Thursday, March 22, 2007

   supercalfragilisticexpialidocious
ickus had to write that down for me! lol...

so yeah...

um....totaly forgot what i was going to talk about

orooreo is in a dress today so i'm doing stuff in the halls to embarress her because she looks beautiful and i'm pointing it out an whisteling at her!

she forgot to make the porn star application...grrrr...

hmmm...i seriously can't remember what i was going to write about...

in case your wondering about me and matt not much has changed. he called me around 10 last night and we talked for a while. we keep doing that whole 20 questions thing i told ya'll about forever ago. we've asked like 10 million questions, its funny. so one of his questions was - were you waiting for me to kiss you? i kinda was and i told him that. i asked if he was afraid to kiss me and he said yeah kinda. because he had just gotten onto good terms with me and he didn't want to get back onto bad terms with me.

his band has a show tonight but i can't go to it =( i have to work so that sucks. russianllama is going to the show with her boyfriend so when theres this awkward pause inbetween songs she's going to yell "matt! alex loves you!" hes all happy she's going to bring him nachos! lol!

we're talking about giving blow jobs...its weird...peaches, he's totally a gay boy, gave orooreo "tips" on how to give a guy a blow job. she asked when your supposed to stop and peaches goes "it's the thunder before the rain, kayleigh, the thunder before the rain." so now we goof around and say that all the time! ^.^

i hate going into victoria secret with girls that have really big boobs because then i really feel like my boobs are small...
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   i don't love you - my chem video
ok, so yesterday i wasn't thinking much when i posted yesterday about it. i watched the video and i was going fucking nuts because gerard redyed his hair back to black and OMFG!!! its so hot in that video! i ♥ IT!!!

i remember when me and orooreo watched the video for my chem - the gohst of you we cried when mikie dies!!! T.T that made us so sad...
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Wednesday, March 21, 2007

i don't love you - my chem
OMFG!!! this is so fucking hot!!! gerard way...OMG!!! i'm going to like orgasm!!
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   april
t.A.T.u rules! i'm sitting in english watching the video for all the things she said singing along. aprils going to be coming back soon...i'm going to kill her...if i see her...i dunno what i'll do...honestly i don't know what i'm going to do!!! =(
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   meh...
i don't know why but i feel like crying...
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   I'M SO HARD CORE!!! ^.^
i'm so hard core emo that i let russianllama cut my hair in her bathtub!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
(//.^) yay!!!
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   YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! TWIZZLERS!!!
fuck jeremy just hit me in the head with a snickers....owwwww...

dan broke up with me again. he told me not to try anymore so i'm not going to. i know thats stupid but hey if it's not going to work i'm not going to waste my time trying.

so i'm sick of being in fights with people. so i called matt and we talked for like an hour or 2 last night. i will confess to ya'll that i still love him even after all he's done. we decided to hang out today before i had to go to school and he had to go to work. so basically we just drove around longmont. he drives a manual car. and he likes to make me help him shift gears. its funny. i didn't mind since he kept his hand on mine sometimes. so around 11:00 he dropped me off at my house. so we sat in his car for a few minutes just looking at eachother. so he goes i'll walk you to your door ^.^ so we just stood in the driveway being dorks as usual. he gave me a hug and then stayed close to me. so we were just being dorks. he pushed his forhead up against mine and kept looking at me. i giggled and said hi. he kept hugging me which i didn't mind. so matt said he had to go and hugged me again and then he just stood there again. then he just kissed me!!! AHHH!!! ^.^ i was shaking badly for the next few minutes. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
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Monday, March 19, 2007

   so yeah...
ok, so i left off at dan broke up with me right? -people nodd- ok!

so we got into that fight and it was really bad. sometimes the way i act pushes him further and further away from me! and i don't want that at all! =(

so i walked home and felt like crap and i hated myself. he stopped texting me around 6:38 and that made me sad but i figured he's misplaced his phone as always. so i didn't really complain, i just cried my eyes out because i lost him... =( i thought about doing what orooreo tried to do...drink it all away...but my mom would notice alcohol gone and i told everyone i wasn't going to cut...i'm so proud of myself i didn't cut at all...

so saturday i wasn't thinking clearly at all and i accidentally really stupidly gave dan's cell phone number to val! she started texting him and bitching him out for not talking to me! =( he chose then to find his god damn phone and of course her texts are the first ones he got! so he calls me and we get into it and it gets so bad that i hung up on him!!! -hangs head- (GOD the video for from yesterday by 30 seconds to mars is so fucking long...13 minutes!!! they're so hot though...) he called val and they got into it and she hung up on him too! so he turned his phone off =( so i tried calling and calling but he turned it off and it went straight to his voice mail.

i called and left 10 i repeat 10 voicemails, each at least 2 minutes long, and 2 were over 5 minutes long. i apologized and talked and told him things i needed to let him know. in the last one i told him that i was going to go "to sleep" now and that i would call him back again on my break at work the next morning. so the next morning i called back and it rang!! so i hung up!-hangs head yet again- i've never fought so hard for someone in my life. i told him that in voicemails. i told him that i'm fighting for what i want. (the lead singer for the plain white te's is hot too...)(the lead singer for relient k looks like elijah wood...kinky...) so i texted him and asked if he'd listen to his messages yet and he goes 'yeah all ten of them' i blushed and we're ok now. he came to school today during lunch and i made sure that i also paid attention to him. he told me that all i had to do to get his attention on friday was hold out a hand and he would have gladly taken it and sat next to me. i didn't know that, but i wish i had known that. he wouldn't let me go anywhere at lunch and i didn't mind. its a good thing val's out sick, they might have killed eachother...
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   . . . s o t i r e d . . .
so tired...want to sleep...

ok so me and dan are fine. we got into it really bad on friday, so bad that hebroke up with me. but i've gotta go so i'll tell ya'll tomorrow, we goofed off too much in chem today...
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   - hurls in the corner -
EWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! OMG!!! austin just stuck one of those peel away twizzlers up his nose and THEN HE ATE IT!!!! EWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!! it was soo gross me and kayleigh almost PUKED!!! OMG!!! that was so wrong i am so scared for life...
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