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Wednesday, May 3, 2006

   Pick on me all you want.....
Go ahead and pick on me all you want guys.... My only best friend seems to love to just because I have a stupid crush on him... I only wonder why he doesn't just tell me in my face that he hates me.
And to make matters worse, Everyone is glad I changed my avi... Well I'm glad too.... I Don't need more reminders that I'm ugly and fat... I get them to much at home.
I guess I don't have any friends at all... And that's ok... I'm fine alone... I've been alone all my life... what's the change? All my life I've been picked on and abbused... I don't care anymore... I'll always be picked on so what's the point in caring anymore. How could anyone love someone who's so stupid to even think that My 'friend' even wanted me to be friends with him in the first place. He doesn't want to hurt me... well he's not the first nor the last to hurt me... And it's mostly me... I can't stop acting that way to him and I can't even stop myself from wanting to be with him...
I Hurt myself... it's all me... And you know what?... It starts to get to be a habit to what to kill myself. The more and more I think about it... The more it looks like the only answer. I wont of course because I'm a cowerd but Right now there's a lot of gangs around our little town and I'm wanting to be the next victim... And no one would care if I was...
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