Thursday, February 23, 2006

Ohh... Damn! I think I funked that picture!!

*HUGS* TOTAL! Hellothere Get hugs of your own Yeah... This is for one of myO friend. I think you know who you are, that I said I would draw a picture for you and you would draw one for me. Just incase you don't know who "you kow who you are". ... IT's cosmo2389!!! Hahaha... (-D-; http://fanart.theotaku.com/view.php?action=retrieve&id=98008 There you go. Go and see if you wish... it took about a few hours but surprising enough I ACTUALLY enjoyed that. I think more about the colouring. :P I also used the printer programme to change somethings about it SINCE i don't have photoshop or anything... I feel a bit ashamed not achieving in the traditional media. But... oh well... it's just a little change... so in the future I might be trying a little more in the wild side. (^-^' or just be true to traditional way of doing things than using a computer!!! E-moyott ~HelpOUT,GodIN~ Ps. How are you today? (-,o?

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Monday, February 20, 2006

Monday going out...

Yeah, here you are Blue4 This is for you!!! Hehehe... It seemed alright now to get a clear view. I know this is a noogie but I'm not sure if that's the best angle to go for :P And this is for Moonelfknight!!! This is for ya!! And I hope this week for everyone a hopey fine one!!! Later, I gotta shave!!! Me bear!! Patrick [Thought of the day] I have re-found my purpose in life again. God, I am trying to follow as much as I can. [Feeling] Clear as the wind that blows across the freezing north pole. [no pic] ~GetOUT,GodIN~

