Monday, August 20, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, manga, yesterday, drawings, wp, today, & sorry

Well, that was fun. ^_^ Reading your comments and answers, that is! Even though I got a lot less comments then usual, it still took me a while to read...and here I thought I was going to have a short post. XD I'm so bad at that. Thanks so much for the comments! *hugs* I love them all, no matter the length. I found it interesting to see your answers...a lot of you wear necklaces almost everyday, some of which having an important significance. Others wear rings, and filo05 is like me and wears a watch! Gi-chan, I suppose tattoos could count...*laugh* I mean, you can't help but wear them everyday! I appreciated the answers to what I look like, too. Most of you haven't seen me, and you just said "pretty" or something along those lines. Innocent Heart, you've never seen a pic of me, right? Yet you guessed correctly! I have light brown hair and green eyes! (and glasses) Good job! EternalParadise, wow, it's been a long time. *hugs* Welcome back. ^^ And thanks to everyone else who commented. *hugs* Especially with encouragement about college and whatnot. Ah, another cloudy morning...I think it might still be raining!! Yesterday was wonderful weather for me. ^_^ It was slightly chilly and rained all day...though a light rain, it was still very nice! Anyhoo, so it still is...I could've slept all day. ^^; I fell asleep naturally last night, without a sleeping pill, but it took a while yet again. I also woke up a lot during the night and morning...I was a bit cold and couldn't get my covers up on me to cover my shoulders. ^^; I also had weird/not so good dreams, but that isn't new. Last night I was looking up ADV manga (you know, the company ADV Films; they released some manga...and have sorta stopped) to see what was up with them. They had licenses to, or at least were releasing, some manga that I really liked. Like Aria, Tactics, and Your and My Secret. They only released 3 volumes of Aria, 2 of Tactics, and ONE of Your and My Secret...the jerks! So like I said, I looked them up on wikipedia to see what it said...and apparently they just stopped...putting things on "permanent hold." >> ARGH. But then it said that Tokyopop is going to take over some of the series...so I really hope that they do! So far I haven't seen any of them continued. -__-; Ok, that was random...but it's been on my mind. I don't read manga online; I like having the manga right there in my hands. XD Anyhoo, so yesterday was a similarly boring day...watched more Survivorman (you see, there was a marathon and we recorded it), finished Princess Tutu (good; I liked the ending...it was sweet), did more of that wretched online course...jeez, I swear it never ends!! -___- I have to finish it by this friday...so I'll have to really buckle down and just do it! I'll have to force myself to not make a wallpaper or visit you guys during that time. ^^; Sorry. :( And wow, I already looked at my list to see who updated...and so many already have for today. It's overwhelming! And I don't know if I can get to everyone...T__T No way... Anyoo, yesterday I was looking through boxes still packed from our move and I found a folder with some of my old drawings! Several of which I haven't ever scanned in...or at least never submitted here. I was in awe at them! I thought they were really good...I was like, "Wow...I used to draw and draw WELL. I remember when I drew this one..." stuff like that. It made me feel sorta depressed!! Since I think I've lost my touch...or at least lost my motivation to draw. ^^; I only make wallpapers that aren't that great...like the Belldandy one I finally submitted. It was featured yesterday, but that's only because I was one of the first to start submitting after Adam fixed it. It was crazy seeing the wallpaper section with 0 wallpapers! Nothing was in it! XD Anyhoo, lots of you have already commented on it so thanks!! If not, please download/comment if you want. I know it isn't great. ^^; Hosted By theOtaku.com. Today...I wanted to do something with Narret...before she leaves for college. T__T But I don't think I will...I always have to get things set up, totally established as a plan before I do anything...and I haven't gotten to talk to her. She's a great friend, and I'll miss her a lot...i wish I could see her, but it doesn't seem like she wants to make an effort to see me. I've tried calling her, messaging her...but she never gets in contact with me...anyhoo...Narret, I wub you to death, and I'm really sorry if we can't see each other before you go. If I don't see her, I think we're going to the mall today...that's what mom said anyway. Sorry, no amv today. I don't feel like looking for one. ^^; *hugs* Umm...I guess that's it. Thanks for visiting me; I'll try to get to some of you...hopefully I can. If I can't, sorry. :( Have a great day!

