Wednesday, June 14, 2006

  

So many comments again! *hugs* I love you all for still caring about me, even though I've been a failure as a friend lately...sorry! All of your comments do help though. *nods* Grifter, yours was awesome. Hah, I wish I had a plasma screen tv! *laugh* Yeah, that sure sounds like my dream room though. ^^ Well, I went to the mall...but didn't get any manga. *sob* Got some anime though. Dokkoida (last 2 volumes) and the new Mermaid Forest (pretty much all of it) cause we traded in 2 DVDs and they had a deal going on...but 1 get one free! ^^ Hey, guess who's gonna be back online more often soon?? Me!!! Staples called last night, and they want my bro back!! Hahah!! So starting saturday he'll have work again! I'll get 3-4 days a week to be on the computer for hours on end! Yay! ^^ So I can't wait till saturday! I'll actually get to visit you guys. I'm so sorry I haven't visited. Yes, Shizuka...no matter how many times you tell me it's ok or to not worry, I still will!! Today we might see x-men 3! I heard that it's realy good! ^^ Well, I hope that all of you have a wonderful day today. I pray for ya! *hugs* I wish that all my friends could be happy...but not all of them are. *sigh* Please visit my friend dspR agian. Please. He needs more confidence, love, and friends...I hope you don't mind me mentioning you again Harvey! ^^;

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Tuesday, June 13, 2006

  

Wow...I can't believe I got so many comments yesterday. ^^; It really surprised me!! T.T You're all such great friends to me that I don't even deserve! Thanks soooooooooooooooooo much for your support even though I can't visit your sites that often now. ^^; It means so much to me. See, I have quite the conscience...and it tends to annoy me. I feel really bad when I don't get to comment or talk to you guys...I feel like I'm a bad person to not return the favor. It's on my mind all day, really it is. So, I'll never forget about you!! I just hope you don't forget about me. ^^; Yup, that night was horrible...it's all better now though. But it was soooo disgusting. ^^; *laugh* Grifter, yeah, I don't know how I wanted to eat chocolate pudding after that...and Harvey, yes, I didn't drown in feces!! Thank the good Lord!! ^^ Yesterday, my bro moved his bed into my room...see, I didn't have a bed before. I've always slept on my mom's floor. ^^; I like it though...I don't want a stupid bed...he moved it out so that he could have room for his own computer...that stupid pervert. Well, today's gonna be a shorter post. I actually got around to some of your sites! Whoever updated already (11:30am est). And I went to some of you who updated yesterday...SOME of you, not all. Sorry!! ^^; Today I think we're gonna go to the mall, yay! I'm gonna hopefully get lots of manga! I hope you all have a wonderful day today! I miss talking to you guys as often...and again, I'm sorry.

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Monday, June 12, 2006

   Hell of Water

I'm sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo sorry!! *bows deeply* I really didn't get to visit anyone's sites yesterday. *sigh* Kilwoon, your words did help though...I guess I am way too hard on myself, but I just feel really bad if I don't get to return the favor with you guys or if I just bore your minds out...I think that what I say isn't important or interesting. ^^; Anyhoo, I'm really tired, and I have a reason for that and for not going on yesterday...it relates to teh title. Oh, and I see everyone loves my doggie!! ^^ Thanks for all internet-hugging my Totoro!! Ok...on to last night...it all started at dinner time, 6:30. I had to go to the bathroom first so I go...well, I don't get to cause there was no water in the toilet!! I tell dad, and he's like "just flush it!" So I flush it...and, well, it ends up worse. ^^; It overflows!!!! The downstairs bathroom was flooded...everything soaked...it was horrible. Well, that's just the beginning of it. My dad goes down to the basement, which is where all the pipes and stuff are, and which is also where all of our bags of old stuffed animals, toys, and collectibles are... So he goes down there, and we hear,"Oh no!! Oh no!!" We all get up, and I didn't get to eat anything yet, and walk to the basement...and what do you know? Pipes leaking everywhere...huge puddles...leaking from the floors above thanks to the toilet overflowing! The septic tank was backed up, completely filled, so it couldn't hold anymore! In case you don't know, the septic tank is where everything flushed down teh toilet goes...so all the water dripping and forming puddles was brown. It was teh most disgusting thing ever. Horrible smell, horrible everything. We had to throw out a lot of stuff. *sob* I don't wanna give up my toys!! Lots of things were completely ruined. So anyway, from 6:30 to 8:45 last night, I was mopping up crap-filled water off the basement floor and even getting down with paper towels to wipe it up...of course, we wore plastic gloves, but I don't know how well they helped. It was horrible. I didn't even get to eat dinner...so at around 9:45, I had a pepperoni hot pocket and chocolate pudding. Yeah, real healthy. My arms were sore and everything was just bleh...I couldn't sleep at all cause I was still mopping in my mind. I look terrible right now...just like the pieces of crap I was cleaning up. After we finished though, we went back up to the jacuzzi, which was cool since it was nighttime so we got to use the pool lights. Well, that's my horribly disgusting story of my first sunday of summer vacation...I wonder what the rest of summer holds for me? *sigh* My whole family is extremely unlucky...there's something wrong with everyone, and a there's a problem with the house every week....sorry for making you read about this disturbing event. *hugs* Have a nice day! And I'll see if I can visit sites later...I apologize again if I can't.

