This is my last post of this week. And so... here a poem again. I'm having a difficult time at home and at college but that's still not holding me back up-dating the site. (^_^ *hehe*
"Cheek"
*slap*
(<,<( *
(X~X ouch!
Anyway, I have a poem I did this morning, 1am in the morning that is expressing my pain and thought. And so... I hope this will help you in your relationship with Glourious God more!! I'm still in bad parts but I know he's good!!
Here it is.
Comfort Councillor, prayer now
Silent, comfort Councillor
your love is beyond my mind
your wrath is beyond my mind
Oh, silent, comfort Councillor
your light is so deep
my eyes feel like burning
your holiness is so clean
my heart feels like a peaceful cloud
your plan is so just and fair
my mind feels like running
I am scared
Oh, silent, comfort Councillor
I am in comfort pain
I want to run but there is no place to return
Oh, silent, comfort Councillor
I try to pray
but nothing comes
I know and belief that your plan is good
So, I shelter under you
trusting you
even if it kills me
I'll try and do.
Amen
~Bittersweet~
Ps. how are you today? How is your relationship with God? Give me a mention!! I would appreciate it. (-.o'
A poem I just worked on. . . It's for the world. (-_-
For those who are troubled and weared, I hope this poem will be peace to you, though it might seem a bit dark and all, it has it's purpose. God be with you, no matter how far, how wide apart or how difficult it is there, may the Comforter and his angels bring you true peace from his grace.
(-_-
Living today. . .
Living today is a hope itself
and that hope of one day
everything will be alright
Living today where peace is a teaching
and that teaching will be taught
as generation goes on and on
till one day
everything will be alright
Living today, so hard in the morning
wake up and leave for work needs be done
days and days, months and months
it piles on and on and leaves no room
scars in the mind
scars in the heart
when everything fails now
one day everything will alright.
Living today in the darkest hours
where the land is torn up, broken
by greed
self-pride, anguish and painful screams
in life where there is nothing to gain
but only to fight
peace and lies, lie well together
for those know no hope
it is in their hearts they cry
warmth
and only war makes sense to them
until that day when all wars end
everythiing must come to pass under a sky
where the rain cloud shadows
but after to come
one day
the skies will lit in sunlight's ray.
Yep, crazy computer at home! The only thing that is useful now is it's Rpg maker. Apart from that... oh, bug!
Sorry, friends, I haven't been updating. I mean, I would if I had the net but still there is something wrong I have no knowledge to identify what's wrong. I'm pretty like a cattle in alone when it comes to the computer.
(>O< ' Well, another annoying thing is that I can't upload cause scanner... not... working.
Blah!!
(>D< Oh well, at least my rpgmaker is still working. I can make a story with music at least.
(-_-
Hey, people!! I hope your week is GOOD!! I'm at college right now on one of those mangling, slimy flithy touching keyboards, typing away mad!!
Argh! (=_= (TDT I'm so not fine. But yeah, I'm alright.
I got to now, but do take you friends! THe library guy give me a look that was saying:
"You only should be on 15 minutes" and I'm like on at least half an hour.
Maybe Jesus bless ya goody goodies!
*argh*
Oh well, take care and this is me for it.
Good-bye.
Alright be around you whenever that ever place is.
I thought I'll post a poem since I'm already here. *heehee*
Anyway this is not depressing...so... PLEASE DON'T RUN AWAY!! (OZO'
Well, without any further a dos... here it is...
The strongest warmth in the sun's might
There is sunlight behind every dark cloud
for a while it does not appear
mind drifting to a chilling conclusion
it might not exist
Longer the days seem to be
as time ticks by slowly and surely
what cold days without the Light
we still drift, we all do, don't we?
No, not all of us
some of us know, there'll be light when the clouds move
and some of us hope, there'll be light another day
and the rest, pass on without a care
For all the things on earth that one might buy
it could not chain me to their thoughts
I am free, released from a bound that was to be
only the true Light can make me see
The Light that everyone seeks is behind the cloud
there is no other like it for it is unique
abound with warmth, power and shining love
at least to me it feels alright
One day the sunlight will piece through the dark
from each corner where we enjoy the Light
memories that are warm and selfless bound
will always be, the strongest warmth in the sun's might
I went to morning church. It was pretty good. I had not much interest about marriage but... it was enriching to know about it. And, of course, the referres in the Bible.
