Friday, August 10, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, orientation, dad, friend stress, wp, no summer, & amv

T________T *hugs* Thanks a ton for the comments...yes, I know I said I wasn't going to post yesterday...but I just HAD to get out that frustration...as you could tell. ^^; And thanks a lot for the sympathy and whatnot about those guys! I got a lot of equally angry comments, which made me laugh. Several of you would've slapped him, some just curse him out, and others would've fought back verbally with "Well, how many girlfriends have you had??" I obviously didn't do any of those things, and I didn't talk to Kin at all about it...anyhoo, thanks again. And about eating healthfully, well, it's not like I'm totally unhealthy. I think it was just that stressful day that affected me. Though, I admit, I still eat as many sweets as L. XD They're just balanced with other healthier things. Anyhoo, thanks for the comfort with being stressed and the luck for my orientation...I'll talk about that today. *hugs* Thanks again! I probably could've slept a lot this morning...but I didn't...I at least fell asleep quickly thanks to being tired from waking up early!! I hate waking up early for things. >.< But at least that makes me sleep well. ^^; The neighbor's stupid dogs were barking a lot this morning though, so that woke me up...then I had that darn anxiety feeling again. I don't like it at all...my heart beats so fast and for no reason! *sigh* But I'm just glad I slept naturally. Ok, so yesterday was that orientation. I have to say that it wasn't TOO bad...I really worried a lot over nothing (I always do that...I worry and am so afraid of the "unknown"). It was just really boring and involved a lot of information-spewing. People talked to us about a lot of things, most of which I don't remember, and we were taken in groups with our similar majors. Several girls were also in fashion marketing (I was surprised! I thought there were only going to be a few), and one of them, Sarah, talked to me right off the bat. So I sorta made friends with her. She was nice, and we stuck together for most of the time, until lunch...when she met this other girl and guy. -_- I made another friend (kind of), Jessie, who doesn't have the same major as me though...but we'll have that FYE class together. She looked like she was into anime and video games so that's why I took to her. XD We didn't talk about hobbies though so I'm not sure. Anyhoo, the funny things that happened yesterday involved my dad. After we finished lunch, we wondered around campus trying to find some things that my dad was interested in getting for me (parking pass etc.)...so we were outside for a TINY bit, and then he opened the door and went back in. A while later, when he was talking to this lady in an office (there are a ton of offices there...) I looked at his jacket (he had a suit on)...only to notice some white substance on it. "Hmm...what's that? Eewwww!! It's bird poo!!!" XD So during that little time we were outside, a bird must've pooped on my dad's jacket. I told him, and he was quite surprised and upset. Hah, he was walking around with bird poo on him. Another funny thing was that...well, my dad loves taking naps, and he didn't miss his opportunity yesterday. ^^; While the parents were in the library (we kids had another presentation to sit through), he went to "read a book." He ended up falling asleep there...and when he woke up, they were all gone. XD Only my dad could do that... So, yeah, it wasn't that bad...but they did give us MORE THINGS TO DO before school actually starts. --_-- That means more stress. *sigh* Another thing online to do, along with that stupid AlcoholEdu course, and there's also another orientation day, Saturday the 25th (27th is first day)...*sigh* I don't want to go...I want my summer back!! T__T Well, when I got home, more bad things happened, increasing my stress and depression. I'm so socially exhausted...you know my friend Karen? That set up the mall trip? Well, she sent me this email about how I'm "insensitive" to other people and how she felt like I just cared about Kin during the trip...that I didn't enjoy being with her because Kin was always off with those guys. T__T She said other rude things to me, which were NOT true...it wasn't like that at all!!! And she even mentioned that ex-friend who totally ruined me emotionally...that was a "low blow" sorta thing...*sigh* So I was just so sick of friends at that point that I really didn't visit anyone...she called and apologized about it, but I don't care...-_- I made a wallpaper...so please comment and download! I wanted to make a depressing one cause that's how I was feeling, but it didn't end up that way... I know it isn't great...I suck...I should stop making them. ^^; Hosted By theOtaku.com. This post is getting long...but oh well! Just bare with me please!! *sigh* Yes, I've been quite stressed lately with a lot of things!! I'm just really tired of this summer...it wasn't much of a summer...I want it back...it was supposed to be MY SUMMER, not the summer yet again controlled by my brother and ruined by stupid friendships. And I'm sorry again that I haven't visited a lot lately...like I said, I'm pretty "socially exhausted" at this point...I may read your post, but I probably won't comment...and if I comment, then you're lucky...really...I'm sorry. T___T I also barely get any time to do so anyway...here's an amv...the song is "that's what girls do" by No Secrets, and the anime is Tiny Snow Fairy Sugar (I love it!!!) -_________-; Again, please forgive me...I tortured you with another huge post...and my lack of commenting sure doesn't help. *hugs* Thanks so much for staying my friends...I really appreciate it...have a good day!

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Thursday, August 9, 2007

Warning: written ahead, thanks, today, crappy mall trip yesterday with rude guys, & sorry again

