Tuesday, January 2, 2007

Warning: thanks, today/test, yesterday, poem, & yeah

'Morning everyone! Notice the lack of "good"? Well, yeah...I never knew a "good morning"...*laugh* I'm just not a morning person. Anyhoo, thanks sooooo much for the comments yesterday. I loved reading them, like usual. For all of you that gave sympathy or sympthy hugs for my depression, I thank you...and thanks also for the happy new year's wishes. Some of you are going back to school today, and some of you aren't (darn you people that don't go back yet!! >< Revenge! *laugh* Just kidding...but still, I envy you). Hmm...there really isn't much that I have to say here in the thanks section this time...since most of you sorta just wrote, uh, stuff that doesn't need to be specifically relpied to! So, yeah, thanks again! ^^ Well, I'm at school now...in campus...the first of two today, doing nothing but listening to music (currently Hikaru Utada's Hikari, KH1's theme). Ugh...I really should still be sleeping now. Stupid school! *sigh* Before this period, I had computer programming...during which I had a test. Yes, that first day back, first period test. Um, I wonder how I did. *sigh* Probably NOT GOOD. I never do well on his tests, and I'm sure this was even worse. I completely forgot to study one part, so I didn't remember the answers...and I'm sure I got other stuff wrong, too. When we first picked up the test though, we noticed something wrong! It was actually the answer sheet! Too bad we were honest kids and didn't keep it...bleh. I didn't look at it enough to really "get a grasp" of the answers though...so I'm pretty sure I did poorly except for those first 6 that I remembered: b, a, e, a, a, a. *sigh* Yesterday...let's see. *thinks* Yesterday we did more packing, I studied, and Corey and I did our usual watching anime and play video games. My mom wanted to watch that movie "Nacho Libre" though, so, yeah...I watched part of it, got bored, and then had lunch. She didn't really care for it either despite her anticipation. Yup, that was yesterday...just another boring day, and I of course wasn't too chipper. Now for a poem...maybe...*tries to think of one, probably taking ten minutes* Tears frozen to cheeks, Shivering uncontrollably, The coldness in my heart Clamps down on me. No love in sight To warm my soul, Yet it's fine that way To freeze alone. I don't need someone There for me. I'll suffer in solitude, With my icy heart. No need to try, You'll only get hurt. It's better to harm one Than break two. Loneliness is there for me, To keep me going strong. I revel in the cold, But these freezing tears Somehow seem wrong. ^^; Well, uh, there ya go...one of my patented "depressing lonely without love" poems. *laugh* That's all I can write...depressing ones! Well, believe it or not...that poem sorta reflects my feelings. It's a shame, right? Well, oh well. Their the feelings I have often...especially when I depressed. Anyhoo, I hope you liked it. It's actually a longer poem than usual for me, too! Ok, happy day after the first day of 2007! Thanks for visiting me. I love you guys. *hugs* Have a good day!

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Monday, January 1, 2007

new year's card

Well, I'm taking it out of my profile now...so here it is in a post instead:

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Warning: thanks, new year, sleep, yesterday, & no different

Awwwwwwwwwwwwwww....I Love you guys so much. Happy new year!! *thinks* I wonder what today's comments will be like? Cause I got so many yesterday...and they were all "happy new year" and reflecting on 2006 and everything already. ^^; Jungy, aww, thanks so much! You're the best! I'm glad that I'm in your wish...that's very sweet of you...and, wow, hot man slaves. *laugh* Haven't talked about them in a while! Mota, yeah, Daft Punk is awesome. *nods* Derek introduced them to me years back...and I loved the music videos when they first played them on cartoon network however many years ago that was!! Getting Leiji Matsumoto for the animation...is so cool. ^^ Anyhoo, thanks to everyone for the wishes to have a good 2007...and to those of you that also had a bad 2006, well, let's just hope that 2007 is better...and to those that had a great 2006 and didn't want it to end, well, let's hope 2007 is just as good for you!! *hugs* Well, I slept better last night...thank goodness...but of course I would since I was so tired. ^^; Saijinto, I already read before going to bed...so that doesn't help. *laugh* Anyhoo, I slept fine but then my mom didn't sleep well...it was a trade-off. Ugh, today's my last day of break! Noooo!!! *sigh* Have to go back to school tomorrow. I have to study for my computer programming test today because he's giving it to us tomorrow...the day we get back. It's so unfair! I don't wanna study. ^^; It'll waste my last day of "fun"! I already do badly enough on his tests, even when I'm in his class submersed in the subject weeks on end...now to take one after having a week off? Hah! This will be terrible. Yesterday was...umm...*thinks* ok. Nothing really happened, Corey was a crabby jerk, and I actually felt depressed for a good portion of the day. *sigh* So why was it "ok"? Heck, I actually don't know. It shouldn't be described that way. Anyhoo, this whole weekend has been filled with nothing but packing and cleaning. It has sucked. Everything's so dusty...and there's so much to pack. Corey's always complaining cause he's "doing all the work", and I'm not doing anything. *sigh* Whatever...other than packing, nothing eventful has happened. The last day of 2006 has passed silently. It is now 2007...and it feels no different. I figure it's just another day. ANOTHER DAY. Just another day in the life of...me...*sigh* But what is a day? What is a minute, an hour, a second? What is a year? Who says they have to be the way they are? Anyhoo...I don't wanna get all philosophical on ya. *hugs* I just find it to be uninteresting..."this year will be better!" Yeah, sure, we'll see...it's just like every other day to me. I was going to have a poem here cause I was thinking of one last night...but I don't have time, and it's not really finished, sorry! Well, everyone have a happy new year!! Start off this new year great with...uh, good stuff. I'm sorry though that I wont' be able to visit...again. *bows in apology* Sorry! Thanks so much for still visiting me though. *hugs* I love you guys!

