Tuesday, April 10, 2007

You're The Nearest Thing To Heaven by Johnny Cash
I have sailed the peaceful waters of the ocean deep and blue
I held my breath and watched the western sunsets golden hue
I've flown above the mountain peaks and valleys wide and green
But you're the nearest thing to heaven that I've seen

You're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are
I have searched for happiness so long and far
But my search for love was through the day that I found you
Cause you're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are

I confess that I've been tempted by a luring magic charms
When the smile was flashed my way and stood before two open arms
But I turned and walked away because I love you like I do
You're the nearest thing to heaven darlin' you

You're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are
I have searched for happiness so long and far
But my search for love was through the day that I found you
Cause you're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are

I have watched the silver raindrops fall to earth to cool the day
Watched the rainbow at twilight when the clouds had blown away
I love the pretty flowers but they cannot buy the worth
Cause you're the nearest thing to heaven on this earth

You're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are
I have searched for happiness so long and far
But my search for love was through the day that I found you
Cause you're the nearest thing to heaven yes you are.


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Tuesday, April 3, 2007

   it seems theres always more bad news to add ontop of all the worries i already have, just when things appear to become hopeful again
why does my family seem to be falling apart???
two people died in my family the past two weeks T_T.....
god why do you hate me?
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Sunday, March 25, 2007

   HEYYYYYY
the past two weeks have been the very best. iv been up here at my grandmas kickin it, and almost everyday iv got to talk to bill on the phone. how ill miss that when i go home. i cant use the phone as much there, and i cant use it to talk to him unless im at a friends house. i love him so much.
i drew him, what do you think compared to the real image?

im going to miss talking to him so much.
i love him so much ^__^.
LEMME KNOW WHAT YOU THINK OF THE DRAWINGS GUYS...!!! :d
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Wednesday, March 14, 2007

   IM A FLYING MONKEY!
well people, at the moment i am bored.....bored to death...my grandmother asked me to stay up so i could wait to answer the door when my aunt gets here with all her shit...and i really want to take a shower and wash my hair and face... my face especially, i feel so selfconcious about my skin, specifically my forehead and the skin around my lips and chin....aparantly i'v broken out something fearce and nothing i try works, doing nothing seems to do well, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING...... iv tried this facial stuf my granny gave me, i tried regular soap (didnt really test it all that much bit it not really helping), so im like WTF is a mutha supposed to do around here to clear up her skin? idk at this point im sick of feeling greasy around my nose......@_@ i feel so embarrased. so tomorrow i will try to get my granny to buy me some clearasil and some noxema face pads, those i know work for the most part.... all you need is some consistancy... i think i broke out a week ago because i ran out of noxema and clearasil so i think thats the problem, no facial scrub n stuff. i have 10$ so i will use that to buy the stuff, it shouldnt be so expensive i hope...but these are the kind of small blemishes that hurt...the small ones that like are barely there but turn red and then hurt for no reason without touching them........TTTT________TTTT...................................................so yeah i really wish i could rip off my face right now......i mean i could care less if other people have blemishes, theyre the same to me, its just when im the only one with them that really makes me actually give a damn about what i look like to other people....
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IN OTHER NEWS (besides my blemish hatred)
My week has been extremely boring....and iv tried to talk to bill more than just 30 minutes at a time but circumstances have parted us for the most part. BUT i am so excited for when he finishes his camera ^_________________^ i cant wait for new pictures. I SO EXCITEEEEEEEEED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh and did i mention !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D :D :D :D.
i should be able to talk to him tomorrow, and my grandma said i could use her phone if i asked since she has 4,100 rollover minutes and 3,200 anytime minutes lol. so i am looking forward to tomorrow ^______________^ i really love him alot, and earlier he didnt know if i did, so if youre reading this bill, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT NOW AND NEVER FORGET :)¢¾ :)¢¾ :)¢¾ :)¢¾ :) ¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾¢¾

anyway
i have to go now i REALLY want to go take a shower and WASH the days cares away ^__^.
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Wednesday, February 28, 2007

this week
this week has been depressing and heart breaking and im tired of it all. i'm tired of all the people around me right now i wish that i could fly away but i cant i cant for the life of me........

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Tuesday, February 27, 2007

   what would you do?
what would you do if i.....
killed myself?
jumped off a bridge?
overdosed on sleeping pills?
what about tranquilizers?
or any drug for that matter?
would you care?
if not why are you such a fuck head?
and what about if i jumped into oncoming traffic?
would you try to stop me?
why?
why not?
why did you open this post?
do you even care that im here?
do you even care that i hate myself and others?
do you care that i am willing to dissapear forever?
what would you do?
what would you do?
what would you do?
if i said that i would die for you?
if i said i would marry you?
what if i asked would you ever marry me?
what would you say?
why?
do i matter?
does my opinion matter?
does my life matter?
am i worth saving?
do you even care about me?
what do you think of me?
what dont you like about me?
what would you change about me?
why would you try and change me?
would you ever kill me if i said kill me?
do you love me?
tell me what i should do...
why should i do it?
what makes your advice different from any others?
why do you continue reading this?
why dont i just kill myself?
why do you think i havent yet?
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Sunday, February 25, 2007

   hmm......
do we look cute together?:D

OH OH OH AND
do i look better with long or short hair? ..........iv pondered this.....and its EATING AT THE BACK OF MY BRAIN whether i should grow it out again or cut it shorter like i want...not that shorter. just a bit shorter....i think i want a pixie cut like i used to get when i was little. :D






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Tuesday, February 20, 2007

...i wont be updating all that much SORRY GUYS :(
sorry i havent really stopped by in a while you guys.
well i might not be updating all that much now iv been so busy with chores and shit like that.
well
i gots to go
tty guys later
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Sunday, February 11, 2007

   LMAO

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Saturday, February 3, 2007

   new updates :D
watdya think?
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