(written last night as if it were today to save time...man..I'm so tired...I hate getting up early! >< Sorry, I said I might not post...but I still did...) Well, since I have to get ready early for that darn college orientation today...I'm writing this ahead of time...bleh, I don't like doing that...especially since I can't really reply to the comments! :( [I have, like, 3 days of comments to catch up on reading...] Well, anyhoo, thanks for all the comments! You guys are the best! *hugs* I really appreciate them all the time...but then again, why wouldn't I? Thanks to those that downloaded/commented on my wallpaper and wished me good luck today...and also wished me well with my mall trip...^^; I'll talk about that now...I'm going to make this post short because, well, I wasn't even going to post today. ^^;;; So I'm sorry... The mall trip wasn't all that great...*sigh* I honestly can't count how many times I sighed yesterday, whether it be at the mall or when I got home...*sighs again* Ok, so I got there somewhat late because my mom took forever (which I knew she would do) to get ready. I get there and meet up with my friends; it was great seeing them again--Kin, Karen, Laura (Karen's twin sister), and Kristen. I gave them all hugs and it was all good...until we all got our food (my "lunch" consisting of just a milk shake; I'm becoming less and less healthy with my eating...I think I'm turning into L. XD I've eaten nothing but sweets this summer!) and we had to meet those "friends" of Kin that she invited...this guy she met at her orientation and his best friend (ALSO a guy)...I'm not comfortable around guys at all...it's seemed to have projected into more of a phobia lately. ^^;; Seriously...*sigh* Anyhoo...I wasn't comfortable sitting with them or being near them at all...Kin talked with them the whole time... That's the problem with her; she always has to have someone else come along when we get together!! It's like she doesn't want to hang out with just us...:( Anyway, so we first headed off to this clothes store that I didn't want to be in at all...it was SO BORING. We were there for 40 f-ing minutes. And during those 40 minutes, the one guy presented himself to be VERY RUDE to me....jeez...this is the first time he talked to me and Karen...he asked, "So...how many boyfriends has Kin had?" We looked at each other surprised and answered, "Umm...1? Yeah, one I guess..." He said, "Oh...wow. She's only had ONE? And she's 20? Crazy...so, um, how many boyfriends have you guys had?" *sigh* Karen: "One. *laughs*" Me: "Zero." [SO??? So what if I haven't?? HUH????] The guy: "Oh...I'm sorry about that...so, is Kin rich?" [duh, you could tell he was interested in her...] Karen and I laughed and both said, "Uh, no...she's average...NOT rich. XD" Well, he seemed disappointed and then asked us where we like to spend our money and on what. Me: "I like Hot Topic." Him: "Oh...you like THAT place? It's...interesting...I've never been there..." [translation: "eewww...I can't believe you shop there! I hate that place; it scares me."] Then I said I liked buying manga and books...again, his answer consisted of "Oh, you're into THAT stuff?" He laughed at me...what a jerk... *sigh* So anyhoo, that part of the day really got to me...those guys were horrible...I didn't have any fun...I just wanted to go to Borders, which I did...and got 3 manga (yay)...I was so glad to go home, but then Corey got on my nerves anyway...*sigh* So MORE sighing ensued...needless to say that I was pretty depressed and also extremely nervous about this whole orientation thing...T___T I barely ate anything, and I went to the bathroom a lot...>> let's just say: me + social events = stressed out, exhausted, and a nervous wreck. Anyhoo, today's that darn orientation...I'm really nervous, and I don't want to go. I hope that it goes alright. *sigh* My dad's going with me...which I didn't want, but my mom couldn't go due to her allergies to newly renovated buildings (which my college has been). *triple sigh* Sorry I didn't visit anyone yesterday either...I didn't get the time...I got to like 5 people...I'm really sorry...and today will be worse. Really, please forgive me. V__V I feel so badly about it...*hugs* Thanks for sticking with me though...I'm really sorry again...*sigh* And, um, no amv today...I also made this post really long and involved with that mall trip...I bet you're all bored by it...but it just bothered me a lot, and I needed to get it off my chest...Thanks again for visiting me. Do have a good day for me!

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Wednesday, August 8, 2007

Warning: thanks, personality, morning/today, yesterday/wp, tomorrow, & amv

Nyuuu~. *hugs* Thanks for the comments. I don't care if you think I thank too much because it's just what I do!! Right, obnoxious? I haven't changed in that year you were gone at all. XD I haven't read all of the comments, but I did get to some and skimmed others. I'll read them all later...whenever I can. ^^; *hugs* Thanks a lot to more people I haven't heard from in a while!! GetyourownRoxas, Spirit, angel kitsune, Reth-chan, and Iruka sensei!! ^__^ For some of you, it's been like 2 months or more! Hah. ^^ Thanks for everyone's answers on my questions. I know, I'm not creative. :( I ask the same one about my posts every time! I'm just so darn self-conscious. Anyhoo, I also thought that the question about meeting me would be a real simple answer, but some of them I got whole life-story answers. XD If you don't want to meet me, then that's fine! *hugs* I'd be nervous as heck, too. Yeah, no wallpaper in yesterday's post, but I did make one you can check out today. Reth-chan, you asked ME questions! How interesting. I'll answer them later then. Thanks again for everything! Nope, nope...I never change! I'm just too darn OCD or concrete-sequential. I guess that's one of the reasons why I would think you guys were tired of me! I never have anything new or exciting in the order or my posts! But oh well! I should just have the mindset of some people who say, "This is my post and site, and I'll do what I want with it! If the post is long, then so be it!" I'm always so conscious of what others want though. :( Pleasing others...that's all I think I'm good at...or at least, that's all I seem to do. I think it's selfish of me to do something for myself...though some people say "no, you SHOULD be doing things for yourself. Be selfish sometimes!! It's YOUR life!" Hah...well, I don't know...it never seems to be just my life...anyhoo...hooray! Off-topic! Something different! I'm mulling over my personality! NOW I'll talk about my sleep. It was the same as the night before....except I didn't have any dreams with Trumbo (the gym teacher) in it, thank goodness. I don't remember my dreams at all this time. I woke up at 5:30am to hear some nice rain...ahh...I love the rain...it's a shame that's when it was...and not when I was awake to enjoy it! T__T Then I woke up again at 9-ish (rain gone) with that darn anxiety feeling...I just laid there until about 10:20. I have a reason for the anxiety today though...(even though it doesn't make sense) I'm going to the mall with some friends!! Friends...I haven't seen them in about a month or more...can you believe that? I've been anti-social and locked in my house for a month at least...that's why I'm glad I have you guys. XD Anyhoo, so I'm meeting these friends at the mall, and we'll be there until 3. (3 hours shopping??? O_o) The one friend, Kin, always seems to do something that messes things up though...*laugh* We can never have her to ourselves! Last time she brought her mom along! And now she's bringing some guy she met at her orientation and his best friend! (who I'm hoping is a girl) *sigh* So yeah, I'm just a bit nervous since I've never been very social... Yesterday...I enjoyed the time away from my brother. I visited (so many people updated though; I didn't get to everyone), made a new wallpaper, PM-ed some people, replied to emails, and played FF12. I got to play a lot of FF12 actually...about 3 hours (not one sitting)...it's fun, but I don't think of it as a final Fantasy. The fighting system is so different and all...but anyhoo, I also downloaded a lot of anime and game mp3s. That was at the "request" of my brother though...umm...about the wallpaper, this was an "art trade" if you will with AurionAddict (Rachew!!). She's always complimenting my wallpapers, and I'm always in love with her drawings...so we made each other request something. *laugh* I requested an L drawing (it's up in my profile now; the real one is much larger than that though), and she requested a HunterXHunter wallpaper. I worked hard on the bg!! I like how it turned out, though not perfect. Please download/comment. Thanks to those that did! Hosted By theOtaku.com. So like I said, today I'm going to the mall with my friends...I hope that it goes alright. ^^;; I always get so nervous when doing social things...and tomorrow's going to be worse!! I have my college orientation tomorrow! TT^TT It's from 9am to 4pm...practically the whole day...that means waking up earlier!! And a lot of stress probably...I'm not looking forward to it...because of that, I MIGHT NOT POST. If I do, it'll either be really short or later in the day...so don't be alarmed!! ^^; I'm afraid! I don't wanna... Now for an amv! I had this idea that would make a great amv...so I looked for it. *laugh* And someone DID make it! I thought it could've been made better though...but oh well. If only I knew how to make them. XD The song is the Rozen Maiden opening song by Ali Project, and the anime is Princess Tutu. The lyrics match the series well, and that's why I thought...but anyhoo...enjoy! Thank you SOOOOOO much for visiting me. *huggles* I really appreciate it. Sorry if I don't get to visit you guys today or tomorrow...since I'll be busy. :( Sorry!! Have a good day!

