Tuesday, February 27, 2007

Warning: thanks, today/cooking, rest of today, crappy yesterday, & new wallpaper

Thanks for the comments, you guys. *hugs* Was it my lucky #11 again? *counts* Yes, it was! ^^ Thanks so much for all the sweet words of everything...and all the hugs. *hugs back* I love you guys so much!! I wish that you were all in my classes. ^^; I'm glad that you liked my wallpapers...if you didn't see them, well, they're in my previous posts (thumbnail links), and I even made another new one so you can see that later, too!! So, yeah, yesterday sucked so much...it was horrible...so darn depressed all day, and I totally hated all the people in my classes. *sigh* So your comments helped a bit! Thankies again. Hmm...that might've been a shorter thanking section...sorry about that. ^^; There wasn't anything in particular to comment on. Anyhoo, so today's a new day...it's tuesday, which is always good cause it's not monday! This is my only day (day 5) where I have campus (free period) during the day other than first...so, yay, it's later in the day and stuff. ^^; I wish I had more 4th period campuses!! >< But, no, stupid counseling refused my request...I hate them. Anyhoo, so today isn't as bad as yesterday so far. I didn't look forward to going to gourmet at all because of my stupid group, but since today we were mainly cooking (and for once, I got to do SOMETHING) it was ok. Sure, that bossy girl was her normal biatchy self, and the other girls and her talked for most of the time while I was left out...but I stuck to my meniel tasks of helping to chop up broccoli, boiling water (...yeah, I don't do the boiling...but that was my job...), and then chilling the broccoli after cooking it. ^^; It wasn't much, but it's more than I got to do last time! It wasn't just sifting flour and cleaning dishes. Ugh, so we're making cream of broccoli soup, and there's onions in it...I didn't chop them, nor was I anywhere near them, but I still smell like them! ^^; When I went to philosophy, I warned my friend, "If you smell something bad...it's me. Blame it on gourmet and cooking onions." So, yeah... Um. *thinks* So then there was philosophy...nothing happened like usual. After that I had computer animation, and I got some help with the project. *nods* Now here I am in campus, posting and chatting with my dear Markie. ^^ Unfortunately I have dance after this...and I don't want to go...boo. And after THAT, I have lunch, which I really am not looking forward to. I just hope that today there will be an empty seat at Narret's table. ^^; There were none yesterday, so I couldn't sit with her...but then again, her/my friends there usually end up ignoring me so I don't know if I want to sit there anyway. She doesn't though; Narret's a very good friend...and I'm glad. ^^ (Thanks, Lindsay!! You're awesome! I'll take up your offer on borrowing one of your imaginary dragons...*nods*) Um, after lunch is japanese and then English. That's my day in a nutshell. ^^; Nothing else of interest there. So, yesterday...it sucked. Like I said, I was so depressed all day. No crying, but just depressed. The whole car-ride home I complained to my mom about my day, and just whined in general about not having friends. ^^; I'm glad I have you guys though!! Anyhoo, so then when I got home though, i went online and chatted with Markie. *hugs him* Even though most of the time I was just ranting and being a depressed blob, apparently our conversation still had meaning. *nods* When I got off, I proceeded to take a shower...and then do my english homework which I had earlier forgotten about. ^^; It wasn't bad, just annoying. Umm...*thinks* Then I...what did I do? Oh, right! I made another wallpaper before dinner. It's of Dejiko from Digi Charat. So, click away...download, whatever. Thanks!! Hosted By theOtaku.com. Sorry! This post is really BORING...I have nothing else to talk about. ^^; Wish I had a poem to share with you guys, but I haven't gotten around to writing one yet. It's on the tip of my tongue though!!! Anyhoo, so thanks so much for visiting me, and I do hope that your day goes well! *hugs*