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Sunday, August 19, 2007

Warning: thanks, post/sleep, college, yesterday, this week, questions, & amv

*hugs* Thanks for all the comments, everyone. It was nice hearing from all of you; some of which haven't commented in a while!! Like Talim, sweetdevil, Krusty, Innocent Heart, and Moon Fangs! Thanks! And I even got a new friend, anime snow girl, thanks a lot! ^_^ You guys don't need to apologize for not commenting a lot...really, I understand! Some of you have already started school or have had other problems to deal with; it's ok. XD MO isn't life itself, and I won't die if you don't comment...though I'll miss ya. And JUNGY, girl!!! Don't go hanging yourself!! T__T I'm sorry for what I said. :( I know you still wub me! Just don't hang yourself on account of me, ok? Lys, wow, you'll have 200 wallpapers soon! That's amazing! I hope the submissions start working then! I think I have 175 or something...not sure. ^^; So yeah, thanks for the sweet words about my mom and sympathy to me for not going to the theme park. It's ok...I was wavering about it anyway. Oh, and yeah, yesterday's post was shorter! ^^; Crazy! Thanks again! I have a feeling today's post might be even shorter! In fact, I was contemplating NOT posting today. O__o I know! What was I thinking? I couldn't go through with it though...cause those of you that like my posts and look forward to them daily (and think that something serious might have happened if I didn't) would be disappointed...or worried. So I'm obviously posting. Don't expect anything interesting though. ^^;; I'm really tired!! I thought I was going to be able to fall asleep quickly last night...since I was tired from multiple nights of sleeplessness...but NO. Ugh. -__- I just laid there for several hours again...and had to take part of a sleeping pill. I just don't get it; I'm tired, but I don't sleep. My mind keeps me up. Sorry, guys, all you ever hear about is my disturbed sleep patterns. >> *thinks for a while* Jee, I forgot what I was going to say...mom just came in and I told her how I slept...-__- so now I forgot what I was going to say! Argh. Well, whatever...this week is my last week of summer...*sigh* T__T Then it's off to college...though I'm commuting anyway. People say that it's going to be such a different experience, but I don't see how. ^^; It's not like I'm living away from home, and the university I'm going to is a small one...and the classrooms look like that of our high school before it was renovated. They also don't treat us like most colleges do...they want you to call in if you're going to be sick; you can't just skip classes. Lots of big colleges don't care if you're there or not, just as long as you get the grade...plus, in those, there's usually such a huge amount of people in one class that the professor wouldn't notice if you were gone anyway. Not in mine. ^^; Other than the odd times of classes, I have a feeling this is just going to be an attachment to high school...a continuation. -__- Umm...so yesterday was boring. Instead of being that exciting day to Hershey Park, it was the same-old routine of staying home...the only difference is that we didn't watch much anime. Instead, watching Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory (the one with Gene Wilder, the original) and this show called Survivorman (this guy is stranded in different types of areas to survive for a week, sometimes without any supplies; it's really interesting!) took its place. I'm on the last episode of Princess Tutu though...it's a good show; I wouldn't say the best ever, but still really good. ^_^ Hmm...I played some FF12 but not much...I didn't get a lot of computer time, and the time I did get I used on doing that darn AlcoholEdu (online course for summer homework). I finally finished "module 1" (there are 3 modules in part one, which I have to finish by this friday...), and man, it took forever. I'm always easily sidetracked though...by visiting etc...and, thanks to Talim, those darn vids on youtube with Steve Blum and Vic Mignogna! >_< So I can't really say that anything else happened yesterday! I also have no clue what's up for today. I hope it rains though...but I doubt it will. Umm...so this is my last week...I'm hoping to see Rush Hour 3 before school starts, and we have tickets to see a baseball game this saturday. Unfortunately, in the morning (and supposedly ALL DAY) is the check-in day at my college...when I have to go and get my picture taken for the ID and whatnot...I'm just hoping I can get out of the rest of the day...because we had plans! I'm going to a baseball game, darn it!! >< Here, if this post was too boring...then here are some questions! ^^; Try to comment on the POST, too! I don't just want answers. XP 1.Do you have a piece of jewelry or an accessory that you always wear? If so, what and does it have any special meaning? [my answer: yes, I always wear a watch. XD ALL the time. Not many people do these days, but I hate being late...and I tend to be OCD about the time and when I'm doing things.] 2.If you could have any pet, what would it be? [me: I want a wolfie. XD But of course, it'd have to be tame...] 3.If you haven't seen a pic of me before, what do you think I look like? (if you have...do you remember what I look like??) 4.Do you have a stuffed animal that you've always treasured? [me: YES. Puffy, my puffalump. I still sleep with him. *nods* ] Ok, those were fun...I guess. ^^; (don't just answer those, ok? Commet, too!) Now for an amv. It's another Aria one. (I've been watching it over lately) The song is "Hello Goodbye" by RoundTable.feat Nino; enjoy! Was this post any longer? Maybe cause of the questions...^^; And to think I wasn't going to post...anyhoo...*hugs* Thanks for visiting me; it means so much. Sorry again for not being better at commenting lately! I try my best though. Have a good day!!

