Friday, April 28, 2006

Lonely...
I found that the only way not to get hurt is not to get close to anyone..... or let anyone get close to me... I don't want to hurt them ether but I do.... Things that I do hurt and bother them so much. I just want it to end.
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Thursday, April 27, 2006

No one.....
No one can love the painful truth
That I should die away
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   Blood
Blood runs down my hands
the warm liguid that is all my own
it drips on the floor from the wound in my chest
the dark red puddle on the floor
the liquid of life
my hand holds my heart
still beating in my chest
slash marks cover my every inch
each slash shows a problem
things that I do that bother all.
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Not like anyone cares.....
I dout anyone cares but yesterday I almost died I think.... I took to much sleeping pills and I feel really sick today.... I don't know why I even did that... or even what was going around in my head but I know I was mad at the world and Just wanted it to end.... I still do....
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Wednesday, April 26, 2006

Elemental Poem... The second poem for today.....
Fire, water, Earth, and Air,
Elements of the Highest Domain,
Protect me from evil today,
As I go about my way.
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Masquerade
My face is a mask that I hide behind.
The glass-like eyes that are kind,
The rose-like lips that are sweet.
But under it,
The glass-like eyes are wet and dripping,
The rose-like lips are cut and bleeding.
A gasping pain around my chest,
Around my heart is a snake-like rope,
But the mask hides it all
My inner soul left hidden.
People will not see
That my weaknesses are many.
Everyone walks in a masquerade ball,
But some hide more then others...
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Tuesday, April 25, 2006

Why do I feel...
Why do I feel this way
I should not of fallen in love
What happen before scared me
Why can't I just stop
The man I loved hurt me
The man I love now is hurt
It hurts me too.
My tears fall for him
and they also fall for me
I try so hard to forget
but that is like forgetting to breath
I where a lock around my neck
To lock my emostions away
The 'promise ring' I wear
Is to remind me not to fall in love
But it's so hard
Not to fall in love with him
I hurt him
I make him sad
Is that all I'm good for?
If that's all I'm good for
Then why do I feel this way
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Monday, April 24, 2006

   Far From.....
Far from the same,
Far from different,
Far from knowing,
Far from being an idiot,
Far from being loved,
Far from being loveless,
Far from the circle,
Far from being gone,
Far from living,
Far from dieing,
Far from saving,
Far from being saved,
Far from being a friend,
Far from being a enemy,
Far from knowing you,
Far from being a stranger.
There are so many things
That I am far from,
But I really wish,
I wasn't far from
Your mind and heart.
But I really wish,
I wasn't far from you.
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Friday, April 21, 2006

Torn....
My Heart is torn apart
I don't know what to do
I wish to help
But I know I only make things worse
I can never help
Sorry I bother you
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Thursday, April 20, 2006

Friends Heart.....
My friend has a big heart
He loves someone
Just becase
He want's to be friends
With everyone
He may not understand
But he sure trys
But when he's sad
It's like a Dagger
In my heart
I love him
Though he doesn't feel the same
And because I do
I want him to be happy
But what can I do
If he's crush loves another
What can I do
To cheer him up
What can I do
When I can't even help myself
I can only tell him things
That I have went though
That I know of
And that's not vary much
I've sat with him
Put my hand on he's shoulder
But sometimes I wonder
Am I doing more harm then good.
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