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Monday, February 26, 2007

Warning: thanks, 2-hour delay, crappy day, yesterday, & wallpapers

*sigh* Um....hmmm...thanks for the comments everyone! ^^ You're all so sweet. Don't worry, I'm not dying...I don't think. ^^; I've always had those heart palpitations, just not that often in one day. So, yeah, it's ok. Don't go freaking out on me thinking I'm going to die!! Thanks so much for the concern though. *hugs* At least I know that people will care if I happen to die suddenly...*sigh* Sorry for that thought, anyhoo, thanks for all of the compliments on the song and helpful bits of advice on, well, whatever it was I talked about. I thank you for all of your concern about me being depressed and just about everything in general. *hugs* Midnight-chan, that was quite the comment! ^^; You hypocondriac, you. *laugh* NNM, yeah, I was talking sudafed...but then I wasn't, I was taking one similar to it. Well, it doesn't matter anymore...bleh. Ok, thanks again for the comments. Hmmm...so I'm posting here in Japanese while "listening" to the class. I hope I have enough time to finish this post. ^^; I'm such a slacker in this class lately. Anyhoo, so I had a 2-hour delay today cause of all of this nice snow and ice that we got yesterday/last night. It was so pretty...and usually I'd be all happy about getting a 2-hour delay, but not today. I didn't really get all that much sleep with the extra 2 hours, and then when I got to school, I found out that they screwed up the schedule just how I DIDN'T want it to be. *sigh* We had every period except 1 and 3, my GOOD periods...campus (free) and foods 2 (cooking) with Narret. I was so angry...grrr...2,4,5,6,7. *sigh* Nothing but my crappy classes. Now I guess I'll go more into detail about them...in list form I suppose. 2nd period- philosphy: Well, nothing bad here. My teacher was about 15 minutes late so we only have less than 20 minutes of class. ^^; That was good...I dont' even remember what we talked about. 4th- photo: Oh, GAWD...I hate this class so much. I hate the people in it so much. I have no friends at all...it sucks. My teacher, though so incredibly nice, is a total scatterbrain, and she misplaced my photo from last class. *sigh* We finally found it, but still...it was quite annoying. Most of that class was spent sitting around not talking to anyone... 5th- fashion trends: We finally got to try out the sewing machines. The last time I've sewn was probably 10 years ago...and I was way out of practice. *sigh* I couldn't figure out how to thread anything, and I totally sucked on sewing on this assessment paper thing. *sigh* I kept asking for help, and I think she got really annoyed with me... lunch- I hate it. I HATE LUNCH. It's nothing like last semester...when I had A lunch. Now I always have C lunch, where there's never any seats, food, and friends. I alawys go into lunch now without knowing where I'm going to sit and if I'm going to be able to sit with any friends. *sigh* Last semester, I always knew who I was going to sit with and where...now, no. Now I might as well just sit alone somewhere...because the people I end up sitting with aren't any better. 6th- japanese: where I am now...NOT paying attention to class. 7th- english: Um...that's next. I think we're starting to read Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing. Ok, so yesterday...I guess I'll talk about that. *thinks* Oh yeah. After doing some visiting, I decided to play some karaoke revolution. I love singing...that's one of the only things that makes me happy lately (other than conversations with Markie..). So, yeah, before that though...I forgot! I made 2 wallpapers. *nods* On photoshop! Yup, we finally got that computer to working. ^^ I'll put the thumbnail/links down in the post for you guys to check out (PLEASE). Anyhoo, so I did some singing...and I was having fun, though I was by myself. Then my brother Corey comes down and just has to ruin my fun. *sigh* He's like, "Why are you singing alone? Are you EMBARRASSED or something? What a freak..." and all sorts of crap like that. He said other stuff, and I said other stuff...and well, let's just say he flat-out ruined my fun. This weekend sucked, and I can only hope that this week is better. Here are the two wallpapers I made. Please download/comment/etc. them! One is of Shimako from Maria-sama ga Miteru (Marimite) and the other is of Aiko from Magical Pokaan. Hosted By theOtaku.com. Hosted By theOtaku.com. Ok, that's all for me...*hugs* Thanks so much for visiting, and I hope your day goes well. P.S. Emi...umm...I gotta say again, no, you don't look like shit. *laugh* You're so darn pretty!! ^_^ I'm SO envious. *hugs*

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Sunday, February 25, 2007

Warning: thanks, yesterday scares, yesterday's movie & dinner, today/worried/sorry, & angela aki