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Saturday, August 18, 2007

Warning: thanks, no fun or sleep, yesterday, other stuff, & amv

Thanks so very much for the comments. I don't know what I'd do without you. :( *hugs* I love you guys to pieces. I don't mind if some of you don't visit often...because I know that you're still quality friends!! So I hope you guys feel the same way about me. ^^;;; But! I did a great job of visiting yesterday...I think I got to everyone! Or, well, almost everyone...sorry if I didn't get to you, but I did a lot better than usual. Anyhoo, thanks for the comments on everything...yes, as I'm typing this the submissions still aren't working correctly on the O so I keep on having to wait to submit my wallpaper. ^^; It isn't that great...I should've been taking this time to fix things up. Oh well. Yes, my poor doggy. He wasn't too sore though so I think he'd doing fine. ^_^ He's much better at getting shots than I am!!! ^^; MUCH better...I cry so much...he barely whined! Anyhoo, Hyli, yes, you need to get back to your long comments...you've been slacking! But I don't mind. XD To those that sleep well, count your blessings! That's really a great "talent" to have. *nods* I wish I could sleep well. Hmm...so yes, thanks to everyone that commented! All the wishes of feeling better and whatnot are much appreciated. I'm going to make this post shorter than usual...or at least try to. You know my attempts at that always fail. *sighs and deletes paragraph that was here* You see, I had this post all written up ahead of time, last night because today WAS going to be something of interest! We were going to actually DO SOMETHING that involved excitement and me not having the usual time in the morning to post. Well, that's changed now...-___- You see, we were going to go to a theme park today--Hershey Park. It was going to be my first trip EVER to a theme park...wooo...well, that's all past-tense. Because my family is how it is, plans get changed quite often to equal "doing nothing"...today it was because my mom had a horrible migraine. :( I don't want her feeling bad, and we certainly didn't want to go without her or anything...so this just means we'll have to go on another date. Oh well. I didn't sleep well either...I'm so tired right now, and my eyes look so terrible. -__-; I woke up at every hour of the morning, somewhat excited and wondering when we'd go... Anyhoo, so yesterday...umm...nothing. Yup, contrary to everything stated in yesterday's post, we did nothing. There was a large fuss in the morning about whether my parents were going to see the Bourne Ultimatum (is that it?) or Rush Hour 3 ...if it were RH3, then they wanted me to come along...well, MOM did. Dad didn't...he wanted to see the other movie really badly, just with mom. Mom wanted me to go with them so I could get out of the house from Corey...*sigh* Well, that didn't exactly happen...after a long discussion, and Corey's control-freak-ness...I just ended up staying home as usual...so my parents went and saw their Bourne movie together. They didn't even like it that much thanks to the horrible camera angles. ^^; So yeah, I was really upset and feeling conflicted during the early part of the day...I honestly just wanted to yell and cry....-__-; Nothing ever goes my way...I'm just a submissive person that always wants what the other one wants instead...so that they'll be happy and there'll be no argument. So yeah, obviously I didn't do anything with Narret. She had family over, and I couldn't really get in touch with her anyway. We'll do something soon I hope. *thinks* I didn't make a new wallpaper...I spent a lot of time looking through images to use for one, but I didn't have the motivation to make one. I played a lot more FF12. I spend a lot of time on games...so my playtimes are usually way higher than they should be where I'm at in the game. ^^;; Umm...let's see...I only have a week left of summer...*sob* I start college the 27th...and there's another stupid orientation/check-in thing the 25th...bleh. :( This sucks!! This summer sucked!!!! >< Jeez...I guess I don't really have anything else to say...I'm always so indecisive! Bah! Sorry, now I'm just blurting out random things... Here's an amv...the song is "Talk of the Town" (or is it Colors I've been dreaming of??) by Jack Johnson. The anime is Aria the Animation (a really relaxing and good show!) Enjoy! Thanks sooo much for visiting me. *hugs* I really think today's post was shorter than usual...wow...sorry. So yeah, thanks again; sorry if I don't visit a lot...and have a good day! [edit: *sigh* My poor mommy...:( She started crying cause she felt bad about us not going...cause she thought it was her fault since she wasn't feeling well. T___T I just hugged her and told her that wasn't true...we'd rather have her feel well than go to a stupid theme park...I want her well...this has gone on for too long. :( Just thought I'd mention this...]

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Friday, August 17, 2007

Warning: thanks, night, narret, yesterday, no wp, boring post, & sorry

Thanks for the comments everyone. Lots of much shorter comments, but that's fine. I still enjoy reading them...and I guess that just proves my point of not writing anything worth commenting on. ^^; Thanks to those that actually write long comments...or try to...I know it's hard with me...-__- And I know you guys are all sick and tired of hearing about my brother, too. Sorry. Anyhoo, thanks for the comments and whatnot on my wallpaper. I'm glad you liked it! Yes, I know the scan of him should've been softer...but I wasn't quite sure how to go about that. ^^; And some people asked about the bottom of the wallpaper..."what's going on there?" Um, nothing? The black is from the bg which were buildings but now looks like sand or something, and then I used the swirly brushes on top...so just decoration I guess. XD Sorry about that. Umm...roseeyes, xanth, Jungy, Kiyo-chan, more friends I haven't heard from in a long time. Poor xanth though...sorry you didn't feel well. :( *hugs* It's ok...to those that apologized for not visiting...I'm sorry, too. I haven't been getting around as much as I'd like to! Thanks again! Umm...no, no alarm clocks, thanks. I'm content with sleeping late...since it's still the summer...though there isn't much left. T__T Especially since I can't ever fall asleep right away...thank you very much, insomnia. Just like last night...it was somewhat funny because while I was trying to go to sleep, I heard Corey get up and go downstairs to put a heat pack in the microwave (don't ask), and then I heard my dad get up and go downstairs as well...to use the bathroom. They met up and started talking; I heard corey come back upstairs, but Dad never did. I think I heard mom still up, about to go to bed, too...an hour or so later, I heard dad was downstairs with the tv on really loud! ^^; I swear, we might as well have just partied...-__- Sleep is so hard to get these days... So I'm pretty tired right now, and I'm not feeling that great. I don't know what's going to happen today because I still haven't confirmed with Narret whether we're going to do something or not...I called her a few times yesterday, but I only reached her once. We got cut off...luckily she was on AIM late last night so we could talk about it...and apparently they're having family over today so she wasn't sure if she could get out of it...before we could make any definite plans, her computer died. *sigh* So now I'm waiting for her to get back online so we can decide something...if we don't do something, my family and I will probably go to the movies, to see Rush Hour 3. I really want to see it. XD I love Jackie Chan movies!! So yeah, I don't know the plans yet for today!! ^^;; Yesterday, as you knew if you read the post...we took Totoro to the vet's. It was just his annual check-up so nothing TOO bad...except for 4 needles being stuck in him. :( Poor thing. 3 shots and blood taken for the heartworm test. He's going to be sore today! We'll just have to pamper him. XD The guy that was the assistant was really scary though...he was just big and grumpy looking...and he never talked to us once! Our vet was nice as usual and laughed at our jokes (mom and I) XD and made conversation, but that assistant...*shudders* He was just creepy. He took Totoro to get weighed, and apparently Totes has gained back some weight...^^; He needs to lose at least a pound the vet said...he needs a diet; the thing is that Corey always feeds him food of any kind all the time...that's why he's fat...-__- I made a new wallpaper, but I didn't submit it. The site is undergoing some maintenance again...so that the submissions aren't working right...like what happened a few times before. It's so annoying!! >.< So yeah, you'll just have to wait to see it...as if it were a wallpaper that was really great and required great suspense before being allowed to see it...which ISN'T the case. ^^; It's of Belldandy from Ah! My Goddess. *sigh* Today's post is a boring one...nothing else really happened yesterday. Played more FF12, watched anime...err, yeah, nothing. Oh, I did do more of that AlcoholEdu (think of it as summer homework before starting my college)...and it's never-ending; I swear!! >> And again, I don't know the plans yet for today...I'm such a schedule-oriented person (concrete-sequential!), but Narret isn't. XD She's totally abstract-random, and is just nonchalant about everything. So I like to have things set up to my knowledge before doing anything!! ^^; *sigh* Yup, I got nothing else. I don't feel like searching out an amv now...so sorry. ^^; Not many people watch them anyway...sorry if you do though. Well, thank you so very much for visiting me! *Hugs* I'm sorry AGAIN for not visiting as much. :( I feel badly about that. Have a wonderful day!