That was the most interesting part! There was a lot of heavy stuff the minister was pointing out but also joky and laughable events that happened to him. It was very amazing. It pulled me back to God. The songs were alright, not cause I couldn't, by the way. (ODo'
I was glad I decided to go.
I have decided to be a "now" person, not a "future thinker" or a "past holder". I'm going to do what now matters.
Plus (^_^ I FINALLY got some work done for my report. Only a little but... it's a start! (^_^ I'm so glad. But at the end of it, I'll have to do a talk or a presentation. That is the tricky part. (=_=
My report is about Angels and so I have difficult reading the books about it and now... I feel better that I have read it. Cause I need it for my report. (X~x
But anyway;
"How are you, today?!" (0_^
Let me know!
I think I might do a poem that is about praising God or something on those lines, but... I'll see about it!
I just did a poem and so... I'm letting you know!! Here it is.
The weather outside isn't so great. And I have done my 8th page of the comic/manga though there is still so much improvement I could do! I'm doing as I go... and so... it's kind of readble yet, silly. (XDX
Anyway, I'll let you read my poem. It's depressing but... it's only 40% of my brain used!! So... it should JUST make sense. (^_^ My maxium brain power for today! Not yet! I still have to complete my 16 sheet of A5 manga! It's not so good to read but... do you know that 2x16 equals 32? That means... I'll have to fit the story 32 pages long! And I still have a lot of spare paper that is not filled yet, and that looks worrying!!
The clouds are grey
The clouds are grey
when the sky shows pain
In quiet times
I lose myself in myself
Mind not functioning purposely
I seem to lack all will
In these times I hide
in shallow waters
Peaceful
yet disturbed
Knowing what I run
there is no turning back
In the window of my body
I lack the will to see
The will that faith hangs
where the soul knows
But I keep on running
to somewhere distant
Somewhere hidden
far beyond the lands that anyone's been
And so I dream
to be unchained
Off the grey steel blocks
and the grey stone hearts
Slowly it begins to rain
lost as a sheep in a city
where can I be?
where do I stay?
Everyone normally walking
passing by with cold shoulders
When will the rain stop?
When will the sun appear?
. . .
The clouds are grey
when the sky shows pain
It starts to rain
is it from heaven, I asked?
Drift, drift, drift
the dirty waters run
drip, drip, drip
what have I got left?
The dirt of the streets
are being slowly washed
The clouds are grey
when the sky shows pain
Yet,
it is also how I feel
Sad, but...
peaceful.
Yesterday, I must say... I could off started to stand on top of the bridge that I was on. And jumped off but of course I didn't. [=[]=
(plus, I'm not a psycho!!)
I really did feel depressing. I must of stood on the bridge looking down at the waters and the trees and rocks about like 10-15 minutes.
Just looking at it and the clouds and more trees. Feeling depressed and telling Jesus how some bit of me is feeling. Hmmm... It was depressing. I know some other people get more depressed than me... but... I get help anyone unless I have dealt with mines.
An ill person can't help another ill person if they can't see what's wrong with themselves first. So it's like the blind leading the blind as one of the bits in the Gospel that pops in mind. (=-=
Well, my course is SOOOO depressing. I mean, I'm practicely wasting my chances away but not working hard. Instead, I spend more time in my hobbies, that is the computer this and rpg maker and offline drawing, thinking, singing, cooking an hour or more, distracted by Tv!! Hundreds of things that distract me!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!
But not today! I have a set challenge for myself this weekend, a 16 page manga in pencil and maybe inked if I finish early (which I highly doubt). And this will see my extended thoughts and drawing skills together!!
I have done about four pages today... and I have... like 12 more!! Which is double that! 16 A5 sheets
that I'm using. And 2x16 is 32 pages of actions and explaination!!!
AHHH!!! I'm so bad at english!! And I have a report to write sometime!!
((X_X can anyone see why I get depressed?! Ekkk!!!
I make TOO MUCH TASKS FOR MYSELF!!!
