Tuesday, February 27, 2007

   . . . g a y b o y s . . . d r a m a . . .
sometimes i hate having gay boys as my best friends . . . especially when they were a couple but broke up but still have feelings for each other!!!

so me and alex are in this huge fight and i hate it . . .

last night i was talking to james and he was really upset that alex hasn't called him or talked to him in forever. so i called alex and of course as usual he didn't answer his g.d. cell phone! so i left a voicemail telling him to call james or talk to him soon because james was really feeling like alex didn't care about him anymore. so i continued talking to james and he said something that almost made me cry. he told me that he wishes he'd succeeded in killing himself the other week!!! and he said he really wanted to cut right now . . . so i pleaded with him to please please please not cut, to do it for me and he said he wouldn't cut so i was releaved. but i called alex again and yet again he didn't answer so i left a voicemail telling him what james had said and asked him again to call james or talk to him. james texted me a little later and said alex called him and when i asked what alex said he said nothing i didn't answer. he wouldn't tell me why but soon enough alex called me. so he starts ranting and raving about whats going on. he said james probably didn't answer because he was crying and that next james will cut and then alex will get mad and cry too. so i told him that james had said he won't cut because i asked him not to and ALEX FREAKING FLIPPED OUT ON ME!!! he started bitching me out! saying things that really hurt. he said me and james should go off and get married because i can get him to not cut and all that and i got so hurt and upset and mad that i hung up on him . . . i really don't like him right now! he was so mean! all i'm trying to do is help 2 of my best friends and my absolute best friend in the world bitches me out and basically says that i have no right talking to james! T.T

in 3rd he sat all the way accross the room from me and wouldn't even look at me . . . i'm still really sad and upset and hurt . . . he called me last night again but i didn't answer the phone. he apologized for freaking out and for saying all those things but i'm still fucking hurt! what did i do to get him to bitch me out simply for trying to help . . .

T.T blonde
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