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Thursday, August 16, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep/narret, today, yesterday, book, wp, & amv

Well, I'm back yet again...are you surprised? Disappointed?? Anyhoo...thanks for the comments! It was amusing to read the ones about the lady at Staples not being able to spell "secrets"...yes, she should've repeated elementary school. XD And about my brother, a lot of you just shrugged the info about him off...that's ok...you're just as tired of reading about him as I am seeing him. ^^; Anyhoo, yes, those new friends did want to color in my art! Hazumi Kaze finished the Souseiseki one so click there to see it if you want. So far I'm the only one to vote...so I'm sure she'd appreciate it if you did, too! Oh, and just PM me if you want to color in a drawing of mine. I'd love for you to! Hmm...friends I haven't heard from in a while!! *glomps* Shi-chan, Ali-chan, Thoa-kun, Mi-chan, and Sasori!! Wow, it's seemed like forever for some of you...*huggles* Thanks for remembering me. ^_^ Oh, and about the mailman...mom says we can't switch him...she didn't try to, but she should! He's just too creepy to keep around...yeah, Emi, he DOES put the slip in the mailbox...but that's after 10 minutes of waiting...-__-; *shudders* Anyhoo, thanks again everyone! Argh, I keep on getting up later and later these days...so that I don't have as much morning computer time! >> If I got up earlier, then I could post and visit some people...but lately, I maybe only get to visit one person at this time...anyhoo, I didn't sleep very well. :( My mind was preoccupied with my friend Narret. She said she wants me to call her so we can get together...I was worrying about her and also about the phone call. ^^; Like when I should call...she didn't say...and I don't know if she's working today or not. Plus, I hate calling people. T__T Ugh, anyhoo, so I hope she's ok...apparently, according to her post she had an emotional breakdown yesterday...poor thing...I want to see her before she goes away for college. I hope I find time to call her and set something up. Anyhoo, my sleep...eh...whatever. I had weird dreams involving wishing for wings that ended up being made of chocolate and flying around...trying to get home with mom...I wanted to eat the wings though. XD And another freaky dream...-_- So yeah... It looks nice and cloudy today! I hope that it rains...we haven't gotten any rain for a while, and we need it. Today we have a vet appointment for Totoro (our dog) at 2pm. It's just his annual check-up...to get shots and whatnot. I bet the vet is going to say that he's really fat. *laugh* He IS! Corey feeds him all the time...all sorts of "human food"...he never eats his own dog food. XD Totoro's been limping a lot lately, and the vet said before that it was his back...but he might just say it's his hips...poodles get bad hips in their old age, but Totoro isn't old! He's middle-aged. *nods* He's 6 or 7 years old now...miniature poodles can live up to 15-17 years. Anyhoo, so yesterday...umm...like I said at the end of my post, my brother decided to be a jerk again. He complains and argues about anything and everything, no matter how silly or insignificant. I know you guys don't want to hear it so I won't talk much about it...he gave Totoro a ridiculous hair-cut, mohawk and all (like before)...shaved patches everywhere on his body. -__-; So we told him to redo it so he wouldn't look abused before going to the vet...well, he made a big deal about "Oh, well you didn't tell ME that he was going to the bet...blah blah" and he started blaming us for that and other things again...*sigh* He blamed my mom for missing the package in the morning (you know, with the creepy mailman?) because apparently it was something that he ordered that needed to be signed for...-_- ANYHOO, I "talked back" to him (all I said was "how hard is this?" to mom when trying to fix Totoro's hair) and he got really mad...bleh...he's incorrigible... Sorry, I ended up complaining about him again. Anyhoo, later in the day we went over to the pool...we were going to go in the jacuzzi so I turned the heat on. Well, it didn't WORK. The heater dealie started smoking!! It smelled like fireworks. ^^; So apparently something was on fire in it...or it was just plain old broken...so *turns off heat* we couldn't go in. I just read. I finished the book I was reading, Family Trust, a really cute romantic-comedy by Amanda Brown (author of Legally Blonde; yes, it was a book before a movie; and voice actress of Zoey from Mew Mew Power aka Ichigo from Tokyo Mew Mew; I love her!). I recommend the book to anyone that wants a light read with good humor, backstabbing underhanded biatches, and a sweet little romance. I made a new wallpaper, which was requested by littlemiko11. ^_^ A Spiral one. I haven't seen/read it before, but yeah! I also made her a matching avi to go with it...for her theme. So please download/comment! I'm proud of it. I worked hard on it...so yeah... Hosted By theOtaku.com. I already said what was up for today...oh, great, well, I need to work on that AlcoholEdu for college...it has to be done before the 24th. -__- *reminds self* Anyhoo, here's an amv...I've shown it before, but I'm too lazy to find a new one. The song is "Angels" by Within Temptation, and the anime is Air. Enjoy! Well, thanks a ton for visiting me and putting up with my posts all the time...*hugs* I love you guys. Sorry if I can't get to all of your sites; I try my best. ^^; Have a wonderful day!!

