AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
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Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
Warning: thanks, morning, yesterday's prom excitement to disappointment, & amv
*sigh* ^_^; Haaa....*is tired* Umm....thanks a lot for the comments yesterday. *hugs hugs* I got so many!! And that was really surprising because, well, I didn't get to many sites yesterday...that will be explained later. ^^; I appreciate all of your advice on the prom thing. After today I'll probably shut up about it. *nods* So I'm really sorry if I ever sounded like a whiner or just really annoying going on and on about my indecision. I'm not a very decisive person...I never know what I want so that's why a lot of the comments that said, "Just do what you want! Go with your heart/feelings!" don't really help me much, but thanks all the same. *hugs* You guys tried! ^^ I still love you all. I got comments from new friends, too! Destinyssweetman, I'm happy to have you as a friend now. ^_^ Same with Siaras Kaiba, lunarXeclipse, and the other commenters that I haven't heard from in a while (or this was the first time hearing from)!! A lot of my older friends seem to be coming on MO less and less so I'm very grateful to be gaining new friends. I'm sorry I'm not a better friend to you all! ^^;; Anyhoo, thanks again for the comments.
Well, you can probably already tell that I'm not in the best of moods! Just not that energetic...not as cheerful as usual. [Just a complete side-note...after emailing Magnus a lot lately, I feel like I'm typing/writing more in her style! *laugh* She's so great. *hugs her*] I'm in my first period campus (free period) in my previous programming classroom...where Deepthi SHOULD BE...but she's not because she's taking the AP test for computer programming (the other guys in the class aren't taking it because they suck *laugh*). I really wish she was here right now...and more on that after this probably because it's a big problem (mainly for me...). She NEEDED to be here so I could talk to her...*sigh* Now I don't know what to do...anyhoo, I'm tired, and I didn't want to go to school today, but that would accomplish nothing.
Alrighty, I guess I'll talk about yesterday. Isn't it amazing how quickly joy and excitement can turn a complete 180 to become disappointment and loneliness? Just with the simple ring of the telephone? I'm sure you've all experienced that at some point..."Ooh! I can't wait! This will be SO much fun! ^_^" -----> "*picks up phone* What??? You can't come? So...what will I do?? *sob*" Yeah, that was yesterday for me. After school, I went to see Mrs. Bakken to look at the dresses she brought. I took my friend Karen (friend of 3 years, and she's one of the only people I've done things with...aka going to the mall) with me, and beforehand I asked her if she was going to prom. She said, "Well, probably not...I was going to go if YOU were going to go..." Well, I answered with, "Mrs. Bakken is going to get me a dress! So I think I'm going to go, and I didn't want to go unless I knew someone else to go with...like you!" So, our plans were all set...we were happy and looking forward to prom, finally!!
We went to look at the dresses, and they were so pretty. She let us both take some home to try on. ^^ That's the point in which we were probably happiest! So I get in Mom's car, and go home while I tell her, "I'm going to prom," with a smile on my face and the dresses in my lap. She's just as excited as I am. So I get home, and I quickly start trying on the dresses. ^_^ They're all so pretty, but the first one I tried on (and saw) was the one I decided to go with--a dark red (burgundy?) long one. It looked good on me, and I even had my outfit all picked out, accessories and all. I then proceed to do my usual routine of chatting with Markie (and Rachel, too this time!), until...I hear the phone ring. I thought it wasn't going to be anybody, but then the message machine came on...and I heard Karen's voice. I thought, "Oh great...now what? This can't be good..." Well, her mom decided to be a stubborn biatch and told her she couldn't go.
She couldn't go...COULDN'T go...why? YOu wanna know why? Because her mom's such an old-fashioned old maid, that's why. Her excuses (and I could hear these all over the phone): "You can't go unless you have a date! A male date! You can't just go with a friend, espcially a girl. They'll think you're lesbians!! *arguments later* And, your father's flying in this saturday! [at what time?] At 4pm!! [prom is at 8...that's 4 hours earlier!!] *more arguments later and another excuse* Your brother is going in for surgery on [when??] MONDAY. [hello??? Monday is TWO frickin' days AFTER prom...does that have anything to do with anything???]" So in between all of those pathetic excuses, she kept telling Karen, "I love you...but you can't go..." Needless to say, she was crushed, and I was, too...then I started to cry.
I ended up crying for about 2 hours. I know, I sound like a wuss...and to cry about that especially makes me immature. Well, SORRY. I haven't cried in a while so it was a good time for release I suppose. Later, my mom and dad get back, and then I try to call Deepthi and see if maybe she'll go with me! I got her answering machine...and she never got back to me...and that's why I wish she were here in class right now...*sigh* Well, I'll shut up now. I'm really sorry for ranting on and on about this same point. I could've summed it all up in 4 sentences, but I didn't...sorry I'm so verbose...I guess I'll just go alone...though I don't really want to, but I don't want Mrs.Bakken's kindess to go to waste.
I just hope that something good will happen today. Remember, I'm writing this first period...so maybe I'll hear good news later? I have foods with Narret after this (and, yes, she's going with Ben, her boyfriend, and other friends), and I'll just figure things out. So, yeah, sorry again I couldn't visit many people yesterday...and no new wallpaper either...my day was pretty much shot after that phonecall. I'm sorry again for being a whiner. The comments I get today will probably all be the same. "Stop complaining! Just do something about it! Or...awww...that's too bad..." and nothing else.
Here's an amv, I hope you enjoy it. You'll probably like it more (if you can see it!) than my post. ^^;;; The song is "Dream of an Absolution" by Lee Brotherton, and the anime is Air.
Thanks for visiting me...sorry for all the crap I talked about, and I hope I can be in a better mood to visit today. *hugs* Have a good day!
