really doing any of them. *sigh* Sorry, this post is SO boring and depressing. :( I just don't know what else to say! I didn't make a new wallpaper (had homework to do)...my next wallpaper won't be an L one, I promise. Some of you were getting sick of them, others not, but whatever. .___. Err...sorry, I have nothing else to really mention today! I'm just a miserable piece of crap right now! I have French in about an hour and nothing to do so I might do some visiting. Sorry again if I can't get to everyone. I guess I'll hunt out an amv now...I've shown this one before, but I just love it so much. It's the Cardcaptor Sakura 1st movie's ending, "Tooi Kono Machi De", and it's with Air. Enjoy! Wow, was this post shorter? Probably was. I didn't have much to talk about...just blubber about. -__-; Please forgive me. Hopefully I start feeling better soon...Thanks for visiting me, and hooray it's finally friday! WEEKEND = sleep. Have a good day! [edit a couple hours later: sorry this post was so miserable. I'm still feeling iffy, but I'm over the math thing...and NO, my life isn't horrible...all things don't suck; it's just that when you get depressed, it's hard to see the good things in life. There's that dark cloud that surrounds your vision...sorry again and thanks for your support...or lecturing, if that's what it is.]

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Thursday, November 1, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning, business, yesterday, crap, wp, halloween?, & amv/sorry

