Saturday, February 17, 2007

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i hate valentines day...nothing ever ever goes right for me! okay so i got stuff for masha and kayleigh and alex for valentines day but no one else. dan hadnt' talked to me in about a week and i figured it was his way of telling me he wasn't interested anymore so i texted him one last time and said that i was done trying to figure out what was up and bye. so he texts me back at 3:40 AM!!! freaking AM!!! and says that his phone had been dead and he hadn't been able to find it and that he was sorry and he promised that i would see him on valentines day(later that day). so aldo asked me out, AGAIN!!! and this time there were a dozen roses on top of my bass clarinet case which i there for had to carry around school ALL day and i didn't want them!!! so i got home then had to go work. so when i get to work and am waiting to clock in i text dan and tell him i don't know when it is he's planning on coming to see me since i'm at work until late. so we got into a fight. i was stupid and a bitch. so the fight grew and grew and grew. it's still going on right now actually. but anyways! so after i got home from and him breaking his promise by not coming to see me i was pissed. we kept getting into it, he was trying to back off and not fight but i was ticked and kept picking at him. i hung up on him 3 times and he told me that all texts from me are on auto delete until i can call him and talk civally like a cival person. i was crazy that night, i acted so stupid. i cried myself to sleep. so i tried calling him twice the next day but he didn't pick up either time so the last time i left a voice mail and tried to apologize. but he still didn't call back so after i got done seeing your a good man charlie brown at school i called him again and apologized yet again on a voice mail. i'm starting to get mad, i don't want to be. i don't want to be fighting with dan! so the day after valentines day i'm waiting for my mom to pull her car out of the garage to take me to school and see new foot prints in the snow leading to the door that weren't there before. so i follow and find a rose from matt...with a note attatched that says he's sorry and still loves me...ugh!!! i don't need the freaking drama!!! so i've got to deal with him and deal with the dissapointment of most likely losing dan as a friend and love! silvia's right, i should just lay off on guys for a while and go lesbian for a while. not that there's anyone in school i'd be interested in besides silvy. oy...i want barbie girl to start going off...dan's ring tone...naruto's about to start so i'll let ya'll go...
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