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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Thursday, August 17, 2006
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*wipes tears away* Thanks for your comments...they were all very nice. Even though a lot of you didn't have time to read my post or comment on it, it still meant a lot to me that you visited. *hugs* I see that most of you picked up on the TATU song reference...I'm surprised that so many did. ^^ Sorry...no muffins yet...*laugh* I'm gonna make you guys wait a long time for them! Poor Saijinto, he's gonna be under that window probably till saturday! JungWoo...you are a total celebrity! OMG, man servants...*laugh* Don't get me into that. If you get some, then I'm gonna need some as well. After all, I'm the one that made you a celebrity!! I also noticed that lots of you like to read/write and lots don't...or some didn't but now do (like me). JungWoo, I was the same way! I'd write stories when I was little about animals and stuff. I'd come up with the stories, tell them to my mom to write down on the paper, and then I'd do the illustrations!! ^^ I still have them somewhere...there was a dog one, a cat one, and a unicorn story. ^^; Probably more, but I can't remember them. Yeah, AurionAddict...your first guess at how I was feeling was a bit off, but that's ok! ^^; I'm glad to hear from ya again!! And Harvey, I'm especially glad to get a comment from you again!
The reason I was "wiping my tears away" at the beginning of the post...wasn't just cause of how great your comments were. ^^; I spent most of this morning crying...I was woken up earlier than usual by my dad (we were going to go to Dorney Park, but because of my mom having horrible migraines we didn't), and he just lays on the bed and talked to my mom...I was trying to rest more...but anyhoo, after he left, my mom and I started talking about her whole crappy situation and problems, and I couldn't hold it in anymore. I started to cry while holding her hand. I love my mom, and I can't stand seeing her losing weight cause of this stress, and having her "sacrifice" to stay here in this house just so I can finish my highschool here. It makes me feel guilty...I feel that her staying here in this house and going through all that stupid illness/reaction crap is partially my fault. If I didn't want to stay here to finish school, and if I didn't like this place so much...then we probably would've moved right away. She says it's not my fault...that we all love it here, and that it's not like everyone else wants to move. Sure...though my brother have been wanting to move back to CA for all of their years living here...and they keep on saying we should move...so I still think it's my fault.
So much for having a relaxing wake-up...I get up and then I cry. *sigh* I haven't cried in a while though...so it felt good. I feel like I want to cry more though. I guess I can never get enough. ^^; My bro just came in assuming that I've been up and on the computer since I was woken up..."You must've been on here for hours! Rarrrr...." Well, he didn't really say "rarrr", but he's a jerk, so yeah. I told him that I was up crying with mom, and he says, "why would you be crying?" I said, "Because of all the stuff going on with mommy..." Then he just left...being the jerk he is, he could care less. He has no sympathetic/empathetic bone left in his body. It's always a comparison of problems...instead of comforting mom when she feels like crap, he says, "Just forget about it! I'm always in pain, but I just ignore it. I don't complain about it anymore. You don't have it as bad as me!" It's a long story about his problems...so I won't get into that, but the point is that he's never consoling...he turns everything into an argument. He's also the biggest hypocrite ever. He complains non-stop.
Sorry about this post...it's quite the depressing/angry one as well. *sigh* It's also short (is it?)...cause I guess I don't have any more time on here. I suppose I won't even get to visit one site. Sorry. Yesterday I at least got to visit 4 people or so. Since we're not going to Dorney Park today, my dad wanted to go fishing...so maybe he'll take my evil bro away to do some fishing (the problem is that he can't find his license), and if they do go then maybe mom and I will come along to sit near them and read or something. *sigh* Whatever...thanks for reading this post (or not), so mainly thanks for visiting me. *hugs* I love you all...sorry I'm such a pain about getting attention...I'm just so used to being forgotten and left alone. ^^; I hope that you have a day where you don't cry today! Good luck to those of you with school!
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