*hugs* Thanks so much for the comments!! Sorry for that awkwardly short post, but I got lots of nice comments anyway. :3 Mainly about halloween and my wallpaper, which is really all I mentioned anyway. XD Thanks again! I had NO CLUE that people would like that wallpaper...seriously, it was just a test wallpaper that I did; I literally tried out all of the new brushes I downloaded by using them in random places! ^^; So yeah, thanks sooo much...cause like I said, didn't think it was great. *hugs* Anyhoo, several people dropped by that haven't in a while! ^_^ Like Steph, chii00, darkeangel, Lute, Miko-chan, xaos, kyofanatic...and other people, too, especially from the post before last. :3 *huggles* Thank you all again! Most of you said you weren't doing much for Halloween/Hallows Eve, but others were going to have fun. ^^ I hope it all went well for you. Thanks once more! I ish very tired. -__-; Then again, when am I NOT on thursdays? Stupid FYE class. It's sooo pointless...today was super boring; we had this lady come in and talk to us about finances--balancing our accounts, credit cards, financial aid...all sorts of boring crap that I don't understand or care about yet since I don't...have a job...or pay for any of my expenses. ^^;; Yes, yes, I KNOW; I'll be sorry once I'm out on my own, blah blah blah...but I doubt it, especially since my brother of 26 years of age is STILL unemployed and living with us. *sigh* Anyhoo, about my sleep...it was ok, except for feeling like crap, thanks to being a girl. -__-' I seriously felt like collapsing last night from pain. Errr...my dreams, I do remember them somewhat, but you'll all be bored so I'll withdraw from mentioning them. XD But I will say that in one of my dreams, I was very stressed or something, and I basically was clawing my face...well, I woke up, and yeah, my face hurt...I totally scraped my cheek with my nails. ^^; Ok, so like I said, I had FYE ("first year experience") this morning, early...too early. I got there barely on time, and no one was there! I was afraid that class was cancelled or something! But no, people were just really LATE! Even my teacher was. But anyhoo, today I have fashion marketing after this nice little break in between classes...which will probably be boring, like usual. All we do is take notes in that class! And it's apparently a business minor. -__- UGH. BUSINESS. My brothers majored in business, and it sucked; at least it's just a minor for me...but I can't stand economics or finances or anything like that!! Bah, anyhoo, also this morning (right before going on here) I emailed my group members about that history project. *nods* It's just been weighing on my mind so much...I've been so worried (we have only a few weeks) about it, and I finally emailed them all, telling them to have notes taken and ready to give to the paper-writer by monday. I sure hope they get the email and take me seriously! >> I also hope that the girl that's going to write the paper is a GOOD writer... *sigh* Sorry, little rants here and there. Um, yesterday...was my busy day. In math, it wasn't as boring because we didn't start any "new" stuff; we had time to work on the review packet that's due tomorrow. She also did some problems on the board for us to "reason" through. XD I pointed out probably 6 mistakes in my teacher's work throughout the class as well. My friend behind me said, "Oooh! She's gonna kill you for that. " XD *laugh* It's just that my teacher is so, um, I don't know! Not well-qualified to teach or something. ^^; Anyhoo, then I had lunch by myself; Madii was in the cafeteria, but I didn't bother going cause I had to study for my history quiz next. So I studied some, and then went to class. The quiz wasn't bad at all. ^_^ I actually think I did well! Hmm...then French...just the usual, nothing exciting. After that was English. We had that synthesis due (a paper/essay where you read 2+ articles on a topic and compare/contrast them etc.), so we got into our [new] peer editing groups to go over them. :3 Aly said first off, "Oh, I always love reading Kelsey's papers!" ^///^ She's so cool. Anyhoo, the other girl read through and like usual, really nit-picked at every little grammar mistake. -__- Though I did agree with what they said...I used semi-colons everywhere and a lot of italics to emphasize my points. ^^;; Oh well. It's just a rough draft! The FINAL is due on my BIRTHDAY (nov.12). My birthday will probably be good as far as gifts go, but not as far as school!! :( I know that I'm going to have tests and things due on it...jeez! So that was my school-day. At home, it was just the usual. More One Piece watching (and some Loveless). XD I felt like absolute crap thanks to that time of month, and just because. Seriously, I felt like climbing into ye ol' dark hole and not coming out. -__-; But it seems like those dark holes are really occupied by everyone these days! Everywhere I look, there's someone that's depressed about something...that in itself is depressing. :( *sigh* Anyhoo, I made a new wallpaper...another L one. ^^; I know! Ok, I'll stop it with the Death Note wallies for a while...so, yeah, please download/comment! It's featured right now, despite having very few downloads. (yes, that IS L, NOT Near) Hosted By theOtaku.com. Oh, right, it was Halloween yesterday...well, it wasn't any different from my other days. -__-; We didn't get ANY trick-or-treaters! I guess our house is too much of an outcast from the subdivision. We heard lots of kids in the neighborhood talking, having fun, and we heard a band and all sorts of things. It sounded so cute and fun...but if you looked out our door, you saw pitch-black. No fun, no kids...just a few other houses near the subdivision. Oh well. XD It was sort of a relief, not having to pass out candy; more for us! How was it for you guys? Well, I suppose I've gone on long enough...oh, sorry for not visiting much. I try my best, but again...it's just harder these days. I'm always bogged down with homework and worries. :( Anyhoo, here's an amv. I should've shown it yesterday. *laugh* I've already shown it before a few times though...I just love it though. XD The Ghostbuster's theme to Yami no Matsuei/Descendants of Darkness. Soooo good. Enjoy! Woo, much longer post...I hope it wasn't too boring or anything. ^^;; Thanks so much for visiting me, and I'll see what I can do today...if I can get to many people. I'll try. Thanks again, and have a good day!

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Wednesday, October 31, 2007

Warning: twas written ahead, wp, not

No, this isn't a real post! ^^;; I don't have time to post on wednesdays, but like a few times before...I just wanted to do a quick little update to advertise a wallpaper I submitted. It's the one I mentioned in yesterday's post that was basically just a test...one that I wasn't sure about submitting; well, I did anyway, and apparently people like it (thanks!!), so yeah. ^_^ Thanks so much for your comments yesterday, too, but I haven't read them yet. Again, this isn't a "real" post; consider me absent from MO today...I'll do some visiting when I can, but not much. Yesterday I couldn't either cause I had to work so darn hard on that synthesis/essay. :( It took forever!! I couldn't even study for my history quiz that I have today! ^^; Not good...anyhoo, here's the wallpaper. Yes, another L one, forgive me! But it's bright and colorful! Please download/comment! Thanks. Hosted By theOtaku.com. As Sesshlu noticed, I also submitted an e-card! My first one. XD And it's just a shrunken down version with some tweaking to the text of my wallpaper from yesterday. That's why it looks so familiar. XD So feel free to look at it if you want. Anyhoo, HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!! I haven't done anything for Halloween in about 10 years. Stopped trick or treating back then...it was always a hassle since we didn't live in a neighborhood; we always had to drive to a different neighborhood in order to do it. ^^; So that was never very fun...also because of that, we never had trick or treaters come to our house either. Now that we've moved, we live near a subdivision so maybe this will be the first time kids with ring our doorbell??? I might have to greet them and give them candy!! O__o A total first for me...so we'll just have to see. I hope all of you have a fun one, whether you do something for it or not. Feel free to tell me the details in your comment. ^^ Many thanks and many sorries for anything and everything. Those that like my long posts will be disappointed, and the rest...well, either don't care or are joyous. XD Sorry for my lack of visiting; I've just been really busy, and today will be no different. Busy, long day...well, see you on thursday for my USUAL type of post. :3 Have a great day!

