Birthday • 1988-06-03 Gender •
Male Location • On the front lines in the battle for honor, purity, and women's rights. Member Since • 2005-11-22 Occupation • Car Detailer by day, Warrior by night. Real Name • Joshua. Also known as Angelus, Venom, VeNoMtheMighty, Van Helsing.
Personal
Achievements • Working my way through college, aiming for a degree in psychology. I've become quite a good writer over the years, and hope to publish my works soon. Anime Fan Since • Probably about 10 years old - Digimon was the first anime I truely loved. Favorite Anime • Ergo Proxy, Black Lagoon, Ghost in the Shell, Hellsing, Burst Angel, and Neon Genesis Evangelion. My favorite Manga is Bleach. Goals • To become a novelist, and find love. Hobbies • Writing, drawing, reading, video games. Talents • Writing, drawing, physical strength. A great work ethic.
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Friday, June 2, 2006
Deep in Thoughts
I'm feeling a bit deep right now, so bear with me - I'll try not to confuse anyone. I think sometimes I say things that seem to have no connection when I'm in a philisophical mood, like I am now.
This last day I've had alot of time to reflect. Not a whole lot going on, which usually allows my mind to wander into deep thought.
I have a feeling, as if I am waiting for something. This feeling has been driving me mad. Everyday I wake up, do chores or go to work, eat, and then sleep again. Life has been sickeningly repetitive. And I fear it will be for a while. Even with my new job, eventually that will become boring and mundane. I have this feeling...a feeling, a sense, that I am needed. That I have a purpose that I have not yet even began to fullfill. I believe in fate, on an epic scale. I also believe in God, and I further believe that I have been spoken to by Him. Not like I actually HEARD Him, more like he's given me a feeling. I know, without a doubt, that I will never be truly happy and content until I am living as an adult (out of my parents house...which I cannot wait to be), and living with a woman. I know that my soul purpose in life is to serve and support a woman, to make her life easier, to protect her...to be her Guardian Angel. Lord, I cannot wait to have a family of my own. My own children, a wife, a dog...I want my own life so much. A life devoted to my wife and our children. That's all I want.
There must be something more to life, right? Something grand...something with true PURPOSE. I'm dying to be used. Like I said in a quote, I feel that men are blades and shields, to be weilded for women. If I don't find the woman for which I am to be weilded...I don't know what I'll do.
Sorry for babbling on about that for so long.
Quote of the day: "The only rules that really matter are these: what a man can do and what a man can't do." - Captain Jack Sparrow
