AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
Personal
Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
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Saturday, December 15, 2007
Warning: thanks, no sleep, today, wallpaper, other stuff, & amv
Thank you, thank you for all the wonderful comments...though I didn't exactly read them all yet. ^^; Sorry. I don't feel up to it right now...but I will welcome back those that haven't been here in a while!! 9breaker, asialonewolfe, xaos [the line was, "I didn't kill my wife" then "I don't care." XD But yeah, close enough! Hehe!], Imasyon, Kaisa, and Nana. :3 I've missed you guys!! *hugs* I've also missed a lot of other friends on here...I sure hope that they come back. Again, thanks for everything that was said...I didn't read your comments fully yet so I can't really reply to them well enough. But yeah, thank you!
I feel like crap right now...I barely slept at all last night; it was just terrible. -__- I don't know HOW or WHY...but my body just didn't want to sleep...my mind didn't want to shut up. That seemed like the longest night ever. See, I'm not like a lot of people that are insomniacs--I don't get up and start doing things if I'm not asleep. I just lay there and lay there...and lay there...and freaking lay there some more until I'm even more fed up. I'm just hoping, "ok, I'm TIRED...I'm going to sleep now..." But no, it doesn't quite happen. For Heaven's sake, I even took a sleeping pill at 2am...I waited for almost 2 hours before taking it (to give myself a chance), but then I took a half...and nothing. T___T It still didn't help me sleep. My mind was going, and whenever I closed my eyes, it was like I was seeing something...I don't know; it was like I was hallucinating. *sigh* I was even still awake at 4am...I wanted to go ask my mom for more sleeping pills or something, but I didn't want to disturb her, and I didn't want to overdose or something. *sigh* I think I was afraid of sleeping...like I was going to die. BAH.
Sorry, that was awfully long...just about my lack of sleep...but I have a feeling that's what's going to dictate my mood for the rest of the day. Depression causes lack of sleep, and lack of sleep causes depression; it's a wonderfully vicious cycle. -__- So yeah, today's not going to be pretty...I could've stayed in bed and tried to sleep the day away, but I was f-ing tired of laying in bed. *sigh* But anyhoo, today Totoro is finally going to be groomed. We're having the groomer over, so yay. He won't look like a strange, hairy bear-like creature anymore...
Yesterday wasn't anything special...just like the other days, boring and usual. I made a new wallpaper, and it's somehow featured right now. Thanks, sweetdevil, for your comments on my wallpapers. I really appreciate them, though you didn't need to be so nice about this one. ^^; I know this isn't that great...it's too darn bright and yellow...there was a lot I could've done to it to make it better. She's holding her stuffed animal dinosaur, if you can't tell. I really loved how it turned out when I was still working on it...but then when I saw it on my other computer, I was like, "TOO YELLOW!" -__- Oh well. Please comment/download. I hope someone likes it! Hosted By theOtaku.com.
At least making wallpapers gets my mind off of things...it keeps be busy, and it's one of the times when I feel "alive" or something. Hah, my brother was looking for jobs yesterday...and he came across a lot in the area that are looking for graphic design artists! "4 years experience with Photoshop." That could be me! XD If I wanted a job, I could go and get one...have one before my brother...the lazy bum. Umm, but yeah. Err...my eyes don't want to stay open right now...so I think I"ll end this post soon. Sorry I barely visited anyone yesterday; I just couldn't bring myself to do it...and I don't know about today...it's hard feeling like this and then reading nothing but equally/more depressing posts. ^^; Sorry. I'll do my best though. And I don't think I'll post tomorrow...probably won't have anything interesting to say, but I'll post if I happen to or have a new wallpaper.
Yeah, this post is shorter than usual...sorry; I just don't feel up to writing more...as if there were anything interesting to write. T__T And even when I'm feeling down, it's not like it's for good reason...I don't know why. I hate it. To those of you that have been feeling depressed, do try to cheer up...it doesn't make me feel any better. ^^; Well, I'll leave you guys with an amv. I love this one. It's a Honey & Clover one; the song is "Believe" by K's Choice (I think). Enjoy!
Thank you all very much for visiting me!! *hugs* You're the best, and I'm sorry if you don't really like reading my posts or anything...so don't feel like you're being forced to. ^^; Thanks again, and have a good weekend!
