Tuesday, February 15, 2005

Mimmis- I love yours too!
Domon- I love Oriental anything, so yeah. I love the avatar too.
Queeny- ^_^ I can't pull off the pinkness, but I can do green.
JJ- I love the grapes. I don't know why, but I do. "In"..heh, I wouldn't know, lol. Sexy, hells yes.
The Cool- Don't you just love green! ^~^
Tony- Does it look better? Thank you for giving me heads up. I didn't feel that it looked right, but I wasn't sure if anyone else felt that way too.
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I think this theme will stay..for about a month, before I get the urge to redo it again. I know, I know, it drives you all crazy. But, it's what I do when I get bored. Thank you all for your encouragement for whatever layout I decide to do.

Well, yesterday was the "holiday". I actually didn't have too bad of a day. I slept in late, went to work, came home and talked to Joe, talked to a couple of other friends..and stayed busy. But now that it's over with, and some peeps have told me what they did, or got, I'm starting to feel that depression sliding in. I don't feel lonely because I didn't get any gifts, but..because I can't spend the day with my love.

Sigheth.

However, I did have an eye-opening with Charles last night/this morning. He's helped me into seeing things differently, and has aided in my quest to free myself. Only him and Alex have helped me with this. Talking to these two incredibly intelligent men has really brought out a part of me that I was not aware I had..and I'm really enjoying it. I'm finding my true self. I'm getting tired of wearing a mask, of trying to watch myself..hendering my thoughts. And it's just to please some people, or I think it was to please people. No more holding back, no more pretending, no more Mr. Nice Guy all of the time. Who said a woman has to be proper all of the time?

I'm still leaving the OB next month. I'll be gone for school..but I probably won't have net access. Which is good, I don't want to have access to the internet for the month. I don't want to come back to the OB; I don't want to do my modding duties on the other sites I mod for; I don't want to check my email. I want to disconnect. I want a break from it all. Just for one month.

And when I return from that month, the true Annalisse will be presented to you all.
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