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Tuesday, August 7, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep, today, yesterday, questions, mall & amv

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww...*huggles* T___T You guys are so great...you're too good to me...honestly. Thanks for all of your comments to try and cheer me up and whatnot. I'm sorry if I worried you or anything...*hugs* Everything that you guys said did help! Steph, even your hitting me with a pillow. XD Reth-chan, I enjoyed reading your mini-post within your comment about your kitties! I hope that everything goes alright for them. Rachew!!! (AurionAddict) A comment! Yay! *huggles* And thanks again for your adorable L pic you drew me (it's now in my profile). ^_^ Obnoxious!! OMG, it's been 2 months short of a year! *glomps* I could never forget you. I'm so glad to hear from you again! Thanks again to everyone for your tips on getting sleep (lots recommending a white noise thing) and your many hugs to make me feel better (Gi-chan ^^ I added utada's "First Love" to my playlist for ya). So, yeah, thanks again. *hugs* I seriously think that I thank too much...^_^; But that's just what I do! Some people have replies to comments, all of their names separated and organized...but I just do one big paragraph all lumped together. XD Anyhoo, as for my sleep...I fell asleep after about an hour of laying there...because I took a half of a sleeping pill. I haven't taken one in a while, and my mom told me to just do it! To stop wasting all of my precious sleeping time...it's better to take it and get sleep than not take it and lay there for hours...so I'm sorry to those of you that don't like me taking them. ^^; But I fell asleep, and that's what matters! I had weird dreams involving school! Like one had this horrible gym teacher that everyone feared and made fun of (real life)...she always had the worst fake tan EVER. She was literally orange...she was the orange monster!! Anyhoo, she was in my dream...and I was getting lost with my schedule. I'm done with high school so I don't need more dreams involving it! T_T So as you can see, I'm not wallowing around in my feeling depressed at the moment. Corey and mom are going to the chiropractor and the mall today so I can get some time home to myself...finally. She asked if I wanted to come along, or rather, the plan WAS going to be having all 3 of us go, but I didn't want to. I want to stay home and get away from my brother's wrath for at least some portion of the day. -__- Thanks again to everyone who said things about him...yesterday I PM-ed Alex (destinyssweetman) explaining the situation more...it's too long of a story to post here, but he better understands Corey and probably why he's like this. Let's just say he has a reason for taking out his anger and frustrations at me, and he needs to get help or help himself rather to do something about that...ANYHOO...so...yeah...they're going out, and I'll stay home. I sorta wanted to go, but my need for space won over. Yesterday nothing exciting happened, and if it did, I really don't remember. I felt dizzy and still depressed...really tired of course, too. Lots of mundane things happened that you're probably not interested in so I won't bother mentioning them. XD I didn't make a new wallpaper since I didn't really have the motivation to do so...I visited some people but not all. I visited some that haven't posted in SO LONG! Like obnoxious. She finally updated after almost a whole year. See? I never take off good friends...in hopes that they'll return. ^^; ~~~~~ I suppose I'll dig up some questions to ask...but again, dont' just answer these. Comment on the post, too! 1.How long do you wait until deleting a friend off your list? Or how do you determine who to keep and who not to? 2.If you were to meet me in person, would you be happy? Afraid? Not want to meet me at all? 3.If you could have any anime character (or video game) alive and well, real, who would it be? 4.Are my posts boring and mundane to the point that you dread coming here? (BE HONEST) ~~~~~ Ok, yeah...interesting yet predictable questions there. ^^; I hope there are other things that I said today that you can comment on...*hugs* Hopefully I can recover from feeling depressed today while my bro and mom are out. -_-; Tomorrow I'm meeting some friends at the mall anyway...so I didn't want to get "malled" out...I haven't seen friends in a long time...so I don't know how that'll be! Hopefully good for me...I'll probably end up writing a quick post tomorrow cause of it... Alright, amv time. As for yesterday's, NO, Magipoka is NOT yuri; they weren't lesbians...the opening credits is nothing like the show. XD I think they made it that way on purpose...it tricks you; the anime is cute and funny and not serious at all. Anyhoo, today's is a One Piece one. The song is "Time of Dying" by Three Days Grace. Enjoy! (if you wanna) Thanks, as always, for putting up with me and my posts. *hugs* I thank you SO MUCH. I really hope that you don't dread coming here...^^; If you do, then you don't have to; I don't mind. Have a good day!

