Sunday, October 2, 2005

Yawn...

Sorry,
I haven't updated in a while. As soon as I came back from the Colorado convention, school hit me hard with work. I miss the convention so badly. I have to wait another year to go again. HOwever this time I am going to pre-register earlier so that Its cheaper to go all weekend. Also I recently finished the game Boktai. I'm so sad about it. I'mm officially out of any more games to play and beat. I dont have any money to spend on new games. This year sucks. Oh, and If I can find a job, which hopefully I have a few friends working on, I will buy tickets to the next Colorado convention for three friends at my school. Four if my friend in Lakewood complains. So I'll need to raise 100-125$ before october 31. That is if I am capable of paying for my friends. I want to try and pre-register while its still only 25$ to go all weekend. Moving on, my mother has aloud me to have a ANIME PARTY! Over the weekend of course. We're going to watch anime all night. Its something I've always wanted to do, but I never found anime friends until this year. I'm hoping they all can attend. Well the friend in Lakewood is a little far away. Still I'm hoping to have a great time. Its strange that all I have to do is ask and My mother will let me have a party. I wonder if its because I'm more like her than my brother and sister. And in a way we rely on eachother. I'm the oly one that undertands thaat my mother does'nt like to be alone. THats why I've lived with her since my parents got divorced. Except for the second half of 5th grade. Which I still regret. The loveland school I had once loved, I began to hate. I decided to skip school since no one was home by the time I was supposed leave for school. I was caught, my mother understood when she found out four days later. However my father wouldn't let me off so easily. The day he found out, I dreaded him coming home. And when he did, that was officially when my case of depression started. He yelled so loud at me which is the one thing I hate. For a few days he sent me e-mails. One however was branded in my memory. It specifically said, "this is one of the things you are going to regret in your short life."My brother and sister think I interrpreted it wrong, but I think i got the write. I also found out that my father dislikes me more, just because I'm a lot like my mother. As soon as 5th grade was over I moved back with my mother. It was then that she told me something honest. She said that after her and my father divorced she was atleast hoping to have all three of us live with her. I felt guilty then, and I never wanted to leave her again. As for my father, I rarely see him. To be honest I'm scared of him. My brother and sister always criticize me for not wanting to see my father, but I think its for the best. Now My mom has a fiance. He's everything I've ever wanted in a father. So I can't wait until he becomes my step dad. Oh, sorry I got carried away. I didn''t need to bore you with my life story. None the less, see ya later.
Comments (0)