*hugs* Thanks for the comments yesterday. Yes, quite the short thanking paragraph it was indeed! ^^; Sorry about that. Maybe today's will be longer...I had a reason why it was short, but it's not like I didn't have one at all! You know I can't go a day without thanking all of you. *hugs* And apologizing to you, too. ^^; I'm sorry. I didn't visit anyone's sites yesterday...I didn't get any time at all. *sigh* I'll get to what we did yesterday later though. Anyhoo, thanks so much for all the sympathy/encouraging words/empathy/and similar situations to mine. *hugs* I really appreciate them. Shizuka, your comment was especially sweet. Thank you so much. *hugs* And of course, Rachel(AurionAddict), thanks so much for going out of your way to come and help me, too. Everyone else, I appreciate your comments all the time. You're all wonderful friends. I'm glad that those of you that could watch the vid/hear the song liked it. I LOVE that song so much...it's so sweet and, I don't know, uplifting sorta? But, well, I love any of Angela Aki's music, so yeah. There might be another one of her songs finding its way into my post today, too. ^^; Ok, longer thanks section now? ^^ Anyhoo, so yesterday...was pretty darn bleh. I was so depressed and all, and waking up with a panic attack really ruined me for the rest of the day. ^^; I felt so sorry about it, too...(notice I'm leaving out details? Yeah...sorry.) But anyway, so that panic attack messed me up for the duration of the day in other ways, too. See, I have a mild heart murmur; it runs in the family--my mom has it and Corey does. So what that is is that I sometimes have heart palpitations, which is where the heart skips a beat and it makes it feel like your heart's stopped...it's like a moment of suffocation. It usually doesn't happen that often to me, only once in a while...but yesterday, I had it happen three times. *sigh* Three times in one day? Yeah, it sucked. So each time it'd happen, I'd stop and then start coughing and hit my chest to get me to feel like I'm breathing again. It's such a weird and freaky feeling...like, "omg, is my heart going to stop? am I going to die?" sorta thing. ^^; It happened during the day, when we were out, and then before going up to bed. Bleh...so I hope that today's better...my mom said that the decongestants that I take also can make them occur more often, so I shouldn't take them...great, now I won't be able to breathe then! ^^; So, what did we do yesterday? We actually did see a movie. We saw Reno911: Miami. It was quite funny, just like the tv series. Though some parts were equally disgusting...^^; but, eh, oh well. It was all a part of the humor. So then after the movie we wanted to go out to eat at this place called Max and Erma's. Sure, well, OK! Except that when we got out it was only 4:30, and none of us wanted to have dinner that early. ^^; Since Target was near by, we decided to just shop around there for like a half-hour and then go over to the restaurant. Well, whenever you get my mom into a store like that...or K-mart...or Wall-mart...or anything that is a "mart", she takes her good ol' time. *laugh* We ended up getting out of there an hour later so that it was 5:30. ^^; Driving on back to the restaurant we see it completely crowded, people waiting in lines everywhere. *sigh* We missed the window of time to be in there!!!! The wait for us would have been 45min to an hour. We gave up...and then went to this burger place after a lot of meandering around other restaurants. That was my day. Today...today I have no clue what's going to happen. So far I'm not deeply depressed, though I'm worried about a certain friend...well, I'm worried about a lot of people, but this friend...she needs to get better, and I just keep praying for her. *sigh* Anyhoo, I have to apologize again since I'm probably not going to get to any sites today. I might be able to later, but I highly doubt it. I'm so sorry!! I hate not being able to visit on the weekends...because this is when a lot of you can only post. ^^; Ok, well, again...for lack of creativity, another Angela Aki music video. This time, it's just her totally getting into her piano playing and singing. *nods* Another new song, "Sakurairo" aka cherry-blossom color or pink. I don't like it as much as the other...but it's still good. *nods* Ok, thanks so much for visiting me and everything. I love you guys. *hugs* I'm sorry for not always being able to return the favor though...I hope that your day goes well!

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Saturday, February 24, 2007

Warning: some thanks, depressingness, poetry.com, & angela aki vid

Thanks so much for the comments, you guys. *hugs* You really are the best! I appreciated all of the sympathy and whatnot about all of my "torture" yesterday...and the compliments on the song on my site, too. ^^ I'm glad that you like it (those of you that could hear it). Umm...so, yeah, I'm not going very far with these thank yous today...sorry. ^^; Just know that I always love you guys when you comment, even if it's just "sorry I can't read your post." *laugh* Wow, sorry about that...my thanking skills must need sharpening or something. ^^; No, it's not that, it's just that I don't have much time to post right now...and I'm not feeling too well. *hugs* This morning, when I woke up to go to the bathroom at around 7am, well, I had an unexpected panic attack for a ridiculous reason...that I don't even want to say...it makes me feel so bad thinking about it. *sigh* I'm ok now, just tired since I could barely go back to sleep, and I still feel a bit sick to my stomach. ^^; Anyhoo, I wonder if I'm getting sick from my dad's having a cold? I can't breathe at all, and my throat was feeling a bit iffy last night...bleh...but then again, I've also been having those ridiculous thoughts again of WANTING to be sick. I want to be sick just so I can have an excuse to just lay around and be miserable...instead of now where I feel like being miserable but it'd be for no reason. Yes, I feel like depressed crap right now. I hate myself. I feel really bad...like a really horrible person. I feel like in some way I've failed certain friends, or like I'm annoying...or like, I don't know, I'm just horrible. *sigh* I have this sinking feeling that I've done something wrong to hurt someone, and this guilt is pouring over me. I'm sorry. I don't know what's going on...and this would probably be a prime place to have a poem, too, but I don't feel like writing one. Maybe tomorrow. Speaking of poems though, here's one good piece of news. I submitted one of them to poetry.com, and the other day I got the letter about it being in the semi-finals to win money and stuff, and that it's going to be published in their book. Then again though...I think they probably publish/send out those letters to everyone that ever submits. I know at least 3 people that's had theirs published via poetry.com and none of them got any money. Instead you have to pay THEM and buy the book...which isn't available at stores or anything. It's just the collection of works from people the submitted on there. I don't think I'm going to buy it...but it's still nice to know that I COULD win some money. Narret and YugiohYamy are two of the people I know that did the same thing. *nods* Alrighty...I don't know what's happening today...maybe a movie, maybe not since my dad just wants us to finish packing/cleaning stuff up at the old house. Either way, it's probably not going to be very fun, and I'm in such a mood that I don't want to move from my bed. For lack of anything else interesting, here's a music video. If you can see/hear it, that's wonderful...if not, I hope that someday you can hear the song. It's by Angela Aki, "Hallelujah." It's one of her newer songs I think...it's quite beautiful. Ok, sorry for this low-key post...I'm also sorry that I probably won't get around to visiting anyone today--it being the weekend and all. *hugs* I hope you guys have a good day though, and thanks for visiting me.