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Sunday, February 19, 2006

Friday... this was. -Journal#02-

*HUGS* TOTAL! Hellothere Get hugs of your own I would have updated sooner but my brother was on the computer all day MSn style on Friday and so... ok. (^_^' And on Saturday... I was in Deviantart finsihing scrolling at people's work. so... and updating it so. (^_^ And here I am to tell you what I did on Friday... it was so beautiful... I LOVE GOD for that... though... there is much sadness behind those faces... (-_- Hmmm... And so... I'm going to tell you some parts of it. (^_^ I loved it so... Are you listening to my music thingy??? If you can... please do, if not... ehm... sorry... :P Well, let's see. oh yeah. On friday I was going to Meet K and he was going to visit me on Thursday but I was busy meeting an old fellow callsmate, Scottyhottie(cause it rhymes ok?) Here he is. (^_^ I was helping him do some of his work in Btec. He has done SO much work and it's amazing!!! SuGOI!!! I can't believe it. I didn't do that much when I was there last year. :P He looks more grown than last time I meet him. (^_^ Coolly. That was thursday oh yeah! I'm talking about Friday! *LOL* Oky, Me and B went to the museum to meet K. It wasn't intentional but I had my photography project to do and that was like 5 weeks ago I should've taken the photos :P (>,< *God HELP ME* And so... they're black and white. I also got caried away taking pictures of B cause he was liek "Ohh, take me, take ME!!" I was like Oky, oky, whatever!! And there was some nice shots... but I wonder what they're going to turn out like. And yeah, the subject was like "ODD". I was like... what can I do?!?! B: Don't take photos of that Stupid bear!!! P: Why not? That's my subject project! B: Well, go outside and take something else!! P: NO!! It's my teddybear and I want it IN!!! Well, that was my idea of 'ODD'. [here's my bear and me] Oky and so... me and B went to the museum and gonna meet K. He phoned me from his moby. I was like "How embarrassing have this old tone!!" It was Baitoven!! (can't spell as you can see) *lol* And so... somehow we met up. And, as always, K posed like a cool guy waiting. Just kinda like in that manga, "KAREKANO: his and her circumstances". And B was like in greeting mood. I mean, for the three of us to meet like this... was almost forever NONE. I have barely seen these two together like sometime last year before christmas. These two live where I am... but we don't see eachother much... but maybe that's why I feel special when we meet... *God knows* (^D^ And so... they got freaked when I took out my camera!!! They were like "What's this?! I don't want to POSE!" and stuff alike. (^^' It was embarassing but someone's got to do it... ME, THE IDIOT!!! And so... yeah... that's how we three met up. (^_^' +++ I know this isn't something you *want* to read but... it you have time... go on... if not... go to the end and look at the photos. :P +++ We have "I'm HUNGRY, WHERE DO WE GO?!?!" "I'M ALWAYS WHERE WHERE WHERE?!?!" And of course, K and B talk amoung themselves and I'm like "WHERE WHERE WHERE?!?!" Those to have a habbit talking about themselves and leaving me out. You *would* get annoyed but... I don't... They're always like that when I'm there. I don't know what it is. It seems sometimes... they're like models of a high student society but that's not them at all. (^_^ THEY ARE SO FUNNY at times... (T_T truly. And they always make laugh about me... which I don't get to hear. Instead of having 'tea'(scottish term for "dinner") we had a snack drink instead. They decided to go to Costa. And BLOODY PUNCH!!! IT COSTS!! I mean, I should've brought a £10, I only had £5. B needed some money to buy a drink I was like... "oky" (;_; Not like I'm not happy helping him to buy but I was short scared about what to buy for eat!! If you know what I mean? I loved the marshmellow they did with hot chocolate. That was yummy. (^_^' And so... I got a "midio" and so did B. And we got a seat where K was sitting. Clever... there weren't many seats to sit cause there were student arses sitting everywhere... And so... again, they were "WHY ARE YOU USING THAT THING?!" B: How many cameras have you got?! P: Two! This is a digital one!! K: No!! Don't take a photo of me!! (T_T Those two just don't know what a photographer is like. And so... I sneakly took this one. [K and B's hand.] I'm glad I wasn't in these photos... I couldn't bare what My hair was like then... I didn't so anything to it... soo... (>_>* And here is another one I tried to take and guess who's hand is in this time?? And so... then we headed away, cause K was hungry and I wasn't. And yeah... he also said his drink tasted... "Soapy" I was like... "soapy"?! Maybe it could've been their unclean hands and things, you know? K: maybe... *We both look towards the people who was at the counter* And we all left to get something to eat at M&S. [M&S have such a funny advert on Tv, I could laugh when someone else did a slagging of it. I mean I heard one time in the radio, someone did it for a sofa ad and it was like (=>= hahaha!!] And yeah... it was FREEZING when we brought ou little sandwiches... and again... B needed some help to buy. I was like oky how much?? and so... I'm buying everything for him!! And I was like... DO I HAVE ENOUGH FOR MYSELF!! (X_X I know... I'm selfish!!! And we went and sat on a bench. It was like (=>= "I'm SO cold and I wanna HUG YOU GUYS!! I NEED WARMTH AND YOU'RE THE ONLY THING THAT IS CLOSE TO ME!!" But of course I didn't. Plus there were folks passing. You know, there were a lot quite bus stops everywhere. soo... Folks were everywhere... passing everytime I took a bite of my wrap. P: People are gonna look at you when you eat. K: I take it as a compliment P: Oh... B: ... *ate his sandwich* And then before I finished eating... I saw... ta-da!! Scotty!!! He walked past me and didn't say "hi" . I guess in a way, I know why... (=_=' But yeah... It was intruguing seeing him again. I mean, we don't have much contact. *shrugs* And so... we went up to the royal mile and before reaching there, again, I got a camera OUT!! And they weren't anywhere. Then I looked over and then I ran up to them. Surprising enough, they wanted me to take a picture of them... I was like "HUH?" (xox?? But why... I guess. They redid the poses that they did when we were still in high school. It was funny. (^_^' This was their warming up and so... yeah. And their acutally pose... (-,-; I've got a headache now... and that was the end of the day, friends. (^_^ Thanks for being and reading. (^_^' I... guess... this IS a personal one... At the end. I *thanked* GOD whole heartedly. It was rare event but... I enjoyed very much. (^_^ Oky, I wish you ALLLLLLLLL a BEST NEW WEEK!!! GOD, BLESS YOU!!! Grace and salavtion go together that's the bases. (^_^ *cheese* (TDT' Patrick [Thought of the day] What do angels do when we sit at churches and listen to sermons? Do they sit and listen or do they just watch our minds thinking?? I mean, they are light divine beings... so... their world works different from this 3D-solid world. I imagine them float effortless in a sea of energy where the world that God truly is though... I wonder, if we are made of atoms, then... it's not one thing in us but millions. And so... what if we are bits and organs that are belonging to God... aren't we like that??? We're like atoms of God??? One of my bro's pal, Edmond, he gived me an idea of millions of living in us, such as atoms, wouldn't they count as 'living' liek ourselves? In some sense he said... we're like THE WHOLE ONE the moves for the millions that make us up. And so... this is big thought. (^_^' [Feeling] Sad, but I know God will come some day to harvest us, his children who took the blood of his One and Only beloved SON, Jesus, into ourselves knowing that we belong him, he's calling still. [Where do you come from] When the sea drowns the land, and the heavens fall with fires, where can you hide when all your walls of fame, lust, fantasy and secret and logic fails to stand... where then will it lend you??? For all those who obeyed... wings of life will carry them. For those who crossed the line but failed to stand. They are burned and set free to fly with angels and the lest... what will happen to the rest who failed to understand why the rest is flying but themselves? [HelpOUT,GodIN] -By grace I am here today without knowing, Jesus, funny thing sadness-

