Thursday, March 17, 2005

I know what you all are gonna say. You are gonna tell me to lay off the guy factor for a while. But it is hard when you dream of the same guy in two very similar dreams one right after another in the same night, especially when your dreams usually mean something.

I had a dream last night. Two dreams actually. The first one was at a school function, and I was talking to Ugo in this dream, and harsh words were said, and I ended up running off. Well, while I was running off, I ran into Zakariah Beane. And he caught me and asked me why I was in such a hurry and I told him I was running away, and he said what from, and I said my mistakes. Then he said it is never good to run away from things, or to hold them inside, and then I was like, well, I have nobody to talk to. Now, in my dream, as we were talking to each other, he hadn't let me go, and we were looking each other in the eyes and then when I said I didn't have anybody to talk to, he said, about an inch from my face, that I could always turn to him, that he had always been there to talk to, and then he kissed me. It was one of those soft, deep kisses, the kind that stole your breathe away. I can remember the kiss, and the feeling of his lips, even now, even though it was a dream. And then we stopped and we held hands and went to the school function and kissed again and then I woke up. I was gasping for breathe and I started to cry. It was two in the morning. I went to the bathroom to try to collect my thoughts. And then I went back to sleep. The second dream took place at prom. I ended up going to prom with my friend Rachel's boyfriend, though in my dream he wasn't her boyfriend, and I didn't like him. I guess we had gone as friends. Well, while we were at the prom, he had gone to the bathroom, and I sat on a window ledge, and then he came back with rachel and asked if it was okay to hang with her instead of me, and I said sure as long as I have a ride home. So they sat on the window ledge and I walked around, and somebody came up behind me and grabbed my arms, I looked up and it was Zak. He had come, and asked me to dance. I said yes, and we slow danced, and then the song ended. We went to his table, and he pulled out a chair for me, and I sat. We talked. He asked why I wasn't with anybody, and I said I had come with whatshisface, and that he had decided to hang out with Rachel instead. So he asked if I wanted to hang out with him, and I said, sure. Then he asked if I wanted to hang out with him more than that night, and I aske dhim what he meant. He said he meant that he wanted me in his life forever, and i was speechless. He came over and helped me stand and he held me close and kissed me. THen his mom came to pick him up, and they gave me a ride home. Then I woke up.

Look, I know you are probably like, so what? It is just a dream. But you don't know my dreams. They always mean something or are trying to tell me something. And I do not care if you think I am insane, but it is the truth. So now I am trying to figure out what they mean. Do I still like Zak? I think I might. But the last time I had liked him, he didn't like me. So I doubt he likes me now. URGH!!!
Comments (4)