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Sunday, June 11, 2006

Thanks for your comments!! *hugs* I'm sorry I'm such a ridiculous person...going on and on about amount of comments and whatnot...and pretty much just talking about the same things all the time. *sigh* My life is not interesting at all so that's all I got to talk about!! I did sooo many quizzes yesterday. ^^; They were fun though. Ummm...yeah...my bro is officially done with his work...so no more freedom for me until he gets another job! Maybe I'll get like 15 minutes later in the day...I'll attempt to visit sites then. Sorry! Well, let's see if this works...I'm completely HORRIBLE with html. I don't know how to do anything, but my sweet friend xanth has been attempting to help me. ^^; Let's see if I can get this marquee thing to work with pics of my dog. His name's Totoro (yup, named after "My Neighbor Totoro"). He's a miniature poodle...but doesn't look like one. Enjoy! Everyone have a wonderful day for me, ok? *hugs*

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Saturday, June 10, 2006

Thank you for your comments like usual. Not as many people commented, but that's fine. *nods* I'm sure it's cause I posted at an interesting time...or maybe people were busy...but it's probabaly because most only comment if I comment on their sites, and since I didn't comment on too many yesterday...that's probably why. ^^; But 8 is still a lot! Sorry for sounding selfish. *sigh* Yeah, it's my first official day of summer vacation! But it still doesn't seem real...like I'm just not excited about it. ^^; It's not because of summer reading or work...I just don't know. I don't mind summer reading as long as the books are good...it's just that we usually have to read stupidly bad books. ^^; I'm sorry to have worried any of you! It's not like I won't be on at all here. I just won't have as much time. *sigh* I'll try to post everyday, but I sure don't think I can get to everyone's sites. I'm sorry. It's because my time is always so controlled...it's not like I hate my bro or hate being with him, but it's just too much, you know? That's why I like it when he has a job...then he's out and I get some "me" time. Sorry...you must be really tired of reading about me and my bro all the time. I'll stop now. I just took a whole bunch of personality quiz things. I put them in my results so check em out! I love taking those...they're usually pretty accurate. I notice from them what I really am like...mostly lonely and stuff. I never thought of myself as depressed or lonely until this year, I'd say. No...I mean, well, I've certainly been depressed and lonely before, but not as often as I have been lately. *sigh* I'm sorry to always make you read about it. Anyhoo, I'm gonna go up to the jacuzzi now...and splash my dog. My dog is a crazy man. He just constantly whines and begs to be splashed with the water...he loves drinking it! It's really funny and cute, but also annoying. ^^; I don't think chlorine is good for dogs...but he loves it! Btw, he's a miniature poodle...but he's more like a larger toy poodle. Maybe I'll put a pic of him up. ^^ So, yeah, I'll visit sites after I'm done out there. I'll try my best to get to everyone's today because this might be my bro's last day at work...so it'll be hard to visit sites after that. I really don't want to miss out on your lives though, so I'll really try to get to them everyday. I felt bad that I didn't visit everyone's yesterday...I'm sorry again. Well, I hope you all have a wonderful day because you are all my dear, sweet friends whom I can never replace.

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Friday, June 9, 2006

  