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Friday, February 23, 2007

Warning: thanks, new song, today in list form, & crap

Back again...again? No, this is my first time posting today...I just mean that, well, here I am on MO again. I can't get away from you people! *laugh* Anyhoo, so thanks a ton for all the comments yesterday. Unlike the previous posts though, I'm not going to do such an in-depth thanking section today...simply because a lot of people have been only commenting on the thanks section. *laugh* Thanks so much for that though! ^^ I like seeing your thanks then to me for being a wonderful person, and then you guys give me reasons for why you visit and whatnot. Anyhoo, so I just first want to clear up that I'm not taking chemistry. ^^; I took that two years ago, and I did HORRIBLY. I got a D- on my final. *laugh* What we did yesterday was just because Dr.B was having us try out this lab for his other classes during our programming class (my campus). So, no, I can't help any of you with your chemistry homework. ^^; Anyway...thanks also for the comments about the phone conversation and all. Greatly appreciated. *hugs* Now then...off to talk about today and whatever other crap ends up coming out of my mind and into this post via my fingers typing. Today. Well, I think first off I'm going to mention that I changed the song on my site from my favorite song from Air to an Angela Aki song that I LOVE. It's called "the sky is always crying" or in japanese "Sora wa Itsumo Naiteru". *nods* It's so pretty...and it sorta can relate to Misuzu in Air as well, so yeah. ^^ I'll probably end up changing it to another one of her songs again soon, too. Ok, now to talk about my DAY. Eh...for lack of wanting to crowd this paragraph, I'm going to do a list. 1st period- gourmet2: Ugh. I didn't want to go at all...*sigh* Gourmet 2 is the epitome of cooking classes at my school, and it has all the potential of being the most fun class during this semester, BUT...that concept has been dragged down into the depths of [instert a more interesting word than "crap" here] thanks to the lack of friends I have in it. That, and well, my group in general is just horrible. Those girls always ignore me, never include me in any of the decisions/cooking, and are just plain ol' annoying. It's mainly cause of this one girl that joined our group a few days after the beginning of the semester. She controls EVERYTHING. I hate her, and even though we've had other classes together, I don't think she knows my name. I was so tired this morning, too, and I really didn't want to do anything. Good thing no cooking was involved today, just planning for our soup. (Yes, Markie, I said SOUP.) So I ended up just laying my head down on the table, wishing I could sleep....or something. That class started my day off wrong. 2nd- philosophy: Uh, sorta interesting lecture on Descartes and his philosphy. Nothing bad here. 3rd- computer animation: We had a sub, so that meant I could covertly meander the internet while trying to figure out how to do whatever the heck we were doing. I was clueless, so I really didn't get anything done seeing how our teacher wasn't there. 4th- art 3D: *sigh* Sawing, sawing, and more sawing of metal...it's called "jewelry". Right...well, it sure ain't pretty, and it sure ain't fun. I totally suck at it, and I've broken so many saw blades since I've started. I got lucky today though and only broke one. 5th- service club: Where I am now. Ms. Jones isn't here today so the sub is letting me be on the computer. First though, I had the duty of organizing the computers/laptops by their number in the cart that holds them. ^^; After doing that, I realized just how huge/heavy/clunky/old these laptops really are. *laugh* 6th- japanese: Well, that's next...and I'm pretty far behind...I just haven't had the inertia (yeah, the only word that came to mind for some reason) to pay attention to the classes or do anything. I know most of the stuff we're learning, so I skip over it...but I have to make up conversations and crap that I'm really not prepared for. 7th- English: Well, I don't know what we'll do today, but I'll talk about yesterday. We had a test on The Twelfth Night, and it wasn't that bad. I guessed on some of the multiple choices, but the essays were killer. Constant writing for over an hour...handwritten at least a page for each essay, so that was about 3.5 pages I wrote yesterday. My hand was killing me, and I totally BS-ed the first one. Ok, so that's my day...or what will be my day. *sigh* As you may or may not be able to tell, I'm sorta depressed. I'm also tired, achy, and I might be getting sick. I don't know, but my dad's been sick, so yeah. Tomorrow he has planned for us to go over to the old house and pack up my mom's porcelain statue things and bring them over...not fun. *sigh* Other than that, the weekend will be for sleep. Thanks for reading my post (it was probably really long today...sorry!!!), and I hope I can get to more sites today. I couldn't yesterday cause of my back/neck/etc. hurting so much. Sorry. Have a good day!

