Monday, August 7, 2006

relaxed...

Im feeling a bit better. A few friends have stepped up saying they'll try to help me get the hotel room. I feel bad, cause I dont want them to have to worry. I guess I just like to spoil my friends. You'll never believe my next dilemma though. I need a specific costume. Me and my friend Shayla(who will have a My Otaku account soon. She needs my help to set it up) have decided to cosplay Arisa Uotani (shayla) and Saki Hanajima (me) from Fruits Basket. Sadly we're missing someone to cosplay Tohru. We're trying to find someone but Sutarumahari wont do it, and I dont know how "cosplay crazy" Liquidsilver and Delphine are. However currently, we dont even know how we're going to be able to get the costumes. We're trying to find cosplay websites that sell them, so far they only have Tohru's and if you haven't noticed Uo and Saki's skirts are different lengths than Tohru's. The top we could use, but not the bottom. We thought about going to a thrift store and getting clothes to tear apart and re-sew into the costume, but they wouldn't look very similar. Worst case scenario(which is probably our only chance) is to go to the store, buy fabric, and make it all from scratch. I personally dont think we have time to do that with school approaching fast. Here's to hoping we figure something out! Later...
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Sunday, August 6, 2006

Hmph!

OK, so lately, my sister has been pissing me off with her constant domination over the office computer. I mean, mine's broken so its the only comp I can use. However, my step dad says that business comes first, and my sister said she stays up until midnight doing things for the business. I first of all think, "Bullshit!" She probably spends half that time on MySpace. So then I was asking my stepfather if he could give me more jobs in the business, since they were originally promised to me. He said he gives jobs depending on skills. And what does he think my skill is? Cutting out our coupons. It angers me that he thinks I have no computer know how. Do I know how to do an excel chart? Yes! Can I design logos on the computer? Yes! I was angry that when asked about cutting out the coupons, I said I wasn't good with my hands and that I'd prefer not to do it and thats when my sister says the smart ass remark of, "Well then I'll take that job too." She thinks she's so great. I wish I could out do her...maybe if I wrote my novels, yet my first one, Blood Wolf, is still missing. Its when I have time to sit bored, that I seriously question my life, and it, well, isn't good for me. However my parents enjoy being bored because they are always busy, they dont know how much it screws me up. Im not even going to mention the encounter with a stranger yesterday, during my picnic with Sutarumahari, Liquidsilver, and Delphine. Also the more Im bored, I have time to get nervous about upcoming things. Registration is in two days, and I dont look forward to it. I never look forward to getting my picture taken, but I have a better reason. You see, when you go, you usually have to update medical info. Me, I was supposed to get a shot about a year ago. Im afraid that they found out. I hate shots more than anything, doctors fall right below them. The only thing I can look forward to is staying at my friend's on Tuesday, the same day as registration. Oh, did I mention that if my brother takes me to registration, I have to sit from 8 a.m. until 4 p.m. because he has band camp. My mom wants me to call my dad and ask him to take me so then he can take me home after registration. Im afraid to ,though, what if my dad finds out I need a shot?...Ok, I need to stop talking. Im getting too scared and I dont want it to lead to another nervous breakdown. Im sure it hurts me more than anyone else. When it happens everything bad just plagues my head, and no matter what, I wont stop screaming. I'll be rolled up crying on the floor, and its definately not a condition I want my school to find out about. And then considering the hotel room for the anime convention, I might not be able to get it. I tried to ask more on it with my mom. She asked me if the people going would be helping me pay for the hotel room. I lied and said, "Yeah." Now, I dont know how Im going to get out of this one. My mom supervises my money, she'll know if Im paying for it all. Unless, each friend can dish out $20 bucks, Im afraid my NDK plans are ruined. Oh, well, it was a good try. Better luck next year...
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Thursday, August 3, 2006

Grr...

