Tuesday, August 29, 2006

~Warning: another 2 paragraph shout-out section, new bg, & talk on yaoi

Wow...those were some surprisingly long comments! Well, some of them...like yours, Angel Asuka! Holy crap! That certainly was the longest comment you've ever posted...and possibly longest I've ever gotten. ^^; People, you've got to look at it...it's the one that's in red and that seems to go on forever! *laugh* But I did read it all! *hugs* Thanks a billion for caring enough to write that much! And, as you can see...I changed my bg to the pic you sent me! I altered it a bit to fit better and have the text seen better, too. Thanks so much for it!! I hope everyone likes my new bg now, courtesty of Angel Asuka. ^^ I even made a wallpaper with the pic and submitted it today. Anyhoo, lots of you were surprised that I actually commented on your sites yesterday! As I said, my brother was at his new job...so I got time to comment! ^^ Thanks, Griff, for the ultra-long comment from you, too...but you sorta took things wrongly. The "constructive criticism" I was talking about was telling my dad what temperature the oven was supposed to be at...not me calling him a child. ^^; He gets pissed off at every little thing these days, and you can't say what you said in that last little part...cause I've been doing the work of my mom, same with my brothers. We all take turns doing dinners now, and I also have to do the laundry and clean other stuff, too. Sometimes I think that me and D (cause my other brother usually doensn't help) has been doing more than my dad as far as kitchen duties go. Poor Saijinto! That sounds like a horrible day!! Leaks and possible fires!! That's good that your mom called in time...or else you could be dead now! *sob* Thanks also for the shorter comments (boredteenager, EmilySadako) that simply and honestly said, "I didn't read it [the post]." It's ok! I understand...I do write way too much...and you guys have school now, so that's quite alright. Ayumi-chan, don't worry!! It's ok that you haven't commented in a while either! *hugs* You know before I would never get to comment, so it's perfectly fair. *nods* Same to you, Shizuka and Skomie. ^^ Don't worry about not commenting! Everyone else, I love you guys, too!! Whether you cared about the whole Pluto thing or not, thanks for mentioning it. I'm just a total freak that's into that whole fortune-telling stuff...so, yeah. Oh, and you can call me any of my nicknames...it's amazing that I've been called "Reni" the most whenever someone decides to call me one...cause that's the one I've preferred (no one knew that though!). ^^ Quite the coincidence. Sorry again!!! >< I took up 2 paragraphs for shout-outs again! *sigh* Sorry...ugh, I just don't know when to stop! I really envy you guys that write one paragraph posts...it's quite a talent to be that concise. ^^; People don't like reading so much cause it takes their time up...so I'm sorry to those of you that really don't look forward to when I post cause of how much I write. ^^; I'll try to make this post shorter...sorry if I end up not doing so. So, my brother Corey got his job at the vet's. He's the vet's assistant...so he pretty much does everything. He has to get shots ready for the animals, help hold them down, clean up stuff, be the receptionist, and pretty much anything else they can offer. It's so much better than his job at Staples though...cause he gets a whole hour for lunch! He doesn't like that though...cause he doesn't get paid then...and he just wants more money!! He'll find anything to complain about. So when he was at work yesterday, my mom and I went out to do errands (as I said). We went to the grocery, Wal-mart (again, but this time to get Corey his scrubs!!! *laugh*), library (to drop a book off), and Barnes and Noble! I never went to this new B&N, so I asked mom if we could go. It was sooo nice!! I ended up getting 2 fantasy books (Night of the Wolf, and Wolf King) by Alice Borchardt. They're the next 2 books in the trilogy of Silver Wolf. I really loved that book...I think I mentioned it to you guys a while back when I read it, so that's why I wanted the next ones. Then mom also let me get 2 manga, so I got Gorgeous Carat 1 and 2 (they're yaoi...^^). I didn't know it was going to be yaoi (if you don't know already, it means, well, guy on guy action *laugh*) at first...but then I saw the advertisements in the back for other manga released by the same company (BLU, which stands for "Boys Love" something...*laugh*). So that's a good thing! Let me take a little time here to talk about yaoi... When I saw that Gorgeous Carat was a yaoi manga, I said, "Oh, good. I wasn't sure if it was yaoi...but it is!" My mom said, "wait...what's yaoi? Does that mean lots of good-looking guys?" I'm like, "Yeah...something like that...and they love each other. It's pretty much guy on guy action." My mom was sorta shocked (even though she's been buying me Descendants of Darkness, I guess she didn't know the meaning of "yaoi"), and then she said..."Oh...but why would you want to see 2 good-looking guys kissing and whatnot? Wouldn't you rather them be liking you??" My one friend asked me the same thing...not every girl is into yaoi, that's for sure. Well, duh, of course you'd want those hot guys to like you...but there's something about seeing 2 hot guys "getting it on" *laugh* that, well, is...uh...pleasing. *laugh* Sorry, couldn't think of any other word other than "pleasing"...but you know what I mean. ^^; Sorry about this whole paragraph on yaoi...especially if you're not into it...or if you're a guy. Sorry!! ^^; Well, I'll end this post now...sorry if it's too long again. I just can't make my posts shorter!!! Again, thanks Angel Asuka for the pic for my new bg! (I hope you all like it!) I hope that everyone has a fantabulous day!! P.S. Here's the link for my Air wallpaper I made! Look and comment if you please! ^^

