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Wednesday, November 3, 2004

   lanstorm/theft of my car
So..let me tell you about lanstorm. Lanstorm is a place i go to get away from the dumb crap in my house between my family. Its a cyber cafe infested with goths, punk rockers, and intellects...with your occasional skitzo. You can get expressos and food there...but thats just to feed all the gamers who come in. There are dozens of custom built desktops for gaming...not only that but they have a big screen tv in the other room for Xbox or to watch 'Family Guy'. Friday nights bands play there from tencho *yuck* to metal *hell yeah...ofcourse i never attend these sessions always get there when they're over because i am after a late night person. One of my favorite things to do at lanstorm is this nice sized table thats is used specifically for a giant sized chess set.

So...last night I was at lanstorm to get away from verbal abuse among other drama my mom and brother were causing. I wish I would've just stayed home or gone to a friends straight from there....anyway. So I grab a romance novel..bleh dont ask...and head out. I arrive and park as usual next to a busy street three blocks away from our local police station and next to city hall (where i go to V. games). It was fairly boring inside since i really didnt feel like mingling as much. I went to the farthest back table in the darkest corner of the gaming room and read for about 20 mins...not feeling it i decided to leave. So i waved to to my friends over my shoulder and went to my car ...so I get in reach for stereo...what?? Air? Look over and glass everywhere...passenger window is in a million pieces. dash board looked like someone through a fucking gernade in it ..only my stereo vanished. i reached to turn on my ceiling light....it was gone...ripped out completely. I saw black for about 10 seconds...my head spun then all i needed a phone fast. I actually ran for once into lanstorm but luckily the owner and two guys were out front. Im such a baby...anyway they called the cops and came with me to my car. The rest was a waste of my time (insurance wouldnt replace a thing)...but i have my case number in the back of my head and a fucking long lasting headache from this shit. Everyone was real nice, stuck around until the cop finally got there after the whole escon'dildo' police force handled a huge gang fight somewhere in the county.

*sigh*

Thank gawd I still got love, because I sure as hell wouldnt be here or as strong as I am without it.

-Me
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Tuesday, October 12, 2004

I hate my life
Sometimes I wonder what Im here for. Sometimes I feel like I have nothing thats left worth accomplishing.
Being truely happy is just asking too much apparently.
Being loved is like winning the lottery...so out of reach.
I've left my mark in the writing, art, and dating world.
Now its time for me to come to the end of the road or the beginning of a new one.
-Me

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Saturday, October 2, 2004

   People make me sick
Why do people make me sick? Because they're stupid, inconsiderate, shallow, two-faced, heartless assholes.

Someone you've known and talked to for years turns out to have a different agenda while you're waiting around for them every fucking night, calling them a few times a week, and sending messages to them doesnt even give a running fuck.

I don't know if im taking it the wrong way or what...but yeah i need to vent and this is the only place I seemed to be able to do it properly. I get hits on my site for bitching about real life. Whomever made otaku is a god.

Well...I'm at the point where I'm feeling worn out, withdrawn, and aggitated about life.

There are two things that truely make me happy right now..and pay attention... they're the band HIM and my significant other Shaun.

I just wish, that he could show me some extent of what he feels for me, but he hasnt. I love him to death, and I'd do anything for this awesome person. Hes wonderful, and I hope one day he can come through for me.

Thats all for now, but on another note...im going to see HIM Nov. 29th!! (again) ..so very exciting..but I need someone to come with me. Please give input?


Ja Ne
AnGeLkIsSeS03
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