AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
Personal
Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
Monday, February 25, 2008
Warning: thanks but this is a short and depressing post, sorry
Thanks for all the comments. I got quite a lot!! I didn't read them yet though...sorry, but this is going to be a crappy and awkward post. As some of you might be able to tell, I'm posting a lot later than I usually do...some of you might've thought that I had died or something! I wasn't going to post today either, but I decided I should at least let you guys know that I'm alive (in some sense). I feel bad that I had such a positive post before, and you were all so excited that I was doing better!! ...and now this post is going to crack your hopes and dreams and hate me again.. :( Sorry.
Yeah, I'm miserable at the moment...I just finished crying and being fed up with myself. Of course, it's over the topic of sleep again. I had a WHOLE WEEK of good and natural sleep...it was wonderful! But then my streak was broken this weekend somehow...*sigh* And last night was the worst. I fell asleep fine (somehow), but then I woke up at 2-3am and couldn't fall BACK to sleep. I never usually have that problem...if I end up falling asleep, then I'm usually good, but not time time. *sigh* So terribly long story short, I couldn't fall asleep until past 7am when I took a sleeping pill. It's one of the most depressing things for me...knowing that I've been lying in bed for hours, not sleeping, and then to see the sun rise...that's the nail on the coffin.
So yeah...I didn't go to any classes today. I slept until 1, so I couldn't make French even if I wanted to. No french, math, and I'm not making it to English either. I feel really bad about that...I always feel guilty when I don't go to school. *sigh* :( I feel like I'm a bad person, even if I have a legitimate reason for not going. Umm...so yeah, I feel sick, and I'm depressed now. I want to cry more, but I shouldn't. I'm really sorry that this post is just a depressing and complaining pile of crap. I shouldn't have posted.
Here's my new wallpaper from before. I posted it in my last post kinda late so if you commented earlier, you might not have seen it. Here it is again. Comment/download please! Hosted By theOtaku.com.
*sigh* Ok. I have nothing else going for me today...nothing interesting to talk about. I did homework for most of the weekend and played games, etc. Nothing new. My brother still doesn't have a job, and he (along with my other brother and dad) enjoyed teasing me last night for different reasons. I'm the butt of everyone's jokes. *sigh* I'm tired...and I feel like I wasted this day and your time. Sorry!!! I was going to ask you some questions to make this more interesting, but now I don't feel like coming up with them and typing them...so here's an amv.
Thanks a ton for putting up with me. *hugs* I hope that I'll be in a better mood next post! Sorry to let you guys down. I'll try to visit some later, but I really doubt I'll get to many. I hope you're all doing well. *hugs* Take care!