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Monday, August 28, 2006

Thankies a bunch for the comments! All of you guys are like my doctors/therapists. *laugh* Thanks so much for trying to diagnose why I feel nervous/sick in the morning...and why I always have bad dreams and can't sleep well. ^^; For those of you with suggestions, I'll try them out...but obnoxious-chan (yes, I'm using -chan), I don't know if decorating my room with bright colors and getting earplugs will help...^^; For one thing, I sleep on the floor of my mom's room (yes, strange, I know...I've been there for probably 10 years!) so I don't think she'd want me putting up random colorful things...and I already sleep with a nightlight. ^^; Thanks for the suggestion though! Saijinto, wow, that was some story about your sister...that's horrible that she'd use church as an excuse to see a friend!!! It was very good of you to be such a concerned brother though. *nods* I'm glad you don't hate me, Jungy (I guess I'll start calling you that now since everyone else does ^^;)! I'm not exactly klutzy and an airhead...but, like her, I've been told that I'm "too nice" and that it's annoying how much I care about things. Yay, Rachel! You're back! *hugs* You're not crazy! I love thunderstorms, too! I just don't like it when the wind is super strong...that's what scares me. ^^; We got more rain last night! I only saw some lightning, but I didn't really hear any thunder...the rain was sooooo nice and steady though so it helped me to fall asleep ^^ despite my difficulty breathing (through my nose). Paintwriter, I agree with the whole thing you said about The Village...I thought the message/base storyline that you were supposed to get out of it was interesting and good, but I thought it to be too slow...and boring. ^^; And everyone else that I didn't directly reply to...*hugs* thanks for your comments cause they really mean a lot to me! Sorry for not replying specifically to you, midnight shadow, kagomeinuyasha199, Angel Asuka, and NNM. *hugs* Wow, I used 2 paragraphs for "shout-outs"! Sorry about that...if you guys don't like reading those. ^^; I just want to make sure that I let everyone know how much I care about them and what they say! So anyhoo...my bro is at his new job (at the vet's) being trained at the moment. I have no clue when he'll get back though...since he was supposed to get there at 8:30am (and now it's 11:40)...so I don't know cause I really don't know how long he'll be "training" for...or if they're actually going to have him start working today or what. ^^; He's either going to be the person that takes care of the animals in the kennel, or he'll be the receptionist (yeah, that always seemed more like a woman's job...but whatever ^^;). So, after I post this I shall go around visiting those of you that already updated! Unforunately though, my mom wants me to go with her to do errands today...so even if he won't be back for most of the day, I'll have to get out of the house. *sigh* Hmmm...what to talk about...*thinks* Eh, I have nothing to really say about yesterday...oh, nevermind! I do...it's about my dad. I swear, ever since my mom not being able to come downstairs to do stuff, he's gotten pissed off at everything...especially when it comes to dinner. Last night, he was supposed to be putting these frozen tempura veggies in the oven...at 400 degrees...well, first off, he puts the oven up to only 375 or something, and the next thing is that he didn't even wait for it to get that hot! He put them in when it was only 300 or something! They'd get all mushy and gross! So D comes in and reads off the instructions on the box, saying to put them in at 400 degrees...that's all he did, read the instructions...then my dad blew up! He started yelling at him to mind his own business and that he's not helping him, and "stop critiquing everything I do!" *sigh* So I came in to see what was going on...and I tried to defend D cause he was just trying to help to get him to make the food right! He just yells more, and I just calmly talk to him...telling him to stop yelling and whatnot. I even called him "a child"...cause that's what he acts like. He sure can't take constructive criticism well, nor can he take advice! Anyhoo, he was just crabby for the rest of the night and yelling and got pissed off at everyone for anything...*sigh* Ok, I don't know how long this post is...really, I never know. ^^; Sometimes when I think it's short, it's really long and visa-versa. I did want to mention about how stupid scientists are saying that Pluto isn't a planet anymore! They say that it shouldn't be considered one since it crosses Neptune's orbit and stuff. That's just retarded. They can't just change how kids learn the planets now! Saying that Pluto isn't a planet...that's ridiculous!!! I'm offended cause that's my "guiding planet" in my horoscopes...yes, I'm into astrology/fortune-telling/tarot cards and whatnot...so what'll I do if my "guiding planet" is no longer a "planet"??? Ok, sorry about going off about that...I'll end my post now. ^^; Thanks for sticking around (if you really read everything). Have a wonderful day!

