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Mid-morning everyone! It's not first period! ^^; This is my one and only day having campus 4th period, yay. Anyhoo, so thanks a ton for the comments. *hugs* You're all so wonderful. Long comments, short comments, I love reading all of them! So, yeah, we didn't get out early or anything for snow yesterday...it snowed all day, too, but that didn't matter. ^^; It didn't really cover the streets so that's why. *sigh* Oh well; there isn't anything you can do about it! The weather does as it wishes! Magnus, you were the only one that mentioned having Mississippi mud pie before! *hugs* Isn't it SO yummy?? Chii00, long time no see! ^_^ Thanks for commenting! *hugs* Same with Mew HolliBerrii. *nods* Anyhoo, so thanks for all the glomps, hugs, and whatnot to help me with getting un-depressed. Not sure how much that really helped, but thanks all the same!
So...I'll do my usual order of things...it's 4th period, and I'm here in the library. I just had computer animation, and when I got in here...to my dismay, I discovered one of my headphone ear piece covers (you know, those soft squishy things that cover the earpieces?? that most of you probably dont' use??? Well, I USE them. ^^;) missing!! It fell off at some point from my last class (or possibly the class before) and now...*sigh* Man, that pisses me off. How am I supposed to get another one?? Buy a whole 'nother set of headphones to take one off?? *sigh* Ugh, how unlucky! There's no way I'll find it...it's a little black soft squishy thing! Easily kicked around! It wasn't on the ground between here and my computer animation room...I didn't check the classroom, so maybe it's there (but I don't have time to check again!). Ugh...this sucks. So now I don't have the covers on, and it's uncomfortable. ^^; They dont' fit in my ears right without them! Bleh...ok, sorry, I'll stop rambling on about losing that...
So art club was today, but I didn't go again. It makes me feel more out of place and depressed to go, so I don't think I'll ever go again. *sigh* Oh well...and then first period, I had gourmet 2, which was horrible. I love cooking so much, but that class takes all the fun out of it for me simply because of my group. I was again stuck with no jobs, just cleaning. Great, so I'm the dishwasher...wonderful. I really feel like I'm CONTRIBUTING to the cooking that way. *sigh* And the girls in my group even made a lot of mistakes in the recipe...the biatch girl used butter instead of shortening in the dough, and for the apples to be carmelized in, well, the other girl accidently put in SALT instead of SUGAR...luckily she asked our teacher why it looked wrong; yeah. If I had been included, then it wouldn't have turned out wrong..gah, I hate it. *sigh* Then I had philosophy, which was interesting yet boring at the same time. The end.
I'm still feeling depressed, but yesterday was just TERRIBLE. Man, I literally didn't want to do anything...most of the evening was spent lying on the couch or my bed...I felt so tired and bleh. I was playing Tales of Legendia for a bit (like only 15 minutes), but then I thought..."eh...I'm playing and the game itself is fun, but I'm not HAVING fun," so I gave up and that's when I just plopped on soft bed-like areas...oh, one good thing, my mom bought me that dirt-cheap Strawberry Shortcake camera from Toys R Us for me to use for my class. *laugh* It's pink and adorable....so, yeah, I don't have to borrow those cheapy $1 no-flash cameras. I already took some pictures of my dog for the project, and I have a feeling he's going to be my only subject...no one else in my family wants to be in my pictures. Anyhoo, so at around 5:30pm, when I was laying on my bed...I decided to write a depressing poem...it actually took quite some time for me to get it all out. This time I have some sort of theme/analogy thing going on...but, eh, whatever. I was depressed, therefore, it's a craptacular depressing poem. Here:
Eyelids weld shut
To bar the tears in.
It burns and it sears
To build that fake grin.
Lying down on my bed
Made with pillow and sheet,
I contruct the barrier
To prolong my defeat.
I don't want to give in,
And disassemble my walls,
Causing my defense to cave in,
As the first tear falls.
I knew it wouldn't work--
This barrier of mine,
But I don't really care;
It suits me just fine.
So I'll build it again,
Knowing it won't last long--
My barrier for tears--
Because emotions are too strong.
...so, yeah. Crappy, I know. Reading it now I think it sounds stupid...but whatever. And I realized that when I wrote this in my notebook (oh, speaking of which!! Whenever I mentioned "notepad", you ALL thought I was talking about the program, notepad. *laugh* I meant an actual physical notepad...you know, with paper and lines? ^^;), I was spelling "barrier" wrong the entire time...I always had it "barriar"...right, well, that just shows how cognitive I was at the time.
I have nothing to say about the rest of the day...other than I have dance next (boo), and I have to work on my essay part of the english test last period. Thanks for visiting me. ^^; *hugs* I hope you all have a great day.
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