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Monday, August 6, 2007

Warning: thanks/shorter, no sleep, yesterday, this week, archives & amv

*hugs* Thanks for your comments everyone. I'm sorry to say this, but this post is going to be shorter than usual...I don't feel up to typing a huge post for once. ^^; I appreciate all of your comments though, on everything! On my wallpaper, my lack of sleep...my feeling depressed. T__T *hugs* I know, I have wonderful friends here I can talk to...and maybe if I had more time, I'd be PM-ing all of you trying to get help...but I don't know what help I'd need...Steph, I love our RP-ing! It cheers me up when we do that. Thanks to those that checked out the Dragon Fangs Club!!! If you didn't, go to my last post and click on the banner please!!!! Thanks. Innocent heart, welcome to my site! I'm glad to have you as a friend. Thanks again everyone! *hugs* I didn't sleep well yet again. I'm tired, and I just wish I could SLEEP. That's all I want...*sigh* I appreciate all of your possible remedies to my problem, but nothing seems to work...you'd think that if I were so dead tired from not sleeping the night before that I'd sleep right away! But I don't. :( And when I did fall asleep, then I was awoken by noise...I don't know who or what it was, but it sounded like someone was using a weed-whacker right outside or a lawnmower, but it seemed too early! And then the doorbell...TWICE...Totoro barking...my parents talking loudly...JEEZ!! I guess a girl just can't get her "beauty rest" these days...hah, as if that would do any good anyway... Yesterday somewhat sucked. I was bleh all day...bleh = somewhat depressed for no reason and out of it. I was especially "out of it." I wasn't really paying attention to most of what happened...just sorta stared out into space for a good portion of the day. *sigh* Corey said more things to get me upset...he's such a freaking control freak. (Yes, that's what I said.) It's like I have no say in MY LIFE...when I try, he just takes offense and orders me around anyway...that's why, guys, I don't get to be on the computer much. >> *sigh* Umm...I didn't make a new wallpaper...and nothing else really happened yesterday. This week will be a busy one. Friends want to do things since it's getting close to college...I won't see a lot of them anymore...unless we still keep in touch and plan things. Narret is one of them. At least we got to chat yesterday...umm...but wednesday, some friends want to go to the mall together; I suppose I'm doing that. Another friend wants to do something, but we haven't set anything up. This Thursday is my college orientation so that'll be a really busy day...who knows if I'll even be able to post! It's from 9am to 4pm, and I'll probably be exhausted...socially. I'm not looking forward to college...not like a lot of people. Some of you are already going back to school; I wish you all luck!! That seems WAY too early. If you went back and checked my archives (like Joselyn XD)...WAAAY back on page 50+ *laugh* You'd see how much shorter my posts were. They were usually 4 paragraphs (and I called THOSE long), but when I first started posting, they were just a paragraph!! It was crazy...but then again, I didn't have much of a reason to post then. I didn't have friends. ^^; Anyhoo, I'll find an amv for you guys...my bro and I recently started to re-watch for the third time Magical Pokaan (or Magipoka); it's very hilarious! I love it a lot. So here's an amv with the opening song to the show, just showing bits and pieces of the episodes. Enjoy! Thanks for visiting me. *hugs* I'm sorry this post was shorter than usual and boring. :( I just don't feel like writing a lot...or doing anything for that matter. I'm sorry if I don't visit everyone, but I'll try to get to some. Have a good day!