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

Bleh...stupid!! Not you guys though...don't worry! It's just that I have like no time right now to write anything...usually I have most of sunday to myself cause my bro usually works...but...he rescheduled to work on wednesday instead! *sigh* So...at the moment...I really don't have much time to post so I gotta type double-time people! *laugh* Thanks for all of your comments! *hugs* Haha, asialonewolf! I shall hug you more and more! Suffocate from all of my hugs! *laugh* YugiohYamy, you're so lucky to have Kurai and Seki to do stuff for you! ^^ And again, I was not killed by the "boredom" of your comment. *nods* It wasn't boring at all!! It made me laugh!! Nana, you pervert! Well, I don't really know you in person so I can't really say that...so I'm really just joking with you. ^^ And Jungy, uh thanks for calling me an "onigiri"...Furuba reference. But if you hate Tohru, like I said in my comment on your site, then that means you hate me! *sob* Laundry...stupid laundry...I did more yesterday. It never seems to end with 5 people in the family! Mom said that everyone would do their own...but hah, that sure didn't happen!!! At least I didn't have to cook dinner last night...I got a break. ^^; So during that time I talked to Harvey online. Then it was dinner time...and during dinner, D and I watched...well, fastforwarded through The Village. It was such a horribly boring movie...man, I couldn't imagine watching it in the theater! If any of you saw it and liked it...well, sorry that I don't share the same opinion. I thought it was going to be "scary"...and it didn't even have a good ending at all! Yeah...this is gonna be a short and boring post! Sorry!! Well, I slept pretty badly last night...we had a thunderstorm and the rain was sooooo loud. My dog barked at something almost every hour. *sigh* And dad would come in to do stuff...and well, I just couldn't sleep well at all! I had bad dreams, too...and I was uncomfortable. ^^; I'm tired, but surprisingly not as tired as I would think I'd be...I feel more sick than anything. Almost every morning when I wake up, I feel sick to my stomach...morning sickness???!! As if I'm pregnant???!!! >< Well, I sure as heck know I'm not pregnant so it's just something else...but I really hate it. It makes it hard to sleep in the morning when I feel like throwing up! It only subsides after I start doing stuff on the computer (writing an email or posting here). It's such a weird nervous feeling...I wish it'd go away!! Wow, sorry, that whole paragraph wasn't written very well...^^; Well, I'm gonna have to cut this post short as I've said. Sorry for how short (for me) and horribly boring it is!! I'm also sorry that I can't visit people today!! I visited like 2 people before writing this...but that's it. Tomorrow my bro goes in to his new job at the vet's to be trained (not like a dog *laugh*), so I don't know for how long he'll be gone though...but maybe I'll get some visiting time tomorrow! Have a great day everyone! *hugs*