*swear, beep*
(not really.)
As I would say, there is TOO MUCH things to do and so little time to do it in.
I don't know who has a scanner that I could scan in... *wail*
OHHHHHH WEELLLLLLLLL...
(*O*
AH!!
There! *puff*
How are you today, my friends?
All and well? (-_o?
What have you been up to??
How is your life, today?
I feel like I'm all negative... (probably am) and I'm positive when I don't know when I am!
(:_: *boo ho ho*
(^_^ I have a poem for you ALL!!
No name
I wish you love when you're lonely,
I wish you happiness when you're sad,
I wish you hope when you're down,
I wish you a bright a sky when all things become grey.
Short but sweet.
Thankyou for being around. (even though you're not physically but mentally, it's still quite nice.)
Rain, rain, rain, I want to know more about Guardian angel.
Well, today is a bad and a fun day.
I mean, I missed being with one of my friends, J from college, and so I was depressed by myself. I kept thinking if I died I would be with Jesus, I am living in a depressing life, always seem so down.
By the time I reached to the Dean Bridge, I was standing there looking for my guardian angel. And asking God
"Do they do the little jobs?"
That was the place I saw my first cloud that looked like an angel. Which was amazing!
Anyway as I was looking for a cloud that looked like an angel, I started to sing to God. Y'know, the thought about angels praising God, made me want to sing and praise God. As I was dong so, SOmeone in my class in college jumped behind me. I was like "OH!!"
And he was like "hello!".
I was singing something depressing until he jumped up and I was like I'm not alone anymore, as in singing and talking wise.
The rain poured like a river from the sky, splashing EVERYWHERE!!
It took my 20 minutes before I got home, overall 40 minutes, and the water soaked through my clothes and my socks and through my hair, I was soaked everywhere possible. MY shoes where like a water jug!
It was fun!! My classmate was there too!! It was the best ever!!
He got soaked too!!
Never in my life I have been soaked or been that wet, ever!! It almost seemed like a dream!! The funny thing was... Two weeks or a week ago, I was wishing that the rain would soak me and it didn't happen.
And now it has.
I so THANK GOD, THANKYOU GOD!! It was a beautiful experience and plus I wasn't wearing my glasses. Yep I do wear them usually. But for some reason I didn't put them on when it rained. Y'know, getting wet with rain. It was amazing!! THere were SO MANY PUDDLES AND LITTLE STREAMS it was brillant!!
I loved it. I guess... life isn't TOO bad when you look 'actually' around yourself.
I also thanked my guardian angel. I mean, I have no idea who or what his' name is... but I'm looking for him and also studying my knowledge of MY SAVIOUR, JESUS. I want to know him better!!
Thanks for being around, friends!
(^_^
And this really did happen today!
It splashed me good with the water that rain and by the time I got home, a release of golden sunlight pieced through the grey clouds.
It was amazing.
People, if you are ever depressed. Tell God and tell him the truth!!
HOw are you, today? How was the weather? How are you feeling?
I hope you well.
Today, nothing happened much. I sat here for two, three hours now! This is bad for me!!!
I'll feel empty and all so...
I'll have to get off soon and so...
Letting you know I'm fine. (-_-
I think.
I had been thinking about angels and God. I wonder why angels seem good. I mean, God IS good. And angels are good, too. But how do you know what the difference between good and evil? I mean, angels are more intelligent than humans and same with Satan's workers.
So... yeah. Do you believe the Bible as a historical book like some like in the library?
I have to say. I have a strange personality problem. I have no idea what it is. I think sometimes "I'm exploding to talk to someone" and other times "I'm so cold to talk".
It's very odd. I wonder what the problem is?? Actually, it's my report. I have to write the first paragraph by this week, Wednesday.
(>.< ' *Gah!*
It's so blur!
My topic is the "aspect of angels and their symbolism".
It's very hard to write what exactly what I should write.
Alright friends. 
A poem I just worked on. . . It's for the world. (-_- 
Me and my thoughts. 
Happy well. Why? 
The sky is grey with a tint of sunlight. 
Drifting, drifting, drifting. 
Rain, rain, rain, I want to know more about Guardian angel. 
Hello, hello. I feel weird.