My computer has broken down recently, so Im using the office computer. My previous problems have pretty much been sorted out. My mom said she'd be willing to drive me to the convention, like she would any previous year. Plus, she hinted that she'd be willing to get me hotal room to share with up to 5 friends, only because the max allowed per room is 6 people. Im doing good and am hoping everything comes together. On the worse side, my school's anime and gaming club president is really putting the pressure on me. He wants me to do so many things, yet when I give suggestions, he shoots them down. Its not any better that he cant help by telling me where I can improve. So, yeah, I have all that to worry about. Oh, and my family has finally been able to buy plane tickets for my Mom's upcoming wedding. So I am officially going to Mexico during Thanksgiving. Thats right, we dont have turkey down there, we have lobster and shrimp, so give thanks! Also, my dad slipped some info to my mom when he came to drop off the child support. He said that as soon as he gets back on his feet, which means when he finally gets a job again, he's going to make it permanent with his girlfriend. I of course was dumbfounded when my mom told me. She doesn't know if she was supposed to tell me though, but I think I would have thought ill of my father had he informed us at the last second. So Im all, "Whoa," I mean dont get me wrong, I want my dad to be happy, but I honestly never really expected to have a stepmother...Im not really used to her, and the thought of having to get used to her for the rest of my life is unnerving. Not only that, but shes a teacher. I dont get along well with teachers or older woman, my mom and grandma are the only exeptions. I mean, should my siblings have children they'll have to call her "grandma" too, but she'll never be the grandma. I mean, I enjoy the idea of my mom marrying my soon to be step dad, because I like him. I guess I just get along more woth guys. So In short I'd have to say, that the day I call my mother's fiance my step dad will be the happiest day of my life. The day I have to call my dad's girlfriend my step mom will be the most horrifying, but I guess I'll live through it...hopefully...
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Friday, July 28, 2006

Hmm...

I seem to have a bit of a dilemma. Ok, Colorado's one and only anime convention is quickly approaching. I, I believe, am paying for a friend as well as myself to get in, which is a total of $80. Where Im going to get that money, I have no idea. I guess I got myself deeper than I can handle. The most brainracking part, is I dont know how Im getting there, much less anyone else. I wont be able to drive like I planned, because I haven't done my driving hours. I guess Im not worth it to lie like my brother. Anyways, and even if I had been able to drive, I couldn't have anyone in the car with me. All because of the new stupid laws of Colorado! I need to figure it out soon, but then again, thats not the only problem. I also need to find out where we will be staying. I originally had plans to try and get my friend living near it to let us stay at her place. I realize now that it would be crowded, and I haven't been able to get a hold of her since she no longer has internet. A hotel room at the convention would cost $136. Now first off, I dont see how we'd get that kind of money, especially seeing as I have to pay for my friend. However, even if we did, we're not old enough to get a hotel room. Im starting to freak out! The deadline for the registration is cutting too close and I need to make sure everything works before I get the passes. I mean whats the point in getting them if you have no place to stay all weekend, seeing as Im sure none of our parents want to drive us to a place an hour away for 3 days straight and back. Ugh, disorganization bothers the hell out of me!...
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Monday, July 24, 2006

Bored...