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Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Warning: thanks/bro explanation, sleep/morning, fanart coloring, yesterday, other stuff, & amv

Thank you, thank you! *hugs* Thanks to everyone that commented. T__T This time the comments mainly focused on what a jerk my brother was and has been to me...^^;; I got to read a lot of different approaches to dealing with him and also a lot of different descriptions of him...*nods* A lot of you asked, "How come he hasn't moved out yet?? How can he still live with his parents???" among other questions...well, he just DOES. Because of this certain illness that he got several years ago, he's been "unable" to work or anything...it's a really long and confusing story so I won't go through it. But the point is that he always seems to be in some sort of pain (though now I think he's just a hypochondriac) and that prevents him from doing anything...My dad wants him to get a job, but even he thinks he's not MENTALLY prepared for one...he's right...my brother is messed up in the mind right now...-___- Anyhoo, thanks again for your advice or whatever. Thanks for the comments on my wallpaper; yes, just like me, most of you aren't people that like yellow. XD I totally understand, but it matched the scan so yeah. Hippie25, Grifter, Doas, asialonewolfe, Aya, and Emmah...it's been a while! ^_^ Thanks for not forgetting about me! I understand about being busy so don't worry. Anyhoo, thanks again. Sorry, that wasn't much replying...it was just attempts at briefly explaining my brother. ^^; But whatever...anyhoo...so it took me about 2 hours to fall asleep, but at least I did. I was tempted to take a sleeping pill, too, but I didn't! I had odd dreams that involved school...T___T Noo! I don't want to go!!!! And umm...other disturbing dreams...I was awakened this morning due to that darn perverted stalker mailman ringing the doorbell again...>> After he rang the doorbell, I thought he left in his truck cause I heard it start up, but apparently he just drove up TO the mailbox and sat by it...and sat...for who knows how long???!! He was probably staring at our house again...*shudders* He's so creepy! I got a couple of new friends yesterday, Hazumi Kaze and Mizuki-Air. They're both VERY new to the site...but anyhoo, they offered to color in a couple of my drawings! My Souseiseki and Cardcaptor Sakura drawings...no one's ever wanted to color in my lineart before. ^^; I look forward to seeing the end results. No one ever seems to look at my old fanart, just my wallpapers. XD I haven't drawn in a long time...I'm soooo lazy, and I've also lost confidence in myself. Oh well. So you guys can visit them if you want! ^_^ Now then...yesterday...it was a much better day. ^^;; That's just how it is with siblings I suppose...or family members in general...if they and you are forgiving. Corey wasn't mean to me yesterday; in fact, he almost seemed nice. ALMOST. He didn't apologize, but he did other things that are sort of like his way of saying sorry...even though they're simple gestures that most people would do if they're polite, they're uncommon for him...things like pouring my milk for dinner and bringing the cup to me...umm...saying things to me that were somewhat like compliments...I don't know...*laugh* I really don't remember, but I just know that he didn't say anything more mean to me. ^^;; Also, my mom and I went out to do some errands without him so I got a break from him. We went to Staples to pick up these "business cards" my dad wanted...I'll talk a little bit about that. XD So we get there at Staples and just started looking around...pens...paper, you know, the usual office-supply stuff. After meandering around we went over to the copy center to pick up my dad's stuff. We got the cards and just as we were about to check out, we read them...and noticed a SPELLING ERROR. XD The lady spelled "secrets" wrong...she spelled it "seCERTS". So after going back to her and showing her the mistake, she looked at it for a while and said, "What's wrong with it? How's it supposed to be spelled??" -__-; So we spelled "secrets" for her at least 3 times before she got it...wow. So we waited there for her to finish (we thought it'd be quick) for about 20 minutes or more...she wasn't done...so we left to come back later. My dad ended up going back in the evening and got them, all fixed up, and this time in color (but he paid for black and white; the price is lower!). So I guess cause the lady was so stupid and took forever, he gave him a deal. XD We just did other little errands here and there, like going to this grocery store I've never been in before...it was so different! I don't know why, but it just seemed really cool to me...all of the shelves seemed stacked high with cans and everything! It was exciting. XD But anyhoo, nothing else really happened. I didn't get any computer time...sorry. So no wallpaper and I barely got to visit people again. T__T *hugs* Please forgive me!! I played some FF12...and that's it. Umm...so, yeah...I don't know what's up for today. My mom and Corey were supposed to go to the chiropractor, but now he's saying that he doesn't want to go. XP So my time to myself won't happen I guess...*sigh* So I don't know what'll go on today! Sorry ahead of time if I don't get to visit (as if that's any different than usual). Ok, amv time! The song is "Kingdom Burning Down" by Vanilla Ninja, and the anime is Wolf's Rain. Enjoy! I really like this one. Thanks for taking the time to visit me. I know it uses up a lot! ^^; *hugs* And thanks for all of your support with everything...I hope that things go well for all of you, as well as me. ^^; Have a good day! [edit: That day of peace from him has ended...-___- Only less than an hour into the day...and he's already been a total jerk to my mom and I. *sigh* So I guess I can't really say that he was "nice"...he never is, and that's that!!!]

