AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
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Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
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Friday, December 21, 2007
Warning: thanks, sorry, yesterday, brother, wp, more depressed post...sorry!!!
Ugyuu~. My nose is all stuffed up. -___- *blows nose* That's a bit better...anyhoo, thank you all for your comments. Thanks sooooo much, and yes, obviously I'm posting. I'm sorry for worrying you all about how I've been lately. :( I'm really sorry, but I'm so thankful that I have great friends like you guys to try and cheer me up...but it seems that some of you might be getting FED up with my feeling this way instead so I'm sorry. *hugs* Alex, your comment was wonderful! Seriously, it was SO long that it made up for the lacking comments I got (or didn't get). XD It made me smile and laugh a bit, too, so thanks! midnightqueen, nice to hear from you again! To those that checked out my wallpaper, I really appreciate it! Insane-chan did, too. ^^ She really liked the wallpaper so that made me feel better. To everyone, thank you for your support. :3
I'll try not to make this a depressing post like they have been, ok? Because you're probably all sick of those kinds of posts, and I'm sorry for making some of you really really worry about me. At least you don't have to worry about me doing something bad to myself...I hate pain so I wouldn't do anything destructive; I don't drink alcohol so I won't go on a dangerous drinking binge; I don't smoke, so I won't smoke myself to death, and I'm afraid of dying so I wouldn't dare kill myself! ^^;;;; So yeah, I've just been depressed, and when I'm depressed, I do nothing. Sorry again for worrying you all. Umm, but yeah, it's yet another day, and I swear! These days just go by quickly...and all have been melding into one. *sigh*
Yesterday was another day...just like the others! Yet again, I DIDN'T get out of the house! T__T Argh. I swear...the world is against me. *rolls eyes* Plans were screwed up, like usual, and so I just stayed home. I wanted to do something with mom since Corey went out for his interview, but mom said she didn't want to go out because she "looked bad"...because of her reaction the night before. *sigh* So, ok, I complied and just played video games for most of the day...but then she decided to go out with dad! She said she didn't want to go out, yet she goes out with dad...so I was left home alone in my depressive state. -__- Oh well, it didn't matter. It's not like I was going to doing anything different. I felt like crap, but that's not new.
My posting was totally interrupted (like 10 minutes) by my mom getting a phone call from Corey. *sigh* So yesterday, he had a job interview, and today he was supposed to have another. Well, it turns out that the one today was connected to the company from yesterday! So today was going to be a "training day." 9 hours. 9 freaking hours. My brother complained, yeah, but he went this morning to do that training day...he just called and said he's coming home; he quite obviously didn't stay the whole time! *sigh* He asked about the job, and it sounds terrible...I understand him not wanting to do it, but jeez, he needs a job...I'm tired of him being home all the time controlling me!!! I thought I was going to get some more peace and freedom from him today, but not anymore...
SHUT THE F UP!! Sorry...I just can't concentrate on typing when my mom is constantly yelling down to dad and trying to talk to me and blah, blah, blah. Sorry for that! ^^;; But um, yesterday I made a new wallpaper...I really love it...it's not featured yet, but maybe you guys could give it some love and download/comment, and maybe it will be featured. Please! Thanks! Hosted By theOtaku.com.
Wow, sorry, this post is going nowhere and fast...my mind isn't errrrr...together, and I have a feeling this post reflects that! It probably doesn't make sense. XD Sorry. I was just about to cry when my mom came in to talk to me...for no reason. I'm all screwed up! I didn't cry though, but maybe I should've? But then mom would just ask "why? What's wrong? WHY?" Always with the "why's." I don't know WHY I'm depressed; does there have to be a specific reason? If so, then I don't have it. I guess what I'm saying is that I don't want to tell my mom how I'm really feeling because then she'll overly worry and she'll also try to make sense of WHY...which there is no answer (I don't think so anyway). I just don't know anymore...bah, it's so close to Christmas, too!! This is supposed to be a time of joy and comfort, right?? *sigh*
And here I said I wasn't going to make this a depressing post. ^^; I shouldn't have posted...I wasn't going to, but I made that new wallpaper and all...so yeah. I don't think I'll post tomorrow then. Barely anyone visits me on saturdays anyway. I think I'm finally getting out of the house today though...to meet Derek for lunch and do some shopping. Someone asked how old my brothers are. Derek is 28, Corey is 26, and I am 19. My parents are old...somewhat...55...and I can't believe it. *sigh* Wow. But anyhoo, I'll do my best to visit today, but I can't guarantee anything..actually, I probably won't visit much...but I'll try. Sorry. Here's an amv. It's a Tenshi ni Narumon one, since that's what Noelle (the girl in my wallpaper) is from. Enjoy.
Yeah....so sorry about this post! ^^;; I'm thankful to those that actually sifted through it and found useful info to comment on. I won't post tomorrow...probably...and i'm hoping to cheer up soon. Maybe my going out today will make things better. Thanks again, and have a good couple of days! Congrats to those now on winter break!
