Birthday • 1993-06-30 Gender •
Female Location • Wouldn't you like to know? Member Since • 2006-11-06 Occupation • Working myself half to death in school and clubs Real Name • Willa
Personal
Achievements • I am a Simon Scholar Anime Fan Since • Since I really got into Naruto. Favorite Anime • I have many Goals • Finding and staying with people who love me for me. Hobbies • singing, playing the flute and Saxophone, and writing. Talents • being able to do homework from classes that I fall asleep in everyday xD
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Bohemain Rhapsody
This is the SFHS choir singing Bohemain Rhapsody.
It's an awesome song that was tons of fun to sing :) this was at our Spring Concert.
Filming credits go to Twili-chan. ^_^
Blood Stained Dove
No, I'm not depressed. I'm actually pretty happy right now. I wrote this poem last night after a very stressful day. Still, it's my latest poem.
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Blood Stained Dove
Why is it that life is a constant struggle?
You're always fighting for something. Fighting for your right to live, to be happy, to love.
Fighting to achieve your goals, and sore like a dove.
Only that dove is stained with blood, the blood of those you conquered to get this far.
Why is it that smiles never replace tears,
Why is it that courage never out smarts fears?
And, honestly, what is it that we've been fighting for all these years?
A reminder to breath lingers in my ears,
But it does not out scream my falling tears.
What do you do when you can not rise without another falling?
What do you do when time seems to come closer and closer.
Squeezing the life out of you as it waltzes foreword.
Never looking back.
Until finally it reaches you,
And steals your last breath.
But what do those left behind do?
Will time give an antidote to the poison it exhales?
Or will we be left to dwell here,
Near this hallow shell,
Of the person we knew so well.
10th grade.
Well, seeing as I only have about 7 days of school left, i thought I would write a little bit about my second year in high school.
Some of the good things that happened were:
1) I got the Simon Scholarship.
2) I was awarded "The most Outstanding Accompanist" at the Choir competition.
3) I don't think I had anything lower than a "C" all year, and the few times I had "C"s it was only for a little while.
4) I learned more about myself and have gotten stronger.
5) I was in a cool club and learned about media
6) I finally woke up. (this makes sense to me)
Some of the bad things that happened were:
1) I had hit my lowest point so far, had seriously considered suicide over a few months in 10th grade.
2) I lost a lot of friends.
3) My dad's health just seems to keep getting worse.
4) My closest friends had either attempted or thought of suicide.
5) A lot of things changed, most leaving me feeling alone.
Anyways, these are just the things I can think of off the top of my head. I'm sure there are more good and bad things. But yeah.
That's all for today.
bye-bee
You know what?
I'm sick of writing poems that are about how "weak" something is.
I'm tired of people going around acting like they absolutely HAVE to depend on others.
Whether they realize they do this or not, I'm not sure. But it's stupid.
I mean, I understand that once you find someone you love and trust, then you can depend on them.
But don't be surprised when they leave and you fall apart because you completely depended on them.
You're your own person,
Sooner or later everyone needs to learn to stand on their own, to support their own being and create their own happiness.
I'm sick and tried of waiting like a weak little princess for my prince to come save me.
Fuck it, I'll make a weapon and fucking kill the dragon on my own. Hell, I'll pick up a gun along the way and start shooting the damn thing.
Anyways, this wasn't really supposed to be a rant, my main point is just that life is what you make it. If you sit around and wait for someone to do something for you, you may end up waiting your whole life for something that won't happen.
Take responsibility for your own life, and your own happiness.
"The best day of your life is the one on which you decided your life is your own. No apologies or excuses. No one to lean on, rely on, or blame... It is an amazing journey and you alone are responsible for the quality of it. This is the day when your life really begins." -Bod Moawad
So I don't really have much to talk about.
I went to Texas with the band this weekend, it was awesome! I went on tons of roller coasters in Six Flags. :D Like this one called the Super Man, it was 168 feet tall and went 70 mph. It's the largest steel coaster in Texas. lol It was intense.
And the other roller coasters were similar, all crazy high and super fast.
We also went to the Tower of the Americas.
That was scary. I HATE elevators, and the elevator ride up was about 5 minutes, with one wall of the elevator being see through.
I literally ended up sitting on the floor with my eyes covered in the thing. But once I got to the top it was alright. I got lots of pictures of the view.
I also went to the Riverwalk.
That was interesting, a mall was build around the river and there were tons of restaurants along it.
Overall, the trip was a lot of fun.
(But I liked the California Trip with the choir more :P)
I guess that's it for now.
bye-bye
This is the best recording of the superman that I could find. Bear with the screaming and bumpy video. xP
How would you define yourself?
