Tuesday, January 24, 2006

   Ahhhh... # Journal Update no.1

Yes, hello, I'm here today. I'm sorry, right now I'm in class and I feel something important is going to happen... like the lecturer is going to say something boring that I'm going to fall a sleep. You know, crap. (T_T (^_^ But... yeah my dad is heading away today and won't be back until late Thursday. :3 Kinda sweet don't you think?? Yeah. # weekend As you all know my bestest friend came home and he went to church and I basically waited for him. I mean, I thought about him all last week what we'll be doing and stuff. And as it turns out, we actually had quite a lot, I mean, I had a lot to say. (x,x' I mean like I'm kinda a shame of myself of what I have done last summer and he's like... being SUCH a GOOD listener. (-,-|| God bless him so much!!! (=_= And yeah, there were stuff that I thought I'll never able to tell anyone but God, cause it was SOOO SOOO SOOO hard for to say... I said it while I was laughing a smile. It's so vile!!(=D=' It seemed like I enjoy telling him, but I the point was I was surprised that I came out with the things that I thought O'll never tell anyone. )=,=( And so... the sunday was amazing. God so blessing though I'm so cursed. Gah! (;_;' Ah well, how is your day today? How are you feeling?? How is your life?? Wanna talk? (^_^ I'm up for hearing about it. :3 If you want advice, I'll pray about. (^_^ Anyway, I wish you ALL a fine week. (-_- Peace and grace to all ye brothers and sisters! And love and compassion to all ye neighbors!! (^_^' # Thought of the day # "I know it in my heart that chasing the wind is false hope, but on my mind it's echoing, it's telling me... there is something at the end that I want, could it be something bad... or could it be something good... I know what my heart says, as from the beginning, I was right" [Feeling] : I want to pray and feel safe, do good and say "I love you" : ~HelpOut,GodIn~

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Friday, January 20, 2006

Hmm... updating cuz

Hello everyone. I'm alright today though I have chores to do. And my bestest friend is coming back!! Just one two days and in one them I'm going to see him!! (^_^ And that's it. (O_O' (=_= I took some photos of me and yeah! I'm gonna put them up and see what you think?? No.1 No.2 No.3 Patrick Thought of the day 2: "When my life is passing by, I wish I had did things the way I want, well, at least the exciting part" Feelin: [I'm blocked up I need to escape] ~HelpOut, GodIn~

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Thursday, January 19, 2006

A quick notice

Hello, friends. (^_^ I'm in college now and about to go home. I have some news that might be bad or maybe good, who knows? I think next week I might not be able to update my otaku site because my dad is off work and stuff and so... no computer for me. (X_x It means also no friday and monday art. (=_= There are some good news. I have started to draw manga now and I have a lot of work for my course but I'm doing some art and the story is going on and I hope that I since gonna continue. Brother has been on the computer for quite some time now and it's been kinda hard for me to go on since, you know, online friends. (-_- Gotta respect that. (^_^ And I have watched Kare Kano episode one and two. I thought it was alright theugh the american version, I mean english version, has got some dodgy voice actors. I even recognised Jessy's voice from poke'mon. And misty's. But anyway, no offense to americans. ;P *hee* Well, no picture today... but I have a poem. I can't remember about this poem being posted and so... tell me if it was. (^_^ But here it is. === The colourless sky Not much life only a sigh so much for the grey, blue sky. Silvery shine in Light's gold eye drink of hope for there's no wine. Unfair situation where deader whisper zombie to care embrace the fear here. Lost thy soul my mind in blind fair, layer it's all weared. So sad I only a sigh smoky puff lits the grey, blue sky === Patrick Thought "I thought I saw a star in my dreams but all it was just me falling, falling from the sky that was clean, stained with copper... that was me" Feeling: [God, when will the day be when everything stops]

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Tuesday, January 17, 2006

   The art from yesterday in today's post

Art manga #01 [http://fanart.theotaku.com/view.php?action=retrieve&id=91755] Art manga #02 [http://fanart.theotaku.com/view.php?action=retrieve&id=91760] Hello, I'm posting in college and as usual, I'm kinda despressed but I thinK I'm fine, normally. When to bed about 3.30am and now it's like 9.00am. Very early and my eyes (=-= or mangabled!! (whatever that means!) "Alright" is my word and that's it for today. I wish to say thankyou for visiting my site and that I hope I could be some comfort in some way or at least I could get some comfort, either way, aye? (=_= I wish you a fine week!! Here's a thought. [Another thought #1] ~When the rain comes and the sun is hidden, don't run from the darken clouds, embrace the condition for after whatever the time, the sun will appear even if you are soaked to the bottom of your pants~ Patrick

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Monday, January 16, 2006

Just a post with a poem

Hello, friends. I have a short post today. As Monday, I have loaded some art. I thought it'll be something to read and feel excited about though... I have no idea. And I have a poem I wrote yesterday and so... I hope it is good to read. (^_^ Well, I wish you well throughout the week and "May Grace and Peace Be with you". (-_- === A thought without a heading Surrounded in far and dark shadow, silent no tv just peaceful, restless way no media, no influence all ones own peace at rating no music just the sounds movement of sounds no doubt or question just bliss At times like these there is no other chance Reflection the view, the vision and understanding no whisper nor talk can change the wondering Careful thought in well of memories, in dreams dazzling, how things auto work it's a quiet time one all must to take and reflect to relearn the clues that conclude the facts of the pass, pass memo for a better tomorrow Hmmm... the times over. === Patrick Feeling: [Hold me tight or I'll die screaming] ~HelpOUT, GodIN~

