Thursday, October 4, 2007

i feel... weird today... i don't know why... not really... my friend ashley knows i like david so she "zapped" him with my name and tryed to make him look but he didn't so she asked if he liked me and he asked her how much she liked another guy and she said ew! no! and so he said, there u go... i am not really sad but i just feel like i kinda knew it all along... i don't have really good luck with guys latly. there have been a bunch of new guys in my class and all the popular girls are already dateibg them by the time they are in school for 2 days... i just feel really out of it this week... do u remember me telling u when i broke up with my boyfriend jared? i'm sure u do but i keep thinking about him all the time and i have werid dreams about him that make no sense... but if i am still haveing dreams about him it means i still love him right? i don't i am reallt confused with boys right now and school is no help to that... some days i do zone out a lot and i think about what would happen if i went back to florida and he was there, and it would just fall into place and we would run to each oither and... well u get the point... but then on other days i think like that he is so far away and we wouldn't be able to talk or see eachother at all and i think, 'why did i even think that yesterday?'... i don't know i am really confused right now. i think that if i see him again he will be either a: really mad and hurt. b: he will be totally over me. or c:... my hope is that he will still be thinking about me and we will be able to straighten things out... well that's what i am hopeing for at least. i don't think it will happen but i can still dream right?

anyways... school was okay i started with orchestra and we got a new song. then i went to gym and ran a quarter mile (again). the i went to social studies and we had a test on the states. then i went to math and i had to make up a quiz. then lunch. then we wnet back to math and started hw. then i had science which was pretty boring (that is the class i day dream most in). i had and okay day for the most part.

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