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Yesterday, I must say... I could off started to stand on top of the bridge that I was on. And jumped off but of course I didn't. [=[]=
(plus, I'm not a psycho!!)
I really did feel depressing. I must of stood on the bridge looking down at the waters and the trees and rocks about like 10-15 minutes.
Just looking at it and the clouds and more trees. Feeling depressed and telling Jesus how some bit of me is feeling. Hmmm... It was depressing. I know some other people get more depressed than me... but... I get help anyone unless I have dealt with mines.
An ill person can't help another ill person if they can't see what's wrong with themselves first. So it's like the blind leading the blind as one of the bits in the Gospel that pops in mind. (=-=
Well, my course is SOOOO depressing. I mean, I'm practicely wasting my chances away but not working hard. Instead, I spend more time in my hobbies, that is the computer this and rpg maker and offline drawing, thinking, singing, cooking an hour or more, distracted by Tv!! Hundreds of things that distract me!!!
AHHHHHHH!!!
But not today! I have a set challenge for myself this weekend, a 16 page manga in pencil and maybe inked if I finish early (which I highly doubt). And this will see my extended thoughts and drawing skills together!!
I have done about four pages today... and I have... like 12 more!! Which is double that! 16 A5 sheets
that I'm using. And 2x16 is 32 pages of actions and explaination!!!
AHHH!!! I'm so bad at english!! And I have a report to write sometime!!
((X_X can anyone see why I get depressed?! Ekkk!!!
I make TOO MUCH TASKS FOR MYSELF!!!
*swear, beep*
(not really.)
As I would say, there is TOO MUCH things to do and so little time to do it in.
I don't know who has a scanner that I could scan in... *wail*
OHHHHHH WEELLLLLLLLL...
(*O*
AH!!
There! *puff*
How are you today, my friends?
All and well? (-_o?
What have you been up to??
How is your life, today?
I feel like I'm all negative... (probably am) and I'm positive when I don't know when I am!
(:_: *boo ho ho*
(^_^ I have a poem for you ALL!!
No name
I wish you love when you're lonely,
I wish you happiness when you're sad,
I wish you hope when you're down,
I wish you a bright a sky when all things become grey.
Short but sweet.
Thankyou for being around. (even though you're not physically but mentally, it's still quite nice.)
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Arigatou.
~Bittersweetlove~
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Drifting, drifting, drifting.