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Saturday, August 26, 2006

*hugs* Jeez, don't you guys get tired of all my hugs? And all of my thanking you??? Well, whether you're tired of it all or not, *hugs some more* thanks so much for the comments! There were, again, quite long! ^^; Yeah, seriously...what's the record length of comments on here? Cause...wow, mine were really crazy the other day. Yesterday's were quite long as well! I wonder how many pages they'd all take up. *laugh* Well, that just shows how great of friends you guys are!!! *hugs* I've said this before, and I'll say it again, I've never had such good friends before! Ones that actually care about me. ^^; I see that a lot of you enjoy Sam's Club...and some of you like Walmart more than others. NNM, you seriously would play Marco Polo in Sam's Club?? Wow, I can't believe that the employees would let you, and even sometimes help you! *laugh* JungWoo, you're sooo lucky to have those man servants! I really wish I had some to do stuff for me! I really could've used them yesterday (will say why after this paragraph). Reki, awwww, you poor thing! *hugs* You had to get shots?? I hate needles, too!! I hope that you're not too sore today! YugiohYamy, I didn't die from your comment!! Your comment wasn't boring...and no one's is!! I loved reading them all! *hugs* I'm in a better mood today, yay! ^^ My brother's at work for most of the day (it's 1pm now, and he goes till 9:30pm), and, I don't know...I'm just feeling better. It must've been your comments! Those and some other things...number 1, I got an email back from the friend I mentioned yesterday saying that they're not mad at me! ^^ I was worrying all yesterday about it...so I'm glad that they're still my friend. *nods* Number 2, I got a message from one of my friends that I know in person, Yan. She's been my friend for many years, but we really haven't had classes together in a while. She called me the other day just to say "hi"...just to see how I was doing! No one ever does that! And, like I said, I got a message from her related to my post from the other day. She's not into anime, nor does she know about MO, but on myspace, I mentioned months ago that I had an account on here and have mainly been writing stuff here everyday...and, well, she actually checked it! She actually read my post, and gave me encouragement! ^^ None of my friends in "real-life" (if you want to put it that way) have ever read my MO...so, I just thought that was really sweet of her...especially since I'd barely talk to her (since we'd never see each other). Yesterday I felt like a maid...or something like that, which is why, JungWoo, I would've liked to have some of your man servants!! I did sooooo much laundry...at least 4 loads. Take stuff out of the dryer, put those in basket, put dirty clothes in washing machine, put in detergent and softener, close it, turn it on...when those are done, put them in the dryer and start the cycle over again. And the one load, man, I swear they were dry!! I put them in the basket, carried them upstairs (it was soooooo heavy!!!), and then later my mom said they were still wet...so back in the dryer they had to go!! And then, I was going to take them out (thinking they were finally dry), and what would you know? They were STILL WET! Boy, it sure was annoying. So, yeah, I did a lot of laundry yesterday and I cooked dinner...breakfast for dinner! I made pancakes (which I've never done before)...and everyone loved them!! *hands out leftover pancakes to you guys* They said they were better than mom's, but I doubt that. ^^; Then I had to do the dishes...my dad's so lazy, he just annoys me and D when we're trying to do them. We tell him to help, but he doesn't. As for today...my senior pics are now online for me to look at...and well, I looked at them. ^^; I think I look horrible ugly in every one...my dad's like, "Oh, you look beautiful!! Like a young lady!" But I still think I look ugly...I would show you guys, but I can't cause you have to put in a password and stuff to get to them...and you can't save the pics either. Oh well. They're too hideous anyway!! And you can see my swimsuit tan in it...cause my shoulders are exposed, you can see where my swimsuit strap has been. ^^; I don't know if that's good for the pic or not... Well, I'll say good-bye now!! I think I made this a long post...but then again, when are they not? Even when I think I write a shorter one, it still ends up paragraphs long. ^^; Sorry about that! Thanks for visiting me, and today I'll hopefully be able to get to most of your sites! *hugs* Thanks sooooo much for being there for me. ^^ Have a great day!

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Friday, August 25, 2006

Gao...*sob* *sobs uncontrollably* Your comments...they were...*hugs*...too good to be true. I got the longest comments ever...and holy crap, it surprised me. I really don't know what to say about them...except, thank you for caring so much...and I'm sorry for worrying you, and I'm sorry for being stupid. JungWoo, I don't hate you. Why would I hate you? You were just trying to help me out by saying those things anyway. I don't know if I wrote what I said "just to get attention" cause I really was having suicidal thoughts...just cause I wrote it out, doesn't mean I was doing it for attention. I think of this site as my journal; therefore, i put down all my feelings here. I'm sorry again for worrying you guys to the point of writing 5 paragrph essays for comments. *bows* I read all of every one though...and it took me almost 10 minutes. ^^; Aerith, Grifter, Reki, Saijinto, midnight shadow, Skomie, Angel Kitsune, Shizuka (twice ^^), JungWoo, Perios, Kilwoon, and Neko Nana Mode...thank you all for putting so much care into what you said. *hugs you all* I'll try to get my emotions out more instead of holding them in...and I'll try to be more positive with things and certainly not think about death as an option, and I'll try to have more self-confidence. *sigh* I just don't think of myself as highly as other people...I'm always trying to sacrifice for other's happiness, which is also what my mom has done most of her life...so I guess I get it from her. I'm not confident when telling others my feelings if it's about them either...like if I don't like something about someone, or if they did something that hurt my feelings, or if I really don't feel like talking to them at a certain time...I have trouble telling people these things. I apologize a ton (you guys have noticed) when I do something like that or just for pretty much doing anything! Yesterday, I sent an email to a friend...saying that I don't really like talking online everyday with them...conversations, even if it's with someone I like and even if it's online, are stressful for me. Amongst all that I was saying, I of course was apologizing for saying those things. I said sorry so many times for possibly hurting their feelings by saying that...and I don't know if that made things better. They might be mad at me...and I really hope not. Cause they were online this morning, and I said, "are you mad at me?"...I didn't get a reply...they just went offline. *sigh* I hope it was just some stupid coincidence and not that they're really mad at me. *sob* See...I have so much trouble with friends...I can't even keep any for a long time. Am I annoying? Am I too clingy? What is it??? >< I try to be the best friend I can...being so nice and everything...and only caring about them, but it always backfires! I'm sorry...I just hope you guys don't leave me...this is why I always say sorry and always thank you for your comments...cause they mean so much to me. I'm not mad at any of you. It's best to let out your true feelings and what you really want to say, right? Well, I think I'll stop now...I don't have anything else to write about really...unless you want to hear about my boring trip to wal-mart and Sam's club yesterday. ^^; Today, mom and dad are going to look at this other house...I hope my mom doesn't get a reaction. *sigh* Again, thank you all so much for your comments...and I'm sorry if I came off like I just wanted attention...now you all probably don't like me for that anyway...sorry, I said I'd have more confidence in me, right? Well...I can't help it! I hope you all have a cheery day! P.S. It's all thanks to you guys that I have: Total Visits-1526 Popularity Ranking-869 *hugs* I love you all *hugs again*

