Sunday, April 30, 2006

	Alright this is how it's going to work. lol. I'll put the story chapters up first, and then I will put in a post. I know i'm running behind schedule but, eh. *shrugs* I got kicked off the other day by my mom, that's why I couldn't visit people. Sorry guys. CHAPTER 1 "Trinah," I whispered into the heavy silence that surrounded me, "Trinah of the blank abyss." I took a few shriveled, scab red rose petals and sprinkled them unto the the pure, clear lake of the blank abyss. Only the rose petals and lake weren't there. The were gone, or had never been there to begin with. It had been a long time since I had visited here, and I had forgotten how utterly big and lonely the blank abyss could be. What, with its colorless, and endless white vastness, and sense of pity when you realized that even its owner would not care for it. That owner being me. I am Trinah, although there need be no need for introduction. I just would like to let you know that you are in my world, my thinking place, my abyss. This place, this range of total whiteness that betrays all color, belongs to me, and I feel no regrets for it, either. I had created this abyss when I was but a child. Heh, and lookng back on it now, I don't even think child is the proper word for what I was. More like the empty shell of one. I was only a nine year old raven haired, very dark brown eyed, skinny, pale nothing. I showed no emotion. Why should I have? It was all meaningless in the end, anyway. That's what you get when you move your daughter to a new house, and a new school; leaving her at the mercy of her fellow peers. In fact, I guess it might have been their neglect that sent me over the deep end into creating the blank abyss. You know, as a way of getting out of this reality, this Earth, where my spirit could find nothing but emotional treuma. Since, because of them, I did my best to hide my true self behind that lump of flesh that I called my body, a way had to be created for me to release all the anger I harbored at such a young age. So, as mentioned, the blank abyss had been created, as a place to unwind, if you will, to let it all out. In howls of anger, pain, sorrow, maons, and sobs. Sometimes the whole place would be quivering and quaking, almost roaring in anguish itself, in spite of me. On the other hand, I would also go there for answers. I would just lie down, and stare up at the thick, blank, spotless white walls of my own beloved world, and be lost to everything, but my hopes for the future. If it seemed bad, don't assume it got worse, for it did get better when I turned ten. For, that is when I met my friend Aamiya. Don't ask me how Aamiya and I happened to become friends, for I cannot entirely answer that myself, but we became friends no less. And as if someone had turned on the lights in a very dark room, the world became a much brighter place for me. Which is to say that after awhile, with a lot of urging from Aamiya, I became very obliged to show and talk about how I actually felt. Also not to mention that I then stood up for myself against the criticisms of preps, really dressy, know-it-all snobs that try to kill anything alien to their groups like pesticides to insects. But to the point, as any sensible person would hopefully guess, I gradually stopped visting my world, until I needed it not. I found that I simply had nothing to "let go" of anymore, but everything to hold on to, you see. So, along with everything else, including who I was the past year, the blank abyss became a memory in the past. I memory I was sure I would never have to revisit. But you know? I was terribly wrong. Chapter 2 But I still have a lot to tell you before I can get to that part, so I suppose I had better start from the beginning. The very beginning. I am Trinah. Not Trinah of the blank abyss, for that has long since been forgotten, but just your average 15 yr. old girl. I'll let you in on a little secret though, I'm not who I used to be. Truth be told, as Aamiya and I's friendship together continued, I could literally feel the giant imprint that her hope, happiness, and love was slowly leaving on me ... and it changed me. Mentally, I am now rather bright, and can face any situation with a positive attitude; making me quite a few more friends compared to my usual lack of them. But I suppose your now wondering why I would even go back to the Blank Abyss if my life became so peachy and all. Really, though, the reason is quite simple and easy to understand. Truth be told, I was on my way back not because of any recent depression, but because of some strange recent events that were taking place in my mind. Don't get me wrong, I wasn't going insane, but as soon as the school year started, I discovered that some pretty strange thoughts were popping up into my head. Such as, in my latest English class, a theory telling me that it would be an extremely good idea to start to prepare for a shower in 3rd period. Of course, I was able to push these memories back to the back of my mind, but that didn't stop them from happening. Eventually, I got so tired of them that I spent a whole class period trying to figure out what was going on. At first, I had a theory that I was over working myself, but then I remembered the blank walls of my abyss, and started to rethink it. Unfortunately for me, however, by the time the class period was done, I had no leads and decided to go to Aamiya for help. Yeah, big mistake. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ I am so sorry it is so long. Post Yeah, not much to say. lol. So I'll start with this. I am sorry that I did not get to visit people today, or post yesterday, but my mom needed the computer because she has college and needs the internet and stuff. *shrugs* don't ask me, I really couldn't tell you even if you wanted to know. All I know is she needs the computer. Alas, I was a SesshysBride2Be's house ALL day. lol. While she played Kingdom Hearts, I took naps. Then, when we went outside, someone (who happens to be scared of me cuz I used to chase him around last year cuz he likes to insult people) All her a fat >BEEP<, so I chased him again. He was like "Oh, >BEEP<" and took off. I was like "You better tow it, boy!!" It was hilarious. lol. and that was random. ^^ Anyways, how are you guys? I hope well. Have a wonderful day everyone!

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