AIM • Akabane Rain E-mail •Click Here Website •Click Here Yahoo! Messenger • MSN: amiha@live.com
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Birthday • 1988-11-12 Gender •
Female Location • PA in the USA Member Since • 2006-02-14 Occupation • Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student Real Name • Kelsey
Personal
Achievements • getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it. Anime Fan Since • my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something Favorite Anime • Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless Goals • to find my purpose in life Hobbies • watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
Monday, March 24, 2008
Warning: thanks, worries, easter, wp, week, & amv
Hi guys. *hugs* Thanks for your comments as usual!! Lots of long ones...and this time, there were separated paragraphs! [well, some of you knew about that being fixed!] Alex, Hanyuu, Nicole, and AiTenTen, it's soooo great hearing from you again. It's been a really long time especially from you, Nicole! ^^ And Skomie, that was so odd about your comment! I wonder what happened...so many problems around this place. Thanks, as usual, to those that gave me encouragement on everything. *hugs* You're all wonderful! Dafeather, I still think I'd want you to try to sing me to sleep! Hah! XD Thanks again everyone.
*sigh* ~_~ I'm tired...of everything. Sorry!!! Um, last night was just the usual of how my "sleep" goes. I try for an hour, give up, take a sleeping pill. *sigh* And last night, before bed, I had the worst feeling of anxiety or depression of whatever! I think I have a bedtime phobia now. I've been disliking going to bed for so long now...that it really has become a time for me to worry! I don't WANT to rely on sleeping pills to sleep, but it seems that that's the only way I sleep these days. I worry about taking them; I worry about sleeping at all; I worry about when I have to wake up...just everything. :( My heart was beating so fast last night (anxiety!!), even while trying to relax and read. *sigh* And then I was thinking about the wallpaper I made...and how it definitely needs to be changed since I don't like it anymore.
I shouldn't be so negative, and I'm trying to tell myself more positive things, but then I feel like a hypocrite. I feel like I'm lying, to myself and others. It's hard to truthfully feel like I'm "good" or like I'm worth things...and then I'm always giving you guys advice when I comment about how your feeling. I say how you should feel and go about feeling better, yet I can't do the same thing. -__-;
Sorry. I'll stop being bleh in this post!! Let's talk about yesterday. It was Easter (and Skomie's b-day), so happy both of those holidays! In the morning, we went to church. It was boring, as usual, but then at the end...we all knew it was coming. On Easter sunday, the choir invites anyone that wants to sing the Hallelujah chorus up to do so. My dad always wants to, and we never let him. ^^;; But I knew he really wanted to this time, and I thought that it might be fun...so I went up with him. I didn't want to be separated from him up there, so I ended up standing in the Alto/Bass section of male singers. ^^;; Ahah. I obviously can't sing that low. So I tried my best to sing my soprano part...but it's hard when you're surrounded by all these old guys singing low! So I mouthed the words for most of the song. XD I only sang when I could HEAR my part. I felt kind of embarrassed being up there...being in the wrong section, but I didn't want to leave my dad. *is a frightened little kid in groups*
That put my dad in a good mood...for a little bit. Not far after church, my dad got crabby again over little things and was yelling at my mom. -__- Oh well. Umm...then the rest of the day went as usual, but then later we colored eggs. Usually we dye eggs the day before Easter, but we didn't get to this time. They're all quite cool looking...but I like my brother's the best. I wish I took a pic of it. It's basically black with purple swirls. Mine are...not that great, but my hands sure are colorful. I don't think this dye will ever come off. I will forever have pink-splattered hands. It didn't help that I voluntarily painted my hands, too. XD After that...watched more Oofuri, and then I finished my wallpaper to go along with it. I don't particularly like it anymore, despite what I said in my description. I'm going to change it. That's what I was worrying about a lot last night...I need to get rid of the butterflies.
Thanks for looking. I know it isn't popular at all. ^^; [edit: I got rid of the butterflies...and changed some other stuff. It was bothering me so much, I did it right away.]
Let's see...umm...I'm also not happy that my spring break is coming to an end. I go back thursday. I should probably work on some homework this week...but I desperately don't want to. *slumps* I desperately DO want to go to the chiropractor though...my back and neck have been killing me. I don't know what we're doing today...but I'll try to visit you guys later. I hope I can get to some. Sorry I didn't visit yesterday or most of this weekend. :( Alright, here's an amv. It's a cool one that features my last favorite anime, Seirei no Moribito. It shows Balsa in all her coolness. *_* Enjoy.
Sorry if this post was overly long!!! I needed to get this all out. ^^; Baaaahhhh...*sigh* Thanks for reading and commenting and being my friends. *hugs* Take care!