I am indecisive,
I don't hold many grudges, but the few I do hold are strong.
I am weak, and yet strong.
I am paranoid.
I am afraid of being trapped,
and of being alone.
And yet I am almost always alone,
and am trapping myself in obligations.
I hate you,
because I love you.
I want to be important to others,
but am too afraid that no matter how hard i try,
I will never be missed.
I am envious of outgoing people,
because I am shy.
I want to be different,
and yet I want to belong.
I want to be loved,
but I want to stand on my own.
I'd rather be told that the whole world hates me,
than live a lie and have them "love" me.
I want to sing on a stage, as no one other than myself.
But I don't know where to get started.
I'm a hypocrite.
Hypocrites are what I hate most.
I have been mentally preparing myself for my father's death since I was just a child.
I hate my father,
and yet I want his attention.
I miss my father,
but I would rather miss him than see him drunk.
I miss you,
but I realize I have nothing to miss.
I want to tell my story,
but who would care about it?
Naruto Movies get me excited. Gotta write about it.
Naruto Shippuuden Movie 2: Bonds.
Another adventure for Naruto and friends. Of course there is a random character that Naruto becomes friends with but never sees again, and there is an almighty boss person that he defeats by somehow getting stronger. The interesting twist in this movie though, is the return of an old character, Sasuke. Interesting movie for all those Naruto fans out there. Hell, I just liked it because Sasuke was in it. lol
Some thoughts that ran though my mind as I watched this movie were:
1) Sky Village? wtf? STOP MAKING UP VILLAGES!
2)O...M..G... FLYING NINJAS.
3) They have... boats? How isolated is Konoha? They barely have any technology!
4) Ninja's using guns and bombs? Seriously?
5) Wait Shikamaru, You've HEARD of the sky ninja? Wow.
6) WOOT! A "three-man cell" with two girls and one guy, instead of two guys and one girl. Awesome. (it's the only one heard of in Naruto)
7) Um.. creepy old guy traveling with gullible little girl. o.O petifile stasis.
8) Okay the gullible little girl is in love with the creepy old man. And of course creepy old man uses gullible little girl.
9) oh my, what a WONDERFUL medical ninja. You see a man dying and instead of healing the poor bastard you stand and wait for him to finish his speech.
10) Zero-Tail? Zero-Tail is NOT a tailed beast, seeing as it has NO TAILS. Stupid name. -_-
11) Dark chakra? aka SUPER SAIN!!!!!!!!!!!! ha ha ha ha ha. Dude! he even has like a Ka May Ah May Ah WAVE and everything! Comments (0) |
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Thursday, April 23, 2009
Not much to write about today.
I'm very tried.
It's strange, practically every day I have a headache and then I get really, really tired and fall asleep in class.
I have tons of homework, as usual, but I have zero motivation to do it. xD I'll get around to it eventually, but that usually means I'm up until 11 or 12pm.
I feel sleepy right now though, cause I just woke up from a nap. I honestly wouldn't have woken up but my mom actually got something for dinner for once, so I woke up to eat and do homework.
Reba and I are still talking and acting like friends so that's good :) I thought she would ignore me for months like last time.
I actually have some news for once.
Lets do this in a list, okay?
1st: I was accepted into the Simon Scholarship program. Woot!
2nd: I am now officially single again. But I'm happy.
3rd: I'm changing myself. I am maturing and taking responsibility for my actions. Though others probably don't see my actions as that.
4th: I know I've said this before, but I mean it this time. I'm getting a job ASAP. I can't continue to wait for my mom to do things for me.
5th: I have officially quit youth media club, as it didn't work with everything that's going on, and I also have no way to get to the new location.
6th: I have become stronger. I can stand on my own, and I know that now. I don't need to date anyone, unless I want to. I will not date anyone for any reason other than that again.
7th: Although I've moved on, I have also grown to the point in which I'd like to start my friendship anew with certain people.
8th: I am now confidently singing high notes. Yeah I know, I went from being a really low alto, to being able to sing really high soprano notes xD Crazy.
9th: I cut my hair short again. Woot!
10th: I'm happy. I know that I could be happier. But for now, I'm satisfied with just being able to smile like this.
Santa Fe high school Choir kicked ass at the competition we went to this weekend! The Woman's choir won first place and Best overall choir,the Men's choir won second place, and the Mixed choir won first! Amy got best soloist out of everyone and I got best Accompanist for my flute playing on one of the guy's songs!!!!!! Disney Land and the Ocean were amazing and I can't wait to go back to California!
