Birthday • 1993-06-30 Gender •
Female Location • Wouldn't you like to know? Member Since • 2006-11-06 Occupation • Working myself half to death in school and clubs Real Name • Willa
Personal
Achievements • I am a Simon Scholar Anime Fan Since • Since I really got into Naruto. Favorite Anime • I have many Goals • Finding and staying with people who love me for me. Hobbies • singing, playing the flute and Saxophone, and writing. Talents • being able to do homework from classes that I fall asleep in everyday xD
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Woo, Adventure
So last night I had slept over at Twili-chan's house. And today we decided to go to a Japan Festival in town :)
So we were like WEE JAPAN-NESS!
But on our way there we realized, oh hey we have no idea where the hell this thing is...
So after calling both my sister and my mom trying to get freaking directions, and still being lost, we decided to call Mr.Parrot And get directions. So we find the place and then we realized we had to park somewhere xD so we parked like 15 minutes away.
When we got back to the Festival we were there for like an hour tops and then we were like AHH Claustrophobic! And left.
We originally were like lets go somewhere in town!
Then I was like "Lets go to P-Town!" And so we went there without telling her parents (as we knew they wouldn't let us if they knew) And we were just like woo P-town!
Then it started to rain, and then the rain turned into snow and we were like SHIT! And even though it was Twili-chan's frist time driving in weather, she did well, and we lived. But instead of driving back into town, we went back to her house (which was closer) And then we were like the weather's scary can I just stay here?
And so here I am for a double sleep over :D
It's fun but I'm kind of stressing over how much homework I have to do tomorrow...
But it'll work out.
I'm heading to Disney land with the school choir next week! I can't wait. lol
Anyways, I'm bored :)
It's strange, One of my friends randomly asked if Reba and I broke up. And I was like wtf? And he said he thought that because Reba was all emo on facebook. So I'm just kind of confused.
Happy
I realized some things (how often do I say that? geez)lol I realized that it's not htat I don't feel for Reba, like I had thought before. When she had hurt me before, I had locked the feelings I had for her away in a little box in my heart. I think I knew somehow, too, which is weird. lol
Anyways, I still have my doubts about Reba.
Sense I know that a few weeks before we started dating again she had slept with Jenna.
So it's obvious that she still has feelings for Jenna. And I know Jenna still is in contact with her. I wouldn't be so worried except I know how Jenna acts, and I know that if Jenna and Reba were alone in a room Reba wouldn't resist.
So now I'm just trying to keep Jenna away. xD
I asked Reba if she was done with her and she said yes. But then Jenna texted her so... yeah.
But it's okay, because we're going strong.
She says I'm "different". ha ha ha, not that I actually believe that. But i guess it helps to unlock that box.
Nic's not very happy with me, nor I with him.
He says that I'm an idiot because I'm doing something that we both know will hurt me later on. He decided to "punish" me for it by telling someone one of my secrets. Which is why I'm not happy with him. I would never do that. Even if we became arch enemies I would still keep his secrets. Ugh. I talked to him about it and he said sorry and I told him I forgive him. But still I'm not going to tell him more of my secrets any time soon.
But yeah, despite all this, I actually am a lot happier. :) ha ha ha.
In about two weeks I'm going to Disney Land with the choir!! And then in May I'm going to San Antonio with the band! I can't wait. lol
I still have to pay for the Band one, but it'll work out some how.
This last week was my spring break xD It was a lot of fun. I hung out with friends and Reba a lot. But tomorrow it's back to school. Oh yeah!
Remember how I was thinking about doing to yale? I decided that it doesn't matter if I do or not. I mean I'll still apply and all that crap, but I think I'll go to a smaller school. :P
I don't know?
I'm kinda blah.
I'm sick right now so I'm like coughing none stop and am really out of it.
Mehhhh
I hate being sick.
Anyways, I talked it out with Nic and we sort of worked it out. So that's good. I decided to just leave things be with... well, with practically everything. xD I don't know if I'm running away from it or if I'm just letting them settle on their own. But I just have a feeling it'll work out if I let it be.