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Thursday, February 22, 2007

Warning: thanks again, programming chemistry, today, & yesterday

*hugs* ^__^ Thanks so much for the comments like usual!! Seriously, you don't get tired of me thanking? *laugh* The only problem I find that arises with this thanking paragraph in the beginning is that some people dont' bother commenting on anything but the thanks. *laugh* Oh well, it's ok though! ^^ I'm glad that a good bunch of you like the fact that I constantly thank you guys...and that you think that I'm so nice. Hehe. ^^ You're all equally nice! *hugs* Anyhoo, yes, Markie/Hoaryu is the best. *laugh* I'm glad you all think that he's just as sweet now. ^^ (Markie, hehe, you should read all those wonderful comments directed to you!) Anyhoo, yeah, again, I don't know why I felt like crying...it just happens all the time. ^^; Bleh, oh well. Thanks so much for the comments! So, where am I right now? Well, I'm in first period campus in my programming class enjoying all of their fun! *laugh* No, seriously, I am. My teacher is also a chemistry teacher, and well, he decided to make our class be the "guinea pigs" for an experiment he was going to do in his chem. classes. *laugh* And because I just happened to be here, I was included as well. Haha...so we turned pennies into gold pennies! And silver! ^^ Hah, but they're still only worth one cent. It's just cool though...*nods* I think he said it's not really gold though, it's brass, but still...it's cool! I don't understand chemistry at all, but the results are interesting. *nods* Anyhoo, so I've already done something despite it only being first period! Other than going to art club, which was uneventful and uncomfortable like usual. ^^; Today...today is an odd period block schedule day, so after this I have foods 2, which equals cooking! ^^ Narret's in my class, and we're gonna have some fun making "whoopie pies." *laugh* What a strange name, I know, but apparently they're going to be yummy. They're soft chocolate cake/cookies with creamy frosting in the middle. ^^ I hope they turn out well!! After that I have fashion trends; I don't know what we'll do...hopefully watch some more Project Runway. *laugh* I doubt it though because I just remembered we're going to have a quiz! ^^; Boo, oh well. And then finally I'll have english class...during which I have to take a test on The Twelfth Night (Shakespeare). I didn't exactly commit myself to studying much last night...I was sorta distracted, or lazy, or tired; I don't know. ^^; I hope I do well though...I mean, I DID read the play and all so I know what went on. *hopes* Please, don't be too hard! >< Crap, I just realized I DIDN'T read the rest of the play...I still have a few pages left! *laugh* I have to do that before last period then! So...yesterday...*thinks* I think I talked about school and what went on yesterday if anything, other than cooking for friends. It was fun, like usual. *nods* I actually had FRIENDS in that class that time, so it was enjoyable! Unfortunately though, when it came time for me to write up the menu (which I make into a poem), well, there were a lot of kids with nothing to do...and my teacher suggested that they "help" me with the poem. *sigh* BAD idea! I don't like getting outside input aka "help" with my poems...I didn't like their ideas; they didn't go with the poem. Everyone was talking at one time, and I couldn't think clearly! So when everything was all said and done...*sigh* It ended up I forget to put in the line about one of the parts of the meal--green beans with almonds. ^^; SO we ended up having to handwrite a stupid little line at the end about them...stupid other kids!! They were NOT helping. *laugh* Oh well...so, that was yesterday at school; now for yesterday at home. Well, since Hoaryu and I couldn't chat at all yesterday online...I, well, tried and built up the courage to call him. ^^; That's right. On the PHONE. I'm so horrible with phone calls...I hate the phone, and I got so nervous before calling. *sigh* See, usually when I have a conversation on the phone, especially one that's longer than say 1/2 hour, it really drains me...mentally and physically. ^^; It's seriously stressful on me, no matter how wonderful the person is on the other side of the phone. *hugs him* But anyhoo, we talked...and it was quite nice, aside from the fact that the only place in the vicinity of my house that I could talk on the phone (that had RECEPTION) was the front steps outside. *laugh* So there I was, outside in the chilly, with cars driving by, talking with my Markie. Oh, and he couldn't talk much...seeing how he was fighting to speak during bouts of death (aka coughing). *laugh* Aww, but it was great, and apparently Hyli walked in at some point during the conversation and said "hi"...*laugh* Hi again Hyli! Hah, but then after the conversation is when I decided to study, and that wasn't a good idea...because I was so tired and everything so then I gave up quickly and took a shower. ^^; Alrighty, so that's my spiel (did you know that's how it's spelled???) for the day. *hugs* Thanks so much for visiting me, and I hope that you have a wonderful day today. ^^

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Wednesday, February 21, 2007

Warning: thanks a TON, boring today, sad yet touching last night, & random happenings to fill space