Hmmm...well...today was my last day of school. It's summer now! I suppose I should be happy, right? But for some reason...it doesn't seem to be done. This past couple of weeks in school seemed more like the beginning of the year to me. It just doesn't seems like it's summer now...maybe it's just cause it hasn't really sunken in yet. *sigh* Well, my bio final was ok...but I'm pretty sure I did really horrible on my history one. I didn't know anything...I guessed so much despite studying a lot. Gao...tomorrow's my bro's last day of work. *sigh* He's definitely quitting. So tomorrow's gonna be my last day of freedom from him until he gets another job. It sucks...it really does. Knowing how he goes about getting a job, he'll probably take like 3 weeks off before trying. So I'm really sorry, but I probably won't be on the computer much at all until then. Tomorrow I'll get to visit sites and stuff, but not today really...or like all next week. *sigh* I really hope he gets another job soon. This summer is probably gonna suck. I dont' know why, but it just seems like I'm not looking forward to it. Maybe I'll do stuff with friends twice the whole time, but that's it...other than that, it'll be summer reading for english class, and doing whatever it is I need to do for AP Comp Sci. They made an annoucement today to have kids that are taking the class to see the teacher, so at least that means I'm not the only one getting work. ^^; Umm...yeah...so I'm just feeling rather bleh right now. When my friends are depressed so am I...and I just read a depressing email from my friend, so I'm not too chipper right now despite me not having school anymore. Well, I hope that all of you have a good day and a good summer (whenever it is for you)! Remember, you're always in my heart, in my soul, in my mind...I'm caring for everyone of you, and I never want you to think that you're alone. (P.S. relating to what xanth said...no, it's not like I'm going away for a week. ^^; I just might not be able to visit much. I'm sorry!)

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Thursday, June 8, 2006

  

Sorry for the later-than-usual post!!! It's cause of finals today! >< We can leave school after we're finished with them, so I was finished today at 11:30. ^^ I had to go to this teacher though to see if there was going to be any summer homework for my AP Computer Science class...he seemed really nice, but he didn't give me a distinct answer. ^^; He asked me to write my email address down...that was it...and I"m pretty sure no one else went to talk to him about the class...so...it's just a bit weird. ^^; I'm worried that he'll send me summer work to do, but no one else will get it cause they didn't bother to ask!!! After that we needed to get milk so we went to the WaWa...but it was so packed! So I had to sit in the car for like 20 minutes. My bro was at home of course until about an hour ago, so I couldn't get on any earlier. ^^; He's reconsidering his quitting the job...if he can manage to get a raise, then he might work longer! ^^ I hope he does!! Thanks so much for all your comments yesterday! I'm sure your wishing me luck helped me today! And all of you are so insightful when you mentioned my brother. *nods* Yes, I'm sure he'll learn once he moves out of the house (if ever) how difficult it is to live without mommy and daddy's money. Also thanks to all of you that loved wolfie #2! ^^ I got so many comments and votes! Wow, it makes me want to draw more wolfies...which is pretty much all I can do. ^^; Wolves, flowers, and anime-style...that's it. Next year, unforunately, I'm not taking 2D art...I'm taking 3D, which is pottery, metal works, and stuff like that. So maybe I can craft some wolfie jewelry or something? I don't know, but I'll see! I'll definitely want to draw more wolfies though cause they seem to be quite popular here. ^^; Thanks again! Well, tomorrow I have my history and biology finals. Then...when those are over...it's SUMMER for me!!!! ^^ Man, I can't wait! I just wanna sleep late every morning. That's pretty much all I'm looking forward to. *nods* So I'm really sorry if I can't visit all of your sites tonight cause I gotta study...and I'm not sure if I can get on tomorrow...maybe for only a little bit since my bro doesn't have work, unfortunately. ^^; At least when I have a full day of school, I usually have free time to go on the comp, but since tomorrow's pretty much a half-day...I won't. ^^; Well, I hope you all have a wonderful rest of the day today! ^^ *hugs* Good luck if you're taking finals, and if you're not...then...um...well, have a good time relaxing or catching up on other work!