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Saturday, January 14, 2006

Water Leakage

Hello, everyone I'm just updating. My friend K said something that: "Events changes you and that it makes you grow. It helps you. But in order to happen, you must take the first step" Or something like that. (=_= And guess what? A stranger spoke to me in KFC. He taught me soemthing about beauty in everything. I felt weird and strange when he looked at me. "The Truth" he said. "The Truth" he said. The things in life is beauty in all aspect. My... There was something about him that I kinda understand. He said I understood what he was saying, in a way, I was. But I'm not sure exactly... The Truth... But anyway, I have a leakage when I came back from going out with my friend K. And there it was... "The event" that will change me. A leakage to be exact!! (T_T This gonna be annoying. First I cleaned the mess and my brother just said, I quote: "What should I do?" And I'm like "Just be HELPFUL!!" And of course that didn't help!! And so... it was all me. And I think... (T_T my dad will handle this. Damn!! I hope I don't have to!! Stupid people from above the flat!! It's those builders who don't know what they are nailing things!! I'll have to train up physically to beat someone up if they wanted a fight or what!! But yeah, have a nice weekend and I'll have some art on MONDAY!! MY DRAWING IS CRAP BUT I'LL TRY SOMETHING!! Patrick Ps. On the way home I was singing, "God, don't let me down" lyrics of Anastacia. :P Feeling: [Don't Let Me Down] ~Help out, God in~

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Friday, January 13, 2006

My Life 2

Today what have I done? = went out = used a voucher to trade for Frank Ferdinand album = came back and ate brunch = watched some extras in the Spirited Away Dvd = my K friend came over and did his UCAS form online thingy = and here I am, uploading my art Yesterday I spend most day watching Kiki's delivery service and Spirited Away. They were quite well done!! I like Spirited Away better> (^_^ It had "Ohhh, back to normal life with a big confidence" part that I felt nice. (^_^ I have only loaded one picture and it isn't done well but... I'll later link it. (=~= I have an excuse, why. I hope that explains it. And plus, I have been down for a while. (-_- I wish you ALL a besty Weekend!! Thankyou for those who visit here. (-_- I appreciate it much. (^_^ I'm angry right now cause I haven't eaten much though... there isn't much to eat at home. (X_X I'm so poor. My dad is working. Argh!! (>O<' *NOOOO* And plus, (T_T my friend asked me if I wanted to go to his church... and I said "no". Cause I haven't been to the church I used to go. (;_; (;>; I have been church hiding!! (;o; I just need a little time out though, God, will there. (;~; I wanna a poem about him though... I'll try write some tonight, a poem that is.. ehm... nice. (o~o' Well, here's a poem I did a few days ago. It's about Love. Though I don't know much about it. Blah! (=>= What am I talking about. I dream about it a lot. (:P === Love image What is love? love is on sale high and thoughtful . . . what does it mean? hollow gesture, I say lonely background, must be who can fill this could tank up? a partner could, what else? Is this the true meaning of love? date and dumb find the one so who's right and wrong? No one, only commitment That's one. loyal and endurance do anything to care that's what I see Open heart, open mind one can only see so much This is the beginning of something worth === The theme is what is love today? Or what they make love is. (^_^' It's kinda crap but I hope it gives you an idea. (:P Patrick Feeling: [It's getting hard to see] ~Help out, God in~

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Thursday, January 12, 2006

   [My Life] Note no.1

Hello, there, friends. Today, I think I feel better. (^_^ This week has been something strange to me. I mean, i have barely spoken to any of my classmates and it feels weird just... kinda maybe talking to them. I don't feel 'in' but I guess, it's just me. I wanted to be someone people wil remember but I guess I wasn't to be. (-_- I want to be kind and friendly but all it seems I'm cold and quiet. Oh well, in a way... I will always be that. I'm still kinda shy to talk out loud cause what I usually say is quite dull and logically "ohh, like we want to know that?". Oh... how crap. (T_T But yeah, "And that's my life". :P I hope you all have a nice day and Friday... there is gonna be some art work. (^_^ *cheese* (=D= Patrick ?Do you remember what you're just read? You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine. You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you. A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down. But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible. How Boyish or Girlish Are You? Feeling: ~Help out, God in~

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Tuesday, January 10, 2006

   I was depressed and maybe it'll be on.

Good morning, friends. I am in college and this is an early post and it is not exciting a part from my hair being so dum like. I feel like I could die but it's not something I can just blab it out. (- - Well, have a nice day, friends! (^ ^ Patrick ~Help out, God in~

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Monday, January 9, 2006

Poem. and college

To Seek the Truth When I ran, I didn't mean to say the wind is blowing and pulling my hair to shame When I ran, I want to run far where my dreams fly and flow by it's own How I wish the world was easy Simple, faithful and wonderful awe How I wish evil would end no more bruises, scars and wounds When I look, I think odd thoughts people should be people not wild beasts When I look, I start to judge strangers and flowers and friends to amuse How I am trapped forever to age Year by year I fall short to see How I am hateful and shameful lost the sense of duty and order I was to be When I see, I clearly didn't want the hurt and pain and the disappointments to curse when truly I see, I walk the grace and mercy only to try my life for I have fail and fail and born to realise when I the day I see... I was meant to seek the Truth === I hope my poem has made you think! (- - I feel so today... so odd. I want to go to college but I don't. Urgh... horror wednesday is coming!! AHHHHH!!! I feel glad I have helped my classmate, Shane and Bellea in their photography which I was in. (^_^ I felt like an idiot at first and now I'm glad I stayed back to help them. (^^; *hehe* But yeah, I enjoyed kinda today. Feeling: ~Help out, God in~

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