Wah!! Are you kidding??? 21 comments? Seriously? Why?? *tears of joy* I love you guys...but I'm always wondering why so many people come here. ^^; It's not as many as Magnus (you're so popular!!), but it's a darn a lot. I'm sorry guys...now a lot of you are also comparing and stuff..."like I only get __. No one loves me..." That's not true! I don't know why you guys visit me, but that's why I thank you all the time. *hugs* Thanks so much for the comments...really. You're all the best. ^^ Shizuka! *hugs* I was in your dream? *laugh* That's pretty cool! I think you've been in my dream before, too...along with other friends from MO though I've never met them in person either. ^^; It's amazing how our minds do that. Anyhoo, I'm sorry for the long posts, too. *laugh* I can't help it! Umm...so, yeah, thanks so much for those of you that read/commented on my poem. Most of the comments were "it's good...but sad..." or something along those lines. Sorry! ^^; *sigh* More on that poem later...anyhoo, thanks again! Well, here I am...at school...in Japanese class being a bad kid. *laugh* I don't feel like doing any more...or like making up that conversation. ^^; So, yeah. Anyhoo, today I feel cute. *laugh* Does that sound weird? Yes...probably...but anyway, for only the second time in quite a long time, I'm wearing a skirt that isn't so long that it goes to the floor. *laugh* Yup, it's "short"! ^^; But of course I'm wearing black tights/leggings underneath...but, yeah, it's a skirt I got a hot topic like a year ago, and I felt like wearing it today. ^^; I also have my black boots on (Sketchers! on sale for only $20!), and a choco kitty (sanrio, you know, like Hello Kitty) shirt. *nods* So sorry...but for once I feel like saying, "I look cute." Too bad I never look good in pictures though...so it's a waste! Now then, I suppose I'll talk about today for a bit...*thinks* Boring philsophy for 1.5 hours, then photo...ugh, I hate my class so much. They're all so annoying and jerks!! And now I have Japanese, and then FINALLY lunch. Man, I'm hungry. After that, cooking for friends! ^^ Yay! Ok, so that's today so far...extremely boring and brief. Nothing else to it other than I can't chat with Hoaryu online at all...boo, I hate his stupid school-place (commonly known as JC), and their stupid library. *sigh* So I'm feeling all "depressed cause I can't talk to him" sorta deal. *hugs him* Boo... Ok, now I'll talk about last night...and more on how wonderful Hoaryu (Markie...yes, I shall start calling him by his name now) is. So last night, I got all depressed...and I have no clue why. I think I wrote that poem just a day early, or maybe it was a premonition? (like asialonewolfe said) Because last night I totally felt like crying myself to sleep for no apparent reason. My eyes didn't want to hold the tears in anymore. In our goodnight text messages, I mentioned that, and well, each reply he came back with sweet words trying to get me to not cry. ^^; *hugs him* The last one was the sweetest though...they made me feel better, but I still cried. I just couldn't help it. It wasn't a very satisfying cry though...it was probably because I was trying to hold the tears in so, yeah. Sorry about talking about this, but um, yeah. ^^; The moral of the story is that I actually fell asleep and Markie is the sweetest guy ever. *nods* *thinks* What else is there to talk about? This post might end up being somewhat short! I'm sorry! ^^; *thinks real hard* My friend burned me a CD of some good songs...like Avril Lavigne ones that I love...*thinks* Oh! I finally got the Cloud figure (KH version) that my mom ordered for me for X-mas. ^^ It's awesome! It was on back-order or whatever for a while...so, yeah. Ok, I've definitely run out of things to talk about... Thanks so much for visiting me today! I KNOW I won't be able to get as many comments as yesterday, but thanks all the same. ^^ You're all such dear friends to me. *hugs* If you didn't read my poem yesterday, go ahead, and yes, I know it's sad...don't just state the obvious! Tell me more feedback than that. *laugh* Well, thanks again, and have a great day!

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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