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Wednesday, June 7, 2006

   Warning: Long post ahead

What a useless school day today is for me!!! >< Since we took our Japanese final in class, we don't have to take it during the normal time set aside for foreign language finals...which is this morning...but the thing is, we still have to go to school! All the other years, the language final was on the last day and it was only the final. Now it's the first day, and after the final we have to go to our normal classes still...it's so stupid! Had it been any other year I would've been getting out of school a day earlier. *sigh* So here I am, in the library for over an hour...at least there's computers! ^^ Anyhoo, sorry, that was different for my first paragraph!! So here I'll say thank you for your comments! I see that most of you dislike math very much. ^^; Yes, it is indeed a subject that can make one cry...if you didn't see my last post yesterday (yeah, it was late, sorry) I'll just say again that there was no art club yesterday. My friend did cheer up and all, but she had to make up a math quiz after school and we decided no one would come anyway. *sigh* So it was rather depressing...the whole second half of the school day (including when I got home for a while) I had this lingering lonely/depressed feeling. *sigh* I maybe have one day a week that I'm happy for pretty much the whole day...but that's it. ^^; Yesterday, my pervy bro really made me upset...he got his own computer (God, it's horrible! He's so stupidly hard-headed about everything...and he thinks money will solve everything!), which isn't good cause we all know what he's gonna do all day...but anyway he says that I was jealous because I didn't say anything about it. I say, "No, it's just cause I don't know why you need one..." He says, "Because I'm emailing people all day! I have lots of friends. More friends than you have anyway!" then he went off into more stuff...but that part about friends really hurt me...I don't care if he's just ridiculously immature, it still hurt. I submitted my newest pic yesterday, wolfie #2!! ^^ So please vote and comment! I drew this wonderful wolfie #2 last art class...well, actually the class before last cause yesterday I just helped my art teacher organize and clean the art room stuff. ^^; I actually enjoy cleaning and organizing...it's weird...but I feel that I should be doing something! Like, I can't just be in a room doing "nothing", especially in school. So I went up to her and said, "Give me something to do!! I'll help with anything!" She looked at me like I was crazy. *laugh* Now then, as for the rest of the week...tomorrow is the english and math finals. Friday is science and history, and then that's it!! So that means that I have to study tonight...*sigh* Studying! >< No! Oh well. So please forgive me if I'm unable to get to your sites if you update later in the day/night!! Again...sorry...very long post. Gao...

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Tuesday, June 6, 2006

no art club and wolfie #2

Thanks you guys for your comments. *nods* Sorry for a late post right now...no one will probably read it. ^^; I just felt like telling you that I didn't have art club today...and it was depressing...^^; I submitted new fanart!! It's another wolfie...I did it yesterday in art class so please look and comment!!! ^^ Here: wolfie #2 I'll probably advertise this again tomorrow...since no one will see this probably. ^^; Today was an ok day...but I felt really lonely and depressed for the second half of the school day...including when I got home. *sigh* Even though I don't take a language final tomorrow (cause we took ours in class for japanese), I still have to go! It's so stupid...so I'm gonna be shoved into the library for over an hour...at least that means computer time!!

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Gao...^^; See, I say "thank you" too much!! I know you all said you weren't annoyed by it...but, yeah. So....^^; Thank you again! *hugs* You're all so nice...all the things you say are just so great. I mean, you all seem to honestly be glad when I'm happy and stuff. *smile* I've just never had friends like this before! Yeah, yesterday I suppose I was in a chipper mood! I don't really know why...maybe it was because I'm finally feeling that this school year is almost over! ^^ I don't know, but I was just having fun yesterday dancing to the different music channels we have on our digital cable (yay)...mostly in Spanish. *laugh* Even though my brother wasn't at work, I was in a good mood! But still, I dont' think I visited a lot of your sites...so I"m really sorry!!!! The 2 sayings I say most (and usually in sequence) are "thank you" and "I'm sorry"...gao...hehe. ^^; Today is 6/6/06!! >< Scarrrry!!! I hope nothing bad happens...you know, 3 sixes and all...well, so far my day is ok. I had history already, and I'm in there, and i don't even notice my friend Susannah come in...when I do notice her sitting there, I see her hands on her face. I ask her what's wrong and she removes her hands to reveal a tear-streaked face. *sob* So I hugged her and asked her what's wrong. She had to do this math project, and she's worked on it for hours but can't get any right answers...it makes me really sad when I see my friends upset like that...cause I've been like that so many times. So I tried my best to help her out. ^^; I think she finally got it! I even let her borrow my pencil...my only one...well, I'll get it back soon. Anyhoo, I hope she's in a happy enough mood to have art club today! Yup, art club...possibly the last meeting of the year! *sob* I hope that we have it after school today. If so, I'll be home after 3:30, then I'll go up to our pool and soak in the jacuzzi (sp?) for an hour. ^^ It's so nice...uh, on a completely different topic, I'm happy that my bro still has to work this saturday! Hah! At least one more day of freedom...yay!! Friday's my last day!! Yay!!! Sorry, I'm just so excited! I won't have to wake up early for, whatever, 2-3 months! So, yeah, I'm excited about that...but today I'm actually feeling a concealed bit of depression in me. I don't know why...but...no, sorry, I won't ruin this happy post with depression. ^^; I don't want to worry you guys all the time. I hope this bit of plaintiveness goes away soon. *sigh* Oh, crap...I have the vocab part of my final today...and a math quiz...well, those aren't things to look foward to...but I don't think those are the reasons. Anyhoo, I love you all...and never doubt that. I prayed for all of you last night. I honestly did...I hope that God heard my prayer and will answer it. I want the best for all of you. Everyone deserves a life full of love and happiness. Um...sorry for the long post...gao...

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