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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
Thanks for all your comments. ^^ I'm glad that you really liked my poem, and that a lot of you could relate. *sigh* It's really not a good thing to be able to relate to though...so, yeah...I hope that our minds calm down a bit. Thanks for "liking" my cake, too...unfortunately, I didn't make the muffins yet...so, Saijinto *laugh*, you're probably still "waiting under my window to take the muffins into 'storage'". *laugh* When I do make them, I'll definitely "hand them out" to you guys so there won't need to be any secret stealing/storage of them!! Yay for DDR! I know lots of you like it (especially you, xanth! Great to hear from you again!! *hugs*)...and it's ok to not be good at it. *nods* It's true that it's still fun even if you're not good at it!! Not everyone can be like my one friend that can do songs on heavy mode (the hardest) and get A's. ^^; Yes, JungWoo (see, I'm mentioning you again!), you are a celeb! It's just that you always say things that I feel I should reply to. ^^ Plus, how could I not talk about your literary club?
Speaking of which, I'm sure you all noticed the banner up there for it. If you click it, then you'll be taken to the site where the club headquarters will be. There's still some difficulties that need to be worked out...or at least, still things that I'm rather confused about. ^^; Like how to have the readers/critics see our writings...so, yeah. JungWoo, I'm sure you can take care of that somehow! Just tell me whatever I need to do to help! It's funny...cause I really never liked writing before...I always hated it (yes, especially for school)...and I always "disliked" poetry, too!! It's just that at the end of the school year, I don't know, like I said before...it must've been from Paintwriter's inspiration or something, but I started writing poems a lot...and now, ever since shizuka said that she missed my poems...well, that's why I started writing them again. ^^ I have no clue how or why it happened, but I was transformed into a writer!
Last night...I had a lot of trouble going to sleep...for one thing, my nose was horribly stuffed up (like it always is every night, right when I lay down) so I couldn't breathe...and then the other thing is that, like in my poem, I had non-stop thoughts running through my head (like that song *laugh*, "all the things you said, all the things you said, running through my head, etc...") so I couldn't relax! They were all rather angry/angering thoughts, too...very depressing ones as well. Gao...I was thinking about this one very good friend of mine, whom I've helped out a lot (you might know this person), and about how it seems that I'm getting forgotten by this person...like I mean nothing to them. *sigh* I won't name names...but some of you might be able to guess. ^^; I wonder if they'll read today's post for once...hmm...who knows...Other thoughts in my head were about other things related to liking people, and how I really don't want to anymore. I wish that I could shut my stupid mind up!! >< Why does liking someone hurt more than helps?? My mind just goes on and on with certain thoughts...and I swear...I hate it...I hate it!! You guys must think I'm crazy or something...or that I have voices in my head. No, I don't have voices in my head...just my own...and it's annoying.
Yesterday I was depressed feeling for most of the day. Today, I still am depressed (if you can't tell). Most of the reasons for it, well, I'm not exactly sure...I know some though...like the crap happening at my house with my mom and all. Nothing's getting better...I really feel sorry for my mom. Because of this stupid kitchen thing, she's always depressed, too...having to stay in her room all the time (friends that are new...umm...this takes a lot of explaining, look in older posts for an explanation), and she rarely eats. Before this, my mom would still rarely eat...she'd just snack all day, but the only meal she'd eat would be dinner. Now, it seems that she's eating even less...she's very small...and we can't do anything about it. She wont' change, and I don't want to make her change either. My brothers are different though, they keep on nagging at her, and telling her to eat more and taht she's "skin and bones"...of course, it's out of concern...and I'm concerned, too...but...we just don't know what to do. I'm sorry...I really shouldn't be talking about this. If my mom saw I wrote about her...well, she'd get really mad.
Well...there's more crap I could complain about...but I suppose I'll stop this post here before I drive you all crazy. Thanks for taking the time to read my depressing/complaint-filled post. I hope that you all have a more cheerful day than I'm probably going to have!
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