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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Warning: MO revived, sleep/sinuses, MO crash, yesterday, old wp, & today/sorry

Wow...XD This is probably the longest I've ever had to go without posting! Crazy, right? What, 4 days? Because, like usual, I couldn't post yesterday! Lots of people did though, welcoming the revival of MO. ^_^ This won't be much of a "thanks" paragraph, but THANK YOU to the TWO people that commented on my friday post. *laugh* Kirbysdouble commented on his own accord, and innocent heart, I told you to visit. XD Thanks again. To those that were unable or unaware that I posted on friday, feel free to check out my last post!! Please read it if you have the time. I have a wallpaper in it, but I'm reposting it in this one as well since I haven't made a new one yet. But wow, so talk about crazy! MO was down for several days...and thank goodness it's back, but it was torture for me without it....since, as you know, I love posting almost everyday. ^^; I posted on friday, and then almost right after I did, I noticed that MO was being suspiciously slow...when I got home from school, it was down. I just knew it! Whenever I have a wallpaper I like submitted, something goes wrong with the site; I bet this one would've been featured, too...oh well. Thanks again, and yay for MO being back! So...don't worry, I wouldn't dare write a HUGE post encompassing the whole weekend and everything. Nothing happened then anyway. I'll just go about this usually. So I slept ok, much better than the night before; it just sucks that on this morning (tuesday) I can never sleep as long as I'd like (though I have the luxury of only having one somewhat late class). My stupid sinuses. -__-; *sigh* I've taken every allergy medicine there is, but none of them work! There has been talk that I might need this surgery in my nose or something, but there's NO WAY that I want to do that!! .___. It's just...I want to breathe properly!! And because of my heart murmur, I can't really take some medicines that would probably help more. UGH. >> Anyhoo...I'm awake, posting again finally, and then I have to get ready to go to class...fashion marketing. So, how did you guys survive the MO crash? Some of you might not have even noticed since you don't post on the weekends or just aren't as frequent an MyO-user (sounds like a drug XD). I was checking every chance I got! *laugh* And only part of the time would I get one of Adam's messages about it being worked on. In some ways, this was good, and in others, it was torture! The good was that I didn't have to worry about finding time to visit people or rushing my posting, but the bad was that when I did get free time (actually a lot this weekend), I didn't have anything to do. ^^; I ended up working on homework and fooling around with a wallpaper...which I didn't submit...I don't think it's really good enough. I don't know; maybe I will...sometime. So, yeah, seeing that it was back yesterday was wonderful yet distressing at the same time! So many people updated...I couldn't get to everyone...so I'm sorry. :( Anyhoo, did anything interesting happen yesterday? *thinks* Well, all of my classes seemed like the longest and most boring things ever. -__- *rolls eyes* Now THOSE were torture. Math was boring...too easy...history was boring; all we did was listen and take notes constantly, and I still worried about my history group. I told them to take notes by yesterday, and only my friend did. *sigh* Then I had French, and a good portion of the time was spent being lectured on how lazy and sucky my class has become (except for me and my friend). She asked us to hand in our homework (that was from friday actually), and only Alison and I had it done. ^^;; Madame got really upset at everyone else, and like I said, lectured on how lazy they've become...well, at least I'm in the safe zone. XD After French, I went to the library for about ten minutes; I met Madii, and we talked some...she talked more about her boyfriend, and jeez. I knew this guy in high school, too, and I never would've thought they'd be an item! And this whole time, she's been talking about doing things with him, but I thought it was just as a friend...not a BOYFRIEND. *felt stupid* She went on about how she loves him and how cute they are together. ^^; Good for her...now I think every one of my friends has had a boyfriend except me... Umm...then I had English, which was really boring until we got in our peer editing groups to go over our articles that we're going to write about. We have to do a synthesis, which is where you read 2+ articles and then summarize and compare/contrast and give your own opinion on them. Anyhoo, so as per request, my teacher changed our groups around. ^__^ I was still with Aly, but no more annoying guy! Instead, we were with another girl. Our discussions were so much fun...and I actually go to talk and not feel uncomfortable having that guy in my group. Sure, he still sits in front of me, but at least now I don't have to worry about going into our groups. :3 So that was the end of the day, at home...nothing interesting happened, just more One Piece watching. Oh, here's that wallpaper I made thursday of L. Please comment/download. ^^ Hosted By theOtaku.com. Today I have fashion marketing, and nothing else! But I DO have homework...like that synthesis (I started it yesterday, just the intro though) and studying for a history quiz. So I'm sorry if I can't visit much. :( I'll try, but I doubt I'll get to many. *hugs* Umm...since this is somewhat long, and there's my last post almost no one read, I won't put an AMV here. There's one in my last post if you're really bored. XD You can also check my imeem playlist because I added more songs recently (they're at the bottom). Oh, I forgot to say...my poor mommy...she had to have a tooth pulled yesterday, and she learned that two more will have to be later as well. :( She's hurting so much...and my dog, Totoro, is STILL limping...it's been well over a week now...poor thing...we don't know what's wrong, and the vet probably won't help. -__-;; Anyhoo, thanks soooooo much for visiting me *hugs*; sorry if I can't get to all of you...and have a good day!! [sorry if the post was long, but it's good to be back and posting again!]