Warning: thanks much, skip day, yesterday, & poem

*yawn* I am SO tired...stupid school. ^^; I am quickly rethinking my decision (like yours, Lindsay) to not skip school today...*laugh* Anyhoo, thanks so much for the comments! What was it? 16??? That's just as amazing! ^^ Of course, if Hoaryu were able to comment, then it'd be 17 again. *nods* Well, anyway, I love you guy so much! Yes, maybe it IS just because I'm always thanking you guys that you all keep on coming back to visit me? ^^; Well, thank you nonetheless! And apparently I lied yesterday. *laugh* I got some more computer time so I was able to visit everyone (well, everyone that updated before 5:30pm eastern time). ^^ I'm happy about that! *hugs* Aww, Mizuki! It's been so long since I've heard from you. *hugs* ^^ Thanks so much, and no need to be sorry!! Same with Driffter and MissDarkAngel. I'm just happy that I wasn't forgotten about. ^^; Anyhoo, so thanks again everyone! I love you all! So...as mentioned yesterday and certain people were confused about...today's "senior skip day" at school. No, Yug, *laugh* seniors don't just go around skipping in the halls all day!! You know skipping school right? As in not going? Well, today's the day that's supposedly set aside (or that we seniors decided on) for us to just not go to school and do whatever...but, to me, it's ridiculous because your parents still have to call you in sick, and you're still missing school. Only if a certain amount of kids don't go then it's officially considered a "skip day", and that absence won't count. But anyhoo, I'm still here at school because I'd feel guilty about not going, and apparently Narret's going to school, too. *nods* Yay for us! *laugh* But...umm...I've seen several seniors already today, at least in my homeroom, so I'm assuming not that many are skipping. ^^; Ok then...so I already talked about skip day and how tired I am...hmm....*sigh* I just want to sleep. Um, I guess I'll talk about yesterday! If I can think of things to mention. ^^; I woke up early-ish again so I could get online and get some chatting in with my dear Hoaryu. *hugs him* I was quite lucky because we were able to talk for like an hour or so before he had to leave to go back to JC. It was another fun conversation...just like the rest, all full of crazy awesomeness and, well, "imaginations gone wild." *laugh* "Oh hoh hoh hoh!" *cough* Anyhoo...After that, I had my late breakfast (some might call it brunch), and...did nothing. It was just the usual watching anime (Air and Marmalade Boy) and playing video games for the rest of the day until about 4 when I went on the computer again. Yup, a nothing day! Sorry! *sigh* Not feeling all that well right now...lately my stomach has been bleh. ^^; Nothing too serious though so, yeah. Why'd I even bother mentioning it? *thinks* Today...I don't know...nothing's probably going to happen. jee, I'm sorry I'm so boring right now!! That's what you get for posting first thing in the morning! ^^; I'm just going to attempt a poem now...ok? I cried myself to sleep last night For reasons unknown to me. Was it a broken heart? Or a longing to be free? Was it a cry of loneliness? Or just a simple plea? The tears streamed down my cheeks And saturated the pillow, Turning it stained for weeks, I didn't know what would follow. If not loving is losing, Then why does it hurt so much? The line between pleasure and pain Is nothing but a crutch... And once it falls down, Collapsing the line, There's nothing left to do but drown, And cry myself to sleep. *sigh* Sorry...another depressing poem, anyone? And sorta short, too. ^^; Bleh, oh well. No, I didn't really cry myself to sleep last night...it's just one of those thoughts that run through my head. You know, a what if? Or something...well, I hope you liked it nonetheless!! Thanks for visiting me, and I'm sorry for this short(er) post that isn't very interesting!! ^^; If something more riveting comes up later, I'll post again...but that usually doesn't happen. *laugh* Have a great day!!

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Monday, February 19, 2007

Warning: lots of thanks, yesterday's fun, yesterday's sadness, today/tomorrow, more music!, & sorry

*laugh* Wow! 17 comments! I love you all SOOOOO MUCH. *hugs* I don't know how it happens...why do you guys still visit me even when I don't get to???? *hugs* I'm so grateful. ^^ *sigh* But then I feel bad about not visiting...though you go through the trouble of doing that for me. I just hate it how for most of you, days off (the weekend) are the days that you can post/visit, but it's the opposite for me! *sigh* I'm sorry you guys!!!! Anyhoo, I suppose I should move to the thanks...thank you all for the sweet comments. I received some back massages. *laugh* ^^ They helped! Sorta! Ok, they didn't! But that's because they were all being transferred to me via the internet...^^; Anyhoo, sorry! Yesterday's post was shorter than usual. ^^; I didn't even notice! I thank those of you that pointed it out, and I apologize for that. *bows* Because SOME of you actually look forward to my long posts. *hugs* ^^; Resengun, don't you say sorry. It's ok. *nods* I'm glad I'm still your friend! ^^ I'm glad that you guys liked my friend's card!!! (as you can see, I made it my avi. ^^) She even commented yesterday, which is rare (*hugs* thanks Rachel! ^^). So, yeah, anyhoo...thanks so much everyone. So...hmm...yesterday! We DID see a movie! *laugh* We saw Norbit. *nods* And it was surprisingly funny! It got some pretty bad reviews so I was quite surprised when it didn't suck. ^^; Eddie Murphy's in it, and he plays Norbit, his wife (*laugh*), and this Chinese guy. *laugh* Yeah...anyhoo, so it's a good movie for a few laughs. There were a lot of little kids in the theater, which was really annoying...AND surprising since there were a lot of, well, cursing and "suggestive themes". *laugh* One little girl was running up and down the aisle...and yelling...so, yeah. ^^; Then, after we saw the movie and got home, we, for the first time, went sledding down our hill. The snow was really frozen over (it's SOOOO COLD), and we got out those sleds that are like discs, and well...I got on, despite being horribly freezing, and my dad pushed me down. *laugh* I was afraid of crashing into the sparse little trees or going into this ditch that's down there, but I didn't! ^^ It was quite fun. My dad ended up flipping over, and my brother fell off...but, um, they still had fun! I think... *thinks* Hmm...then I got to talk more with Hoaryu...*hugs him* And we had one of the BEST conversations ever. *laugh* Oh jeez...too awesome to describe. *laugh* Then...um, later, after dinner, my brother and I, well wait. Stuff happened first that caused friction between my oldest bro (that moved into his apartment, and now he only visits sometimes) and us. *sigh* I don't feel like getting into it right now, but I felt really guilty...and, well, my mom was crying and stuff. ^^; Sorry I'm being so vague, but I don't want to get into it. Things are ok now though. Anyhoo, so my other brother and I decided to start watching Air again. ^^ My favorite...but, man, it's even sadder the second time around cause you already know the end and everything. *sigh* So I was already sad even in the first episode!!! ^^; Aww, Misuzu!!! Gao...^^; So, knowing me, I'll probably end up changing my lovely avi by my friend to a Misuzu one again soon...but I'll try to hold off until the end of february! *laugh* What else? *thinks* I don't know...I can't remember anything else of interest yesterday. SO I'll move on to today! I have off! BUT some of you are even luckier and have like another day off after this...or possibly even a week off! ^^; My bro's off though, so that means that I won't get to visit again...sorry. *sigh* I don't think we'll do anything today though. Anyhoo, tomorrow is "senior skip day" at my highschool, and, well, I'm a senior. ^^; My friends, well some of them, are skipping...but then again, it's not really "skipping" if you still have to have your parents call you in sick. *laugh* I'm not going to though because it's me...and I'd feel guilty about staying home when I'm not really sick! ^^; PLUS, in english class, my teacher said "those of you that aren't going on that 'field trip' will get extra credit, and won't have to do the homework." *laugh* Yes, the "field trip"...right. So, yeah, and I need it. And come on, we practically had no school last week cause of the snow and whatnot...and all these days already having off...I just see no point in it. ^^; Well, I guess I'll put up some more music vids here...seeing how it's my last day off! I only post amvs on the weekend/days where I'm not posting at school. *laugh* Since youtube's blocked at school. Anyhoo...so enjoy! The first is Captain Jack to Azumanga Daioh...*laugh* This one is actually really well put-together! ^^ Then the second is another Angela Aki song. *nods* Called "Home." ^^ So, there ya have it. Another riveting post by moi! *laugh* Or not...but anyhoo, thanks so much for visiting me, and I have to apologize one more time for not being able to visit you back. *hugs* Have a great day!

