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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Friday, January 26, 2007
Warning: thanks, contemplating the future, yesterday, & today
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*hugs* Thanks so much to the 11 people that commented yesterday! See, I told ya 11 was one of my lucky numbers...11 and 15. *nods* Anyhoo, yeah, I suppose that was another long post...I'm sorry!!!!! ^^; I'll try to make this one shorter...I promise...I think...maybe...we'll see...^^; I'm glad that those of you that read my whole post and read my poem liked my poem!! *nods* Yes, I KNOW...it was negative; I already said that. *laugh* It was meant to be that way. I'm sorry if all I can write are depressing/negative poems...sometimes I write ones about love or just completely random things though. ^^; Yeah, maybe I should be a poet...but, nah, I'm really not that good...*sigh* Which brings me to my first train of thought...
I think I've mentioned this before, and that's probably because it's a constant problem on my little mind. I don't think I'm good enough at anything to be anything. As in...well, what on earth am I going to do in the future? *sigh* Sure, I write poems every once in a while, but they're not exceptional enough to be called "poetry worth publishing"...I like to sing, but hah! Me? A singer? NO, that would never happen. It's been one of my dreams, but I'm too afraid of being in front of crowds, AND I'm not that good of a singer. Same with dancing...hah, I suck. I say that I'm majoring in "fashion design" and that's what I want to do...but really? Sure, I did one fashion design project in 9th grade in art, but that was it. I haven't drawn in a while...I don't really draw for fun anymore...that's the same with piano. I used to play a lot, but then I just stopped after my piano teacher moved away. *sigh* Now, my dad hasn't even moved the piano into our new house...he doesn't even want to because I never play. I'd like to, but...*sigh* Whatever...another thing, I like to cook, but I don't do it in my free time for fun. I wouldn't be a cook for a living...I'm sure of that...man, I just don't know what to do with my life. There isn't ONE THING that I enjoy doing and am also GOOD at...*sigh*
Sorry, more self-deprecation...anyhoo, here I am at home. Yup, I didn't have to go to school today since I didn't have the midterms that are today. *nodS* I got to sleep late..except NOT because of my stupid dog. He was barking non-stop for no reason all morning since 5. I also woke up with a headache, so yeah. Not good. Yesterday...when I got home...I went online and talked with Hoaryu and some with Hyli, too. That took up a good over 2 hours...*laugh* Then, hmm...I let my mom use my laptop...and I thought I was going to finally be able to play some KH2, but no, I couldn't. The workmen were still down there installing the filtration thing. ^^; So I just waited around, and then...I don't remember. After dinner though, I had one of those sinking depressed feelings that came upon me for no reason at all. Just all of a sudden I felt tears well up in my eyes...I felt lonely...or like I just realized I'd never see a close someone ever again. I don't know; it was just really weird...but then later I was talking with my mom about this whole filtration thing, and I was saying "what if it doesn't help you?" and I got depressed again...she noticed for once, but it didn't really matter. *sigh*
So I don't know what we're going to do today. I know we have to pick up my oldest bro because his car isn't working. He couldn't get it to go last night...because his alarm kept going off. It was really weird, and he had to freeze outside for 2 hours because of his stupid car. So maybe we're going to do some shopping today...tomorrow's my bro Corey's b-day, and we have no presents for him yet. ^^; My mom just said that we'll probably go to the mall if I want...I guess so...that just means not as much computer time during the day. ^^; Well, whatever. If you didn't read my poem yesterday, go ahead!!
Thanks for reading whatever you read. I love you guys. *hugs* I hope you all have a great day!
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