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• 1988-11-12
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• 2006-02-14
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• Friend and Advice-giver, but really a college student
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• Kelsey
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• getting distinguished honors every year in high school, i guess that's it.
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• my brothers had me watch Fist of the North Star...and My Neighbor Totoro...way back in 1996 or something
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• Air, Oofuri, Claymore, Peacemaker Kurogane, Monster,Initial D, Hajime no Ippo, 12 Kingdoms,City Hunter, Gunslinger Girls,Rozen Maiden, Marimite,Haibane Renmei,MagiPoka, Death Note,One Piece, Loveless
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• to find my purpose in life
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• watching anime, reading (manga and novels), playing video games, computering, walling, watching sports (baseball ftw).
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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Friday, June 2, 2006
continuing depression
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Well, I must say that yesterday was an utterly terrible day...completely and utterly depressing. I had NO fun all day...even though my bro had work...I did NOTHING. I just felt like crying all day...and then I finally did (if you read my last post yesterday, you'd know...thanks to the few that were able to). I just reached my breaking point...after talking to a certain someone online and not getting any helpful feedback due to certain reasons...really just did it for me. I had to run upstairs and cry...on the floor of my mom's room. I hardly ate any dinner, and I think I'm losing weight. I haven't been eating as much as usual. *sigh* I think I'm 105 now...I'm usually 108lbs. Well, whatever...it just makes me so upset that I try to be so nice and helpful to my friends...but it's oftentimes not reciprocated. I'm used and thrown away..."thanks for helping me" THE END of friendship
I'm terribly tired, too, of course...I couldn't sleep cause i had a headache and backache...and I felt like throwing up. Stress and crying makes things worse. I just want to sleep right now...if I wasn't at school, I would...but even at home I can't take a nap. At least it's the weekend. *sigh* Thanks for all the comments yesterday though...like on all the others...I had so many total! *hugs* It turns out that my friend (whom I said needed a ride) didn't have to wait there for hours. Our art teacher, Mrs.Richey, gave her a ride! That was really nice of her,and I'm glad that it went well for her.
Yeah, I guess I am pretty hard on myself...but I just always feel that it's my fault when something goes wrong. *sigh* Thanks again you guys. I know you care about me...I just wish I knew you in person. I have no friends on here that I know in person...like a lot of you do, saying "oh [insert username here] is coming over my house!" etc...I could never say that, but I guess I'm not alone in that respect. ^^; Umm...yeah...not much time on the comp today cause my bro doesn't work...so I'm really sorry I won't be able to check the majority of your sites. I'm really sorry. *sob*
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