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Tuesday, August 14, 2007

Warning: thanks, stressed sleep, terrible yesterday, wp, today, & amv

T__T *hugs* Thanks for the comments, you guys...my amount is going down, but that's understandable, and I don't mind! I always get wonderful comments from wonderful friends...thank you. *hugs* Driffter, Marisela, Imasyon, and littlemiko!! It's been quite a while since I last heard from you guys. ^_^ I'm glad you took some time to visit me. Littlemiko, you know I'm always willing to talk with you about your problems. *hugs* I have before. *nods* Yug, you see how I'm feeling, and that's similar to your sister so I suggest you being nicer to her!! *nods* Anyhoo, thanks to everyone for your sweet words of advice and encouragement about everything. :( I really appreciate it...I can't say that it's totally cheered me up, but it gave me some good insight and...errr, yeah. I know you guys care for me, and I thank you so very much. *hugs* Caring for a person you don't even know in person...it's crazy, but that's what we do here. ^_^ Umm...I'm really tired. ^^; I didn't sleep well at all last night...thanks to a lot of things...all stress-related. *sigh* I had a horrible stomachache again...I felt nauseous, too....-__- I tossed and turned and didn't feel better at all...and I had a lot of things on my mind that were bothering me...since yesterday was a really stressful and bad day for me. T_T So I just had to take a piece of a sleeping pill to fall asleep...I don't think I would've slept at all if I didn't...I woke up a lot, too...still not feeling well...now I feel a little better though...oh, and another thing is that one of my wisdom teeth is coming through, and it hurts. I can't even close my mouth without feeling this pinching sensation. T__T I don't want to go to the dentist and have them say "Oh, we'll have to pull them..." Ugh... You don't have to read this if you don't want to...it's about what happened yesterday, but it's similar to what I'm always complaining about. Anyhoo, so after an ok morning getting along with Corey, he got the mail...yay, a delivery. You see, we ordered some DVD's from animecastle (an anime store online) a week or so ago, and we've been waiting for them. So he opens the box only to find that all of the DVD's are in horrible shape...the covers and everything are wrinkled and wet...we later found out that the store had a "minor flood" and that, well, ruined some of their merchandise. -__- So Corey got really mad about that...but even more so at the fact that one of the dvd's was the wrong volume...so he turned immediately to blaming me because I was the one that ordered (with mom). *sigh* Blaming, blaming...guilt trip....mean...yelling...everything...I wanted to cry so badly, but I didn't...he would've just made fun of me more or something... I called mom while we were making lunch, and I couldn't really say much since Corey was right there...but mom got the hints that he was rude to me again...and that I wanted to cry. T___T I was about to over the phone...I should've...*sigh* When dad got home, he tried to cheer me up because mom called him and told him what happened...so when he did make me laugh, I laughed so hard...that's when tears came out. Anyhoo, so the day proceeded with me still upset at my brother because he never apologizes, and he was angry at the situation all day...still holding it against me...putting me on a guilt trip for the whole day...even at night, when he watched me place orders elsewhere to get those darn DVD's, so I wouldn't "screw up again." *sigh* Nothing my parents say to him changes him...Lys, I wish that my parents could put him in his place, but he's an adult of 26 years. He doesn't readily change his personality or way of doing things...even when I say something about it... So I was really stressed out from the day, obviously, and that's probably what made me feel sick. I was also upset that the internet decided to die downstairs...so when I got my computer time, I couldn't even do anything. *sigh* Sorry. :( I ended up just working on that "failure" wallpaper that I wasted an hour on 3 days ago...I didn't really have a choice. Then I burned it to a CD and submitted it from the laptop. I knew it wouldn't get featured; oh well. Please comment/download if you want. Hosted By theOtaku.com. -__- So after a miserable yesterday, I hope that today goes better...though it's already started badly for my dad, who went over to the old house to get it looking good for an open house today...and he noticed that there's a leak in the basement and other things. He's really stressed over the house; we need to sell it!! T___T Ugh, this summer has sucked...and now i only have less than 2 weeks left...I still need to do that homework crap before the 24th... Anyhoo, here's an amv. I liked yesterday's...Peacemaker Kurogane is a really good anime. Today is a Honey & Clover one (thanks again, filo05, for making me that wallpaper!!). The song is "Believe"...but I don't know the singer or anything. Enjoy! Thanks for visiting me. Sorry if this post was repetitive or just depressing. T__T I can't help it...*hugs* Thanks for everything, and sorry about my lack of visits. Have a good day!

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Monday, August 13, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, yesterday, insignificant, & amv