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Thursday, August 24, 2006

*sigh* I see that people must be getting busier these days (probably cause of school). I wrote such a huge post yesterday...but hardly anyone commented...and hardly anyone seemed to take my whole part about me being depressed/suicidal seriously. Well, that's fine, whatever. I guess you all know me too well...you all know that I'm too weak and afraid to ever do something as stupid as hurt myself/try to kill myself. Thanks for the comments though! Neko Nana Mode, man...that sucks about you breaking your Optimus Prime figure! >< My brothers had so many transformers figures when they were little. We still have some, but my dad gave away a ton...and yeah, it's really a shame when you find out how much they're worth. ^^; Sure, I'll eat some chocolate...maybe that'll help. Reki, thanks for the song (though I don't know what it sounds like ^^;). EmilySadako, I'm sorry that you can hardly get on cause of school!! Stupid school! *hugs* I forgive you and Shizuka...it's alright if you don't visit me often. I rarely get to visit anyone these days anyway...oh, and JungWoo, what do you mean you got into your makeup stage late? At 8? Hah, I never got into my makeup stage. I'm 17, and I still don't wear make-up! ^^; Oh, and wow, yay for Puffalumps!!!! *hugs* I have the one you're talking about! ^^ I didn't know anyone else had one either! We did go to the mall yesterday...it was an okay trip. Shopped around at video game places...got some cheap used games and some cheap new ones (my bro got Silent Hill 4 new for less than $10!!). I went into Borders and saw new manga that I wanted...but I didn't get any cause I'll have to wait till we have a coupon or some sort of deal. After the mall, we went to the grocery store...yeah, fun...well, my mom went in first, and then Corey and I walked around to these other stores nearby (in all the years we've lived here, we've never walked down there!). It was so relaxing there! It was like a nice little courtyard or something...it had a fountain in the middle and was shaded by a lot of nice trees. ^^ It would be a great place to read! There were so many little shops that no one would notice or go into...and I don't blame them. ^^; They're pretty hidden and useless...shoe repair? Yeah, no one needs shoe repair these days! So, yesterday was a pretty good day...until night came. I started to get upset over the moving situation and crap with my mom...and it was right before going to bed. I was holding in my feelings all day cause I didn't want my mom to worry about what I felt or anything...so then, she mentioned how she had another reaction today and that my dad's been looking at these other houses to move into, and then I let it out...I didn't cry, but my mom could tell that I was very upset by the whole situation...I mean, I have been depressed like everyday lately. So, because of me, my mom then started to feel bad/sad. She started to worry about me and how I felt cause she says that my feelings are more important...and see, that's what I didn't want to happen! I didn't want to burden her with my problems. She already has enough! That's why I hold in my feelings a lot. They just cause more trouble for other people...they just shouldn't care about me, cause if they do, then there's more worries for them. So, I'm sorry. I hope that my life and troubles haven't affected you guys at all (as far as worrying about me)...you guys have enough problems, I'm sure. One bit of good news though. My brother (Corey) finally got a call from the vet about him getting the job! We don't know when he'll work yet (he needs to call him today), but I'm sure it'll be during the week and during the day! It'll be so nice...I'll finally get more time to myself so then I can visit you guys more often! Or at least I hope. ^^; Unfortunately, next week is my last week of summer *sigh* and I have no clue what my schedule will be like...hopefully I'll get time to post and visit then. Yeah, I'm gonna make this post shorter than usual...sorry (to those of you that like long posts). I'm just not in the mood to say much...plus, there isn't much to say...and I doubt anyone wants to visit me anyway. *sigh* Ayumi-chan, if you happen to read this post, please look at yesterday's!! I did a major shout-out to you!! Well, I hope everyone has a good day today!