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Sunday, December 31, 2006

Warning: thanks, TIRED, & new year

*sigh* Thanks so much for the comments...I really appreciated them, of course, and I loved reading every word. I'm glad that you liked the card. *points above again* ^^ Magnus, you liked 2006? Wow...I HATED it. 2006 was the worst year of my life...next to whatever the year was when I was in 6th grade. Anyhoo, to make clear again: Corey = jerk brother, 25, not moving away; Derek = mature and actual "older brother" type, 27, is moving into a separate apartment. *nods* Those are my brothers...just so you have them straight. *sigh* I see that a lot of you also believe KH2 (kingdom hearts 2, resengun, it's a game. *nods*) is addicting. Cause it really is! It's a fun addicting!! Well, thanks again for your comments, and I'm sorry but this post will probably be really short. As you may have noticed...I was sighing a lot...well, that's cause I'm TIRED. I barely slept at all last night. I was just laying there awake for hours and hours...I slept for maybe a total of an hour naturally, but then I was awakened again at almost 6am...and that's when I decided to take a part of a sleeping pill. I should've just taken one earlier, but I thought I could go to sleep...now it's been 3 nights in a row taking one. *sigh* Derek bugs me not to take them cause I'll get "addicted"...but I don't know about that. I thought I'd sleep well cause last night Dad, Corey, and I went to this arcade place (Grand Slam) and I played DDR for an hour. It was fun...but I guess it was too much stimulation too late at night (it was from 9-10pm). *sigh* So I'm just really tired right now...and I don't feel well. Sorry, Magnus, I guess that rant on being an "old bag" (*laugh*) will have to wait till another day. I'm really sorry everyone if I don't get to your sites today. Sorry!!!!! Have a fun new year's eve, which leads into a New Year! 2007, here we come!

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Saturday, December 30, 2006

Warning: thanks/card, yesterday, today/moving, & old

*hugs* Thanks a ton for your comments...of course. ^^ If you'll look above *points to my profile* you'll see a new year's card that I made for you friends of mine. *nods* I made it yesterday, and I decided to post it early and in my profile...so hopefully everyone can get a chance to see it. Before, when I made my holiday cards and just put them in my post...well, a lot of people didn't see them, so yeah. Happy new year's eve eve! *laugh* Feel free to put it on your sites if you wish. Anyhoo, I got a lot of hugs yesterday...thanks. *hugs back* I don't want to go back to school either...*sigh* And I still don't want to move...but oh well. Great...now it's saturday...it's getting even closer to tuesday, when I have to go back. So, yeah, thanks again for all of the wonderful comments! Sorry this was a shorter thanks section...I didn't really do any specific shout-outs this time. ^^; Yuppers...so yesterday I did nothing...well, not really. In the morning, after having breakfast, I posted, visited, and then made that new year's card, along with a card for Claes, and a banner for Bishieluver01. *hugs* If she gets the link to work, you can see it on her site. *nods* Hmm...after all of that, then I had my lunch of a sausage hot pocket (yes, Hoaryu, they do exist) while playing KH2. I played that for quite some time before I started going my homework. I finished my stuff for english, which was reading and answering questions...and writing a summary for that book (Fried Green Tomatoes), which I actually like. I still have to study for my test though, but that will be done the day before going back. *laugh* After my homework...I went back and played more KH2. *nods* It's rather addicting! Then...it was dinnertime...and then I was to be with my brother for the rest of the night, where we watched anime (The Good Witch of the West, it's really good...I recommend it!) and played more games (and I sang more). There, that was my day. Now it's the weekend...where I have limited computer time. I have time to post and visit a few people, but that's it...unless I sneak on later. ^^; I'm not sure what we're going to do today, if anything other than packing stuff up to move. You see, my family's moving, but my oldest brother is moving somewhere else, into his own apartment. *sigh* I didn't really think about it before...but I'm really going to miss him A LOT. Unlike Corey, he's the mature one...the real "big brother"; he's witty, smart, and can actually be sympathetic/protective of me. When we move, how will I survive?? Just with my jerk brother and dad??? Of course mom will be there...but...NOOOO. Now I really feel bad about not spending as much time with him as I should've...*sigh* I'm sorry. I hope he visits often. He's moving a week before us. Now I was going to talk about...uh, me feeling/acting like a total "old bag", but I think I'll pass. I've already written a lot, so I wouldn't want to kill you with me rambling on about "kids these days" and whatnot. *laugh* So, I'm just going to end this here. Thanks soooo much for visiting me, and I hope you all have a superb saturday! I'm sorry if I don't get to your sites today!!