Thankies for the comments. *hugs* I got several from people who haven't been around in a while!! Like ulterego, ichigirl, MDA, Amila, and bishieluver!! Thanks so much!! I've missed you, and it certainly was quite the surprise hearing from some of you. ^_^ Thanks for coming back, even if it was just for one post! I would've had very few comments if you guys didn't happen to come here yesterday. XD Especially since 9breaker, you commented twice! It was humorous to read the same comment, just slightly different. You must've forgotten that you already commented! Anyhoo, some of you are the same as me: really scared of bees, but others (like 9breaker) don't mind them...even befriends them! I couldn't imagine doing that. *shakes head* How do you even PET a bee?? Umm...I'm glad you liked the wallpaper; it was featured all day, and I got so many downloads! I couldn't believe it. ^^; How is it that I get more downloads on one that I barely spent time on?? Oh well. Oh, and I'm glad you like the new theme. Thanks again everyone! I'm pretty tired this morning...I fell asleep pretty well though...but I just woke up a lot. Weird dreams, realistic dreams, dreams that just made me wake up right away. :( Plus, I didn't feel well...hopefully my stomach ache goes away. Having that and feeling hot and cold throughout the night didn't help...but whatever. *sigh* Nothing else to say. Hmmm...*thinks* I forgot what I was going to say here...-___-; Errr...stupid memory!! >< *thinks more* Oh well, I guess I'll talk about yesterday then!! Nothing happened yesterday! Isn't that surprising??? We didn't go out at all...well, mom and dad did, but they just did errands. I, like usual, had to stay home with Corey...*sigh* I got to play some FF12; we watched more anime (re-watching Muteki Kanban Musume, very funny); I got a little computer time...I didn't make a wallpaper, sorry. It's not like it'd be that great anyway...I really envy those people that can make really great ones all the time! Like Sesshy, Lys, Shishou, filo05, sweetdevil...T___T I know you guys say mine are really great, but they aren't...when one of them says that my wallpaper needs a lot of work, then I KNOW it does...v_v Anyhoo...I'm just going to rant on something here...something that I seem to do a lot...but, ugh, I'm really tired of...I don't know...this life I'm living?? No, don't worry, I'm not suicidal...I just wish certain things in it were better. You know why I like to post here everyday?? It's because at least this way I get out the things that are bothering me or I actually get feedback from what I say! I'm not being totally ignored...being in the house with my brother almost all the time makes me feel insignificant. He never listens to anything I say...if I try to tell him something I find interesting (maybe like my dreams), he doesn't make any sound of acknowledgment as if he heard what I said...he just ignores. He doesn't talk to ME, he talks to our DOG...things that should be directed towards me or things maybe about me (said rudely) are said to our dog. "Right, Totoro?" T___T The only person I can talk to and complain about things or whatever is my mom...I tell her my dreams and everything, and she listens! But I can't always talk to her, especially since I'm with Corey for most of the day...but he never gives me any credit...also, nothing is ever mine. It's either shared or his. If I want something for myself, then I'm deemed "selfish" or "greedy." I know, I went over this before... Sorry...but I need to get that out of my system...I'm tired of being treated like an inanimate object...scratch that, he values those more than me...*sigh* Sometimes I do wonder what it'd be like if I died. Would he even care?? Who knows...jeez...sorry for going on and on about this problem that you're tired of hearing about. :( I just have nothing else interesting to talk about, I guess...I still have that crap to do before school starts...and I have to find SOME WAY to get out of that all-day orientation the saturday before the first day...T__T Ugh. Sorry, boring today...and not feeling great...I'll just show an amv like usual...The song is "Cool Vibes" by Vanilla Ninja (they're songs are really good! just starting listening to them yesterday), and the anime is Peacemaker Kurogane (I love that show!). Well, thanks for visiting me...I think this post was shorter than usual...probably...I don't think anything is up for today either, but um, sorry if I don't visit. *hugs* Have a good day!!

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Sunday, August 12, 2007

Warning: thanks, dream, new theme, yesterday, wp, & amv

Awww, thanks for the comments. *hugs* Steph, it's true!! I just have this sinking feeling that people will just abandon me and stop being my friend if I don't visit...I think that's happened with some people already. *sigh* So that's why I'm so thankful to those that stick with me! ^^; I'm sorry again about not much visiting. :( Anyhoo, Fox, Rachew, Emi (I'm still calling you that, Chupacabra!!), Kazusa, and Yug!!! *glomps* It's been quite a while!! For some...it's seemed like months!! ^__^ Welcome back...though you probably won't comment again to see this thanks. XD But thanks nonetheless! I was amazed at getting over 20 comments on a Saturday...that usually doesn't happen...anyhoo, Angelbest, I was slightly confused about your comment! Though I see Steph has a part in that...she's the sorcerer that transfered your soul to a mortal body, mummy-man? ^_^; I'm so confused! Hah. Anyhoo, thanks again to everyone for your comments. *yawns* -__- I'm still tired! I fell asleep fine, but I woke up a lot with scary dreams...and really weird dreams, but whatever they were, they were all really vivid! Like I could write a whole story on them like Nana does with his! ^^; I won't though...that would take too much of your time! I'll just say the one that really scared me (the other could've been a movie...and it seemed like I had it before!). The one that scared me awake involved a lot of bees! >< As you may/may not know I'm scared to death of bees, wasps, anything of the sort...and in my dream, my house was swarming with them because my dad left the door open. (there must've been a lot outside then!) This was happening in my OLD house though...and when mom and I went through the dining room to get to the garage and find some poison stuff, we saw that they were making hives in there!! T___T Shortly after that, I woke up...and it wasn't easy for me to fall back to sleep...I kept on thinking that there were bees in my room...and I kept itching, thinking they were on me...*sigh* When I fell back to sleep, I had two other dreams that actually connected to one another...but I won't bother mentioning them... As you can see (and as some of you noticed yesterday), I changed my theme! It isn't the one that I was waiting for by Sweet-Mizuki though; I just changed the bg's and my avi to the one GIDRA made for me. ^^ This bg was one of the first I used on MO! Way back when...so I decided to re-use it! It's amazing that I've kept up a theme with Air (or just Misuzu, rather) for over a year! Except that I sorta made an exception during october through january of this past year...and used other ones. XD But other than that, it's been all Air! So, yeah, I like this one...all pretty and angelic. I'm glad you like it (and I hope you like it, to those that didn't see it). Yesterday was...hmm...I'm not sure...^^; We went over to our old house to "spruce it up", but when we got there, people were taking a tour of the house!! I mean, that's a GOOD thing though...since hopefully they'll like it enough to buy it! It just changed our plans a bit. Dad ended up doing the painting of the deck by himself, and there really wasn't much else to do. So when the people left (they had two kids; a little girl and a baby...the girl was so cute. ^^) we went up to the pool to enjoy it. We brought along peanut butter and jelly and bread to make sandwiches. XD It was like having a little picnic! Then I read some, and then went into the jacuzzi. That took up most of the day...just being there... When we got home, Corey and I watched some anime (finished Angelic Layer) and then I got "me time." I made a wallpaper...after spending over an hour on another wallpaper that ended up as a failure. -__- It was such a waste of time! Instead of making that one, I could've been doing that stupid AlcoholEdu (Kaisap, it's this online course my university is having us do...it's about alcohol, its effects, etc.) or visiting...which I didn't do a lot of. I was feeling even MORE anti-social yesterday. *sigh* And more depressed than before...so I really wasn't up for anything. I got to maybe 3, 4 people? -_- *sigh* I was also bothered yesterday by this other orientation that's on the weekend before the first day of school...it says it's "mandatory", but I don't see how that's possible! I'm not going to waste my last weekend by STAYING there! I'm commuting, not a resident...T___T So I have to find some way to get out of it...*sigh* Here's my new wallpaper...it's featured, which is awesome...I didn't think it was going to be. I made it really simplistic, sort of like my old style...since my newer ones seem to get worse...-___-; So please comment/download if you want. Thanks! Hosted By theOtaku.com. I don't know what's up for today...maybe nothing, maybe a movie...I don't know. *sigh* So here's an amv. It's another Air one, this time with clips and whatnot from the game (I have it on Dreamcast XD). This one's really well made...I'm always in awe when I see it! The song is "Himawari"...don't know who it's by though. Enjoy! Well, thanks as usual for visiting me. *hugs* I appreciate it a lot. T__T Don't think that I've abandoned you guys! Sorry again for my lack of comments and whatnot...I just need to get over this, umm, bump in the road...have a great day!