I seriously screwed up my sleeping schedule, but anyways, I neglected to comment on our recent movie night on Thursday. I admit, it was more fun than we had at my house because me, Suatarumahari, and Liquidsilver were unsupervised at Sutarumahari's house. We burned chopsticks and made charcoal with them, drawing on paper. Also we crushed up some charcoal and added water to make ink. Plus I grabbed leaves from outside and crushed them to make green ink. It stained my fingers and has yet to go away. We did,however, decide to drink a little of our green ink...well, I just dabbed my finger in and licked it. Sutarumahari actually took a sip. When I first arrived we had attempted to watch "A History of Violence." One word, boring! We just had to shut it off after the stair sex scene, whoops I spoiled it. Nonetheless, we eventually got into "The Exorcism of Emily Rose." I didn't understand half the damn movie, but I perservered. I'll never look at 3 a.m. the same again...And then we started to get into some of my fanfictions from a few years ago. Eventually we decided to do an anime broadcast show, which is similar to old radio shows seeing as ours has a story, so its plain voice acting. I dont know if Sutarumahari's gotten the broadcasts up and running, but if not, they should be up soon. Much to our fun spoiling, Liquidsilver did not want to do a voice in the show, so we settled for having her do our sound effects. Now by this time it was already morning around 9 a.m. And I couldn't go to sleep yet. You see, I wanted to go to see Clerks 2 with my brother and sister around noon, plus we needed to clean the house. So I called my siblings then to come and get me. Little did I know they wouldn't actually come for 2 1/2 hours. I dozed for like 30 minutes, but then was woken by my cellphone ringing. I dont quite remember when Liquidsilver departed, but Im sure it was when I was dozing off. Then I finally get picked up and Im thinking, "Now I just have to get through the movie and then I can go home and sleep." Little did I know we were going to go to Wendy's to eat afterwards for a good hour. I mean I was dieing for sleep. Finally we go home, Im out before I reach my bed. Im desperately trying to crawl onto my mattress. Only about half my body makes it, but atleast I slept. By the way Clerks 2 is awesome! Everyone should see it who is not easily offended. Ok, so after Friday, came Saturday, obviously, DUH! And my family decided to go to the Renaissance festival. We were delayed for an hour, so we didn't quite get there early. Which means we had to wait an extra hour in traffic on the highway. It was fun, though, to watch stupid idiots in cars, drive over grass medians to get on side roads to go faster. A lot of them almost got in accidents. And sadly after awhile me and my family were rearing to see one happen. There was especially this PT cruiser that wouldn't move up in the waiting line for the exit fast enough. So people kept cutting in and putting us further back in the line. We were about to kill them. Then we started developing cabin fever to the point that my brother wanted to blast rock music on the radio and dance to it out in the truck bed. Luckily he refrained. Anyways finally at the festival. You wouldn't believe how far away we had to park! First thing we do? Look for food. I got a teriyaki chicken sandwich, which I later regretted since I found out that they had Yakitori chicken at the international booth. I was like, "Son of a bitch!" I let it go, though. I finally found this stamped medallions store that I'd always look for there. You choose whether you want a bronze, silver, or gold metal. Price obviously going up with each. Then you choose what two pictures you want, one on each side(they had quite a selection). After you choose and give them the money, they stamp it right in front of you on Davinci's press machine. They make it especially for you, so its exciting! I chose a bronze medallion with a wolf on one side and a phoenix on the other. The phoenix obviously symbolizing death and rebirth and the wolf symbolizing loyalty to clan. Anyways, it was $15 and I adore it. We saw the parade go by, and we saw captain Jack Sparrow riding an elephant in it. They Supposedly had a Jack Sparrow look-alike contest at the Puke and Snot(funny guys!) Pirate Stage, but we missed it T_T. We also saw The Ded Bob Sho(yes, thats how its spelled.)He's a comedian skeleton puppet, we had a lot of fun watching him. Then I saw these neat dragon shoulder puppets that people had. And I wanted one really bad! So we searched all over for them, finally finding them after an hour search. To my dismay the cool ones were $75 and up! I found one that I liked. It didn't look completely evil, but it didn't have the such innocent eyes that it was creepy. It was right in the middle, Perfect!(I named him Apocolypse, by the way) However, it was $99, luckily my mom had her credit card with her, but she said it was coming out of my next month pay for helping fold papers. Luckily Im doing overtime to earn $200 this month, but it'll be only $100 now because of the puppet. I dont mind though. If it had only been my usual $100 a month, I probably would have been too greedy to let all my money go, but Im good now. Then, before leaving, I started craving the roasted almonds with caramel. So I bought a small pack of them. They were so good! Then We left, I once again just wanted to sleep, but they were thinking of stopping at some place to eat. I of course didn't want to. Thankfully they decided to go home first and then get food. So we did, and I passed out on my bed as soon as we made it back again. They got Subway sandwiches and I have yet to eat mine. Also me, my brother, and my sister have decided to dress as pirates to next year's Renaissance festival. I figured "why not? Theres some costumed people that dont quite belong there." There were actually three Jedi costumers who really stood out O_o It was wierd. Oh, and we saw someone dressed as Captain Morgan and we were all like, "Can you give us some free rum?" Anyways, thats my three eventful days in a nutshell. Im supposedly meeting some friends this thursday to discuss our highschool anime club. Sadly, I dont put as much effort into that club as I do my Statewide and beyond club. Oh, and also me and my family are going to go camping next weekend at Bear Lake. Never been there before, but my mom says she'll buy me a fishing license, so I can fish and keep occupied. Im not exactly a hiker and there doesn't seem to be anything else to do. What a shame that you have to actually get reservations to camp in such a boring place. I might just have to get a new gameboy game to play to keep busy...Wow, this was a long update. Oh, well, Im done now. Later...
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Thursday, July 20, 2006

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Im not in a good mood. I recently decided to design my site with pictures for my novel. I then thought that I could start getting people to read it. However, to my dismay, Ive searched everywhere and cannot seem to find my precious story. I literally tore apart my room, couldn't find it. I checked the office which is one of the last places I remember having it. It wasn't there. I seem to recall having it in my backpack when I would go places. I dont know whether it was at my dad's or my friend Shayla's that I had it, but Im hoping it was my dad's. That novel is more valuable than my life. What good are the sequels if I dont have the origanal? So as you can see, Im very down about it. Unfortunately Im no longer looking forward to tonights movie night. I dont feel like I can enjoy myself when my future's been lost. I'll try to call my dad and see if its there, if not, I hate to say it, but I'd have no reason to live. Even when I lost it at school with a notebook, I knew that if I didn't find it, I was going to drop out of school. I fortunately found it, but now that its happened again, if I left it someplace that it most likely is gone forever(no offense to my friend Shayla if its there, but with all her siblings, I dont think it would survive)I just dont think I could be the same. Im sorry to be such a sad annoyance, but it truly was precious to me.
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Yay!...

