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Monday, July 6, 2009

True feelings
Have you ever seen me cry?
Heard my words, and hear my pain?

Today, I realize those aren't even the start of it..
Those feelings were true, yes,
but they were just at the surface.

No one had seen the tears that had cut straight from my past. No, because not even I had remembered them.

True sadness, the kind that makes it so you can't even stand, that you crumble to the floor completely helpless and alone.
True fear, the kind that makes you tremble so hard you can't even see straight, the kind that only sends one single to your brain: Run Away.
True Hate, the kind that makes you want to tear open every scar on a persons heart before you leave them forever. Knowing you will NEVER forgive them.

These are the feelings that I somehow blocked.
So that even if I remembered my past,
I wouldn't remember the pain and fear.
So that I could somehow forgive the woman who caused every scar and every fear that I currently carry.
These feelings that just by hearing this woman scream at us again, returned. Even though the words weren't nearly as painful, that voice brought back the memory of the scars she left, and unleashed those feelings from deep inside.

Somehow, I have hold on those feelings again.
They're back in the small box, with the lid securely fastened.

But now that I've been reminded of that dark ocean. I'm so scared to be swallowed up in them again, so scared for the next time that I drown...
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