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Saturday, February 18, 2006

Yep

Tep today computer crappness... This is the update! *YouHOOOOO* Im still here... okay... *runs around and psychicly shocks people's minds into...* I wonder what it's like to fall beyond the boundaries of that... [freakout] I'm... pos-posse- posses... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH crappiness yappiness are coming out of the s-s-spac-spac-spaceeeeee shipppppppppp ALIENSS!!! RUN RIN RUNR RUNRRNURNRURNRRUN THER@S THOO MCANY OF tHeemOE WQyuICklYE Get aFOut ANOwww!!! Hruruyyy therhe's reaching tot us it'ss itn ehere now quicllkednkd!!! eesnendklfpef eh

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Wednesday, February 15, 2006

Happy Valitine's Day[I'm late and I'm SOOO...]

Happy Valitine's Day!! You silly people!! Hahaha... I feel... like I can beat someone up!!! (^_^ Ahhh... being destructive is bad but... for a friendly fight... I wanna one!! (=_= Oh it's past... oh well... [Thought of the Day] When did Valitine's Day become hearts? [Feeling] I'm all out. ~HelpOUT,GodIN~

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Monday, February 13, 2006

Lazy Update: (Go-mai-neh) SORRY, SORRY!!

I'm totally can't get myself arsed to going to other people's sites!! Truth be told!! (;_; ' BUT!! (O_O' I'll do it tomorrow when I'm in class... *heheehhehe* >:D *evil laugh* Okay, I have JUST uploaded some art. That's it. *Eh he he he* I know... what crappy update!! B-BUT!!! I have this... Go and see it. It's a little sketch I thought... "hmm... they are activate". I have also deviant to update so... there I go. A sketch!! http://i24.photobucket.com/albums/c21/angsvnt/artwork/Sketch01.jpg [Thought of the day#03] When I live life to the point where no one seems to care... to care about me... death and invisbility doesn't seem so scary at all. Cause I know no one will moan for me. I know that God is waiting. I know that God is there in heaven. I want... I want to live there... where the love and just are. I want to... be free from pain, I want to be free... from suffering. I want to see Jesus Christ my saviour in person. That's the most important thing ever... I want to be free from my heart that feels in despair. BUT... I don't want to escape and known as a coward... And I don't want feel cuts and bruises... I just want... a easlier life... Oh well, tis is life... and tis is my want. [Feeling] I feel bright and refreshed, though... I know I have to shape up soon. God, help me. Patrick ~HelpOUT,GodIN~

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Lazy Update: (Go-mai-neh) SORRY, SORRY!!

I'm totally can't get myself arsed to going to other people's sites!! Truth be told!! (;_; ' BUT!! (O_O' I'll do it tomorrow when I'm in class... *heheehhehe* >:D *evil laugh* Okay, I have JUST uploaded some art. That's it. *Eh he he he* I know... what crappy update!! B-BUT!!! I have this... Go and see it. It's a little sketch I thought... "hmm... they are activate". I have also deviant to update so... there I go. A sketch!! [Thought of the day#03] When I live life to the point where no one seems to care... to care about me... death and invisbility doesn't seem so scary at all. Cause I know no one will moan for me. I know that God is waiting. I know that God is there in heaven. I want... I want to live there... where the love and just are. I want to... be free from pain, I want to be free... from suffering. I want to see Jesus Christ my saviour in person. That's the most important thing ever... I want to be free from my heart that feels in despair. BUT... I don't want to escape and known as a coward... And I don't want feel cuts and bruises... I just want... a easlier life... Oh well, tis is life... and tis is my want. [Feeling] I feel bright and refreshed, though... I know I have to shape up soon. God, help me. Patrick ~HelpOUT,GodIN~

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Saturday, February 11, 2006

I'm terrible!!!!