I feel special, since Ive definately gained more friends now that Ive actually taken the time to concentrate on My Otaku. I'll definately try to stay consistent. However, if you talk to the fans who read my fanfiction, they'd tell you that theres a snowball's chance in hell that I'll update within the month. Its easier to update this, though. Writing takes lots of thought, a simple update of how my day will go, is going, or has gone, barely needs any thought. Unless you have short term memory. Ah, nonetheless, movie night is tonight. Couldn't be more excited! I mean, Ive been getting very busy lately, yet the days in between different "events" can lag on forever. Also, I wanna know whats up with everyone calling me skinny. Im as fat as I've always been. On Saturday my great aunt said I got so skinny that she wouldn't recognize me if she saw me on the street. And then yesterday, we went to get my brother, since him and my dad had just gotten back from Illinois, and the first thing my dad says to me is, "Wow, you're skinny." and my brothers all like, "Holy crap!" Thats when my brother started poking my belly and continued reciting, "Im really fat now compared to her." I seriously was like, "WTF?! You've only been gone for a week. theres no way I lost enough noticable weight in that time. And then this morning while I was helping fold papers, I was talking to my mom about it and my future step-father was like,"As long as Ive known you, you definately were your fattest in middle school." And I remember cause I gave him a suspicious glare and was like, "So now the truth comes out..." *sigh* anyways, I'll guess I'll stop talking about how fat I am and how I think my family is all on weed for seeing me as skinny. Which is wierd cause my uncle does drugs and he says Im as big as a house. Ugh, WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!?......
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Wednesday, July 19, 2006

Hmm...

Short update for today. Ive realized that Ive never really responded to many people who have signed my guestbook. Only because Ive never spent a whole lot of time on my site. So, Im bored, I have nothing else to do, so I figured I'd try to get around to the sum 17 people. So if you've signed my guestbook, Im making the rounds to comment, guestbooks, and add friends. Later...
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Tuesday, July 18, 2006

Its late...