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Wednesday, August 23, 2006

*hugs* ^^ Thanks for the comments, though few, I loved them (like usual). *hugs again* Not too many comments about my poem...but the ones that I did get were very nice. Thanks!! I'm glad that I got my point across about the whole doll thing. *laugh* Any criticism/ways to make it better are greatly appreciated!!! Yay, Ayumi-chan! ^^ I'm glad that you always like them and even to the point that you save them! *hugs* I never thought anyone would like my writing like that. ^^; And thanks for the award/banner!!!!!! I put it up on the marquee with the others! Thanks again, Ayumi-chan! midnight shadow, yeah, I sorta got the part about the "ringlets" from my hair. ^^; my mom always says that I have "ringlets"...and she wanted me to make sure I showed them off in the pic. ^^; I had my hair in a braid though (brought to the front to "show it off")...so I'm not so sure how my "ringlets" look. *laugh* But thanks for taking notice to that! If the dollie poem was really based soley off me though, then it would have green eyes instead of blue. *nods* The person holding the doll is more like me...lonely... I have always been one to love stuffed animals. Even today, if I see a cute one...I ask my mom to get it. ^^; My favorite stuff animal is Puffy, a puffalump. Click there to find out more about them! Puffy is the mouse type. *nods* Maybe some of you have them? Well, I have pretty much most of the old ones...and I have the lamp version of my Puffy, too. ^^ Anyhoo, he has been much loved since I was a little girl...when my mom bought me the pink dog one and him (blue mouse), she thought that I'd like the pink one best, but nope, I took to Puffy...well, I had many Puffys. *laugh* Since i liked him so much, my mom got me at like 3 or 4 of teh same one...and all but my one now were lost somewhere. I left one on a plane, one at my bro's coach's house, and...if there was another, I don't remember where that one went. ^^; My last surviving Puffy has been with me every since though! He has gone through much surgery (stitches and whatnot) through the years from all my hugging of him...and, yes, I still sleep with him. (no, not in that way, perverts!!!) WHen I get sad/lonely, I hug him, too...but I can never sleep without him. I always have to be hugging him before going back to sleep. ^^; Am I a lonely person or just a baby? Yesterday...nothing happened...just the usual boring crap being with my brother. He drove me more crazy than usual though. I swear, I had one of those urges to stab again...either stab him or my dad...or even myself. Really, sharp objects looked nice yesterday. I didn't do anything though...but I sure felt like it. I've been feeling depressed pretty much everyday for a while now...and sometimes even suicidal. *sigh* It's stupid. My bro might've actually noticed this cause the other day he said to me, "Don't kill yourself." just out of nowhere. And whenever we're in the jacuzzi, and I want to go under, well, I do, but then he pushes me back up with his foot...as if I'm going to drown myself or something. I certainly wouldn't want to drown myself...that would be horrible. ^^; Today we might be going to the mall...I'm not sure. My mom definitely is, but I don't know if me and Corey'll come with her. I want to though...to get out of this stupid routine, but I'm not sure. It's always up to whether he'll go or not. *sigh* Stupid...anyhoo, this morning I got an email from my teacher for AP computer science, which I'm taking next year, just with questions about my experience with computers. I thought it was going to have summer hw...cause if so, man, he sure picked a late time to give it!! I just have to answer some questions about myself and download some programs if I'm gonna do some of the assigments during the year here at home. ^^; So that's not too bad! Thank goodness! Alrighty, I shall take my leave now. ^^; I hope that this post wasn't too long or boring...or too short...or whatever. I hope it was just perfect! *hugs* Thanks for caring enough about me to comment on my site...especially when I can never return the favor. I'm sorry, but no visiting time today either (like how it always is during the week).Please forgive me!! *bows* I hope that everyone has a great day and gets all healthy! (Ayumi-chan, get that back feeling all better!)