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Sunday, February 18, 2007

Warning: thanks, valentine, yesterday, more amvs, & sorry

Why, thankies a ton for the comments!!! *hugs* ^^ They were all quite nice!! A lot of long ones, too. *laugh* I'm glad you were all entertained by my sleep-doing stuff, um, habit. ^^; You had some interesting stories to reply to that (and me getting locked out in the cold). *hugs* Thanks for the concern, but I'm pretty sure I didn't get sick from being out there. It just seems like every morning I wake up this way! My sinuses are the devil!!! >< Seriously, I can never breathe. No matter how many different kinds of decongestants I take, I can't breathe at night or in the morning. *laugh* I woke up this morning the same way! Anyhoo, I'm glad that you guys liked the music videos, too (except for Mota. ^^; that's ok though), and well, I think I'll probably post some more today, too. Thanks again for all the comments! I'm always amazed when I still get that many, even when I can't visit. Last night, I checked my emails, and I received a belated valentine from a very good friend of mine, Rachel (AurionAddict). ^__^ I love her so much. *hugs her* Despite going through rough times and everything, she managed to finish a valentine for moi...yes, she drew and colored it all on the computer, and I'm still in awe by it's amazingness. ^^ I shall share it with you now!! It's Kingdom Hearts 2-related (Axel and Roxas are sooo cute there!!). Now then...to talk about yesterday, I suppose. Of course, we didn't go and see a movie. *laugh* You all should know by now that when I say we are, we usually don't. ^^; My mom insists that we'll go today, but hah, probably not. Anyhoo, so I got to chat with Hoaryu yesterday morning (yay! ^^), and then the rest of the day I spent (for the most part) horizontal. My neck, shoulders, back...they were all killer yesterday. I could barely sit up or move without them aching. They're just generally bad, and it runs in the family thanks to my mom. ^^; They tend to ache a ton when I'm on the computer (especially for long amounts of time), but yesterday I was only on for a total of 2 hours (the morning time I was on and the bit I was on before dinner, again talking with Hoaryu ^^). So I took advil constantly, and I usually ended up laying on my side the whole day, whether it was on the couch or on the floor. *laugh* I could barely play any video games or watch any anime. ^^; I usually just went on youtube and listened to music videos...I could barely even move to click the computer to change the vid. *laugh* Anyhoo...then later, while I was on the computer chatting again, I heated up a heat pack (it took forever to do so), and had that on me. It smelled like potpourri and popcorn combined. *laugh* It helped for a little bit, but in the long run it did nothing. Hmm...so again, today I won't be able to visit sites. *hugs* I'm so sorry!!!!!!! *sigh* And for lack of creativeness, here are some more music vids, ok? ^^; The first is "Everwhere" by Michelle Branch set to Fruits Basket. And the second is (I'm sorry!!!) another Avril Lavigne song called "Nobody's Home" set to Tokyo Mew mew. *nods* Enjoy! Alrighty, that's it for me. *hugs* My dog, Totoro (yuppers!!!), is barking like a mad-man and wants to get out of my room...I'm sorry (to my dog). I guess he thinks he's being held captive. ^^; Anyhoo, so I thank you all for visiting me; I'm sorry I can't visit, and have a great day!

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