I feel like shit.
I want to let it out and talk about it,
about everything.
But that's what got me into this mess.
I only trust a few people with things,
and two of those people have told my secrets.
What's scary is that one of them did it as a way of punishing me. Because I "did something wrong" he told a secret that hurt the people around me. And hurt me in the process.
I don't know what to do anymore, honestly.
do I go back to hiding everything?
Do I just hold it all in until I snap?
I've been feeling guilty recently, but I couldn't figure out why. until just now when I realized it. It's because of my relationship with Reba.
Back when I had dated her before, I did so many things that I should have felt guilty for. But I didn't.
Because of that I thought for sure it couldn't be that, that I felt guilty about.
But there is one huge difference between now and back then. Back then i was in love with Reba, and so i never felt guilty about the bad things i did. But now, I don't love her. Not like I used to at least. Which means I'm in this relationship for the wrong reason. That's why I feel guilty.
Anyways, I'm really tired and I have to get up early tomorrow so I'm going to go. (It's 11:15pm so yeah)
Bye-Bee
confused
I'm tired...
Tired of lying to myself, and tired of being sad.
I don't know what I want anymore,
because everything I've wanted has been taken from me. I don't think I'm doing the right things, but I don't know what the "right things" are anymore.
Whenever I follow my heart and do things that I want to do, I get hurt. I'm confused as to why I even try, or why I don't try. I'm confused as to why I'm mean to certain people, but not others. And why it's easier to forgive some and not others. I'm confused as to why my life is so dull, but then once I begin to branch out I get scared and pull back.
I'm confused as to why my luck is and has always been so bad. I'm confused as to why I always feel alone both when I'm surrounded by people and when I'm in an empty room. I'm confused as to why some people affect me more than others.
I'm confused how people can claim they're civilized when they harm others.
I'm confused as to why I have no time,
and am always bored.
News?
Well, Reba and I are going out again x)
She asked me out, which is something new. ha ha ha normally I'm the one doing the asking. Anyways, that's fun. I've only told a few people so far so I haven't received much shit for it yet. But I know that once I get to school people are going to be calling me stupid left and right. But whatever. It's fine as long as I get to be with her :P
Only, I do feel a bit guilty about Nic and Tony. Cause I know how Nic feels about me and I know that Tony wants me back. So I'm just kind of like ....
But I'm happy. :) I feel that I'm growing up. I don't want to be the same as I had been, because that version of me had pissed me off a lot. I want to become someone that I can be proud of. So that I don't look back on it and think "Man, I was such an idiot!"
I am REALLY REALLY hyper. I think it has to do with the fact that I had a monster and a chocolate cookie :3 he he he he.
I guess that's it~!
Bye-Bye.
Twili-chan! If you read my posts then you should comment *pout* other wise I think no one reads them! lol
I'm bored! lol
Nothing much to talk about again today xD
I have the interview for the Simon Scholarship on Saturday. knowing me, I'm probably going to mess is up. xP But we'll see.
Language of Birds shows next week!
Omg!!! I still don't know some parts and I still need to learn that music. >.<
But I'm looking forward to it :P
Yay! I'll have my Saturdays to myself again. he he he.
So I've been considering dating Reba again.
Mostly because I had a dream about her and it reminded me of how we used to be, and I realized that I do still like her. Plus she's been saying how she misses me and stuff. So I'm thinking, why not? lol I'm just not sure though cause I'll get a lot of shit from people if I do. But whatever, if two people want to be together then it shouldn't matter what other people think :P So maybe I will.
idk, that's another wait and see type of thing.
It's bugging me, I've really wanted to talk to Nic about Reba and stuff but I'm afraid that would hurt him. Not that me dating reba wouldn't hurt him too, but... idk. Plus I already know what he would say. He'd call me an idiot and tell me not to do it. xD And I've already heard that enough times.
I guess that's it, I'm going to go get something to eat I'm starving!
