AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
Personal
Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
Saturday, February 24, 2007
Warning: some thanks, depressingness, poetry.com, & angela aki vid
Thanks so much for the comments, you guys. *hugs* You really are the best! I appreciated all of the sympathy and whatnot about all of my "torture" yesterday...and the compliments on the song on my site, too. ^^ I'm glad that you like it (those of you that could hear it). Umm...so, yeah, I'm not going very far with these thank yous today...sorry. ^^; Just know that I always love you guys when you comment, even if it's just "sorry I can't read your post." *laugh*
Wow, sorry about that...my thanking skills must need sharpening or something. ^^; No, it's not that, it's just that I don't have much time to post right now...and I'm not feeling too well. *hugs* This morning, when I woke up to go to the bathroom at around 7am, well, I had an unexpected panic attack for a ridiculous reason...that I don't even want to say...it makes me feel so bad thinking about it. *sigh* I'm ok now, just tired since I could barely go back to sleep, and I still feel a bit sick to my stomach. ^^; Anyhoo, I wonder if I'm getting sick from my dad's having a cold? I can't breathe at all, and my throat was feeling a bit iffy last night...bleh...but then again, I've also been having those ridiculous thoughts again of WANTING to be sick. I want to be sick just so I can have an excuse to just lay around and be miserable...instead of now where I feel like being miserable but it'd be for no reason.
Yes, I feel like depressed crap right now. I hate myself. I feel really bad...like a really horrible person. I feel like in some way I've failed certain friends, or like I'm annoying...or like, I don't know, I'm just horrible. *sigh* I have this sinking feeling that I've done something wrong to hurt someone, and this guilt is pouring over me. I'm sorry. I don't know what's going on...and this would probably be a prime place to have a poem, too, but I don't feel like writing one. Maybe tomorrow.
Speaking of poems though, here's one good piece of news. I submitted one of them to poetry.com, and the other day I got the letter about it being in the semi-finals to win money and stuff, and that it's going to be published in their book. Then again though...I think they probably publish/send out those letters to everyone that ever submits. I know at least 3 people that's had theirs published via poetry.com and none of them got any money. Instead you have to pay THEM and buy the book...which isn't available at stores or anything. It's just the collection of works from people the submitted on there. I don't think I'm going to buy it...but it's still nice to know that I COULD win some money. Narret and YugiohYamy are two of the people I know that did the same thing. *nods*
Alrighty...I don't know what's happening today...maybe a movie, maybe not since my dad just wants us to finish packing/cleaning stuff up at the old house. Either way, it's probably not going to be very fun, and I'm in such a mood that I don't want to move from my bed. For lack of anything else interesting, here's a music video. If you can see/hear it, that's wonderful...if not, I hope that someday you can hear the song. It's by Angela Aki, "Hallelujah." It's one of her newer songs I think...it's quite beautiful.
Ok, sorry for this low-key post...I'm also sorry that I probably won't get around to visiting anyone today--it being the weekend and all. *hugs* I hope you guys have a good day though, and thanks for visiting me.
