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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Friday, August 25, 2006
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Gao...*sob* *sobs uncontrollably* Your comments...they were...*hugs*...too good to be true. I got the longest comments ever...and holy crap, it surprised me. I really don't know what to say about them...except, thank you for caring so much...and I'm sorry for worrying you, and I'm sorry for being stupid. JungWoo, I don't hate you. Why would I hate you? You were just trying to help me out by saying those things anyway. I don't know if I wrote what I said "just to get attention" cause I really was having suicidal thoughts...just cause I wrote it out, doesn't mean I was doing it for attention. I think of this site as my journal; therefore, i put down all my feelings here. I'm sorry again for worrying you guys to the point of writing 5 paragrph essays for comments. *bows* I read all of every one though...and it took me almost 10 minutes. ^^;
Aerith, Grifter, Reki, Saijinto, midnight shadow, Skomie, Angel Kitsune, Shizuka (twice ^^), JungWoo, Perios, Kilwoon, and Neko Nana Mode...thank you all for putting so much care into what you said. *hugs you all* I'll try to get my emotions out more instead of holding them in...and I'll try to be more positive with things and certainly not think about death as an option, and I'll try to have more self-confidence. *sigh* I just don't think of myself as highly as other people...I'm always trying to sacrifice for other's happiness, which is also what my mom has done most of her life...so I guess I get it from her. I'm not confident when telling others my feelings if it's about them either...like if I don't like something about someone, or if they did something that hurt my feelings, or if I really don't feel like talking to them at a certain time...I have trouble telling people these things. I apologize a ton (you guys have noticed) when I do something like that or just for pretty much doing anything!
Yesterday, I sent an email to a friend...saying that I don't really like talking online everyday with them...conversations, even if it's with someone I like and even if it's online, are stressful for me. Amongst all that I was saying, I of course was apologizing for saying those things. I said sorry so many times for possibly hurting their feelings by saying that...and I don't know if that made things better. They might be mad at me...and I really hope not. Cause they were online this morning, and I said, "are you mad at me?"...I didn't get a reply...they just went offline. *sigh* I hope it was just some stupid coincidence and not that they're really mad at me. *sob* See...I have so much trouble with friends...I can't even keep any for a long time. Am I annoying? Am I too clingy? What is it??? >< I try to be the best friend I can...being so nice and everything...and only caring about them, but it always backfires! I'm sorry...I just hope you guys don't leave me...this is why I always say sorry and always thank you for your comments...cause they mean so much to me. I'm not mad at any of you. It's best to let out your true feelings and what you really want to say, right?
Well, I think I'll stop now...I don't have anything else to write about really...unless you want to hear about my boring trip to wal-mart and Sam's club yesterday. ^^; Today, mom and dad are going to look at this other house...I hope my mom doesn't get a reaction. *sigh* Again, thank you all so much for your comments...and I'm sorry if I came off like I just wanted attention...now you all probably don't like me for that anyway...sorry, I said I'd have more confidence in me, right? Well...I can't help it! I hope you all have a cheery day!
P.S. It's all thanks to you guys that I have:
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*hugs* I love you all *hugs again*
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