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Friday, December 29, 2006

Warning: thanks/internet, moving, controlled, hw, & not so cheery

*hugs* Thanks to all of you that commented yesterday! You guys are the best! ^^ Do you think I thank you guys too much? *laugh* Do you even read my first paragraph or decide not to because "Oh, it's just more thanks again..." ^^; Well, I can tell that a lot of you DO, so thanks for that, too. Anyhoo, yes, my laptop can go to the INTERNET now whenever I'm near a wireless router thing...which, like I said, ISN'T my house. So once my laptop enters my house, it is just an ordinary laptop with no capabilities other than Word, Winamp, DVD player, and some html editor thing. ^^; In short, you probably won't be seeing more of me just because my laptop can get internet. *Laugh* Anyhoo, thanks for the compliments about my karaoke singing. *nods* I'm sure if you all did it...and just had fun with it, it'd still be fun! ^^ Yes, that made sense...um, and I see a lot of you actually didn't finish/play KH1 either. Hooray for me not being alone! Shizuka~! *hugs* I've missed you!! Don't worry though! It's fine that you haven't commented in a while...I've just missed you. ^^ And, yes actually, I've been more cheerful lately. Well, thanks again to everyone for your comments! Yes, again, we're moving january 15 to our new house...which is like 20 minutes away and in a different school district. However, I'm still staying in my school because we're moving after a certain date, which was nov.2. If we moved before then, then I'd be forced to be in a new school district. *nods* Yes...I suppose I'm coming to terms with this whole moving thing now...I still get depressed when I think about it...and I know I'll cry A LOT when we're moving, but there's no helping it. We have to move, and that's all there is to it. I suppose I did enough crying, feeling uberly depressed, having suicidal thoughts over all this crap during the summer...when it was a new idea. *sigh* Though that's not stopping me from being depressed more...that's for sure. It's just lately I've been in a better mood for some strange reason. Maybe it's because my brother has a steady job, and he's not home 24/7 controlling me and what we/I do. But it's still the same during the weekend though...when he's home. *sigh* Still on that point, today is friday...the day before the weekend, basically my last day of "freedom." Since my brother (obviously this is the jerk one I've been talking about) doesn't work on the weekends or on monday since it's New Year's, I won't get my "alone time" or free run of my computer time. So I must savor this day in its entirety...play all the games I wanna play, and do all my visiting that I can. ^^; I also have homework that needs to be done...reading and answering more questions in that book, and then I have to study for my computer programming test that is THE DAY WE GET BACK. Stupid teacher. *sigh* Why do they do such things?? So maybe I'll start some of it today, and then finish it the day before going back...to evil school... Well, thinking about all that stuff just completely changed my mood from cheery to not. *sigh* I woke up last night at before 4am, and I couldn't go back to sleep until almost 6 when I took a part of a sleeping pill...it was the weirdest thing. Well, that was random. Anyhoo, uhh...I guess I told you everything that was on my mind and whatnot. Have a great day! *hugs* Thanks for visiting me. ^^

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Thursday, December 28, 2006

Laptop!! >_<

I'm on my laptop now...in Saxby's...*laugh* I HAVE INTERNET! You can't hurt me now! *laugh* Sorry...so anyhoo, my brother just bought me a new internet card thing so yay, now I can have internet whenever I'm near a wireless router...which is NOT my home. Ok, just read my other post now! ^^;

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Warning: thanks/shout-outs, fun nothing yesterday/today, singing, & moving