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Sunday, August 5, 2007

Warning: thanks, sleep/dreams/morning, clubs, depression, yesterday/wp, & amv

*huggles* Thanks so much for your comments!! ^_^ My dear friends! You know, I don't mind saturdays that much...not as many people update, and I don't get as many comments, but I love the comments regardless! It's somewhat easier because then I don't have to worry about not being able to get to a lot of people. ^^; Anyhoo, ignore me...um, so yeah, thanks a lot for the comments!!! *hugs* I loved them all, of course. I appreciate your funny comments about that freaky mailman (Roleni-chan, he comes around , your helpful ones about my sleep, interesting ones about PILLOWS, and nice ones about my wallpaper! I'm glad you liked my wallpaper. ^^; And yes, those darn plagiarizers...thanks, Arduous, I'll have to check out the anti-offender's place...though they sorta scare me! XD Oh, and no, Steph, we're not in an apartment...just a two-floor house, and the bottom level has a different air system than the top floor...and the bottom one was broken. Joselyn, you really went and commented on my first post?? O_o Wow, I need to check that out! XD And welcome back, Krusty, because it's been a while! Thanks again! Well, I didn't sleep that great again. But what else is new, right? It's just become a part of me that makes me not sleep well! I struggled to fall asleep last night because I couldn't breathe, and because I just had a lot on my mind...I guess. I never quite know, but it sure is frustrating. I didn't take a sleeping pill though...so that's good at least...I had very weird dreams. They weren't exactly bad in a scary way, but they were bad in an embarrassing way! ^^; I'm glad they were only dreams! They were also quite weird in that one of them combined Pokemon and Naruto...and as you know, I'm not a Naruto person. XD It must be from seeing all those wallpapers and themes from friends on here! Seeping into my subconscious! Anyhoo, I was startled awake this morning by the doorbell again, but it wasn't the mailman (they don't deliver on Sundays), it was the air conditioning man. They never came yesterday so they came today. I think they're working on it now so it should be fixed...*sigh* Man, I'm tired!! I could've slept all day! I have to have a little club talk now! The cooking club's week with me being the sub went well! Kaisap is back from camp so now she can take over again. ^_^ Everyone is welcome! Madarame, sure, just go on over, sign the GB, and you're a member! Now I get to talk about another club! It's called the "Dragon Fangs Club"! Founded by Angel Leila and Moon fangs; it's a club that will have lots of contests and things. The mods there (I'm included) will be the ones making prizes. I'm sure other things go on in it, too, but it's brand new (we need members!) so I'm not totally sure yet! But please check it out!! ^^ It'd be fun! The mods are all depicted as different dragons. XD I find it cute cause I'm a chibi dragon! Hehe! ^^ So yeah, please check it out if you want! Ok...now for yesterday I guess! *thinks* I honestly don't remember it very well! ^^; I remember not being in a chipper mood...and being annoyed by my brother, of course...>> *sigh* I think all the years of mental/emotional abuse from him is taking its toll on me! That's probably what makes me feel depressed...cause I usually don't have a reason for feeling depressed, but that just might be it. Before I knew what was making me feel down; it was the whole problem with my mom and her strange illness...at our old house...and then finding out that we had to move because of it. That's what plagued me last summer! Those of you that have known me since then know what I'm talking about...^^; Though now it seems that the majority of my older friends have left MO...I have great new friends, but a lot of you don't know what's happened with me! *hugs* I'm glad I have the friends I have though. ^_^ Anyhoo... Off-topic! >< Sorry...umm...yesterday I made Roleni-chan's requested wallpaper! A Kodocha one. She provided me with the image, and then I made it into a wallpaper!! ^__^ I tried to be more creative than usual...and, well, I did. XD It's not like my usual ones. I know, it isn't that good-looking, but it was my first time trying to make, well, what I did! I made it look like the pic was in a frame and on a desk! Download/comment please! Thanks to those that already did! ^^ Hosted By theOtaku.com. After dinner, dad had Corey drive us over to the old house to set things up and clean around it because today we're having an open house. Yes, we're STILL trying to sell our house...it's seemed like forever! *sigh* With all the work we've been doing on it, you'd think that someone would want it! But we barely have anyone come by...and the people that do come to look seem to turn right around! T_T Anyhoo, so last night I helped arrange some flowers in vases and use the leaf blower to blow crap away from the house...to make it look nicer...I hope people come to look at it today...my dad needs the money. ^^; It's hard keeping TWO houses!!! Before going to bed, I felt like crying. :( Really, the stress of the days build up to that point! "Sress" isn't exactly the word I guess...it isn't like a lot of you guys' stress...most of you have it way worse than me, yet I feel depressed. It's like I'm really weak or something! I don't know...whatever. Sorry! Umm...^^; I found an amv today! Yes, I was lazy yesterday and didn't want to look for one...today's is an Angelic Layer one. The song is the Secret of Mana Techno mix. It's very cool. Enjoy! Thanks, like always, for visiting me. *hugs* And putting up with me in general! I hope this post wasn't too long or annoying. ^^; Have a good day!

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Saturday, August 4, 2007

Warning: thankies, pillow/sleep, mailman/cooking club, yesterday, wp, rant, & today