I am sorry that I am not visint anyone's site, I FEEL... I FEEL... TERRIBLE!!! Actually, (T_T more... stupid!! I HAVEN'T BEEN A VERY UNUSUAL HOST AND ALL THOSE WHO COME HERE MUST THINK: "Oh dear me, i have to waste some seconds to see this _$()%# and read his crap." I AM SORRY FOR BEING SO CRAP AND BORING!! I HAVE BEEN TRAPPED PLAYING A GAME CALL "GUILDWARS" I'M WRAPPED AROUND IT'S DAMN FATTY FINGERS!! NOOOOOO!!! *SCREAMS INSIDE HIS OWN HEAD VERY LOUDLY* FORGIVE ME!!!! MEEEEEEE!!! I AM A HORRIBLE HOST I HAVE NOT UPDATE OR PUT ART I HAVE ONLY THOUGHT OF MYSELF I'M TERRIBLE!!! GO!! DON'T CHECK THIS SITE ANYMRE!!! IT'S CURSED!!! AHHHHHH!!! (;>; IT'S CURSED!! I'M CURSED!! AHH... shitty shit. Excuse me language little boys and girls... I feel like a... ... ... poo on the ground about to be trampled by some wierdo. i'm so sorry, I have nothing to update today!! FORGIVE ME!! FORGIVE ME GOD!!! FORGIVE EVERYONE!! . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . The only good news is... I have started to sew a little bit of my old cloths... changng their looks and cuting openings everywhere and sewing only the edges... I know it's crap but i gotta start somewhere. I will *try* to keep my art flowing on monday and friday but.. there is no promises but I will try and do some... vision of my manga that is my head that is making me feel so... "I wanna do". So... have a NICE weekend and don't be depressed, well, at least I might be but thre is church tomorrow... I have to visit. P@tr^cl< ~HelpOut,GodIn~ Ps. May grace and peace be wit ya bros and siss.

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Wednesday, February 8, 2006

Hello, everyone!!

Today, I have decided to show my crap life!! From now on, I will update with the MOST 'positive' attitude towards life... or just show you how stupid I am. :P But yeah, it's gonna be called "Diary-do, Yesterday" I think I'll update every two/three days onwards. (^^' I hope they are gonna be funny though, I know, I'm tried humor but... yeah... here goes the first one. (^_^' And plus, they're gonna be true. (-_-' Dairy-do, yesterday: Yesterday, I was taking a shower, not a bath even though it's a bath, my brother said me before he left, he almost slipped off the bath tube thingy. I was like, "Oh, yeah. I did too when I was standing up to shower, hehaha" And when he left the bathroom and went to sleep. I was like "Hmm... this NEW bath is a bit slippery. Hmm..." I soaped myself and then I sat down... there I started to slide forward. Not that anyone wanted to know. And by the time I finished, the only thing I could think of was what my brother said. "I almost slipped getting off the bath" "I almost slipped getting off the bath" "I almost slipped getting off the bath" "I almost slipped getting off the bath" "I almost slipped getting off the bath" "I almost slipped getting off the bath" That echoed in my head for ages. I was gonna go "nah, that couldn't happen" but he also said if he slipped, he would of knocked his balls at the wall of the bath tube!! I was like I'M *DIFINITELY* not taking the risk to reach my slippers without support.(the bath was kinda high) And so... I felt like an old man getting out of the bathroom, as well as trying not get hurt, but I guess, it was all worth it at the end. :P crap I know but yeah, ------ [Thought of the day] When I die... will anyone online know about it? ------ I know it's depressing but... it's something that's been on my mind. (-_-' Feeling: I feel like a silent sea where nothing moves and nothing cares. I only wish... I could care more. Patrick ~HelpOut,GodIn~

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Friday, February 3, 2006

Hello, I'm back!! (^_^'

Journal #2 [Today, the bathroom people have just finished the final touches and stuff. Finally, I can have a shower tomorrow. I hadn't had a bath for like a 3 days at least. :P Smelly, I know. (:P But what else could you do? And also, I'm thinking of finding a job this month. Cause I'm pretty useless with my circumstance right now... and I'm totally like shitting myself to ACTUALLY getting going out to find one!!! (xOx Gah...] I gotta go now and I'll come and visit you guys. I haven't got much on... though... someone tell me how to make a link to my fanart, anyone? (^_^ It would be most appreciated!! (^_^' [Thought of the day #2] I weave myself too many worlds and I wonder if real life is kinda like that, being here I see one bit of life and if I go somewhere else, would I see another bit of life... maybe... Feeling: [There is a day I can love and feel and others... I just get depressed] Good to you all, my friends!! Those of you who visit. (^_^ How are you today?? (^_^' AceGallagher SilencetheDawn Hazel Keys1985 moonelfknight ma7ad ekleemnee Silent Light themusicdied Yensid Give me a mention! And if you want something, I might see about drawing it. ~HelpOut, GodIn~

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