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Friday, October 26, 2007

Warning: thanks, dreams, morning, doggies, yesterday, wp, & amv

*huggles* Thanks a ton for the comments! It took me a while to read them (which is a fine thing!) because I got so many. :3 I haven't had over 20 in a long time! Lots of people commented that haven't gotten to in a while, like Imasyon, Kiyo-chan, harumi, Lute, innocent heart, kyofanatic, kunoichi warrior, and Jungy! Welcome back, at least for that one post! ^_^ Lucky me. *hugs* Well, anyhoo, thanks to everyone. Thanks for the advice or whatever about my sleeping. ^^;; That just happens to me here and there--bad sleeping! My allergies are terrible, and they always are. They don't seem to be season-dependant or anything. -__- Bah! Let's see...you all said very helpful and interesting things about my other topics so thank you! I just can't seem to think of a specific reply to speak to...umm, again, FYE class is just a class that all first-year students have to take for this semester; it's supposed to help us adjust to "college life." Ok, thanks again! I'm tired, but I slept much better last night! I was probably just so exhausted from my lack of sleep the other night that I went right to sleep last night. ^_^ I woke up a lot though, and had more weird dreams...some scary, like one with this guy that tried to steal my smoothie (WTF?) when I was in the airport (I don't know why...); he then tried to kidnap me or something...I remember trying to fight him (somehow I could teleport), and he was blind. ^^; Weird...I don't remember how it ended, but I don't think I beat him! I had another scary one, and then I had more with Death Note characters (L, Near)...>> *laugh* I haven't watched it in over a month, but I keep making these DN wallpapers, so yeah. They've seeped into my subconscious...and I like it. XD Ok, so I just had math...it was boring as heck. -__- It's way too easy for me...jeez! It's cold this morning and cloudy; one of those mornings that make you just want to sleep all day. The kid that was in class first had all of the windows open!! Dude, it's FREEZING!! Anyhoo, during math class my teacher got upset at the stupid kids again. -__-; Remember how the majority of my class failed that test? And in order to make it up, they had to do ALL of the homework and hand it in? Well, she got them, looked through them...and they were horrible, too! Most people didn't do all the homework; lots just copied out of the back of the book (showed no work), and someone even copied from the answers' manual for the book (must've found it online). ^^; *sigh* The kids (well, adults) in my class are such slackers! I can't believe it... On my way here to the library, I came accross George and Gage (remember? The handicapped man and his guide dog). ^_^ We talked for a bit, and awwwwwww!!! I love Gage. You know, one of the few things that is a sure-fire way to get me smiling is a dog! :3 Well, Gage was adorable...*laugh* He's a black lab and pretty big, and well, he jumped up on me and licked my face!! XD I laughed and pet him, and then he started rubbing on my boots! George just let him do that, and I didn't mind either. I thought that was so cute when he jumped up on me. I guess he remembered me from before. ^^ I love dogs (some of you are more cat people), and I always smile when I see one. I just can't help it! I guess that if I was just down-right depressed, handing me a puppy would perk me right up! XD Let's see...yesterday...well, the fashion presentation that we had to do went pretty good I think. Our outfits looked nice (especially the one with my beige skirt), and it wasn't too hard to "present." After that, I should've gone to this thing for FYE...we don't HAVE to; we can choose which presentation/meeting thing we want to go to, but we have to go to ONE. I haven't yet, and this would've been the perfect one to go to...they were just going to show "Supersize Me" (some of you might've seen it before). -__-; I just didn't go because I had my bag of clothes for fashion and all...argh! I don't know if I'll make it to one then. :( The others are at 8pm, and I never feel like going to school that late. Anyhoo, so after class I went with mom and dad to get my watch sized, and then I got some lunch...went home and did the usual. Corey went to acupuncture so I had some time to myself, yay. I did some homework and then visited some of you (my internet was horribly slow so I couldn't get to everyone; sorry!!), and made a new wallpaper...similar to yesterday's L one (which, btw, thanks so much for downloading!!! I don't know if it was featured, but I got a lot of downloads ^^), but I think yesterday's was better (loved that one)...though I love L's smile here. :3 *is planning on making this into an e-card, too* I barely got any downloads, and I think that MO's wallpaper/submission section is screwing up like it just LOVES to do these days. -__-; *sigh* So I just hope that Adam doesn't have to delete all of yesterday's submissions (including mine!), but umm...please download/comment anyway! Thanks! Hosted By theOtaku.com. I guess nothing else interesting happened yesterday. Today I have French after this. I have lots of due dates for all classes hanging over my head that are already making me panic, and I'm sure this weekend won't be fun. -__-' Oh well. At least I can sleep late! Finally! XD But, um, yeah...I guess this boring post is drawing to a close; I'll go find an amv now...*finds* Well, I had this song in my head, so yeah. "You Came" by Kim Wilde, and the anime is Kamikaze Kaitou Jeanne, which I've never seen before! XD Enjoy! Thanks a billion for visiting me! *hugs* Wow, this took a while to type up...^^;; Sorry if it was long or boring. Thanks again, and please!! Try to cheer up if you're not cheery already! *hugs* Have a good day!