Thankies, thankies. *hugs* Thanks for the comments! Yes, I always appreciate them, no matter the amount. ^_^ Sometimes less seems better, too, because then I don't have to read as many! Hah, just kidding! *huggles* I love you guys and everything you say. XD Joselyn, wow, it's been so long! I'm glad you haven't forgotten me!! *hugs* Moon Fangs, it's ok, really!! If you can't read my posts then don't bother waiting that long. ^^; Just comment on the previous one or just comment on your day to me or something. ^^ Akula, thanks a ton for your comment, too! *hugs* Ai-chan, I've added you to the Cooking Club! Thanks for wanting to join! Alex, thanks for your nice comment, too. I'll try not to "beat myself up", but it's hard not to. ^^; Gi-chan, awww, thanks for saying that! You're so sweet!! I'm honored to be one of your best friends. And to everyone that attempted to help me with my sleep problems or brother problems...thanks. *hugs* Arduous, I enjoyed your remark about the comments. XD So true! So yeah, thanks again to everyone! *shivers at the thought of drinking warm milk* No thanks. ^^;; Whether it works or not, I don't trust milk that's warm...it just seems gross. ^^; Anyhoo, my sleep was...average I suppose. I don't remember when I fell asleep, but it wasn't going to happen if I wanted to use my new pillow!! You see, my pillow was really really flat so we got me a new one yesterday! Well, this one was so SHORT and FAT that it was impossible for me to lay on. XD I swear, I was suffocating in it!! I struggled with that pillow for at least 40 minutes before saying, "Forget this! *takes off pillow case; puts it on old pillow; puts head on old, flat pillow*" So then I was back to square one. *laugh* Oh well. I fell asleep sometime, and I woke up a lot...my back hurts terribly. :( Stupid back! Argh...um, but my dreams were interesting...not exactly bad so that's fine. ^^; Thanks for your support and patience with me as I constantly talk about my sleeping patterns. XD I woke up to the sound of the doorbell this morning...that disturbing stalker mailman's doorbell ring...>> I knew immediately it was him! This time though, my dad got the door. Jeez, we really need a new mail person. ^^; My mom said that he was just sitting out there in his truck for about 7 minutes BEFORE he got out to ring the doorbell...it's freaky...and then when he does, Totoro barks like crazy. *sigh* Anyhoo, when I woke up and then went on my laptop (where I am now), I posted on the Cooking Club for, I think, the last time for now...Kaisa should be returning tomorrow? I'm not sure...but then she'll be posting. It was fun updating that though. ^_^ Today I reviewed the recipes that we shared this week so it's like a little cookbook. *nods* So go on over there if you haven't and want to! Yesterday...hmm...well, Corey, mom and I ended up just going to K-Mart...XD instead of her and I going to the mall...so we all went there, got lunch, and then went over to the pool. Dad came over later with Totoro. Totes (one of his many nicknames) always has so much fun at the pool! *laugh* It's sooo cute. It's not like he enjoys jumping IN the pool by himself, but he loves being splashed by the water. He chases it around everywhere...hehe! And sometimes we pick him up and put him in the pool to do a little swimming. Awwww. So yeah, it was nice at the pool yesterday I suppose...then we came home and found out that the first floor's air conditioning is BROKEN...^^; So yeah, the hottest day in a while and it's broken...needless to say it's hot down there. We're waiting for maintenance guys to come today. I did make a wallpaper yesterday! Thanks to those that already commented. Yes, sweetdevil, I know...it would've looked better with anything probably. I'm not that creative. ^^; And that's just how the brush looks (for the wings). It's apparently made to have that slight blurriness and some shadow...anyhoo, I hope you guys like it. I'm not as good as most of the wallpaper experts, but I'm trying. ^^; Please download/comment! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Last night I was attempting to bust more plagiarizers here. >< It's sooo annoying!! It pisses me off so much to see wallpapers being submitted that I KNOW they didn't make. What makes me mad also is that MO doesn't take them down...even when I report them...if you can't find exact proof or have more people report them, then nothing's done. *sigh* So I HOPE I got at least one taken down...>> though that ONE was just the same image that another person didn't make either...so it was plagiarized off of another plagiarizer. Oh well. It just makes me so mad because they're not doing any of the work! Those of you that make wallpapers know how long it takes to make a good product. *nods* Sorry, I had to make that rant again. ^^; Umm...today...I don't know what we're doing. Probably nothing. Corey's always getting on my nerves, and he seems to be ruder than ever...and that will be no different today...I'm sure. *sigh* Sorry, no AMV today. I just don't feel like looking for one. ^^; *hugs* Thanks so much for visiting me today...and hopefully I can find some time to visit you...if not, I'm sorry again. Have a good day!!

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Friday, August 3, 2007

Warning: thanks,sleep problems, comments, yesterday, alcEdu, today, & amv

*add post* Ye ol' "add post" button...I wonder how many times I've clicked it since I joined?? XD Anyhoo, thank you all for the comments! *hugs* I really appreciated them!! Doas, you amazed me yet again with another huge comment!! *laugh* I love it! I swear, I'm always amazed that you can make a comment the right proportion to my post. Most people are just really good summarizers or something. ^^; Anyhoo, that's fine! I love everyone's comments, no matter how long. I totally understand if you don't have time or whatever. Moon Fangs, that's odd that you can't see my posts. Angel Leila can; do you guys use the same computer or not? That's weird, but that's fine, too. I don't mind. Thanks for everyone's comments/downloads on my wallpaper. I've never seen Loveless, but I want to (or read it). I'm glad you liked my immensely sparkly/bright/weird wallpaper. XD littlemiko, feel free to use it as your bg if you want, too! Anyhoo, about my poem, thanks for the compliments and whatnot on it. I didn't really think it was that romantic until I read Gi-chan's comment and then reread it. *laugh* If Nana read it, he'd make some comment about it being yuri. Since I came up with that with Lindsay in mind. XD Yeah, it was pretty romantic sorta...so, yeah, thanks again for the comments!! Yes, what is happening to my sleep? I was on such a roll before with sleeping well, yet now I'm back into my slump. -__- I'm sure there are many reasons for my not sleeping well...and no, it isn't as easy as just thinking of something happy or listening to a favorite song before bed. ^^; That never seems to help. But oh well. Maybe it's just a lot of different things...I don't know. I didn't sleep that well last night either; more weird/bad/scary dreams. Sweetdevil, you say that death in dreams signifies a good thing?? O_o How can that be?? If that's so, then I'd be living the good life! *sigh* Maybe tonight will be better...>> Sorry, but I'm going to have a mini rant here on commenting. Or, well, comment amount. How is it that some people get SO MANY comments? I mean, ok, I get a good amount, but 15-25 comments is nothing compared to 40+. I'm not saying that I want that many or anything; I'm content with however many I get. ^_^ I'm just saying that I don't know how people can get that many...especially when they rarely post and also rarely comment! ^^; I don't want to offend anyone with that statement, but I just don't know how that happens. *laugh* Congrats to those that do! It's an amazing feat! *nods* Ok, that was a really mini-rant...not even a rant exactly. XD Sorry. Anyhoo, yesterday was a crappy day all-around. I felt horrible in more ways than one; Corey was a jerk like usual; I had to do this stupid thing for school, and I don't know...it just sucked. As I said yesterday, I was feeling sick to my stomach! Probably because of the anxiety. Well, I felt like that for the whole day. I also had a headache and other body aches, too. Then, of course, I felt depressed. I was in no mood for fun at all. I was especially in no mood for Corey's stupid arguments and everything that he brings up. *sigh* I didn't make a wallpaper because I didn't really have time...when I finally got computer time, aside from visiting some people, I had to start this stupid course for college. It's this little thing we have to do in the summer before school starts that goes towards our grade in FYE (that thing for all freshmen). It's called "AlcoholEdu," and it's beyond pointless. The course takes about 3 hours; it's online, and you can stop it at any point and continue it whenever. So far, all I've done is pick my guide (the person that takes you through the course), take a pre-test, and take multiple pages of survey. >> SO pointless...they should've omitted me from all of these questions because of my very first answer!! "Do you drink alcohol?" 'NO.' But of course...it kept going...so that's just really annoying. I have to get it done though so whatever. All of the questions are the same. "How many drinks have you had in the past week? How many days a week do you drink? Is it ok to drink on school nights?" All sorts of crap like that. XD All of my answers are the same! 'None. None. NO.' I don't drink; I don't want to drink. The end. *sigh* Sorry, this post is going to be a boring one! I have no goodies for you (like poems or wallpapers). Nothing else really happened yesterday, just me and my crappy mood. :( I don't know how today will go...mom wants to go to the mall, but I don't know if I'm up to it. So I'll just have to see. *sigh* I just wish that my brother had a job...I know, you're all tired of hearing me complain about him, and complain/talk about my sleep and probably just post in general...sorry...I'm getting into this mood again. ^_^; *sigh* Here's the amv for today. Yesterday's had lots of Miyazaki movies in it; so Spirited Away, Howl's, etc. Today the anime/game is Kanon (same creators as Air), and the song is "Believe" by Nami Tamaki (I think). I stole this one from Xanth Reborn's site. XD She had it up before. Anyhoo, enjoy! Sorry for this boring post. :( I hope no one was offended or anything by that comment rant...and I hope none of you fell asleep through this!! *hugs* Thanks so much for visiting me all the time; I'm sorry I don't get to as much these days. Have a wonderful day!