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Tuesday, August 22, 2006

*hugs all of you* I love you guys!!! >_< Your comments were all so uplifting and nice! And I laughed at several of them (ones about kicking my mean bro in the shins *laugh* (thanks Reki for that one) and Skomie, yours about wearing the "drape" thing was funny, too!). Aww, midnight shadow, here. *hands you a muffin* I'm sorry you missed out on that day!! Now you have a muffin! Sorry, YugiohYamy, no more muffins left...*sigh* You'll have to wait till the next time to get another! Thanks to everyone for all your wonderful comments! ^^ You guys are the best!!!!! So, I bet you're wondering about the pictures yesterday...well, duh, of course you would be. I must reveal the mystery behind the "drape". *laugh* Ok, so I wore one of my fancier hot topic shirts (it's a white one with long sleeves and a wide neckline, it's sorta shear...and just really pretty!)...and mom and I get to the school and wander around to find the place where the pics would be taken. We found it, and then we walked in...the girl there asked, "who are you?" *laugh* Yeah, that's proper ettiquite (sp?) and way to ask a customer...but anyway, so I tell her my name and she gives me this card thing. Then she asks, "Are you going to take the picture in that?" A little bit offended...but then I say, "Well, I don't know. Isn't there supposed to be something you have for us to wear?" So, yeah, there was the "drape"! *laugh* It was just this velvet-like shawl sorta thing that was rested below my shoulders, but they couldn't have my shirts showing so she asks, "Can you take your shirt off?" o.0 Uh...no...no...thanks...for one thing, the photographer was a guy. I don't care if he was gay or not, but still, he's a guy, and there's no way I'm taking my shirt off just to put on some stupid drape thing!! So the the guy comes up and says, "Can't you just pull your shirt below your shoulders?" Ah, common sense speaking!! Thank goodness I wore that shirt that had such a wide neckline! It made it ever-so-easy! So then they put on that thing, which we'll still call a drape...cause i have no clue what I looked like in it. My mom said it looked really pretty and made me look like I had on a velvet dress that showed off my shoulders or something...anyhoo, the guy treated me like I was his little doll. ^^; It was a bit freaky...he adjusted everything on me, and spent a lot of time fingering back my hair to make it look "perfect." He adjusted my glasses, and he took so much care in straightening out everything...like I said, it was weird...and it was like I was his dollie. *laugh* So when it was finally picture time, he'd move my head and tell me to look certain ways...then I'd smile and he'd say, "That smile looks too fake! Come on!" So when he's say that I'd laugh and come up with a "real" smile. He made me say "whiskey" once...^^; Weird, but whatever. Anyhoo, the pics will be online in a few days for us to look at and pick which ones to use! I was really surprised at how many he took...like, wow, he took so much care! This wasn't at all like a normal school photo. *nods* Oh, one more thing about the pic...was that, after me, 2 guys had their photo appointments...so if I had taken my shirt off to have that thing on...well...uh...peepshow...so, yeah, no thanks. ^^; I really wanted to put a poem here...but my brother's down already, so I'm not sure if I can. *sigh* Crystal blue eyes, Shining in the night sky, Gazing up towards nothingness. My reflection in them Sparkles like the hem In her old-fashioned Victorian Dress. Hair curled in ringlets, Ribbons abound, I hug her tightly As I carry her around. Never knowing if someone Will be there for me. I hold on to her tightly, My sweet little dollie. Uh...yeah...not one of my usual style poems. Obviously, the whole dollie thing came from the freaky photographer from yesterday. *laugh* I just had to write a poem about a doll. Some of the parts in the poem sound really awkward...I apologize for that. I sorta rushed to write this just now!! ^^; Well, I'm sorry but no visiting time today...like usual. *sigh* I sure hope that you guys have a great day!!!

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Monday, August 21, 2006

*smiles* Yay!! *hugs* Thanks for eating and loving my muffins!! ^^ It is a shame though...that unfortunately, there is a computer screen in the way. *laugh* It should be like in Charlie and the Chocolate Factory...with the TV food thing. You can all just reach right in a take it! Yummy! ^^ So, again, thanks very much for the comments! I got a couple from some new people, so thanks! *hugs* Derek came home yesterday (pretty much right after I posted), and I asked him about his trip with his friend. He didn't get pissed on! *laugh* So he got lucky this time! ^^; They went to the shore, but were unlucky in finding any girls...they also went to a bar/club place, and again, were unlucky in finding any girls to "pick up" or "flirt with". ^^; Poor guys...I really feel sorry for D (we always just call him "D" for short)...he has been without a girlfriend for sooo long...and he's tried so hard on those online dating sites, too. *sigh* I hope he can get one soon...cause he gets really depressed about it. Well...today is the day...>< My senior picture day! *sigh* I'm not looking forward to this...it's horrible! I'm going to look terrible!! My body just so happens to pick the perfect day to be all like, "Hehehe...I'm going to sprout up pimples on her face!! Make her look as horrible as possible..." Ugh...stupid!! >< *sigh* My mom got me this headband for me to wear...so that my bangs don't cover my face. I don't think it looks that bad, but my perverted/jerky/annoying brohter Corey says that I look uglier than usual with it on. Last night he said, "Seriously, you shouldn't go tomorrow...especially not with that on. You look hideous!" *sob* He's sooooo mean!!! He said it so seriously, too...but then D said (cause he's always the more normal, civilized, and nice one of my brothers), "Awww, you look so cute!" And this morning (before leaving for work) he left me a note saying, "Kelsey, you look pretty! Good luck with the pics!" ^^ That made me feel good though. He's so much nicer than Corey. *nods* Yesterday, my friend Karen called (she's the only one of my friends that calls just to talk), and we talked about our summer reading books. She still needs to read the one I just finished. Then she told me about the senior picture...cause she talked to the lady from the photography place when she called (we just let the message machine get it). She said that the lady said that she has "something for the girls to wear"...what's that supposed to mean??? Seriously, I'm very confused. She said it's like some "drape-thing"? So...what? It doesn't matter what we wear cause we'll wear whatever the heck she has for us? ^^; I'm sooo confused...so I'll probably wear a nice-ish shirt and hope that she does have something for us to wear. So, yeah, my picture is today at 1:30! I hope it goes well...^^; I've never cared so much about a school picture before...well, whatever, I'll look horrible no matter what! *sob* I just checked the auctions I put up on ebay 2 days ago...and (well, I already knew this yesterday) we already sold an item! And we have bids on 2 out of the 3 other auctions!! ^^ Exciting! If you want to see my/our auctions, click here! It always feels good to see money come in. *laugh* Well, I have nothing better to write about right now...except that I'm disappointed that I didn't get an email from a certain someone that said they'd email me yesterday if we didn't get to chat online...*sigh* Oh well, maybe today...so, anyhoo, I hope that you all have a picture-perfect day! ^^ Thanks for reading my stupidly-long-and-boring post!

