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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Tuesday, December 23, 2008
Warning: thanks/no drugs, x-mas time, my fishy, art, anti-socialness, & sorry~
Hello!!!!! *hugs* Thank you for the comments!! It's felt like a while...ne? Or at least for me it has! Even though I posted saturday which was the first time in a long time...me posting on the weekend here. Now then, first thing's first. WTF. I WAS NOT ON DRUGS. Why is it that that's like the ONE THING people picked up on in that paragraph? *laugh* I said that some people thought I was because I was really tired when I posted...and very sidetracked from chatting with Oli-chan at the same time. ~__~ Not on drugs. Let me remind you: I have NEVER tried/done drugs, smoked, drank alcohol, or anything of the sort. I'm totally clean. So thank you to some people that KNOW that. XD Anyhoo, thanks for all the comments regarding our fishy trip out! *laugh* Lots of fish. ^^ It's great to hear from you guys again!! Stixx, it's been FOREVER. :D And Sesshy, chibi, etc. I know I haven't seen several of you in a long time, so yeah. XD *hugs hugs* Welcome back, and thanks!
OOooh, it's getting closer to Christmas. :3 But...I sure don't feel like it!! Maybe it is because I'm older now...but Christmas hasn't been as exciting as in the past. :/ Last year was the same. I was more focused on my insomnia problem. XD And I still pretty much am. But now, I don't know, I don't feel like it's Christmas time. Maybe it's my slightly depressed mood...my not feeling real [how will x-mas feel real if I don't?]...yeah, crap like that. D; Also, it isn't the same when my family isn't all together and decorating the house. Since Derek lives in his own apartment, he didn't help with the tree...and Corey works (sometimes) and is otherwise just lazy...mom has those retarded allergies to EVERYTHING, so she couldn't do the garland with me on the banisters like usual. *sigh* So our house is kind of devoid of Christmas decorations aside from the tree. ^^; I guess...it just doesn't make it feel festive to me. And we have no snow outside. That's always a bummer. ~)))~ It's below freezing, but there's no snow, just cold. And things have been going terribly amongst my relatives so we haven't gotten any gifts from them in the mail like usual. [they're all poor except for my aunt Melinda who is horribly greedy and refuses to share her vast amounts of money; she and her husband are going to Hawaii for the holidays, totally abandoning grandma and grandpa...and our other relatives...]
Regardless, tomorrow is Christmas Eve, so I better cheer up! On the Eve, we open relatives' presents [*cough*there are none this time*cough*] and presents from each other. So us kids will give our gifts. Dad got mom this gold ID bracelet with "Mommy" engraved in it. The Mommy part was my idea since she already has several with her name on it [dad totally forgot she did]...so instead of him giving it, he said that we children should pay him part of the money for it and then give it to her as a collective gift. :3 He said she'd probably like it more if it was from us instead of him. XD So ok! i asked my brothers today if they'd like to do that. Corey said ok, and Derek reluctantly said ok [he hates spending any money]...so anyhoo, that's nice. On Christmas morning is when we open "santa" gifts. Yes, despite all of us being 20+, we still get gifts from Santa. *laugh* It's wonderful. Hopefully those will be good days...something bad always seems to happen on X-mas [an argument, accident, jealousy, something], so maybe this time will be different.
Ok, so remember Seyonne? My betta fish? Well, he's doing...ok...but not so great. :( He has these little white dots called "ick" (some sort of parasite or something) on his tail. Before they were on his face. It's some sort of illness that can go away with medicine, so dad's getting that today. I want him to feel better. ;__; Because he hasn't been eating. The first couple of days he was great, and he ate about 6 pellets like he's supposed to...but yesterday he only ate 1, and same with today. *sigh* He has no interesting. :/ I hope the medicine will make him feel better. My fishy!!! Haha, but yes! Betta are the fighting fish, so if you take a mirror and put it up to the tank, they'll see themselves and think it's another betta...hehe, and they "fight" them. So Seyonne's fins and tail get all big and billowy, his colors get brighter, and he puffs out his gills to look all tough. :3 It's cute. He also likes the plant I have in his tank...he likes resting on it, kind of using it as a hammock. A fish hammock!
Um, so this weekend...what happened? Well, the usual nothing, I can assure you. A couple of my friends wanted to do something this week, but hah, I told them no way. It's the week of Christmas...and it'd be crazy to try and go out and do stuff. :/ And, it being that time of month for me, I felt like crap!!! >< Still do. Boo. Anyhoo, so maybe next week I'll do something with them. I basically used the weekend for my usual boring nothing. Made an e-card for Elves' b-day (though she hasn't seen it yet), and a wallpaper for blue-chan since I was her Secret Santa. You can check them out if you haven't yet. Thanks to those that have. ^__^ I'm glad you like them~~
 
Arigatou~ Sugar is sooooo cute. ^^ She's always been one of my favorite characters. :3 And that elf guy is hot. XDD Nuff said. Hah. Anyhoo, what about yesterday? What did I do???? DUH, the same nothing. Watched anime (Overdrive), played games (Katamari), made that wallpaper. I realize that I'm becoming more and more anti-social! You know how lots of people say that college makes them more social or more party-people?? Well, it's the opposite for me! I have a feeling that since high school, I've become even more reclusive. Well, I suppose it all started...in high school. After those several friend break-ups. ~__~ Being betrayed and whatnot really gets to you! Or at least, it got to me. So now I don't really have any great friends. yes, I have those friends I mentioned before that wanted to do things, but they're not "best friends." They're probably though the only ones I've done things with in the past few years since graduating.
I haven't made any new friends since college really...I've made "acquaintances" that I can talk to when I see them, but I haven't done anything with them. I tend to do things alone there...like eating lunch and whatnot. I decline invitations to do things; so even if they want to hang out with me, I say no because I'm not comfortable in social situations anymore. *sigh* It's rather depressing. Why am I talking about this??? I don't know! I just was thinking about this last night while trying to sleep. And yet again I thought about that one friend that totally abandoned me. ^^;; I always come back to her. My friend problems seem to always stem back to her!! DX Bah. And then our house thing and moving...the problems with mom's health...all of that stuff made me an emo kid. >< I was never prone to depression and these feelings until those high school years. Gawd, even middle school. I hated middle school the most. I don't even remember it. I was sick so badly with that stomach problem that I missed a lot, so I don't remember it much. Thinking of those hallways brings nothing but bad memories. Same with high school for the most part. I totally wasted my teenage years with being depressed, sick, and anti-social. Now I'm 20 and have nothing to show for it. Even people still think I look 12. XDDD But really, I feel soooooo useless. *sigh* Aside from grades, I haven't made any accomplishments (unless you count online ones, like wallpapers). Speaking of grades, I got back mine for this last semester. I got all A's again. And again I'm not that happy about it. ~__~ Grades don't mean squat in the real world.
Sorry, I'm getting all self-deprecating again. D; I've been like this a lot lately. ^^;; Bad timing! I should be happy. Well, I'll try. Umm...changed my avi again...I make it a point to change my avi like every couple of weeks. At least I'm not as bad as sparkle. She changes hers every few days it seems. XDDD So sorry to those that miss my last one; maybe he'll return again, but for now it's Tokidoki from Amatsuki. <3 Thank you for reading my post. Sooooorrrrry if I bored you...or if you're annoyed with me...or if I haven't visited you. I'll try better. *hugs* Thanks so much for being here for me~ Take care! And if I don't post again for X-mas, Merry Christmas!
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