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Thursday, August 2, 2007

Warning: thanks, bleh morning/night/dreams, yesterday/wp, narret, poem, & amv

*huggles* Thanks a ton for the comments. I read most of them, but I didn't get to all of them...I'm not feeling too well, and I've gotten a later start to my posting cause of that. :( That means less time...probably...anyhoo...thanks for the wonderful comments and downloads on my wallpaper!! It got featured. ^_^ I was amazed by that...I really didn't think it would. XD Lys, I loved your comment on it...and yeah, her eyes look like that in that scan. *laugh* Roleni-chan, of course I'll make you that wallpaper! Awesome. ^^ Shi-chan!!! Thanks for signing the cooking club's gb; yup, like the others, I've added you. You're now a member! ^^ Woo, people I haven't heard from in a while! *hugs* Koten, saekimidori, RMC, my fellow Japanese guy-crazed Angel (XD), and of course my one and only dear friend that I know in person Narret!!! *glomps all of you* Thanks for commenting again; I've really missed you! Anyhoo, thanks to those that gave me sleeping tips and sympathy. ^^; Unfortunately, last night wasn't a good night either...thanks again for the comments; I'll read them ALL when I can. Argh, so yeah, like I said...I didn't sleep well again. It took a while (I'm always laying there for well over an hour) again, and then when I fell asleep I was plagued with bad dreams. *sigh* So much stress or something...in every dream, someone or something was dying...or being killed or killing...or blowing things up...>> Jeez, it sucked. In one, I was afraid that my parents had died in a plane explosion or something, and in another I was constantly fearing that Totoro would be run over...and in one, everyone (including me) was going to die...needless to say, I didn't have pleasant dreams. I woke up a lot, and I felt like crap this morning. I had/have that anxiety feeling, and at the moment, I still feel bad. I'm achy everywhere, and my stomach hurts...*sigh* I don't think I'm sick, but I don't know... Yesterday, I attempted to enjoy my day with Corey and dad still gone...I did, somewhat. I played more FFXII, visited some people (not everyone...of course...and a lot of you got my crappy comments that I hate leaving of "I don't have time etc..." sorry again...), and mom and I went to the pool. I read manga over there and went in the jacuzzi, hoping that would make my back etc. feel better. Eh, it didn't really help...when we went back, I made a wallpaper. It's doctormister's birthday gift! She really liked it, so yay. ^^ It's of Ritsuka from Loveless. It's quite...bright...and interesting, but I think it's cool. XD My friend AurionAddict (aka Rachel) helped me choose which PNG to use. Please download/comment if you want! Hosted By theOtaku.com. So dad and Corey came back before dinnertime, when I was still on the computer and downloading music...you know when the men are home immediately...just by the aura in the air or something...*sigh* Right when they got home, it was non-stop complaining from Corey. Jeez, he's back alright...I asked my dad, "Didn't you want to get lost at sea???" AKA "why didn't you stay out there longer and keep him away??" So, yeah, now it's back to how it was before...except now it seems that he has MORE aches, pains and overall complaints to dish out... At night, mom and I watched 2 more I Dream of Jeannie episodes, while I "dined" on my S'mores I made. XD Yum. After that, I went and checked MO again to see who updated that I might be able to visit...a lot...*sigh* But Lindsay (Narret) updated, and I was so glad. I was getting worried about her. See, we know each other from school...we've been friends for about 6 years, and she's such a dear friend to me. Anyhoo, she's been so stressed out and busy with work and going off to college...so I haven't seen her all summer, aside from her graduation party. T_T I read her post, and it made me feel even worse...cause she's feeling depressed about a lot of things, including possible loss of friendships since she's been so busy...and since she's moving for college...so I spent a lot of time leaving her a huge comment; I hope she reads it. Thinking about her and missing her...and whatnot, well, it brought to me a poem idea...again, while I was trying to sleep...I wrote it down. Here it is. I want to see your face One more time; Feel your skin Against mine... As we dance in the starlight And the moon shines Once more through the blinds. I want to feel your warmth From your body, Radiating from your laughs, Illuminating your smile Once more before you leave. XD Yes, corny...a bit...umm...yeah, anyhoo, it's just the poem that popped into my head. I hope you like it. Was it any good? ^^; Today I was supposed to do things with some friends, but luckily she wasn't able to...that's good because I don't know how I'll be feeling for the rest of the day. Sorry again if I don't visit your site...though I usually push myself to TRY to get to everyone...>> So here's an amv then! The song is "Spiral" by Armin Van Buuren, and it's to a lot of Ghibli Studios anime. Enjoy! Thanks for putting up with me, like usual. ^^; I know, I have huge posts...and this one is probably even longer. T_T *hugs* Thanks. I hope you have a good day!!

