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myOtaku.com: Angel Zakuro
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Wednesday, September 6, 2006
Warning: thanks, mom's b-day today, & lots of complaining about my brother
^^ *hugs a ton* You guys are soooo sweet. Thanks for the comments! I didn't think many people would get to cause I posted a little later than usual...and lost of people are back to school now!! So, thanks again! Anyhoo, I'm glad that you liked the poem for my mom...that's good you didn't think it was corny or anything. ^^ Today's her b-day (wait...Yug...today's your mom's b-day too??), so I'll give her her poem and the recipebook that I bought her! I typed up and attempted to make the poem look fancier...sorta like a card, last night. Today seems to be a popular day for b-days...cause one of my "semi-friend's" b-days is today, and if Yug, you're mom's is today, too! I also saw another girl in school today with balloons and stuff! Anyhoo, back to your comments. Thanks, Skomie!! You wrote a really long one for once! And *hugs* that was sweet of you to read my myspace blog, too. ^^ I really appreciate it. I'm glad that people still like the music I have up...and yeah, it does make you wanna cry (bishieluver, I understand *nods*). Thanks, Shizuka, for the comparison to Misuzu...I suppose I am a lot like her. ^^; I hope to make better/new friends this year...
So, yesterday (after school), I felt like crap. I was horribly depressed (duh) and I just really, ugh, had the lowest self-esteem/confidence ever. I kept on going through my day with my mom, telling her about how I have no friends at school and stuff...and it just made me bleh. Right when I got home, I had to put away groceries (and my mom got a ton), and I had to do other stuff (my mind fails me at the moment what it was I had to do), and then I finally could have my snack (past 3:30) of chicken yakisoba! Then I went on the computer...and after doing stuff on myspace, I went on here. Just the whole time I felt fed up with my life, or at least just my day. Then I had some homework to do for Japanese...then I had to help with dinner. I didn't have much fun despite my brother working till past 7.
When Corey got home, ugh...I swear...it was horrible. He hates his new job at the vet's. He complains all the time!! He has no integrity/endurance for jobs at all...if it's not absolutely perfect for him, then he complains and complains until he quits. So what if there's a worker there that reminds him of his cranky old college professor??? There's tons of people out there, and not all of them are nice! You have to work with it!! >< He just doesn't understand that! And, he's always pleading for attention and sympathy...that's why he complains all the time. Yet, even though I had a horrible day at school, he doesn't give me any sympathy. So, for once, I actually told him how I felt. I told him, "Why do you always have to compare who has the worst day? Why is it that you always have to have the worst day and get all the sympathy? You never give me sympathy when I have a horrible day cause you always have the 'worst'." Then he said, "why should I have any sympathy for you?" That was utterly horrible. He's such a jerk. My dad was there the whole time, too, but he doesn't say anything to help!! Corey is 25 years old yet he acts like he's 4!! He isn't mature at all. It just annoyed me so much. I was already fed up for the day and tired, but then he just had to make it worse! Later, though, he actually seemed to understand what I said...sorta. He tried to ask me more about my day and told me what he did when he was in school...but whatever...it still won't change him. Then, later, I tried to have a mini psychiatrist session with him...trying to get him to admit that crying is good for you and doesn't mean that you're weak if you do cry.
He's a complete iron-heart that believes only weak people cry...he's "tough" so he can't cry. He's soooo stupid!! But he really needs to cry...I told him that. With all the stresses and problems he's had over the years...he's never cried, so all those feelings have been bottled up. He still held to his hardheaded and hard-hearted idea though...that it's best to move on and forget stuff, than to stop and take time to relieve the emotions through crying. He also said that "you should only cry if you're really sad." You can cry if you're happy, too. He just has a messed up sense of...well, everything. I shouldn't even bother trying to tell him...in fact, I've really never stood up to him or even said things like that to him before. It seems like it's impossible to tell him anything cause he immediately gets defensive. *sigh* Last night I somehow got enough courage to at least say some stuff to him...
Ok...sorry for taking up so much time here complaining about my brother!!!! Sorry!!! It's just that he really bothers me! He doesn't help when I feel depressed and crap! He makes it worse. *sigh* Sorry...again...for probably boring you...and confusing you. This post might not make much sense...sorry...cause I'm sitting by my one friend right now in campus and she keeps on talking. ^^; I can't quite concentrate!! So...I'll end this post now! Thanks for sticking with me...and suffering through my posts. *hugs* I love you guys!!! I hope that the rest of my day goes well...so far not so bad...but then again, I've only had 2 classes (the only ones I have friends in). I'll visit whoever I can in my free period later! After school, no time! Mom's b-day!! Have a great day!
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