Hello, everyone! ^^ I hope you know how much I enjoy and really appreciate reading your comments...you guys are the best! *hugs* All of that sympathy about my parents' arguing was much appreciated...thanks so much. They've been arguing more and more lately, and my dad always starts it...and it's usually about some stupid thing. Reki, yeah, maybe he does have a Nicaraguan way of thinking...sure seems like it. Boredteenager, no, it does seem ironic. *nods* You're right. My dad and I went through all that work for her gift yet my dad goes and ruins Christmas and days following by being mean to her. Chii00! *hugs* I'm amazed that you really did go back and comment on my older posts. ^^ Thanks a lot! And, no, you're not sad/pathetic for not finishing KH1...cause I didn't either. *laugh* I couldn't get past that darn grabbing onto the dolphin's tail part Under the Sea...I JUST COULDN'T DO IT. *laugh* So I gave up. I'm definitely MORE pathetic. Anyhoo, yes, I suppose it's all agreed that I should read Eragon and Eldest...and pretend that the movie never happened except for the fact that Murtagh was a total hunk. *laugh* Well, thanks again to all of you for your wonderful comments!!! *hugs* Yesterday, as I mentioned...I did NOTHING! But, it was a good nothing. *laugh* Just relaxed in my pajamas all day and played video games and went on MO. I visited whoever updated up until the last time I checked which was around 8pm. In the mean time I played more KH2 (of course...aren't I predictable? I bet you're all like, "When are you going to finish it already??? You sure take a long time!" *laugh* I only play it like an hour at a time though.), Fire Emblem (for gamecube), and a little bit of Chibi-Robo, then I went back to KH2. *laugh* After that, my oldest bro and I were checking out my laptop...trying to see if the wireless card thingy worked, but we don't think that it does. ^^; So TODAY, we're hopefully going to go to Saxby's (this coffee place that has wireless internet connection to use) and see if it works there, and if not, he'll buy me a new card. *nods* Exciting! Lately, well, "lately" meaning everynight since Christmas, I've been playing/singing Karaoke Revolution Party (my jerk brother gave it to me...aren't I nice? I just call him that instead of his name "Corey"...). I totally rule on those girly girl romance pop songs and 80s songs. *nods* I got PERFECT SCORES (50000 points = diamond record) on Cyndi Lauper's "Time after Time" and *thinks* that other 80s song "Take on Me"...can't think of who it's by. *laugh* So, yeah, I've been having fun though most of the songs on there REALLY SUCK. So I usually end up doing the same songs over and over again. *laugh* Corey always seems so embarrassed or something so he never sings seriously...or he just stops after a few lines. My mom tries to get him to have fun with it, and then he takes offense. *sigh* He takes offense to anything and everything...he really is a jerk. *thinks* I'm not sure if there's anything else to talk about...I'm going out to test my laptop today...hmm...probably going to play more video games...*thinks* Yeah, that's probably it. For the sake of those of you that have been wondering, yes, my family and I are moving January 15. We're not moving that far away though...just like 20 minutes away. The reason for the move is because of my mom's health. It's a long story, but you can get the gist of the crap that was going on in my archives during the summer...that was when I got so totally depressed over the fact that we have to move, and the stuff that was going on with my mom. I don't feel like going through it all now, but that was just for those of you that were asking. *nods* Ok, that's all for me! Thanks so much for visiting me! *hugs* I love you guys! Have a wonderful day, ok? Please? Please? Good. *nods*

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Wednesday, December 27, 2006

