Thursday, January 28, 2010

Lovely love life? Not so much
I don't know if you can count it as a love life considering it's still in the crush stage. But there is someone who defiantly has my attention :)
And, I could be wrong, but I think I have his too.
It's very nice to have someone who can make me happy just by giving me a hug or being around me in general. ^_^


Oh, and another thing,
I have now gone to counseling for the first time :) and it was amazing. It REALLY helped me out so much. It gave me confindince and happiness for like a day and then I fell back into depression :(
But it's okay, I get to go back next week. Maybe she can help me work some more of my problems out...

ANYWAYS!

How are all of you???
(However many there are left lol)
I feel like I haven't posted in years! ha ha ha

-Angel


Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, December 25, 2009

Happy Holidays everyone!
I just realized that i didn't change my site to a Christmas/winter theme this year, lol sorry I guess I forgot.

Anyways, I just stopped by to say happy holidays ^_^


Comments (0) | Permalink

Tuesday, December 1, 2009

Okay, I know that no body reads these anymore and nobody cares,
but I'm fucking stressed and don't know where else to go.


The first person in a long time that I actually really like, someone who actually makes me feel again, who makes me happy, and hopeful, is being stolen away from me by the very "friend" I confided in about my feelings for him. What the fucking hell?
Does she not realize how much I want this? How much I fucking need this?
It's so messed up for her to do this...

And it doesn't help that my sisters have moved away, my brother hardly talks to me anymore, and all my friends are drifting away. Sure, take away the only places I feel I belong! Fuck!

One of my closest friends, someone who I truly cared for and need, has drifted away from me, and now? he has replaced me with someone else.
If there is no room for me between them, if there is no room for me in my house, if there is no room for me at school or in the band I used to love, then where the fuck am I supposed to go????
I can't be alone, I'm not like all those fucking people who claim to be so strong. No, okay? Without others, I fall deeper and deeper into depression, because my reason to live is to live for others! So if no one needs me, then why am I here? What do I do?

I'm failing at everything that I "try", but of course that's expected, seeing as I'm afraid to truly try, to truly put my all into something.
When was the last time I put my all into something???? What the hell is wrong with me?!

I'm so fucking sick of everything here!
I can't stand this anymore.

Where do I go from here?
What the hell am I supposed to do?

-Angel


Comments (0) | Permalink

Saturday, November 14, 2009

I'm such a dork for being this happy about this but still,
I found out today that I am now an Otaku Legend!!!
WOOT!


.......I really haven't added much art here have I?

lol, that's okay ^_^

That's all really today.
How are you?


-Angel


Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, October 23, 2009

:)
I finally found someone new that I really like ^_^ yayyy

I really only came here to say happy halloween to everyone (anyone? hell there's like no one here!)
See you~

-Angel
Comments (0) | Permalink

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

this site...
is sooooo quite now!!! What the hell???
Comments (0) | Permalink

Friday, September 25, 2009

Bored....
so I thought I'd say boo.

Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

la la la la la.
idk,
I'm so bored xD

Well, it's like 9:30, so I should do homework (Waahhh >_<) Bye, bye

Comments (0) | Permalink

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

this site....
Really has died huh?

Comments (0) | Permalink

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

hmmm...
Well... this sucks.
Recently, I've been very stressed out.
Lots of things are changing.
not all of it is for the better.

But that's okay.
It's just... hard.

i could list everything that's wrong, but I'd rather not.

Because I know all of that is just an excuse.
Because i honestly don't know what's wrong.
i just get hit with this sadness out of no where. One minute I'm laughing so hard I'm crying, the next I feel like I don't want to try anymore. That I don't want to do anything anymore. i just want to curl up in a ball and cry.

And yet, i refuse to give up completely.
I'll keep trying at everything. Because I know it will all work out somehow.

I guess that's it for now.

Bye-Bye
Comments (0) | Permalink