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Thursday, October 25, 2007

Warning: thanks, lack o' sleep, tuesday, yesterday, wp. today, & amv

Arigatou, minna! :3 Thanks for the comments. They're always appreciated, no matter how long (unless they're one-word "hey" or something retarded) they are. *hugs* Hmm...I'm not sure how much there is to really reply to...*laugh* A lot of people commented on my L dream! Quite amusing! XD Most of you said you'd like to have a similar dream as well; a lot of you said you don't have anime dreams! How sad! ^^; I used to ALL the time, then I didn't have any for a long time, and now I'm back to having them. About partner/group projects, yes, I despise them...ESPECIALLY when my partner doesn't do the work. -__-; But no worries about this partner, she actually did most :0 Umm...thanks for all the other comments. People that haven't been around lately: xaos, Vickie-cha, Sesslu (ye who calls me onee-chan, too), filo, S angel, and doctormister! No need to say sorry; I'm glad you commented again. ^_^ *hugs* You're all great friends; thanks again!! I'm tiiiiiiiiiiirrrrreeeeeeddddd. Stupid Thursdays! -__- Ok, so last night was horrible! I couldn't sleep at all! ARGH!! I couldn't breathe; my stupid sinuses will be the death of me. I swear! I couldn't breathe even though I took this new medicine...well, apparently it didn't do the trick. I went to bed about 11:50 or so, which is a bit earlier than usual actually...*sigh* Well, my sinsues killed, and my mind just wouldn't shut up!! I wanted to cry, but my nose was already stuffed up enough! -__- Whenever I closed my eyes, it was like I was dreaming, but I was awake still...like I would see things and think things and, argh! I don't know, but I sure as heck couldn't sleep. I ended up taking part of a sleeping pill past 2am. *sigh* It's retarded to just lay there in bed for hours and NOT SLEEP. And it sucked extra because today was my early wake-up day, so I got up at 7:40...soooo tired...I just had FYE class, which was, again, useless. I colored in a pic of a dog and a bunny, while others played with playdo...yes, I'm in college. So...umm...yesterday...well, I guess Tuesday first. On tuesday, after fashion [everyone is confused by my fashion marketing class; what it is is the first course for those going into the fashion major, whether to be a buyer, retailer, designer (like me), or anyone else in the fashion industry] I went to my partner's dorm to check out her closet for the presentation due today. We have to come up with 3 outfits, complete with accessories and shoes that have a theme or a color scheme or something. So I spent almost an hour there, first deciding which clothes to use, and then we actually talked! I haven't TALKED with another person, like sat and just talked, in sooo long. ^^;; It was pretty fun actually! You know, "girl-talk"--gossip--and just about anything, like where she came from, our high school experiences...I couldn't believe she actually wanted to talk to me! XD She asked me, "do you have a boyfriend?" I said, "no..." Then she said, "Aww, that's too bad." *laugh* Well, then I asked her the same question, and she also said NO! XD So I copied her, "Aww, that's TOO bad...looks like we're in the same boat then." So anyhoo, I guess it was nice, though I don't think she really likes me as a friend at all...she just wanted someone to talk to, complain to. ^^; After that, mom and I met Derek (my oldest bro) for lunch. Ok, so about yesterday, uhh...I guess it wasn't that interesting. Because I emailed my history teacher about my group project worries, she gave us some time to meet with our groups and talk things out! It was good because I got everyone's email address, and I was very authoritative in telling them what we need done. XD I bet they thought I was obnoxious or bossy, but I can't help it! I don't like group projects because I can't control what's going on really...I need to be organized and have everything known to me. I think I got my point across...^^; My other classes were just the same, nothing interesting. At home, I was tired and crap, but no nap for me! We watched more One Piece, and then I finally made a new wallpaper. :3 I haven't made one in a week! MO was terribly slow yesterday, and it died or something at night...it sucked! So sorry I didn't visit anyone (I visited ONE person, that's it). Anyhoo, sorry again, but here's my new wallpaper. It's of L. XD I said I was going to make one of him, so here it is! It's grungy, dark, and...grungy. Oh, and red! So please download/comment, read my description; let's see if it'll be featured! Though I doubt it. :( Hosted By theOtaku.com. It's finally fall outside! It's chilly, rainy, and cloudy! It started being like this yesterday; before that it was soooooo warm. ^^; I was complaining the whole time, "It's october!! This isn't october weather!!" My mom loved it though...she doesn't like the cold. :( Oh well, it must come sometime. So today I have fashion marketing, but I'm meeing my partner first to reconfirm our outfits and see what jewelry matches and whatnot. I don't know what else is up for today, but oh well. As long as I don't feel depressed (not an easy thing to do!), it's good. Speaking of depression, I'm SO tired of reading posts about people being depressed, having suicidal thoughts, or talking about friend's funerals...:( It's just so sad...within 3 days, I think I read 5 people's posts that said they were going to a friend's funeral after they committed suicide...*sigh* Anyhoo, here's an amv. It was actually made by InfiniteRain141, a good friend here of mine! ^_^ I loved it so much, so here it is! Thanks for visiting me! *hugs* I'm sorry if I haven't done the same as often. Do have a good day, and try to stay cheery (I know, I need to, too)!

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