Warning: thanks/plush, movie trauma, movie reflection, & yesterday/today

Hello, everyone! *hugs* I'd like to thank y'all for commenting on my site yesterday. ^^ You're ALL SUCH GREAT FRIENDS and I LOVE YOU. *laugh* I hope I made that clear. I got a lot of long comments, too!! I was amazed. *nods* Cause they were really long...and I enjoyed reading them all. ^^ [Completely random comment inserted here...my dog is asleep and snoring at the moment. *laugh* He snores REALLY LOUDLY. *laugh*] Anyhoo, I really appreciate it when you guys go back and read previous posts if you didn't read them when I posted them...and then you comment on both. *nods* It means a lot to me to know that you actually care enough about me to do that, despite how much I write. ^^; Xanth and Kawaii, yuppers, Michiru plushie! I don't know if they made a Potato one...and I'm still yet to see a Misuzu one, but I AM going to get a Minagi plush! ^^ Also from Ebay. So, yeah, thanks again to all of you that commented! As I said before, we went to see Eragon yesterday. *nods* Umm...but first, I think I'll talk about the events leading up to it. ^^; As I was talking about yesterday...my dad was being a total crab and yelling at my mom for all sorts of stuff (moving and her mom, you see, my grandma isn't doing so well....and, well, it's a long story), and he was yelling at her the night before, too. So anyway, we get read to go see the movie, and my dad never apologized so my mom didn't want to talk to him at all. She was upset with him because he starts all these arguments, never apologizes, and...the things he was insinuating (like that she doesn't care about her mom) were very upsetting. *sigh* So we get to the movie, sit down in the crowded theater filled with little kids, parents, and people of older ages...and then, my mom cries. She cries, right then and there...in the middle of the still-lit theater...with all those people around. I say, "Way to ruin a movie..." not exactly sure if I was directing it to my dad or mom, and then, well, my dad goes to get food. I tell my mom to stop crying...and then she goes to the bathroom. After much waiting and fending off of their seats (I swear, it was a madhouse in there! everyone saw their seats open and...*rushes to empty seats* "Oh...they're taken..."), they came back and apparently they "made up." So anyway, on to the movie...when my parents got back, the movie had started. I watched it, and I sorta liked it...but I didn't think it was that great. I never read the book before (but I really want to), but the movie just didn't seem...oh, I don't know, put together well. It seemed like all the scenes were chopped up and slapped together. They didn't flow very well, and a lot of the scenes seemed like they were really short and not in-depth...I didn't get a real grasp onto any of the characters' backgrounds or relationships. ^^; I guess I should just read the book...but I gotta say, Murtag was a total hunk. *laugh* He was sooo sexy with his dark hair...especially when it was wet and covering his face...it was just a shame that he was barely in it. *laugh* When we got back from the movie...umm...I went on the computer for a bit and then played KH2...yup, nothing special. Today I'm probably going to do nothing! Yay! I didn't have a good time sleeping this morning though...cause all of the males in the family were going off to work and making a lot of noise...and my dog was barking so much. ^^; I wish I could've slept better...oh well. Ok, then, I guess I'll go now. *hugs* Thanks for visiting me, and I'll try my best to visit you guys, too! *hugs* Have a wonderful day!

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Tuesday, December 26, 2006

Warning: thanks/presents, lame X-mas, & today

Merry day after Christmas! Wow...I can't believe I got so many comments...I thought I was going to get like 2 or something. *laugh* What were you guys doing on here commenting on my site?? You should've been having fun! *laugh* Well, thanks a lot for that!! ^^ Thanks for the sympathy for my jerk of a brother...*sigh* He's just extremely ungrateful, selfish, spoiled...and everything bad. He continued to be like that all day, too. He has no use for a laptop! He has his own computer, and it's not like I can do anything with it yet anyway...we don't have wireless internet so all I did with it yesterday was watch a DVD (Air Buddies...*laugh* the gift to me from my dad...cute puppies...), and other than using Word, that's all I can do for right now. ^^; So, anyhoo, yes, my mom really loved her gift...she cried as expected. *laugh* I love my mommy. ^^ I forgot to mention one of my gifts though; I got a Michiru (from Air, the little girl with pink hair) plush! ^^ She's sooo cute! I really wish I could've found a Misuzu plush...but it's impossible to find her. Well, thanks again for all the comments!! So, yeah, I already talked about my Christmas...it was the lamest one yet though. ^^; We barely got any video games or anime so I have nothing new to entertain myself. *laugh* Plus, my brother and my dad made it horrible...being so darn crabby and everything. Even my dog was a jerk. I couldn't pet him at all yesterday without him growling/biting at me. So this Christmas wasn't filled with much love. ^^; *sigh* And wanna know what our dinner was? Marinated Korean beef! *laugh* That and tempura vegetables...yup, no turkey or anything. It was strange, but yummy. Hmm...so I have just a week off from school...this sucks...*sigh* Oh well. *thinks* Today I might go to a movie with my parents...but with how things are going now (my dad is being a crab again...yelling...about all of our things that need to be moved) I'm not sure if we will. My dad wants to see Apocolypto, but I wanna see Eragon...and, um, yeah. Jeez...my dad is being so mean right now!! >< He constantly wants to get rid of anything that's ours. "GIve them away or sell them! We don't need all this crap! I'm not going to move all this stuff to our new house!" Umm...yeah, sorry this was random...but it's happening now. Anyhoo, I don't feel like going to a movie today though. ^^; Well, thanks again for all the comments yesterday! Feel free to tell me what you got! ^^ Yes, Rachel, Happy Chanukah! I didn't want to leave you out! Have a great day, and I'll try my best to visit you guys today. *nods*

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