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Wednesday, August 1, 2007

Warning: thanks/replies, morning/club, headache yesterday,wp, bug battle, & amv

Aww, thanks for the comments, you guys! Really, you're all the best. ^_^ Do I praise you too much? *laugh* I have a feeling some people enjoy coming here just because I compliment and hand out so much love. XD And that's ok, too! *hugs* Anyhoo, I appreciated all of the comments very much! Thanks a ton for the downloads and comments on my wallpaper. ^___^ I got a lot! I'm glad you liked it so much. Nana, so that was Reimu? Well, I'll have to put her name in the tags then. Ordinary Girl, OMG, I think our brothers are identical copies or something! *laugh* That's horrible! I didn't know that your brother was a control freak like mine, too! *huggles in empathy* :( Jeez! Anyhoo, I enjoyed reading your answers to those questions! I was amazed at the amount of people that use IE! I thought more would use Firefox...and then about the post getting cut off on the club, then I have no clue. ^^; I thought I had a correct theory! So then why does it get cut off for me and some other people that use IE? Weird...hah, and I could tell longtime friend answers from fairly new friend-answers about the not posting question. XD Ones that have known me for a while answered with "I'd be worried" because you all know that I post everyday like a freak. Anyhoo, thanks again everyone! *hugs* ^^; Now then...for the sleep paragraph! Hah...so many of you said that I'd sleep well last night. XD Sorry, I didn't. :( I let you all down! But at least I didn't take a sleeping pill like before. It just took me a long time to fall asleep...many thoughts going through my head and all...and feeling crappy! My darn head and everything connected to it was hurting! >< Neck, back...bleh...they still hurt. I have a feeling that I shouldn't be on the computer that much today...:( Unfortunately. *hugs* Anyhoo, I fell asleep sometime after 2, and I woke up a lot...with aches...and this morning, my mom was taking Totoro out (yes, my dog ^^) and she forgot to unset the alarm. So it went off and it was so freaking loud and scary-sounding!! ^^; I hate house alarms sooo much...I've had way too many incidents where they've been accidentally set off...so yeah, anyhoo...I made toast for my breakfast, and then went to post on the Cooking Club. Those that signed the GB yesterday and the day before (thanks!!) I added you to the club. ^_^ You're now members! Hmm...I suppose I'll just talk about yesterday now! As you know, my brother and dad left for their fishing trip. I had the whole day to myself (well, and mom and my dog *laugh*) so I could do what I wanted...pretty much. So I got to visit a lot of people; unfortunately not everyone because my head hurt a lot. :( I had a terrible headache...and it made me feel dizzy and light-headed. At one point I thought I was going to faint or something. *sigh* I can feel my head right now sort of hurting so I hope that it doesn't get worse...anyhoo, so that sucked. After posting and doing some visiting, mom and I went to do some errands. That took up a good portion of the day. Nothing interesting though. When we got home, I went back on the computer and set my sights on making Angel Asuka's birthday wallpaper. ^^ She requested a Karin wallpaper so I made that as her gift! I really like how it turned out. It's similar to my last one. Please comment/download!! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Other things of interest (or not) yesterday included me being scared to death by a HUGE flying bug!! >< I went into my bathroom...and...I heard this buzzing sound. Like I always do when I hear a buzzing sound, I got freaked out! I looked around and jumped and went "wah!" (like Misuzu XD I do that all the time) I thought it was just a huge mosquito or something...but it was orange-ish/reddish...and I don't know, but it was freaky! Anyhoo, so I go to mom and tell her about it (after closing my door so it wouldn't get out), and see if she'll help me kill it. Yes, I'm a wuss. >> So...when she goes in there to look for it, it disappeared!! She must've thought I was crazy or something. So she left and a little later I went back in there, and it flew out from the toilet paper and landed on the doorknob!! O_o I was so scared. I went and told mom again, and AGAIN when she got there, it was nowhere to be found! A little later it showed itself (what a battle!) and mom killed it...saying that it was a huge wasp. TT-TT That made it even scarier...I'm so scared of wasps and bees and whatnot...*shivers* Wow, wasn't that exciting?? >> Um, other than that...I just played some video games and mom and I watched some I Love Lucy episodes and I Dream of Jeannie. (We love the classics. XD ) Today, the boys should be coming home from their trip later...at night or something. Mom and I will be going over to the pool. I'm sorry if I don't visit a lot...like I said, I'm not feeling too well. Headache and whatnot. ^^; *hugs* Alright, there will be an amv today. The song is "I can't be Cool" by Ilaria Graziano, and the anime is Blood+. (I haven't really seen the show, but the amv is good!!) Enjoy! Thanks so much for visiting me. *hugs* I'm sorry if I haven't been as good of a friend that I should be. :( Forgive me!! Have a wonderful day! P.S. I forgot to say...that it scares me when I see my GB signatures go down! I worry that a lot of my good friends deleted their accounts or something. Since yesterday my count went down 6! Who deleted them?? T^T P.P.S. Totally random and unnecessary probably...but yesterday I changed my avi. ^^ I made this one just by cutting out and scaling down a part of this wallpaper I found...anyhoo, so now I'll be commenting in maroon! I love how it looks! *laugh* So cute.

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