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Saturday, August 11, 2007

Warning: thanks, morning barking, avi/theme, yesterday/surveys, cool weather/today, & amv

Thanks, you guys. *hugs* Thank you for all the comments!! I still can't believe that I got 20...I would've thought that by now my amount would've gone down...I mean it has, but whatever. ^__^ I don't care about the amount because no matter how many I get, I know that they're quality! From great friends. So thanks again for still reading my posts despite their length and my lack of comments lately. T___T *sigh* Umm...thanks for the encouragement with my "social exhaustion"...I love you guys (thanks for the hugs *hugs*). And about my dad at the orientation, I'm glad you all thought it was funny! Gi-chan, you said it was good luck?? I had no clue that it was good luck to be pooped on by a bird...huh. XD And about my friend Karen, don't worry...she apologized, and I forgave her...she's been frustrated lately, too. I don't think this summer has been very good for anyone...^^; Thanks also for the downloads and comments on my wallpaper (it got featured!); most of you said you loved it, but sweetdevil gave me major constructive criticism (thanks, I suppose ^^;). T__T I knew it wasn't that good. *sigh* Um, but yeah, thanks again everyone! Well, I fell asleep again well last night! I was amazed at that...I didn't think I would since it's not like I woke up early yesterday or did anything really. ^^; But whatever, I'll take that! This morning, however, was like yesterday's! Dogs barking like crazy! The neighbors' dogs started barking at 7am! >.< I didn't know why, but they did! Then later at 8, Totoro started barking like crazy, too! So my mom took him out if his cage to put him in her room, but he was still mad. ^^; So I didn't sleep that well this morning, but oh well. Dad and Corey actually went fishing this morning. EARLY MORNING. It was amazingly crazy that Corey actually suggested it! O__o He never gets out of bed before noon! Too bad they didn't go later...when I could take advantage of their being gone though...well, they're back now. You probably noticed that avi at the top of my post! Well, my dear friend Gi-chan (GIDRA) made it for me! *hugs her* Isn't it cool?? Once I get my new theme (I've been waiting for it. ^^; Sweet-Mizuki made me one, but she hasn't been on in a while to actually send it to me...err...give it to me or whatever) I'll change my avi to that one! ^_^ Thanks again, Gi-chan! So yesterday was somewhat uneventful! I played FF12 some more and had some time away from my brother because he went to his acupuncture. But unfortunately, I didn't make a wallpaper or anything during that time...because I wanted to get done some of that darn online crap that I have to do before school starts!! My university just LOVES surveys! My goodness. So I finished that one...it was 100 questions, all basically repeating the same question in different ways. "Have you had trouble in math before? Have you found yourself enjoying challenging math problems? Have you ever thought of getting help with math?" And the same pattern for the other subjects...-_- At least that's done...but then I started more of that darn AlcoholEdu (wow, grant, your sister had to do that, too? Huh! That's funny!), and I'm still nowhere near done. *sigh* My eyes were so tired from looking at the computer for that stuff that I couldn't manage to make another craptacular wallpaper. -__-; Although I said I was socially exhausted, that didn't keep me away from you guys...I managed to visit more than I thought I would. *hugs* After a stifling hot morning yesterday, clouds came in and it cooled off...then it rained a little, and by nighttime it was a very cool 57 degrees Fahrenheit! It was like autumn out there...so today it should be somewhat nice as well! I hope it lasts for a while...cause I don't like hot and humid days. Anyhoo, today dad planned to have us go over to the old house and do more sprucing up...*sigh* We have to paint the deck or something...T___T Not fun!! Sure, we can enjoy the pool, too, but work comes first!! So today will be another busy day...sorry as usual if I don't visit you... Now for an amv I guess. I'm not interesting. XD I wish I knew how to make them, too...but I don't. Anyhoo, I might've shown this one before...but I love it!! T__T The one part makes me want to cry. The song is "Agape" by Melocure (from UFO Princess Valkyrie), and the anime is Air! Enjoy! Thanks for visiting me...and really, putting up with me. *Hugs* I love you guys. Sorry for anything and everything. Have a good day! P.S. I changed my theme, though this isn't the one by Mizuki that I mentioned earlier. ^^; I just changed the bg and whatnot. ^__^ I hope you like it.

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