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Sunday, August 20, 2006

Helloz! *hugs* Thanks for all the comments!!! >_< They were all long and thorough! Some of them seemed longer than my post! ^^; I only noticed much later yesterday that my post was really short compared to usual...if I had noticed earlier, I would've put something else in there...but I think that you guys probably enjoyed it better being shorter. ^^; Anyhoo, I see that a lot of you like novels/manga written by both sexes...I made a lot of you realize that "hey, I really only read manga by females..." or something like that. I'm glad that you all got a kick out of what happened to my brother! *laugh* I talked to him on the phone yesterday and asked him if he got pissed on yet...he laughed and said, "No...no, not yet. There's still one more night for that to happen! Plus, I'm in a completely separate room this time...so he'd have to navigate in his sleep really well to get to me...or have really good aim." *laugh* So when I see him today, I'll see if there was a repeat of last year's "event"...Oh, and Midnight Shadow, just to refresh your memory, "bishie" is the shortened term for "bishounen", which basically means a hot/pretty/good-looking guy (usually in anime). ^^ Yesterday was...well, it was rather bleh. I did so many things it seemed...and hardly any time to really relax. I did the laundry, cleaned elsewhere, baked (muffins, yes!), played DDR, did the dishes, took pictures of stuff to sell on ebay, posted the auctions on ebay (that took a while), finished my book (yay! i really liked it though), talked with Harvey, and then played some games. ^^; It was quite the exhausting day for me...I'm sure that most of you do more work during the day than what I just said, but it's a lot more than I usually have to do...I've never had to do laundry before! But now I have to do it since my mom can't go in the laundryroom!! >< Corey told me to do the auctions...cause when he's at work (I've mentioned this before) he likes to give me "assignments" to do while he's gone...ugh...he's a monopolizing jerk! Harvey and I chatted for a bit online, while being on Gaia. We didn't really talk about anything in particular...that's how it usually is. ^^; We talk about nonsense or just whatever, so that even though we talk for 2 hours, I can't really remember what it was that we talked about! ^^; As I mentioned, I made muffins!! Finally!! Chocolate chip muffins to be exact! ^^ *hands them out to the very patient friends who have been waiting for days* YugiohYamy, here! *hands you the first muffin* Just like you wanted! Here ya go, Saijinto...sorry to make you wait outside that window for so long. ^^; I even took a pic of the muffins...yeah...they look not so good in the picture, but then again, whenever I take pics of food...they all end up looking gross. *laugh* Yeah...so take your pick! ^^; Tomorrow...I'm not looking forward to tomorrow...it's my senior picture day. For some reason, in your senior year (at least here), you take the school pic during the summer! I don't quite understand why though...but whatever. I'm not looking forward to it at all! I'm going to look sooooo bad in it...absolutely horrible...I know lots of people take it really seriously and dress up all fancy and get their hair done special, but I'm not going to do either. Why should I make myself look different from how I look everyday for a senior picture? Should I go out of the way to make myself look so "fancy" that people won't know that it's me in the picture? I think it's just plain old stupid...plus, I hate every picture of me anyway. *sigh* As for today, my mom might want to take me to the mall...just to do some shopping, like for hair accessories to do something with my crap-like head of hair. ^^; So...yeah...whatever. I don't know how long this post is...^^; It might look longer simply because of the picture of the muffins in it. *laugh* Sorry, but alas, there is no poem again...I just can't think of one to write yet!! >< Maybe tomorrow. Well, since I'm a very boring person I shall end this post here...boring! Thanks for reading my post *hugs* and commenting. Have an un-boring day!

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