Yeah, its after midnight, but in any case I just woke up. I forgot to change my status to away on MSN Messenger and so two of my friends had attempted to talk to me thinking I was on. Well, I finally got up to see that they are no longer on, which makes me feel bad, since one was Shayla, who doesn't get on much to talk to us in the first place. She had asked if I wanted to hang out tomorrow, but since I missed her Im pretty much screwed. Lately Ive been spending all waking hours replaying my game "Radiata Stories" Im playing a different path. You see eventually towards the middle of the game, you have to choose whether to go the Human or non-human path. When I first got the game, I played the non-human path. It was the right thing to do considering I was a human and the rest of my kind were being assholes and started the war. SO I got through that, but then now, over half a year later when I decide to play it again, I chose the other path. Eventhough, I really didn't want too, I knew I had to do it to see how that side would end. I felt bad doing it the whole time. First I was doing the right thing by fighting the assholes and now I am the assholes. I would hope that through this torture I would find a happier ending. You see the first ending..........(if you are playing or are going to play this game, dont read this for it gives away the ending of the non-human path, I'll say when spoilers are over).........It ends with the main character, Jack Russell, getting the girl, Ridley. Whether they are just good friends or something more is unclear currently. So you'd think, "happy ending", right? WRONG! Jack may have been spared for helping the non-humans, but for the cosmic order to become balanced again, all humans must perish. Its a balance that is upheld by dragons. there are two in particular. The gold dragon and the silver dragon. When one dragon is awake the other sleeps. This happens at an interval for about several centuries. Currently it is the silver dragons reign. Then, when they believe humankind will destroy the world its time to switch, and when the gold dragon wakes up it will slaughter all of man kind, supposedly refreshing the world. I admit, as I was playing the human path, I learned it was also a fairly reasonable cause. You see the silver dragon, who is currently awake, favors us humans. He's trying to stop the gold dragon from awakening so that we may live on. He believes that it should be unsure whether or not humans will doom the world, seeing as they have never been given the chance to live on. I felt like it was kind of right, It was unfair. When the world is refreshed, its humans who suffer. Dragons never die, they just go into a deep slumber for a while if defeated. So the dragons dont suffer. The elves live on by transpiritation, Im sure the other fairy-creatures are immortal as well. So you think, its the immortals and us, we've got the short end of the stick, and you begin to feel a bit selfish. In the non-human ending, Jack lived and got Ridley, however Ridley was the new vessel for the gold dragon. And fighting with the non-humans, I helped them allow the silver and gold dragons swap. Therefore, all other humans died the moment I defeated the silver dragon and Ridley inherited the gold dragon. Mothers, children, everyone. I feel kind of bad, all he had was the care he had for Ridley. His sister, his human friends were all gone. So Im hoping, by taking the human path, I may get a better ending. I may be able to defy fate and allow all those human mothers, children and everyone else to live. He may lose Ridley though, but there are plenty of other girls that strike his fancy. One in particular who I think likes him, Flora. So I guess in this case its more of a "survival of the species" more than a "follow your heart." I guess I'll know the ending in a day or so, seeing how Im getting close to the same time it took me to complete the non-human path..................(Spoiling is done if you care.) So yeah, thats about it, Im looking forward to our next movie night in two days. Im also excited that my brother comes home on wednesday. I may act like I hate him, but I love him just the same because we share similar interests and are close in age. He went to Illinois with my dad to visit my grandparents and for the family reunion, I think. However, my mothers side of the family had a big get together on Saturday, we took official family photos, but my brother was missing. What could you say? For him it was a choice between families, Seeing as my parents are divorced it would make a big impact who he'd choose. Me, when my dad asked if I was going to Illinois, I said no. He kinda got mad, but I made my choice. I admit, I prefer my mother's fun-loving family over my dad's all Christian family. My dad's family nags me for not being girly and tries to censor what I do. My mom's family accepts me for who I am and prefers that to celebrate, I have a Corona with them. (Not that I like it, alcohol is gross) I definately love being half mexican more than I do half Irish. Hmm...What else? Oh! This coming Saturday, my family wants to go to the Renaissance(dont know if its spelled right) festival. I like it there, though usually after walking a certain distance I would start complaining that I was tired. I think I'll be ok this time though. And I have my own money to spend,YAY! And then the weekend after that my family wants to go camping. Whether we go to the Sand Dunes or Bear Lake, depends on whether or not my sister gets work off to go. Well thats all the updates I have, I think. Later...
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Sunday, July 9, 2006

Yo...

Ok, the fun is over. My friends have come and gone from my house. Man, we were up late! As soon as they arrived...well we talked, and then we went and played the Naruto game for gamecube(I kicked ass!), and the gamecube Beyblade game(So what, I like Beyblade, deal with it!) Ok, and then it finally got dark enough to start our scary movie showings. So we started off with "Fangoria blood drive 2." It was a bunch of short horror films. However, the first film was scary, then as the other short films progressed, they were, for lack of a better word, stupid! So once we snored through that, we watched "When a stranger calls"(I also had rented "Dark Water" but Sutarumahari and Liquidsilver had already seen it, so we didn't watch it. I'll watch it by myself in a little bit)Anyways, "when a stranger calls" is a very good suspense horror film. Only, you'll be screaming at her what she did wrong. Ok, so we got through that and moved on to "Death Tunnel." The movie was kind of the same concept as "house on haunted hill" only this was based on true events and filmed at THE haunted Waverly Hills Sanitorium. I didn't catch all of the movie because it was 2 in the morning and I had to help fold newspapers. I'll probably watch it again in a little bit. So once we were done with all the movies we went to my computer and watched anime convention videos. That eventually led me to show them MY anime convention footage(In which I did some REALLY stupid things). Now, by this time it was already about 7 in the morning, so we finally decided to go out to the tent, that my stepfather had so graciously put up for us. He would have been angry, if he put it up for no reason, in the pouring rain, no less. So, yeah, we went out to the tent and went to sleep. About 5 hours later, I wake up, and Liquidsilver is already gone. I feel bad for not saying goodbye, but I didn't hear anything. Also by the time I wake up, Sutarumahari has already called her mom to come get her. Shortly after, she's gone. And thats when I realize I have to clean up all the blankets and junk in the tent. Even better, it had started raining again. So I made a good 4 trips from the tent to the house, to get everything inside, but, alas, I finally got it empty. I put the blankets away for cleaning later and I stored any extra snacks/drinks in the kitchen. I think Im good now. I think, if I have a scary movie night again, we're going to watch classic/old horror flicks. Maybe, we'll even stay inside next time, no tent. Though we were going to print off scary stories and read them in the tent, we never really got around to it. Oh, well, better saved for next time, if there is a next time...
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